I have not done it again. Mostly because I feel it is dangerous without a trip sitter.
And yes, it is terrifying. So I'm not really looking forward to doing it again. But at some point I will.

What I did if followed my passion, BUT I was also very practical and knew I needed to develop concrete career plans. So I switched to philosophy, my passion, but I also resolved to develop my game design portfolio and technical skills so I could be hired as a game designer. Which I was.
You need BOTH passion and practicality. Be practical about your passions. Like, if you are gonna study film, have a concrete career plan in mind. Like develop the technical skills of a filmmaker or screenwriter.
No one will mock you if they see you are developing serious technical skill in a craft like writing, art, filmmaking, etc.
You can't just rely on a diploma to get you a career. A diploma means shit. You need to make serious, realistic career plans on your own, outside university work.

Haha. If that were true I'd be getting laid a lot more than I am.
Women absolutely love immature men. Like flies on shit.

By consciously trying a bunch of stuff and carefully observing how you feel.
What you're missing is massive experience. See my episode: Expose Yourself To More Experience

I have an old blog post that lists some of the best sources I found.

That's good. The problem wasn't so much that it was self-destructive but women-destructive. It's not good for a leader of young men to model behavior which is harmful to women. But that's water under the bridge. He is much more careful now in how he speaks.
Well, of course mainstream media is not going to deeply understand Owen and his work. That's not surprising at all. And again, it's not some conspiracy to bring down the little guy. That would be like me complaining that people call me a cult leader because the elites are after me. No, it's just that mainstream media will never understand the things I teach.
The fact that guys like Owen and myself are still allowed to post YT videos is evidence that there is no conspiracy theory or elites looking to suppress deep truths. No one is going to ban Owen as long as he teaches in a responsible way -- which he is now doing. I put out way more edgy and risky content these days than him and I don't have some paranoia about the mainstream not understanding me or trying to silence me.
If media ever writes about me, it's gonna be extremely distorted to the point where it will look like it's full of lies. It's not lies, it's just their inability to understand based on their limited paradigm and life experience. But hey, if my life's work was taken down overnight, yeah, I would develop a chip on my shoulder about that. So I understand Owen's frustration. Society has always had taboo subjects, such as homosexuality, pickup, socialism, or mysticism. Teachers of such topics tend to get demonized. It comes with the territory. Jesus was nailed to a cross. MLK was assassinated.

You cannot learn socializing through a book.
Stop thinking of this issue as even pickup-related.
It's not really about pickup, it's about the fact that you are fundamentally insecure with yourself around other human beings. You lack core socialization skills. This is not about manipulating women into bed, it's about the fact that you are incapable of walking up to a stranger and holding a fun conversation.
Yes, and the only way you'll develop that is by socializing with 1000s of people. So get out there and get started. You don't fix this sitting at home thinking about it. Go out, approach, socialize. You don't even need to do it with girls. You could learn it by talking to guys.
As you develop those skills, you will get a girlfriend along the way. You don't need to stress about that. What you need to do is start developing the social skills like going to the gym.
I've gone through this process. From zero. Nothing you're describing is in any way original or unique to you. Tens of thousands of guys have gone through it. You can too. It's not easy, but it's worth the effort.

Of course I know exactly what you mean.
My point is simply that pickup just boils down to forcing yourself to approach and talk to girls. The rest is petty details.
It is a mistake to hold pickup as some secret scheme that you execute between the hours of 2pm and 4pm every Thursday in order to manipulate a few unsuspecting targets into sleeping with you.
You can approach pickup that way, but my suggestion is that you shouldn't.

Search for pickup videos on daygame. Watch in-field. Study some theory. Find a wingman who can give you some demos. Scout out locations for daygame opportunities. Then start approaching.

Charisma

As I said, it has a crazy steep learning curve. Just embrace it and have fun with it. Don't focus on the sex, focus on the growth and adventure of it.

I am saving my most advanced and original God talk for the new course.
My free videos are focused on more relatable topics.

Do it seriously for a few years, then move on to other things.

You are always alone, and it's great.
Stop looking for anyone to entertain you. Entertain yourself.

Because they are workaholics who got nothing else going on.
If they had even an ounce of spiritual sense they would not be promoting such crap lifestyles.
The most successful people tend to be unbalanced, obsessive workaholics. Because that does tend to produce success. But at what cost? There is way more to life than business success. To reduce life to that is an abomination onto God. So it's no wonder that these people are godless materialists.

It will not solve any practical problems.
Dispose of that fantasy as soon as you can. If you have a specific, practical life problem, solve it directly, rather than hoping that spirituality will solve it for you somehow, some day, automagically.

The practical benefits of awakening are rather subtle, like giving you a higher perspective on life. You will have a higher perspective on all your human problems like money, sex, relationships, family, business, education, health, politics, etc. But awakening will not obviate the need to take specific action on all those fronts.
It's kind of like getting a good university education. It doesn't really solve anything concrete, but it does give you a great foundation from which to approach all problems and projects, so it certainly pays practical dividends for the rest of your life. But it's not as direct as a university education solving your money problems or career problems.

Yes. One of the biggest benefits I've gotten from all my awakenings is massive clarity into my human self, my human character. It is much clearer now to me what things are most important to me, so a lot of confusion and frustration is eliminated. Life becomes more streamlined and essential.
Emotionally I am much more grounded and mature, so dramas are less of a thing. More general understanding of everything, so less conflict.
Also, a huge improvement in caring how others think of me. I have become so solid in myself as GOD that I can hardly care what anyone thinks of me. It's just noise.
Decisions are easier to make. There is much less manipulation of reality and people, which makes decisions much easier. I have stopped even trying to manipulate myself and my emotions.
Much more confidence overall in everything I do.
I don't fear death per se, I even look forward to it, but I still don't want to die for some stupid reason, because I see life as a miracle that should not be wasted.

The way it worked for me was, I went through a phase of toying around with those ideas, but then emerged out the other end and now when I trip I have zero suicidal thoughts because I just see them as silly nonsense. My mind has stopped even "going there" because I am focused on much grander things.
But there was a phase of maybe a year where my trips would include some suicidal thoughts. Not too serious, but still unnerving. It's a hump I think everyone will have to get over at some point of they trip a lot. Because you cannot avoid facing your own human mortality in this work. At some point you have to confront it. The key is simply to make a commitment to yourself never to physically act on it.

Massive transformation comes slowly.
What else do you suggest? As you can clearly see, Progressives are not having many political victories. Yelling about it won't change it. The bottom line is that Progressives expect too much too fast.

The point of freedom is to use it to allow yourself to commit to -- and pursue like a motherfucker -- your top values.
Freedom is not for sitting around playing games and jerking off. Freedom is about being free to be highly creative in the way that is most meaningful to you.

It kicks in within 3 minutes. At the 4 minute mark it feels like you are in a new reality, although the room still looks the same. The shift in consciousness is so dramatic that you start to feel sick and nauseous. It feels like you are no longer yourself but some kind of higher-dimensional being.

1) Very few Buddhists or spiritual teachers are actually monks.
2) Being a monk is a very rare thing that is not suitable for 99% of humans. Which is why less than 1% of humans are monks.
3) Yes, monks have zero ambition. That's key to being a monk. You are basically deciding to throw your whole life away in order to attain meditative states. This is not necessarily a good thing. You have to want that.

There is a big difference between proper and improper use of rationality. Rationality is a good thing when properly used. But it is badly abused in our culture and the academic and scientific communities.

You need a life purpose or some creative project to work on so you don't have free time to watch junk.
Be extremely careful of wasting your life just watching endless junk on YouTube.
The best thing for you would be to seriously undertake pickup and socialization. Then you will have no desire or time to watch that junk, and you will be actually getting success with girls.