All those fears you're going to have to work through and face. That's YEARS of tripping and integration work right there.
Buckle in, it's gonna be one hell of a ride.
Too much? You haven't even begun yet.

Omniscience isn't what people imagine it is.
Omniscience isn't about knowing your mom's thoughts, it's about realizing that your mom is your thought and her thoughts are just more of your own thoughts about your own thoughts.

There are healthy and unhealthy ways. Depends on how you do it.
If you take 10g of mushrooms, yeah, it will be traumatizing.
It's hard to know where the line is until you cross it.
After 30 days of 5-MeO-DMT, I crossed that line and had to back off. But that took 30 days of epic tripping to cross it.
And everyone's different, so no one can tell you where your line is.
Facing fear is a requirement of Love.

I would try dissolving the blotter in a few drops of vinegar and water, then plugging it. This should give better absorption.
Plugged 4-AcO-DMT is extremely potent. Watch out. It will blindside you. Some chemicals become more potent by plugging them.

A purpose doesn't guarantee you are financially free. That's a bonus thing you'll have to achieve on top of your purpose.
If you create great work, people will certainly be eager to buy it as long as they know about it.

To be honest, Martin lacks a lot of mastery and embodiment work. Psychedelics can only get you so far. He still has a lot of attachments.
There is a big gulf between woke people and deeply masterful woke people who have a deep embodiment & purification.

Because growing beyond the center of gravity of your culture takes serious independent thinking, research, and motivation, while most people do not think for themselves, they are sheep, and they are just looking to survive however they can.

Stage Blue isn't merely an ideology, it's a level of cogntive development.

Such things can happen to anyone doing serious spiritual work. When we are talking about realizing the deepest nature of reality.... yeah, it's a lot to handle. Spirituality has some inherent risks and dangers.
My 30 days of 5-MeO got to the point where I thought I would never return to Earth.

Then again, it's just a divorce. Happens to people all the time. There's no need to make a giant narrative out of it. People grow apart from each other frequently. It's okay. You move on and meet new people and keep growing.
50 years old is still very young.
Ralston just got newly married and he's almost 70! Martin will find a new girl.

It's about actualizing your potential. A human being isn't born complete. A human being must work on herself to become great and God-like. This has nothing to do with not accepting yourself. Greatness requires effort. Even accepting yourself requires effort.
You only have two options in life: to be mediocre and shitty, or great. If you don't make the effort to be great, you will be shitty by default. Devilry is the default position for humans. Unbecoming a devil takes a lifetime of work.

Normies love to mythologize and idealize awakened gurus, treating them as saints.
It's actually a clever defense mechanism of the ego-mind. The ego-mind reasons like this: "If awakening doesn't make a person perfect and good, then it's not real and not worth working towards." By putting the guru on a pedestal the normie/student doesn't have to take responsibility for the hard work that must go into perfecting one's life. The normie/student wants awakening to be an instant cure-all to all of life's problems. This is of course a fantasy.

Something like a nose job, if it really bugs you, is not a big deal to get. It could be worth it if you're gonna be stressing over it for the rest of your life.
Read some of Maxwell Maltz books like Psychocybernetics. He was an early plastic surgeon who describes the psychological effects of plastic surgery on people. For some people it is a neurotic escape and it doesn't solve their underlying self-esteem issues. For other people, they get one minor fix and it significantly improves their self-esteem. In which case it's worth it.
Of course you can learn to accept and love yourself either way, but there's also nothing wrong with getting a minor tweak if it's a relatively simple thing and it will make you like yourself.
Just don't fall into the trap of constantly trying to perfect yourself through surgery. This is where some Hollywood types go wrong and give plastic surgery a bad name.
Think of it this way: if you had some crooked teeth, it's legitimate to go the dentist to get them straightened out. You want to have a nice smile that you are confident in.
Ana Kasparian from TYT got a nose job and it looks great. I think she's an example of doing it right. Not over-done, not obsessive.

@docs20 Like I said, anything goes.
Your question is one of survival, which is falsehood, which is evil. Hence by trying to survive, you create the evil which you claim you want to avoid.
To truly be Good you must surrender survival. Which is why hardly any human is Good. The one thing you need to do to be truly moral, you refuse to do.
See, "morality" is something the evil ego uses to create a smokescreen to distract from its own fundamental selfishness. If you're worried about people being immoral, that's only because their immorality interferes with your ability to be immoral.
Immorality is just selfishness. So a self cannot be moral. Only no-self can be moral.

Hello
I'm pretty well anchored in nothingness. I am fully aware that everything I have experienced takes place in nothingness and that I am that nothingness.
But how can you realise that my brother, for example, is also in the same shared nothingness? Because it feels like I am only aware of the dream of this body-mind-world phenomenon. However, I assume that there are an infinite number of dreams and that nothingness is also aware of my brother's feelings.
How did you realise nothingness as that that is absolutely aware of all possible phenomena and not just the "reality" of a single body mind world? 

No you aren't.
You don't realize how deep this goes yet.
There is no direct experience of others.
That's your mistake. You are looking for what you think is true, not what is actaul.
Drop you ideas of awakening/truth.
Look at what is actual.

When I went skydiving I had to sign a waiver that if my parachute fails none of my relatives are allowed to sue the skydiving company or instructors.
That was a sobering document to sign, Lol.
When I pulled that cord, I prayed to God that it would open. And I didn't believe in God back then, Lol.
Some of life's most epic experiences are inherently risky.

Actually I am. Fairly regular folks at stage Blue are capable of feeling God through faith and belief and devotion. Which is why fundamentalist religion is so popular.
You don't have to be a saint or enlightened master for this.

Whooooooosh!
Over your head.
Don't confuse Arnold's mastery and passion and vision with greed or gross survival.
You guys are missing out on important lessons from healthy stages Blue & Orange.
Nail down the fundamentals like visioning, goal-setting, planning, self-motivation, discipline, work ethic, commitment, patience, focus, overcoming failure, taking responsibility, not playing victim, etc. before you go chasing New Age pipe dreams.

Simply because the higher up the Spiral you climb, the fewer people exist at that level in the world.
There are simply much more Blue and Orange jellybeans in the jar.
It's just a subconscious biological force.
That's like asking why you prefer chocolate ice cream vs vanilla. Every mind has its preferences and you are never going to logically explain them.

Yes, of course.
But don't confuse thinking / imagining it with it itself.

You are not already enlightened. This is the dumbest thing spiritual people say.
Awakening is a specific state of consciousness. If you are not in this state, you are simply not awake and you are light years from awakening.
That being said, awakening is nowhere else but HERE and NOW.

Imagine for a moment that the entire universe is one single Infinite Mind. But this mind suffers from split personality disorder. This mind fractured itself into a trillion sub-minds which each imagine they are independent. But if ever this Infinite Mind awakens to itself, it will realize that all the "other" minds were always just fractures of itself. And then the Mind becomes ONE. The split personality disorder is healed.
Notice how you treat your body as a single whole unit. You don't think of your arm, your leg, your dick, and your head as all being different "others". You clearly see that they are all ONE unified whole. But someone who is fractured and thinks that the arm, leg, dick, and head are all separate things would say, "But that's solipsism to think that you are one unified body!" It's solipsism from his fractured perspective. But actually it's just holism from the higher, unified perspective.
Now extend that logic to the entire universe.

Good attempt.
I suggest you try snorting it. That will produce a solid 30-45 min trip. Yeah, vaping will not give you enough time to understand and contemplate, which is key.
Your imagination is infinitely deep. There is nothing outside of imagination. It creates all of physical reality. Which you will discover in deeper trips.
Once the mind starts to go in some direction, like thinking of snakes, in high states of consciousness that will tend to become instantly manifested. If you do a large dose you might even see your arms, legs, and toes turn into actual living snakes.
In one of my early mushroom trips my mind started to notice that my room looks and feels a bit like ancient India, and as I stared at it more and more I went into such a deep samadhi trance that literally my room was transformed into a full-on ancient Indian palace.
Such is the creative power of Infinite Mind. It can dream up anything without limits. The only limit is your degree of consciousness and selfishness.
It's also useful to use longer acting psychedelics like LSD for really deep long contemplation sessions. Those help a lot to make sense of how consciousness works. You can get 4 to 5 solid hours of contemplation on LSD.

@tashawoodfall Exhaust stage Orange by diving deep into it by pursuing material success.
Work on improving your material lifestyle until you realize that it will not make you fulfilled. Then you'll be ready for Green.
In other words, Tony Robbins style success-oriented self-help is what you need. Not enlightenment or spirituality.