Good work. You just need to up your dose. Your dose is at the point where the ego still struggles to hang on. Once your dose gets to 15mg or 20mg, it will actually be easier as you enter a full nondual state. Stop worrying about the ego. It is irrelevant. Just snort it and enjoy the ride.
At around the 20mg range you should be safe.
Of course breathing is important. Don't stop breathing. But don't obsess over it either. You don't need to do any special deep breathing. Just normal casual breath.
The whole point of fully letting go it that you accept it even if it means death.
You just have to get over the fact that you might never come back. That comes with the territory of tripping. There are no guarantees, nor is it a good thing to desire such guarantees because this entire process is about facing your fear of death head-on and surrendering to the inevitable.
You are not gonna escape this life alive. So you might as well accept that now.
20mg is a reasonable dose and I doubt anyone would die from it unless they have some special medical condition.

I doubt you'll be able to avoid the fear. A central part of this work is facing fear and dealing with it in the moment. Otherwise it's like you're afraid of being afraid, which just makes you weaker.
There's no easy way to take such powerful chemicals. If you want to avoid such fearful possibilities you should just not take psychedelics at all. They can and will freak you out if you take enough of them. The trick is to be courageous.

Past experience
4 60ug trips 2 125ug trips 3 mushroom trips Several DMT trips. Dosage: 250ug LSD 95%+ purity
ROA: Oral
Everything I write right to the time stamp is the main part and the next paragraph is some tangent.
"Insights" start at T+2:00. This is a rough estimate as I didn't write anything during the trip but I had a clock near me.
22/08/2020 8:20am
T+0:00 So cocky me just decided to take LSD saturday morning without any purpose beforehand. I was going to take 60ug but I thought why not take 250ug? Then I can tell people what was my experience so that they should or not try it. poor me lol
So I swallowed it and did some work for my dad. He has no problem with me taking LSD. I explained to him the addiction potential and he knows about my past of slight depression and low energy so he just lets me do it. He has taken mushrooms himself. T+0:30 It starts kicking in. Now I know I'm fucked lol. I was just chilling in my sofa and then the TV in my living room starts morphing. Holy shit. This usually happens 2 hours into the trip. Thoughts start to get warped and when I think something it seems like I evoke a web of interconnected concepts everytime I think of something.
I saw that I have some negative connotations associated with the words "black" and "gay". Everytime I feel the sensation of my anus and it's pleasant it seems like I'm gay lol. I seemed to have accepted my sexuality several trips ago but now I'm not that sure. To be honest now I do think I have. I am pansexual. I thought I was pure heterossexual but after my first 125ug trip this melted away. I really love my gay friends company. It seems they are way more accepting than normal people. Regarding the word "black" it's not that I'm repulsed by it. It seems like when I think of this word it seems like to invoke the past experiences I saw of racism and I regard the bad feelings I feel when this happens. When I heard a black guy telling me about his experiences of racism I cried for some time. Never saw this subject the same. T+1:30 Things start morphing even harder. Ego starts to get crushed right here. Then bam, oneness. I start crying when I see the absolute beauty of reality. I don't remember much from now on regarding timeframes.
T+2:00?-5:00 I got really a huge memory wipe from T+1:30 to T+5:00 into the trip and I don't remember everything. I did get all the biggest insights here in this part though.
I am God. God incarnated as this human being to experience reality, to explore itself and to know itself through me. Without an observer it wouldn't be possible to see reality. I still don't know why this is necessary. I create reality as I live. This is a dream I have woken up during the trip. The same way I wake up from a dream at night, I woke up from the already waken dream. Everything = Nothing. Everything is made out of nothing. It's not possible everything to be made out of something like a atom or quark or a final particle because that would cause an infinite regression. So the rock bottom is that the building blocks of reality are nothing. Corollary 1: All sensations I feel are interpreted by the filter we call brain to be a sight, sound, touch or smell. We could totally possibly aswell see sounds or hear colors and this be a totally normal way of living. It just seems that for the purposes of survival this current mechanism works. Corollary 2: I don't remember but if I do will add it here haha Oneness. There's no difference between anything compared to anything. I am creating distinctions for the purpose of survival all the time. There's no difference between my mom and my dad, me and a rapist, me and my computer screen, me and a musical note, a monkey and a highway. They're all consciousness. I AM. That's it. Absolute subjectivity. There's nothing behind what I'm seeing. There's no higher truth in the sense that I can't have access to what's true. In the sense of subjective vs objective. Love. All I ever wanted is love all the time. It seems that all my actions were pointed into getting love. When I got to this moment in my trip it seems like there's nothing more to do, it's finished. Welcome, my little human child to the hands of God. It's impossible to die as there was never someone born to begin with. Being born and dying is an illusion.  Reality is a Fractal. It's possible to zoom in and out infinitely. It's just that our human eyes cannot do this but we can see this through microscopes and telescopes. Still, it's possible to go even further into all directions. Everything is Perfect the way it is. I did get many more insights but I just cannot remember even if I strain myself to the max. There were some moments were I was in my living room and another moment I was seated outside my house. There was several moments where I ceased existing and then came back.
Several thought loops happened and in some part of the trip I thought of killing myself. Luckily I got myself out of that.
T+5:00 After all this mindfuck my blood pressure was at 160/60 maybe even more and I actually felt like I was dying. I needed to take several pills of propranolol and my BP still didn't go down for the whole day almost.
T+6:00 I went and just sat next to my garden looking at the sky and meditated for a little bit.
So the comedown was just me trying to not lose my shit and run into the streets naked.
The day after:
It seems like I have changed in some way. Thinking of some things wasn't appealing to me. Some of the addictions I had don't even cross my mind like scrolling infinitely through Reddit or eating junk food.
I don't even know if I want to keep going into Enlightenment or Self-development anymore to be honest.
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I don't recommend people going from 125ug to 250ug right away like I did. It increased in strength exponencially. It seemed like 3x the strength of 125ug. All of my LSD trips were from the same batch.
To be honest I'm pretty sensitive already to psychedelics and this was a dumb move.

I didn't go there, I've always been there, brother.
Nearly everything I say is implicitly relative, I just don't bother to re-explain myself every time for every newcomer.
Murder is only wrong in the relative. But notice, I can still discourage murder. It seems like a contradiction but it isn't. We must still act within the relative domain and play the game of life.
Relatively-speaking, boxing is a waste of time.
See that?

Don't confuse high IQ with cognitive and moral development, wisdom, or consciousness.

Because their body is being held in YOUR consciousness.
Their body goes POOF instantly from their POV.
There is no body outside of one's POV of it.

Blind conformism.
90% of people who vote do not seriously think about actual policy. They vote based on their gut feel, which is governed by their level of Spiral development.
Voting is not a logical activity. It's more akin to watching porn or scratching an itch.

@Arcanus It goes way deeper than all that surface stuff. You just need to realize that your relationship with anyone is already 100% unique. You don't have to try to be unique or special because you already are that. Just honor (be conscious of) the uniqueness of every moment and being.
You can build love with ANY aspect of reality, person, or creature. There is no limit to love. The limits are self-imposed by thinking too much inside the box and by fear.

A is A and not B. If A was B, then A would not be A, it would be B.
If you want to know A, examine A, rather than asking for it to be explained in terms of B.

It's too abstract, complex, and intellectual for most normies to care about.
It's a model for serious students of this work, not dabblers.

I explain it to myself like this:
1) The Green value system can easily be turned into an ideology without properly building up to it. You can just get programmed by the value system via your environment without growing into it yourself through inner work. This creates a flakey veneer of Green. In this case it might be a Green ideology which is almost as though adopted by stage Blue like people.
2) Green is a deep stage with lots to master and integrate. Most people who are "Green" aren't solid Green. They are dabblers.
3) It's easy to talk Green and believe Green while not having a solid foundation in Blue & Orange because someone else pays your bills. To truly lock down Green requires going off on your own and building a quality life. Which will necessitate exploration and mastery of Blue and Orange. I think many college kids are missing this.

Does anyone experience this?
It always happens to me with Lsd: I start the day and session after having eaten very little, e.g., an apple, and feel super cold for the first 4/5 hours or so and then warm up quite nicely. I stay indoors lying down with a light quilt on, listening to music with shades. The room temp is usually around 20 to 24 degrees. Physiologically, this doesn't make sense since 4 or 5 hours later I am even more deprived of nourishment. 
Feeling cold, of course, varies with one's experiences. If I lose body consciousness for a while then I don't feel cold but the sensation returns as soon as I surface. This condition continues until I begin to feel quite warm late in the afternoon. So, why could this be happening!

No. In practice it's very hard to eliminate such judgments and survival habits.
Survival is seriously stubborn.
No, I'm rarely in a blissful state.
Some days I feel shitty. It all depends.
There is the spiritual ideal, and then there is your actual life. And they are very different.
You have to be very careful with this goal of bliss and happiness. You're likely yo be disappointed on that front.

You can't understand that at your current stage of development and consciousness.
At your stage of cognitive development you simply take objective reality for granted, as a given. But there actually isn't such a thing.
Your MIND is constructing "physical" "reality". The reality you construct is precisely of the sort which allows you to survive as yourself. Everything you consider "real" is filtered through your ego to make sure it allows the illusion of a self to survive as the illusion that it is, without you realizing that it is an illusion.
If you weren't doing this, you'd be dead and a physical world would not exist.
2+2=4 is a relative truth. It is true because you say it is and by how you situate it within your entire scheme of conceptual understanding. It is not an Absolute Truth.

For the kids at home 1cP becomes regular LSD once absorbed. Main reason I used it is that it’s legal where I live. 
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Well, that was my second ever LSD experience. I tried it first a couple weeks ago at a rave. I only took about 20-30 µg and was surprised how strong it hit. That’s why I decided to be on the safe side with only 100 µg. Well, it still hit me harder than I expected. 
I was prepared to trip longer than on shrooms but I didn’t expect a full 10-12 hours. My ass and lower back are still sore from all the rolling around on the floor. I also prepared some fruit but wasn’t prepared for wanting something hearty half way through. But let’s get to that later. 
The come up took a long while. Probably 50 minutes. Then it hit quickly. I felt surprisingly high, lightweight and a strong sense of fidgeting and vibrating. Quite pleasant, even euphoric... 
 
Hit the peak about 1:30 in and stayed there for 4 hours. 
Was thinking about myself and about how little I know. Was shown myself looking outside a window. Then the vision zoomed out. It zoomed out and out and hit a limit. This was the level which was comprehensible by a human mind (quite a lot actually). Then it zoomed out further and further. It got more and more abstract and complex beyond belief. 
I became a sort of super AI and looked at the world from that POV. At that point life is so utterly complex that it becomes simple again. I realized what consciousness is doing via the means of evolution. It builds on top of itself to understand itself more fully. It will come to such an advanced stage that it’s just one touch from understanding itself fully. At which it will destroy itself as the only way out. Because it cannot understand itself. It can only be itself. 
 
At which point there was only a morphing singularity left.
Then there was the question: What is the room which in this singularity takes place? 
It’s God’s mind. It’s all in God’s mind.
What’s on God’s mind?
Love. That’s the thing God is “thinking” about. 
So simple. So astonishing. Beyond tears. 
Love asking you to hold within it the crippled and ugly. Even the evil and demonic. Who could ever hold that? Well, that is what it takes to be God. Though it doesn't "take" anything. It's ultimate willingness. Ultimate Love. 
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The way to get there was kinda ugly though. So simple to write about the big insights. I think a lot of people don’t talk about how the sausage gets made these days. Like looking at all the nasty bits of yourself and the world. Within these hours I lived life from the POV of a woman, a transgender, a sadist, a psychopath and an insane person who cut off his hand just for the fuck of it.
Encountering my fear of needles over and over again.
It was quite a trip in the truest sense of the word.
And it went on and on and on.
Was looking at the clock whilst I was peaking. Time seemed like 30-60 minutes... turned out to be only 2 lol. I thought a lot about art and love with a lower and upper case. Way too much to comprehend at this point. I will include some worldly learnings. 
 
Notes to myself (not polished, might still be interesting for some):
Be aware of what you’re putting in your mind. Your mind is your number one tool. It needs to be sharp. A true artist is conscious of what he puts there. The food you eat, the amount of social media you consume, even the quality of porn you watch.  Live as the person you’d want to become. Regarding work flow and the simplicity of life.  To become a great artist you need to be clear on what you want to do. What do I want to do? I want to bring magic. This spark of Divinity which finalizes in a single stroke of the brush.  To become a truly great artist there is a need of focused, deep practice AND a spark of the divine.  The truest, deepest form of healing is to realize nothing was ever broken or hurt. This may or may not entail grieving and hurting in the short term to realize this final insight.

It's called alcohol. Which is why bars and clubs exist.
That's probably how you were born.
Haha! Yeah... that's how it is for every guy. Welcome to the world of cold approach.
Fear is there to be faced.
Facing that fear is what separates a boy from a man. There is no short-cut but to do it.

1) It requires A LOT of practice, which requires SERIOUS motivation and vision
2) Finding a few local wing-men is a game-changer. It's very hard to start solo. You need at least 1 experienced wing-man who's into approaching girls and is serious about it.
It takes 1000+ approaches to start to get comfortable with it. And it takes 5000+ approaches to get good.
Tired?? You haven't even begun yet

I feel ya.
But this is not a life purpose. This is a satisfaction of your personal needs.
And if this is the thing you most want, how come you are too weak to approach? You should be doing 20 approach/day rather than making excuses.

Talk a lot about yourself. Your life, your goals, your feelings, your opinions. Be narcissistic.
That's what extroverts naturally do.
Don't filter the details of your life. And don't feel an obligation to make sense or be logical.

Take a mild dose and just contemplate whatever you want.
It works really well if you have a deep catalog of old in-field reference experiences from your nights out. On psychedelics you can revisit a reference experience from 5 years ago and squeeze it for insight and lessons. You can gain new lessons which you couldn't see sober.
Try analyzing your sets at home while on psychedelics. It's eye-opening. You will learn to game much faster as you will understand what you're doing wrong.

Of course, disgust is a common emotion.
If you really want to study this emotion, next time you take a shit, don't flush. Take your face and try to slowly stick it as close to the toilet as possible while consciously feeling and contemplating, What is disgust?
Notice how everything in your body and mind wants to avoid it. Disgust is an avoidance survival mechanism.
Some aspects of reality are so against your survival agenda that they are literally unacceptable and therefore avoided at all costs.
It is a self-bias of the ego-mind which keeps it from seeing Infinite Love.

@Jo96 Well, without knowing all the details of how you tried those things, it's impossible to know.
If I had to guess I'd say you didn't try those various things rigorously enough.
This might mean you should go live normal life and burn off some karma before you are ready to restart your journey.
If you are young, spend 5 or 10 years just building up your life and exploring life. Then come back to enlightenment.

That's exactly correct.
In a sense, schizophrenic people are MORE conscious. But their consciousness is not as stable or consistent, hence they seem weird or struggle to function.

Because they will be out=competed by Green businesses.
Who's gonna want to work for an Orange business when there are Green businesses to work for?
Who's gonna want to partner with an Orange business when culture shifts to the Green value system? Green is gonna view Orange businesses with shame. As it already the case with corporations who don't support BLM and LGBTQ and the environment.
All the biggest corporations are going Green, or risk upsetting the masses by being perceived as "evil". "Evil" is bad for business and this will only become more true in the future.

Psychedelics will make you more attractive in that you can use them to become more authentic, more fearless, more confident, more playful, more emotional, more charismatic, and gain insight into the opposite sexual polarity.
I have used psychedelics, for example, to better understand what women are attracted to in a man. On a psychedelic I can look at myself from the woman's POV and see which aspects of myself are attractive and which are not to women.