It forced me to cut through many fantasies and illusions.
This work doesn't really become real until you are forced to confront great pain, unfairness, and cruelty.
The brutality of life is what grounds the work and keeps it from becoming that sugary New Age spiritual fantasy.
Great pain is necessary to shatter your illusions about reality.

You have to keep in mind how marketing works:
1) Only 1/300 people will buy something. So the odds are very small, but with tens of millions of views it adds up.
2) Marketing makes you generally aware that a product even exists. This awareness is very subtle, but when you finally need the product you will know it exists to be bought.
3) Marketing makes you aware of a brand, so when you are in the store and deciding which version to buy, you buy the version you are familiar with.
4) Most of the time a marketed product will not fit your needs, but that 1/300 times you will eagerly buy it.
5) You might be outside the target demographic for certain product ads. For exmaple, product placements in Hollywood movies are designed to appeal to teenagers and young people who are very suseptible to such things. All the superhero movies are made for teens.
If I market some ass itch cream to you, you will ignore it. But in 5 years when your ass starts itching you will remember and buy it.

You should study enlightened masters more. The really enlightened ones say exactly that. This is actually one of the most essential features of enlightenment.
You are not deeply enlightened unless you realize that all meaning and value is a construct of the mind. "Evil" is an evaluation, and it is always a fantasy.
There can be no peace in you unless you realize that meaning and value are things your mind creates.
There can be no true love unless you are able to love the selfishness of others. What do you think Jesus taught you? Unconditional love. Which means, you cannot see evil any more.
Notice that as soon as you make a judgment or evaluation of any kind, you are automatically disconnected from Truth.

That's the core of Einstein's Relativity theory.
Location is not absolute, it's relative. You need to have two objects that you can compare in order to create a "location". Location is relativistic. Which then makes distance and length relativistic. And velocity relativistic. And time relativistic.

Yeah, Marx had some good critiques. But again, the real question is how you improve upon capitalism.
How do you know your system improves upon it rather than making it worse?
I can critique mankind for being demons all day long. But in the end, how do you stop them from being the demons we all know they are?

You need to do some compartmentalization. There needs to be two parts to your life: 1) work, survival, being human, social life, 2) existential truthseeking. You must master both parts, not merely one. When you are doing work, being human, socializing, surviving, remind yourself that that is not about truth. That's a kind of game you are playing, and you can enjoy playing it. But then there is time when you set aside the game and get to serious work on truthseeking.
As your truthseeking matures you will start to merge truth back into your human life and the gap between the two will lessen.
Yes, truthseeking is very intellectually stressful. No way around that since most human activity is built on lies and illusions.
There is much to intellectually understand about truth. Don't let yourself be gaslit about that.
You can perform well at school and work by compartmentalizing them as relative human activities. You don't need to know much about truth to play a video game. And school and work are like that. The reason you do school and work is to master survival and to get a basic foundation for human life. This is valuable to do regardless of whether it is truthful or not.
There is always a tradeoff between comfort and achievement. You just gotta get clear about which you value more and to what degree, and live your life accordingly. Ambitious people sacrifice comfort for achievement. The achievement can bring more joy than comfort. But some degree of comfort is also needed.
No doubt, being an asleep bullshitting lazy human is comfortable.

Everything! I don't discriminate.
Most of the stuff I contemplate is survival stuff. There is a lot of profound insight to be had there, and decades-worth of stuff to contemplate.
Contemplate whatever you're interested in.

What really matters is not what you call it but how deeply conscious are you of how your construct the dream you are in.

China is capitalist.
I see no interest from you in questioning your worldview, which antithetical to this work.
North Korea has had 70 years to develop. It failed. That is more than enough time to rebuild anything that was bombed.
You are not seriously looking at the facts. You want to maintain your narrative. You are not at all engaging with the serious internal problems of Marxist theory and its implementation in the real world.

Life is a very difficult thing to accept. Especially once you start to understand the extent of human corruption. Which is why most humans remain ignorant of it or subscribe to some kind of ideology or conspiracy theory. You don't want to understand how corrupt the world is and your role in it.

Yes, of course. Israel was an ethnic cleansing project from day 1. And it still is today. Nothing has changed. Once this point is understood, everything makes sense.
Begin was a terrorist. He organized terrorist attacks against the British to force them to pull out of Palestine, which succeeded.
Begin lead the most successful terrorism campaign in history, which led to the formation of the Israeli state.
People generally assume that terrorism doesn't work. And usually that's true. But Israel is history's greatest example of terrorism working, thanks to Begin and his friends. All of it this is a matter of historical record.

Both relative and absolue truth.
Pretty much anyone in a position of power is all of the following: a liar, deeply self-deceived, and corrupt. You don't get or hold power without lying and distorting the truth.

That's not the real motivation.
The real motivation is personal growth. Or if you just enjoy it.
You're not gonna do 5000 approaches unless you enjoy the whole project.
You master golf if you love golf.
Guys who do well in game actually love going out, being out. Being out becomes more appealing than any girl.
Obviously that isn't for everyone. You don't have to go all the way to mastery. I didn't.

Frankly I am still amazed at how deep self-bias goes. It's hard to believe it can be so egregious. It feels surreal to watch.
Self-bias is one of the most profound topics we've covered in this work.

Because you are dreaming that you are the body.

Dude, you are young! You're supposed to be confused. Embrace the confusion.
Just act on solid timeless principles like education, reading books, developing technical skills, gym, good nutrition, meditation/yoga, hard work, truth seeking, contemplation, pursuing your passions, etc.
Don't doubt these principles. Doubt other stuff.

You should priorize building useful technical skills and developing some kind of career. This will ground you. You need to master basic survival. You can do philosophy in your spare time.
Here's the basics you need to build:
Education Career/Job Technical skills Dating & social skills Fitness Nice place to live Work on those. Those aren't confusing.

Morality is a social construct, however, raping someone is still a low consciousness thing to do.

It is hard of survive at the highest levels of consciousness. Which is why humans have low consciousness. It's necessary for long-term survival.
There is a trade-off between consciousness and survival which people don't appreciate.

The Israel ethnic cleansing project began before the Holocaust, from the 1930s it was underway.
The irony is that before Jews were ethnically cleansed from Germany they had already been planning how to ethnically cleanse the Palestinians.

Of course it's not from bad intentions. Self-bias and self-deception mean that people who do the most evil things think they are saving the world from Satan.
The reasons Israelis commit such atrocities is precisely because they think of themselves as the good guys and heroes, without considering that that narrative is a self-deception, which of course, it is.
Thinking of yourself as good is the ultimate moral self-deception. The #1 thing to realize in the domain of morality is that you are not good, you are evil. Without this realization no serous morality is possible. This is exactly what Israelis refuse to do. Everyone is evil. It's just a question of whether you're conscious of it or not. Evil isn't bad intentions, it's good intentions blinded by self-bias.

It will take you many years to understand the profundity of what I said.

Because only a dysfunctional and low consciousness human would be invovled in the porn industry.

Enough of this gaslighting. You guys keep saying this but all you're doing is displaying your own obvious bias by defending this ethnic cleansing project.
Israel's actions are egregious, shameless, criminal, and unconscious to anyone who is objective and serious about understanding reality.

If makes a lot of sense. Finding mates as an introvert is very hard. And women are much more social than men by default, so it's easier for them.
Your problem is that you don't socialize enough, so of course.
The solution is very simple: become much more social.