You need to do some compartmentalization. There needs to be two parts to your life: 1) work, survival, being human, social life, 2) existential truthseeking. You must master both parts, not merely one. When you are doing work, being human, socializing, surviving, remind yourself that that is not about truth. That's a kind of game you are playing, and you can enjoy playing it. But then there is time when you set aside the game and get to serious work on truthseeking.
As your truthseeking matures you will start to merge truth back into your human life and the gap between the two will lessen.
Yes, truthseeking is very intellectually stressful. No way around that since most human activity is built on lies and illusions.
There is much to intellectually understand about truth. Don't let yourself be gaslit about that.
You can perform well at school and work by compartmentalizing them as relative human activities. You don't need to know much about truth to play a video game. And school and work are like that. The reason you do school and work is to master survival and to get a basic foundation for human life. This is valuable to do regardless of whether it is truthful or not.
There is always a tradeoff between comfort and achievement. You just gotta get clear about which you value more and to what degree, and live your life accordingly. Ambitious people sacrifice comfort for achievement. The achievement can bring more joy than comfort. But some degree of comfort is also needed.
No doubt, being an asleep bullshitting lazy human is comfortable.

Everything! I don't discriminate.
Most of the stuff I contemplate is survival stuff. There is a lot of profound insight to be had there, and decades-worth of stuff to contemplate.
Contemplate whatever you're interested in.

What really matters is not what you call it but how deeply conscious are you of how your construct the dream you are in.

China is capitalist.
I see no interest from you in questioning your worldview, which antithetical to this work.
North Korea has had 70 years to develop. It failed. That is more than enough time to rebuild anything that was bombed.
You are not seriously looking at the facts. You want to maintain your narrative. You are not at all engaging with the serious internal problems of Marxist theory and its implementation in the real world.

Life is a very difficult thing to accept. Especially once you start to understand the extent of human corruption. Which is why most humans remain ignorant of it or subscribe to some kind of ideology or conspiracy theory. You don't want to understand how corrupt the world is and your role in it.

Yes, of course. Israel was an ethnic cleansing project from day 1. And it still is today. Nothing has changed. Once this point is understood, everything makes sense.
Begin was a terrorist. He organized terrorist attacks against the British to force them to pull out of Palestine, which succeeded.
Begin lead the most successful terrorism campaign in history, which led to the formation of the Israeli state.
People generally assume that terrorism doesn't work. And usually that's true. But Israel is history's greatest example of terrorism working, thanks to Begin and his friends. All of it this is a matter of historical record.

Both relative and absolue truth.
Pretty much anyone in a position of power is all of the following: a liar, deeply self-deceived, and corrupt. You don't get or hold power without lying and distorting the truth.

That's not the real motivation.
The real motivation is personal growth. Or if you just enjoy it.
You're not gonna do 5000 approaches unless you enjoy the whole project.
You master golf if you love golf.
Guys who do well in game actually love going out, being out. Being out becomes more appealing than any girl.
Obviously that isn't for everyone. You don't have to go all the way to mastery. I didn't.

Frankly I am still amazed at how deep self-bias goes. It's hard to believe it can be so egregious. It feels surreal to watch.
Self-bias is one of the most profound topics we've covered in this work.

Because you are dreaming that you are the body.

Dude, you are young! You're supposed to be confused. Embrace the confusion.
Just act on solid timeless principles like education, reading books, developing technical skills, gym, good nutrition, meditation/yoga, hard work, truth seeking, contemplation, pursuing your passions, etc.
Don't doubt these principles. Doubt other stuff.

You should priorize building useful technical skills and developing some kind of career. This will ground you. You need to master basic survival. You can do philosophy in your spare time.
Here's the basics you need to build:
Education Career/Job Technical skills Dating & social skills Fitness Nice place to live Work on those. Those aren't confusing.

Morality is a social construct, however, raping someone is still a low consciousness thing to do.

It is hard of survive at the highest levels of consciousness. Which is why humans have low consciousness. It's necessary for long-term survival.
There is a trade-off between consciousness and survival which people don't appreciate.

The Israel ethnic cleansing project began before the Holocaust, from the 1930s it was underway.
The irony is that before Jews were ethnically cleansed from Germany they had already been planning how to ethnically cleanse the Palestinians.

Of course it's not from bad intentions. Self-bias and self-deception mean that people who do the most evil things think they are saving the world from Satan.
The reasons Israelis commit such atrocities is precisely because they think of themselves as the good guys and heroes, without considering that that narrative is a self-deception, which of course, it is.
Thinking of yourself as good is the ultimate moral self-deception. The #1 thing to realize in the domain of morality is that you are not good, you are evil. Without this realization no serous morality is possible. This is exactly what Israelis refuse to do. Everyone is evil. It's just a question of whether you're conscious of it or not. Evil isn't bad intentions, it's good intentions blinded by self-bias.

It will take you many years to understand the profundity of what I said.

Because only a dysfunctional and low consciousness human would be invovled in the porn industry.

Enough of this gaslighting. You guys keep saying this but all you're doing is displaying your own obvious bias by defending this ethnic cleansing project.
Israel's actions are egregious, shameless, criminal, and unconscious to anyone who is objective and serious about understanding reality.

If makes a lot of sense. Finding mates as an introvert is very hard. And women are much more social than men by default, so it's easier for them.
Your problem is that you don't socialize enough, so of course.
The solution is very simple: become much more social.

I am 25. I have had the desire to go out and approach women on the street from the age of 13. The idea occured naturally to me even before I knew of Leo or pickup, but fear, social anxiety and trauma stopped me from doing so.
Finally 1 years ago, I decided it was time to confront my fear and begin. I decided to gradually desensitize myself to the fear by giving out friendly compliments to women on the street in London UK, where I live. Even after resolving to do so, I put it off for weeks.
 
One day my boss called and told me about rumours circulating at work. I tried to hit on too many girls and was getting a reputation for being a 'fuck boy'. The root cause: my workplace was the only way I could meet women, I didn't know how to meet them any other way. That day I decided enough was enough. I would go out and give one compliment to a girl on the street. I resolved not to come home until I had done so.
I walked around outside a university in South London. Many beautiful women walked past me, with each one I told myself 'Too scary. I'll do the next one, the next, the next'. I walked back and forth across this road for 3 hours in a constant state of fear. My legs ached and I wanted to go home, but I had become disgusted with myself. 'NO! I WILL NOT GO HOME UNTIL I DO THIS'.
Finally, I got close to a girl and braced myself to say 'hey I like your outfit'. As I got close, she turned and made eye contact with me. In that moment I was filled with a full fight-or-flight terror. I snapped my eyes away from her and continued walking, saying nothing. But then I felt love for myself - I was dealing with a powerful fear, of course this would be hard. After another 30m of walking, I finally gave out my first ever compliment to a girl on the street. It felt good.
 
Within a few weeks I made a program for myself. I would go out after work 4 times a week and give out 3 compliments. I found this very very challenging. To help, I repurposed a spending tracker app on my phone to track my progress. I did this so I could feel like every interaction I initiated was a win, like it was adding to my experience pool, even if it didn't go well. The scores are ultimately arbitrary, and I have refined them over time, but they have generated some satisfying graphs and statistics. Each type of interaction would earn a different score:
    a compliment would earn £0.15     a comp and a question 0.60     a comp, question and introducing myself 0.90     a number 1.20     an instant date 5.00 etc  
I spent the next 6 months struggling to meet my goal of 3 compliments a day. I went through laziness, hopelessness, shame, anger at myself, hatred for women, hatred for the world, to deep compassion for my shortcomings, to profound gratitude, to feeling like the alpha king of monkeys, to extreme horniness, exhausion, suicidal thoughts, feeling I will be stuck forever, then consoling myself and going out again. I failed many times. I fell off the path many times. I read Convesations with God, tried to use the creative power of my thoughts. I focused on eating and sleeping well, so that I felt good enought to go out and do it. I did 40m a day visualisation. I used breathing techniques. I returned again and again via journalling to my vision, to why I was doing this. It felt like I had to draw upon every resource I had. Such was my fear of just talking to a stranger.
 
One day, I felt really good and ready to move on, to ask a follow up question after the compliment. I sent my friend £250 and told him not to send it back until I recorded myself saying 'excuse me, you look really interesting' to a girl. I walked around for 6h hours before the deadline passed, and I went home feeing utterly broken and ashamed having not done it. He kept the money. I actually woke up in fear multiple times that night, dreaming that I was still in Liverpool St Station trying to get myself to approach.
But two days later I somehow did my first ever honest to god cold approach, at a bookshop in central London. I spoke to this girl with my hands shaking in terror, but she gave me her number. We went on a date a few days later, a few weeks later we had sex. But whatever inspired me to do that cold approach left, and I was back to compliments.
 
About 6 months ago I decided I would get coaching. I searched and found a random coach on youtube. He had about 2k subscribers. I paid him £500 to come out with me for a day. I was earning £1600 a month and living in expensive London so this was a lot of money to me. Even though I didn't think he had much to offer in terms of game, I thought that paying so much and having him there with me would force me to do approaches.
It worked. I did about 15 real cold approaches that day. But I suspect most of my apparent progress during that day was made in the months before.
 
Since that day the doors opened to doing cold approach proper. It still took work to get myself to approach consistently alone, and I still occasionally have trouble getting myself to do it. But it really has become the focus of my life now, zoning in on it, getting better at it. The approaches have gotten less scary the more I have done them (shockingly). This September I did 75. This week I did 30. I have gotten gradually bolder. I approach some girls even when they are sitting down surrounded by people. I have gone on a few instant dates. I have approached a few groups of girls. I have had a handful of sexual encounters ranging from bad but kind of fun, to extremely intimate, hot and magical.
My vision, that I crawled back to week on week over the last year, is beginning to be realized.
That original burning fear has melted away. I still have lots of work before I feel like I can put this chapter of my life behind me. Recently I feel like I have run up against the limits of my 'natural game'. To improve from here it's not going to just be about being less fearful anymore, but changing things about myself; eye contact, being more subtle in my emotional reading of a situation eg when to try and close with a girl, challenging myself to stay in set as long as possible, doing more groups, doing night game.
 
It's confusing, and I am partially writing this to remind myself of how far I have come, and to inspire myself. Despite my occasional lack of faith, deep down I know that given time, persistance, passion, hard work and coming back to my vision again and again, REAL GROWTH IS POSSIBLE.
If you are reading this and are early on in this journey, or thinking of going out on this journey, or you belive (like I did at times) that you are different somehow and this will never work for you, I hope this inspires you to go out and do it. Here are a few tips you may find helpful:
    Come back again and again to why you are doing what you are doing     Ultimately, especially when you are out alone, it does come down to just choosing to do that approach, in the moment, despite all the fear and panic. There is no way out of that or around that. No visualisation or meditation or anything will change that     Failure to complete your goals for that day or week is fine. Just pick yourself back up and go do it tomorrow     It is more work that you could possibly imagine. But each step towards your vision is itself extremely rewarding     If you struggle with approach anxiety GET IN-PERSON COACHING (or go to a bootcamp) It is well worth the £500 or even £1000. The money you spend will hold you accountable, you will want to make sure you spent it well. If you are putting this off, consider: you may know deep down that you will have to confront your fear once you get coached, and that's the true reason you don't want it     Get a wing via Leo's telegram worldwide wingman thing. The pickup groupchats themselves are a toxic hellscape, but you can just meet people from them irl till you find a good wing then never look at them again    Consider repurposing a spending tracker as a point counter as I did. It's kind a mental idea I know, but if your mind works anything like mine you'll love it The rest of the lessons I'm sure you'll learn yourself as you do it
Much love and godspeed!

I exhausted most of the basic self-help and spirituality material so I started going more technical now with history, politics, sociology, etc.
It takes till like age 40 to really know yourself.

My fave topic is truth.
If Zionists wanna use violence and do ethnic cleansing, that's fine, but don't obfuscate about it, with moral grandstanding. The issue is that Zionists refuse to admit the relativity of the issue, they claim moral absolutes and high ground for themselves, and do the crocodile tears as soon as they get a taste of their own medicine.
If you wanna plead survival, fine. Then Oct 7th was also survival. And so was Hitler.
The problem is this: survival for me but not for thee.
My function here is to point out such biases.

The reason I mentioned terrorism is because Israelis love calling others terrorists.
Do you see the double-standard of calling Palestinian leaders terrorists for trying to create a state for themselves but then saying it's "out of context" to call Israeli leaders terrorists?
If terrorism was okay to found Israel, why is it not okay to found Palestine?
Terrorism is a tool to found a state.

Ben-Gurion terrorized, killed, and ethncially cleansed 500,000+ Palestinians. He personally ordered terrorism and extermination of Palestinian villages. And he was thrilled with the results.
He never had any intentions of respecting the UN partion plan or borders, calculating to take more and more Palestinian land.
That is who founded your country. A terrorist.