No, actually the badness is not inherent. That's the point.
If you feel pain consciously you'll realize it is not inherently bad. It's just a very deep unconscious bias.

There are 2 basic secrets to getting women:
1) Location, location, location. Be where the women are.
2) Delusional levels of self-confidence
Boomhauer pretty much has it down In real life he would be sleeping with hundreds of women while you guys are here clowning around and whining.
The only thing worse than being Boomhauer is being Bobby. And you guys here are like Bobby. That's your whole problem in a nutshell.

Two points:
1) A big part of spirituality is realizing how dysfunctional our modern lifestyles are, and changing how you structure your life. The Western medicine system is insanely unhealthy and dysfunctional on many levels -- for patients and doctors alike. So of course you'll have to question your involvement in that. In the end you may decide to transition to more sustainable and holistic types of healthcare. This will be hard for your ego to swallow because you've invested so much into this dysfunctional system while assuming it would serve you and your patients.
2) Check out Daniel Ingram's work/books. He was an ER doctor and a hardcore Buddhist mediator at the same time. He became enlightened while still working as a doctor. So it is possible. However, you have to understand that it will be extremely challenging. Most people will not be able to pull that off.
Enlightenment usually requires taking time off of work to focus on it exclusively. You should expect it to interfere with your work/business.
But something like a 1-hour per day meditation or yoga practice is doable alongside almost any profession/biz. Just don't expect huge results from 1-hour per day. You are not going to reach deep levels of awakening via such a piddly practice.

It's Absolute Truth.
Reality cannot be anything other than Absolute Truth.
The only point of Truth is itself, since Truth is the only thing there is or could be.
You can do whatever you like.
Stop treating awakening as if it is forced on you. No one is forcing it on you.
You are asking me to give you a selfish reason for selflessness. Which of course there isn't any.
Selflessness cannot have any selfish reason.
Yes, cause you are a selfish fuck
Nothing is ever bad. Bad does not exist.
I push you guys towards awakening because that's what I care about. If you don't care about it then stop following my work. Go jerk off or whatever. My teachings are not geared for lazy people who are satisfied spending their life jerking off.
I am a very ambitious person and all of my teachings assume you have an ambition to make the most of your life. If you don't, then stop watching.

How non-judgmental are you of all other perspectives?
The hallmark of Yellow is such a deep understanding of perspectives that your judgment of them falls away. You no longer see perspectives as good or bad, right or wrong.
Green is very judgmental still.
Can you appreciate why all the perspectives exist?

Hence why the wisest people become monks.

Lol
The excuses you guys concoct are stunning.
Shut up and go approach 5000 girls. This skill set requires PRACTICE!

No object has a stable objective form. Form is relative to your perception of it. When you're not perceiving an object is collapses back into Infinity. Every object is identical to every other object until you polarize/collapse/distinguish it with your perceptual system.
You can think of your perceptual system as a filter upon Infinity. You filter Infinity down into an elephant by distinguishing it from everything else. And if you stop filtering/distinguishing it, it returns back to Infinity because Infinity is what everything is when it is unfiltered and undistinguished.
What you're missing is a realization of total ontological relativity. All physical objects are relative. They only exist if you filter Infinity a certain way. You need to let go of the notion that physical objects have any sort of stable form or existence.

That's because you've barely managed to learn to stand on your skiis yet you're try to go down a double black diamond slope.
Go back and develop competence in basic self-help. After 5 or 10 years of that, you might be ready for some existential spiritual work. There's no shame in working on the basics of life. Go develop competence at survival before you try to transcend it.
It took me a decade or more of working on the basics before enlightenment became a real possibility.
Just because I talk about enlightenment a lot does not mean it is right for you at this time. I talk about very advanced stuff that isn't suitable for most people.

I think you are misunderstanding the Buddhist notion of suffering. What it basically means is that chasing material conditions and positive states is dissatisfying because they never last.
This does not mean you cannot meditate on the feeling of satisfaction itself. In fact, doing so is how you escape suffering.
Bliss and joy can be reached this way. Now, you can counter by saying that that bliss won't be permanent. Of course it won't. But I never said to get attached to permanent bliss. And it is still far better than what most people are doing, which is chasing dopamine hits.
Think of it this way: in every moment you only have one of two options: you can either be satisified or dissatisfied. Which will you be?

You should be going out 3-4 nights a week for at least a year, every week, with the goal of doing 1000-5000 approaches.
This is what is realistically takes to get results.

You should socialize just to push your comfort zone and gain more life experience but in the end nothing is gonna beat the spiritual pleasure of pure metaphysical understanding. So if you can be happy solo, that's actually a great gift.
But don't become a recluse. Gain some socialization and dating experience while you are young. It can be fun.
In the end you will find the highest joy is found alone, not with others. Don't let others gaslight you about that.

@StarStruck You shouldn't expect massive results if you just started game.
Massive results come after years of going out and honing your skills. The bottom line is that your skills still suck.
The learning curve for game is really steep. Stop stressing over it so much.
And definitely night game is an important piece of the puzzle you're missing. Only doing street game is gonna limit your growth and results. The serious skills are built with night game.

One of my best wings was a 5'4" Pakistani guy.
He got laid way more than me at 6'2".
What attracts girls is personality and boldness.
My wing would walk up to a group of girls having a birthday and make out with every girl in the group, one after another. Sometimes he would get slapped, but he also got a bunch of make outs, numbers, and dates. He would wrestle girls like a fearless mongoose does a cobra.

Think twice before infecting others with your toxic limiting beliefs.

My vision gets a bit wavy if I meditate a lot.
This is normal and even desirable. It's a neat effect and shows the fluid nature of consciousness.

I wouldn't even call that HPPD. That's just an expansion of your mind/consciousness.
I suggest you embrace it and enjoy it. A free trip when I close my eyes is something I would pay for. That's like a superpower.
Such things happen with people who meditate or do lots of yoga. The mind simply becomes expanded and more fluid.

They are similar.
But contemplation specifically focuses on asking questions and gaining answers/insights whereas introspection is a more general function of looking inward and observing the operations of your own psyche. You could also call introspection mindfulness.
To me contemplation is a more cognitive, verbal activity. Introspection is more about feeling. Although of course you can mix them together.

God is the perfect word. You just aren't yet conscious of what the God points to.
And that is a deficiency in Buddhism.
Except it isn't since your entire understanding of self and reality is entangled with language.
Of course the word itself could be changed to something like Teotl or Allah or Great Spirit. But the concept of God to which all these words point is fundamental and unavoidable.
Any teacher or teaching that is not telling you directly that "You are God" is not really telling you the truth.
All of spirituality can be boiled down to two simple lines:
1) You are God
2) God is Love
That is the most concise formulation of what you must realize to fully awaken. And if you don't realize these two, then nothing else matters for you have fundamentally misunderstood reality.

Go out and approach 5000 girls.
Also, it would really help if you realize your body is made out of God's Infinite Love.
The notion that you are ugly is literally the dumbest thing you could think.

Fear generates results by sending you scrambling into action.
When you are walking through the woods and think, "There might be a bear around the corner" you are more careful than if you walk around thinking happy thoughts.
Also, the highly conceptual and ideological way modern humans live is far removed from simple examples like finding foods in nature. If your only job was to find food in nature like a rabbit, you would have very few negative thoughts. Most of your negative thoughts come from highly conceptual, ideological mental activity far removed from simple physical survival.
When all thoughts cease, there is no longer a "someone" within experience at all.
Obviously there is no one inside you producing nor watching thoughts. Thoughts simply arise within a field of consciousness. Thoughts ARE the field itself. It is not even correct to say that there are thoughts vs a field, or thoughts vs a watcher. You ARE thoughts. Everything is one. There is no watcher as some object. Watcher and watched are identical.

Bullshit
The best guys who go out constantly only sleep with maybe 30 girls per year. 30/year would be master pro level. And to get those 30 they approach 1000+

Logistics is every practical mundane detail which is necessary to get her in a room where sex can occur.
If she is hungry and you don't feed her, she won't be in the mood to sleep with you. Yet if you feed her too much, she also won't sleep with you. If feeding her takes too long, she will be too sleepy and also won't sleep with you.
And a thousand other things like that.
If you want results you have to handle every single niggly detail, and do it quickly and smoothly.

Oh God....
Your biggest mistake is actually assuming you will become rich from daytrading. What you'll discover is that you actually end up losing money and wasting even more time until your situation becomes truly dire.
The problem with leeching value as a survival strategy is not merely that it hurts others and society, is often simply does not work even for you. Greed and desire to take shortcuts often ends up hurting you the most.
The surest way to become wealthy is through serious hard work, not through get-rich-quick-schemes like this.
Daytrading is a get-rich-quick-scheme because it offers no value to the world yet demands high profits. And therefore it is fundamentally unnatural and you will be ruthlessly weeded out by evolution. Theft is a risky survival strategy. And don't fool yourself, what you're doing is a form of theft -- you're just not connecting the dots yet.
Stop listening to people who are selling you the idea that daytrading will make you rich. Those people don't make money off daytrading, they make their money off desperate suckers like you.
I understand you just want to be financially free. But financial freedom is not created with that kind of mindset. Financial freedom is very counter-intuitive. You have to relinquish your desire for quick and easy results. Rather than trying to get rich quick, you must adopt an attitude of get rich slow.
The proper way to get wealthy is to offer massive value to the world, to become genuinely creative. Not these silly games you're playing. Your greed and laziness with backfire on you.

There should be enough pre-trip anxiety which shows a healthy respect for the substance. But it should not be uncontrollable fear that grips your mind. Just some mild hesitation due to your recognition of the seriousness of this work.
Overall your mood should be, "I'm read. Let's do this."
If you don't feel ready, you're not ready, so don't trip.