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  1. How authority works and Vaccine deniers question
    How authority works and Vaccine deniers question
    @Felinez The point of the episode was to get you to realize that ultimately all authority rests on your shoulders because you are the one who decides which sources to trust and which not.
    Why aren't you a follower of Hitler? Because you decided he isn't worth following.
    None of this means you shouldn't learn from others. You can learn from people without ceding your authority to them. That's what I do.

  2. I don’t want to feel misogynistic but I can’t help if sometimes…
    I don’t want to feel misogynistic but I can’t help if sometimes…
    That is just a misunderstanding of the feminine. The feminine desires to surrender to the masculine. That does not mean women wanna be raped by some creep in a dark alley. They wanna be possessed by a high value man of her choosing.
    It's not dark triad men that turn her on. It's high value, masculine, strong men who turn her on. A psychopath is not by itself inherently attractive. In fact it will lead to much regret.
    You can certainly admire a woman's physical appearance. Just don't reduce her to only that. Women love to be admired for their beauty but not reduced to it -- like all you want is sex and can't treat her as a conscious being. That's psychopathic behavior.
    The mistake noobs makes is complimenting hot women on their looks. This is just too obvious and desperate. But it doesn't mean you ignore physical appearance. You just don't lead your pickup with it.
    It's called game for good reason. Because you gotta play a bit of games to get laid. Don't be so lame and desperate that you stare at her ass and tits like a mouth-breathing ape. Have some class and charm. Getting girls requires some reverse psychology.

  3. Time
    What is God FAQ
    Eternal is just the realization that time is a concept. Eternal means: outside of time. As Einstein correctly explained, time does not really exist. Time is a relative measure of motion and distance. If the entire universe stood still, it would be impossible to tell what time it is. We can only measure time through motion.
    Every moment is in fact eternal. Since past and future are just imagination, they do not actually exist.
    When you look at a clock, realize, it is not actually measuring anything. It is merely a spinning object.
    In fact, all measurement is imaginary. It's a story we made up. Measurement tells you absolutely nothing about reality. It's just a relative ratio of two arbitrary things.

  4. Cold Approach Therapy
    Cold Approach Therapy
    Most of my nights out were with wingmen. Maybe 90-95%.
    Solo gaming is real hard when you start. But it grows you the most if you can muster the balls to do it.
    If you want to seriously learn game, you must look for experienced wingmen who you can learn from.

  5. Going out alone in college/ finding wingmen
    Going out alone in college/ finding wingmen
    Yes. For sure. You can make friends there.
    Almost no one asks this.
    You can say:
    1) I was meeting some friends here.
    2) My friends are around. [point hand far in random direction]
    3) I'm rolling solo tonight.
    No one cares. Everyone goes out to socialize on the weekends.
    Online pickup forums. You gotta really search around. It varies by city.

  6. Absolute falsehood?
    Absolute falsehood?
    @How to be wise What we commonly call "pain" is not elemental. It is a compound thing which includes several components: 1) a raw sensation, 2) an automatic bodily recoil reaction, 3) a conceptual activity of interpretation, assignment of meaning, and judgment, and 4) an emotional reaction.
    So what Ramana is referring to is #3 & #4, which are of course conceptual activity which can be stopped. The raw sensation is still there. But once you eliminate #3 & #4, this thing we call pain starts to feel and look very different from pain. The sting of pain is not in the raw sensation but in our conceptual interpretation and emotional reaction to it.
    So there's no contradiction between what Ramana says and what I am saying. He's just stating it a bit simplistically and starkly so that you realize the important lesson: your mind plays a huge part in how you experience pain.
    Have you ever had an experience of pain so intense you start to enjoy it? If you get really curious about pain as it is happening, the sting of it lessens. In that moment you are experiencing it purely as #1, a raw sensation.
    Also notice that most pain is not physical but emotional in nature. When someone breaks your heart, or when you feel sad or lonely, none of that is physical pain. It's conceptually driven. And even if you break your leg, at least half your pain will come from the story you tell yourself about it, "OH MY GOD! Why did this happen to me? When will I be able to walk again? What if my boss fires me? How much is this gonna cost me to fix? How could I have been so foolish? Why can't it just stop?" etc.

  7. Pain
    Absolute falsehood?
    While I haven't encountered it yet, I'm starting to understand that absolute truth could be a "thing".
    What about absolute falsehood? Does it exist? What does it look like?

  8. Can one put attention on absolute nothing?
    Can one put attention on absolute nothing?
    Another way to phrase it is: put your attention on attention itself. What is pure attention devoid of all content?
    Try doing that for a bit and see how it feels. Notice it's really hard to keep your attention there. The attention veers off within seconds onto some form. This kind of meditation requires serious concentration ability which most people do not have in today's media-saturated culture.
    You need to be able to concentrate so hard you could burn a hole through brick wall with your focus. This is the key to accessing the deepest levels of spirituality.

  9. David Spero - Video - Reality Check
    David Spero - Video - Reality Check
    What he's saying has value, especially for newbie and intermediate students.
    But at the same time, suffering IS a conceptual activity and it can be transcended or stopped. It is something you are doing and you can stop doing it. This does mean that you stop feeling, just the opposite, you must feel it fully, with total consciousness. That total consciousness is what allows you to experience the suffering as self-constructed activity, at which point it becomes conscious and it ceases to be suffering.
    This requires very high levels of consciousness which even most awakened people in the West do not have.
    But the most advanced practitioners develop it. Which is how monks can do self-immolation.
    So the deconstruction of suffering is not merely marketing. It's just unattainable for most people because this requires super-human levels of consciousness which only the most hardcore practitioners will attain.
    The paradox is, by trying to end suffering you end up creating suffering. So that's not a good attitude in this work. Trying to always be in a positive state is not going to work well. If you really want to end suffering you must completely stop caring what state you're in, even if you're getting tortured, you have to be okay with that state. It's REALLY hard to be that conscious. But it can be done. Just don't go chasing it.

  10. Absolute falsehood?
    Absolute falsehood?
    Falsehood does not exist. There is only truth.
    What you call falsehood is an idea which exists in your mind. You're confused about what it is. You're confusing ideas for reality, which makes falsehood seem like it exists when actually it does not.
    I dare you to take your finger and point to one false thing in the world. Notice, it cannot be done. Anything you point to, is true. If it isn't true, it isn't a thing so you cannot point to it.
    If you point to a picture of a unicorn thinking that's false, you're wrong. It's true. It's just a drawing of a unicorn. That's what it IS. That's its truth. The mistake is imagining further that this unicorn is supposed to exist as something other than the drawing that it is. See? You get lost in your imagination. That's the whole problem here. Falsehood seems to exist only when your imagination is active. You must imagine falsehood. But even imagination is true. You just need to be aware that it is imagination and not the physical world. People conflate those two very easily because it helps us survive.
    Falsehood is like a magic trick. It's a clever illusion. An impossibility that appears to be possible when you're not looking at it closely enough.

  11. Awakening Proccess
    Awakening Proccess
    A very simple yet fool-proot method for Awakening.
    Step 1: Find the thing you are identified as whilst in a dualistic/egoic conciousness.
    Step 2: Let go of it, and be wise enough to understand that everything you identify as in a dualistic or mind-identified conciousness isn't going to be you, because it's a conciousness leap.
    Step 3: Run this proccess whenever you're in a mind identified conciousness, until a breakthrough occurs.

  12. 80h work week how to be effective ?
    80h work week how to be effective ?
    It's not feasible in the long-term. And the deeper question is, why are you interested in working that much at all since work will never make you happy? It clearly shows that you have your priorities backward.
    Work is endless. It's an endless game of chasing one's tail. You want your work to be enjoyable and you want to have lots of spare time for spirituality, personal development, and enjoyment of life.
    What you want is not effectiveness or success, but consciousness, joy, peace, and health.
    Working long hours should only be done for short periods of time for critical strategic purposes, like if you're launching a new business you might work really hard for a year or two, but only because you'll then have more free time.

  13. The best strategy to become a Sage
    The best strategy to become a Sage
    Yes, when I was in college I had to work really hard on health to lose 65 pounds. I was really fat my whole life.
    I still went to college, so it wasn't 100% of my time, but it took a lot of attention and willpower to acheive that transformation and make it stick.
    Starting my first business and quitting my job.
    It's basically impossible to become wealthy without learning business, sales, and marketing and being very serious about business. Business does not tolerate bullshit and wishful thinking. You must deliver hard results or you're dead. Most people cannot handle that. It's brutal.
    See my video: Small Business Advice.

  14. The best strategy to become a Sage
    The best strategy to become a Sage
    Hi!
    As many of you here I'm in my 20's (24) and building up my foundation to become a self-actualized and than even self-transcended motherfucker.
    I'm pretty motivated and already done my LP course last year, doing meditation about a 3 years, going at retreats, reading books, learning, using psychedelics, networking, going to psychotherapist from time to time and purifing myself from my own and social bullshit and even thinking for myself (rarely yet )
    Not so far ago @Leo Gura shared his opinon on the process of growing oneself and doing foundational work: 
    So I'm agree with him, but when trying it on myself has felt some confusion and I think it can be helpful to share it with you to look at it from different perspectives.
    My strategy:
    As I've done Life Puprose Course I've figured out that my purpose is to help people understand root causes and mechanisms of life, make them happier.
    So, the plan is:
    Learning and practicing as a coach with freinds and acquaintances --> save 10,000 euros to learn at IPEC coaching program in Amsterdam, Netherlands --> Move to Netherlands (from Russia) --> Earning Good Money/Building a Nest Egg --> Get a bachelor degree as a psychologist at Maastricht University (10,000 euro/year, but there is a grant system) --> Become a psychotherapist who has a MAPS license on using MDMA/Psilocybin at the sessions (at that time it will be legal) --> Working, Going deeper into Spirituality/Awakening
    But it would not be the the Hero's Journey, if the path were clear.
    My personal obstacles:
    #1 Health/Nutrition/Energy - 2018/2019 are years when I've become more aware of how shortly-minded I was in relationship with my system: junk food, sugar, gluten, lack of vegetebeles and healthy food, lack of energy and lack of understanding of the current situation. As I'm reading a great book from Leo's list about immune system, I've tested out that I have a licky gut, dysbacteriosis (confirmed by medical test), chornic stress and probably over toxified liver.
    Last half of a year I'm trying to behave in a more responsible way - taking jiu-jitsu class, normalized my vitamin D, using supplements and nootropics, trying to avoid unhealthy food, but last one is not easy - being healthy isn't a cheap + I defenitly have an addiction (to food or stimulation as a whole). Now I'm doing three week elimination diet (from gluten, soy, corn, dairy) to restore my gut biome.
    Good food, analyzes, supplements, nootropics, probiotics are pricy and that's how we went to the next obstacle... 
    #2 Money - 2018 was not only about facing that I'm poor at my health awareness, but also about facing that I'm incompetent with money. Every month I was struggling, often feelng insecure and frustrated and yet uncapable to figure out the way to deal with it. That, btw, was a good motivation to finally buy myself a Life Purpose course and acting more. A little by little, I've overgrown my stage-green fluffiness "Oh, money will come, when they need!", "Oh, don't worry, it's just a money, keep being a nice guy"  and realized - we've gotta figure it out!
    So I've rewatched Leo’s video about budgeting (haven’t done anything after) and than I've started to read a great book from the Booklist (nah, I won't say the name of it, go buy yourself one, it's 100% worth 35$) and than the millstones spun. I've figured out deeper the inner work, which is going behind the scenes in my relationships with money, started to do exercises from book and even asked my friend (CEO, fromer accountant) to help me to developing my financial competence. I even paticipated at the event where people playing in the board game "Cash Flow" by Robert Kiyosaki. Imagine how my stage-green guts had to feel themselves? Me, spiritual seeker, so non materialistic and sublime, who has participated at Ayahuasca retreats now is between those gross materialists?! What have I come to... 
    So, now, after three months of budgeting I kinda know my monthly expense and it's... $843 (kinda good for Russia, especially that I'm working around 4-6 hours a day). This is the amount with which I more or less satisfy my monthly needs. But funny is that Coffe, Food, Junk Food, Cafe is taking 1/3 of all expenses. $843 is somewhere near the amount I earn per month.
    So to take the IPEC Coaching programm I need to do at least $2070 per month, not mansioning that I probably gotta expand costs on food/supplements/nootropics/analyzes to made my health/energy level higher, becuase I need a good amount of energy and cognitive ability's to make $2070 per month. Catch 22
    Also, now I'm having a time to do reading, meditation, networking, and practicing my Life Purpose, but it can become more complicated if I'll be working 8-10 hours a day.
    #3 Self-efficacy
    Lack of energy, impulsiveness, addictions (food, coffee, porn, social-media) and procrastination are very hard-wired inside of my psyche. Partially because I'm ADHD (not diagnosed, but there's ton of clues) and upbringing, and partially because of my ENTP type of personality, which is all right-brained, abstract and lack of discipline. I even left-handed (ruled by the right hemisphere). Of course, you can say that all that is excuses but don't waste your time. I'm kinda good at self-reflecting and double-cheking myself. Im that type of guys who are naturally gifted with abstract thinking, futurism, humor and spirituality (those are all from my top-5 strengths).
    So, isn't it a great idea to devote a couple years to the discipline and self-efficacy? Of course! I'm even doing it by everyday meditation, affirmation, visualization and jiu-jitsu training.
    The problem is, that it's very hard to do all that stuff at the same time and this is where confusion is from.
    Which is more Important?
    Devote a "chapter" to the health and do nothing else about year or two with life purpose, money and self-efficasy? Or get started from money and not giving too much attention to health? Or is it better to develop my ability to be efficiant first? Maybe fuck it all and just grinding into Life Purpose at 100%? 
    "Philosoraptor meme"
    The problem is - I really feel like all of them needed right now to make everything working. If I'll waste my health - it can be serious in future, plus I really want feel myself good to do the work! If I'll wont figure out money issue - there is a chain of reaction to the health and life purpose. Self-efficasy is, as I think, key skillset which needed for everything else.
    So, do you guys have any ideas on how to elegantly connect everything and plan it in the best order?
    How are you won one of these kind of battles? (Money/Health/Self-efficacy)
    What would you do in my place?

  15. If happiness is unconditional why do anything?
    If happiness is unconditional why do anything?
    It makes no sense to the ego-mind because the ego-mind is constantly trying to survive. The ego-mind as a mechanism does not allow you to feel happy other than as a manipulation or a reward for survival. So you are like a dog stuck in a cycle of chasing dog biscuits without realizing that there is an endless mountain of dog biscuits right over the hill. But you are so hungry for that one biscuit that you never go over the hill to dog heaven
    Motivation is a manipulation mechanism that the mind uses over you. Notice how easily you're controlled by the promise of a little pleasure in the future. You are so controlled by it you wouldn't even take infinite happiness if it was offered to you. Because you'd say, "But that would mean I have to stop chasing crumbs." Yes, you'd have to stop chasing crumbs.
    It's like you have been offered a billion dollars but you say, "I'm too busy to take this billion dollars because I'm busy chasing millions of dollars." Well, okay, have it your way.
    Indeed. That's what an intelligent person would do.
    The problem is, you can't do it. Because you're too hypnotized and addicted to life.
    Are you really willing to sacrifice your entire life for God? If so, do it.
    You are totally underestimating what awakening offers. It doesn't just offer happiness. It offers immortality and God-realization. You cannot even fathom such kinds of joy. It is a joy beyond anything you've experienced in your life. The technical terms for it are Bliss, Ecstasy, and Paradise.
    Imagine a literal Paradise. That's what you're missing by not fully awakening. So what's the catch? The cost of attaining this Paradise is surrendering your entire life. Which is of course out of the question for you.

  16. I just don't know what I am.
    I just don't know what I am.
    I know I am no one but still my mind seeks and seeks automatically and I cant stop feeling like I am no one and feeling so anxious about it because I keep thinking what and who is experiencing this moment then. I cant "distance" myself from thinking when I dont feel like there is "a secure" place where I can rest in distance. So I am rather in thoughts or inbetween, but since my awakening I havent been in a "secure" place at all. Meaning meditation is kinda troubling because I feel insecure, like not like a person, nor like consciousness, it is just there: a feeling of pure insecurity.  It is terrible if I try to interpret this with my mind...
    And I cant go back "building a safe ground" first because I am already in this process. You cant go back and I cant either, it just happened and now I am just kind of a being in a human vessel or whatever. I looked into the mirror today and my mind was telling the craziest stories. I got aware enough that my mind wanted to make me feel crazy. But yet. It is indeed a hard process.

  17. 5 Meo DMT Vs. Practices
    5 Meo DMT Vs. Practices
    Practices are very important. You will not get much out of 5-MeO without practices.
    You don't want to turn 5-MeO into a crutch. It is a powerful tool, but only a tool. It cannot be your cure-all fix. You ultimately want to be free of it.
    There is so much more to this work than just blasting 5-MeO up your ass.
    Keep in mind, when I do that, that's based on a very deep foundation of many years of inquiry, research, practice, and self-help. And even so, I don't do it all the time, I do it very strategically at certain periods of the year.
    Practically speaking, you will never be able to handle that much 5-MeO. It will totally disrupt your life and you will not be able to integrate it fast enough, leading to all sorts of emotional problems.
    Integrating 13 trips took me a lot of work. I pushed myself to the limit. And it took me 2 years of tripping to be able to do that. Don't try that at home. I'm what they call a profesisonal

  18. is there even a point to do 60 minute self inquiry sits if 99.9% is monkey mind?
    is there even a point to do 60 minute self inquiry sits if 99.9% is monkey mind?
    @moon777light It's still valuable, but if you feel you've stalled you might want to consider another method for a while.
    Try Kriya yoga or counting the breath to build up your concentration.
    Self-inquiry is an advanced practice which should only be done once you've calmed your mind down and are able to maintain some degree of concentration. Otherwise it just won't be effective.
    In Zen they start newbies off with counting of the breath. It's actually quite smart to do so. Count each exhale from 1 up to 10, then repeat from 1. If you lose track, start over from 1.
    Do this until your mind calms down and stops thinking about random stuff. Then you can turn towards self-inquiry more.
    It might also be helpful for you to do self-inquiry using a journal. Question whatever you identify with and try to deconstruct it on paper. This process is very good for opening you up to not-knowing. At first this questioning will be conceptual. That's okay. You have a lot of conceptual baggage to deconstruct before you can just sit and focus on the I AMNESS. For example, are your memories you? Is your DNA you? Is your brain you? Are your sensations you? All of this must be questioned and deconstructed even just conceptually.
    Sitting and focusing on the I AMNESS is a very advanced practice. It is really not for newbies. A newbie monkey mind cannot get traction with it. It's too busy, too active.

  19. Non-duality & Quantum Mechanics
    Will Science ever prove Non-Duality?
    @SQAAD Science proved it 100 years ago with the radical epistemic discoveries of quantum mechanics. It just hasn't premeated mainstream culture.
    The problem is that you cannot prove something to a closedminded person no matter how much proof you have. If an ego-mind wishes to believe in materialism, no amount of proof will convince it otherwise.
    The way this problem is resolved is that culture must evolve. There must be a culture war to the point where materialism is so discredited that you would look like a fool to ever speak of it publicly. In the same way that you would look like a fool to say publicly that the Earth is 5000 years old. Serious people will laugh at you. So it must become with materialism.
    It will take hundreds of years for that to happen.
    The whole point is that the ego-mind does not allow its metaphysics to be open to being disproven. It is taken as fact/reality and you cannot change facts (or so the ego-mind believes). Of course there was nothing factual about materialist metaphysics to begin with. But this is denied by the materialist.
    It's a catch-22 situation. Individuals cannot realize it because culture is backwards. And culture cannot change because individuals are backwards. So it takes a long time for progress to occur. Generations must pass. The old dogmatic folks must natrually die off.
    This is one reason why death is good. If humans lived forever they would become totally rigid and stuck in their minds. Culture could not evolve. Technology could not happen as rapidly.

  20. How do we know anything?
    How do we know anything?
    @andyjohnsonman The question of how we know anything and what can and cannot be known is a very deep one. I have been studying this question for over 15 years. I have literally poured thousands of hours contemplating this one question because it is so important. On it hinges everything else. If you get this question wrong, you're basically fucked in life.
    From your current POV the truth is you don't know what can or cannot be known. You do not even know what knowing is!
    This is a great place to start. From this place you can do some serious inquiry. This question is not to be guessed or answered by looking up an answer in a book. You must really go on a journey and explore what knowledge is and how it works.
    Also keep in mind that there are different kinds of knowing. Verbal or rational knowing is only one kind. The most advanced things I speak of are knowable, but not from your current state of consciousness.
    For example, it is possible to know what God is or why existence exists or what consciousness is. But not through coventional logical verbal knowledge. There is knowing and understanding beyond the human mind.
    The deepest insights I share are not just stories or beliefs -- they are transrational understandings.
    Consider that there is a very profound connection between knowing and being. Some things can only be known by being them. This is the domain of mysticism and samadhi.

  21. The Ultimate Guide To NoFap & Semen Retention
    The Ultimate Guide To NoFap & Semen Retention
    What is Semen Retention & Semen Retention Benefits?
    Semen retention is the act of retaining one’s sperm, in order to build up inner energy and transmute one’s sexual energy into productivity, instead of leaking one’s life force, and become involved in low-consciousness behavior. So it all boils down to, that you can’t ejaculate. You can still have sex and masturbate, just without sperming, which can be a bit tricky, but the Semen Retention community got you covered with various techniques, that I will also be sharing with you in this article! By rejecting ejaculations and allowing the body to reabsorb the semen, the body is then using this vital semen to improve overall physical health, emotional stability, cognitive functions and redirect that sexual energy into something more productive and more rational like building a business, improving relationships, learning something new etc.
    Semen Retention comes in various different expressions in different ancient cultures, but typically the Semen Retention community, is focusing primarily on the ancient Chinese perspective, but Egypt, Greece and Papa New Guinea, also took this concept of Semen Retention seriously.
    Chinese medicine and Qigong (Qigong is a Chinese system of physical exercises and breathing control, that leads to inner balance and fulfillment), has a deep focus on semen. “Jing” means sexual energy in Chinese, and this primal energy is getting reduced everytime a man has an ejaculation, which is called an “Energy suicide”. Jing is what we come from, Jing is the vital energy that made each of us human, it’s literally the most powerful energy in the universe, if you think about it. Via semen and “Jing”, you’re able to actually create another human being. It is life in it’s most living sense, and it creates life. Astonishing powers!
    It is called “Energy suicide”, because in the ancient China the typical opinion about semen was, that it was the primal energy of our life, it is the deep foundational ground pillar of your existence as a human being and all the vitamins and minerals it contains, has so much nutritional value, that you keep leaking over and over again, instead of transmuting that powerful energy into something productive, creative etc. Because that is literally what you can do with this powerful semen!
    The Semen Retention community is focusing a lot on the point of disrespecting and devaluing one’s semen, they want to break up with the old socially and scientifically accepted norm and belief that ejaculation should be healthy. By disrespecting and devaluing ones semen, the main point is, that if you keep leaking your semen all the time, without any reproductional goal, and you’re only doing it for the sake of a few seconds of euphoria, you’re literally shitting on yourself, because by leaking this golden semen all the time, you’re doing “Energy suicide”, as it was described in ancient China.
    What are the benefits of Semen Retention?
    The benefits are enormous, and they all can’t possibly be listed here, you have to experience the benefits for yourself, test out Semen retention for yourself (Give it minimum 4 weeks) and you’ll se huge beneficial gains by doing Semen Retention!
    Improved sense of life purpose
    Improved positive self-image
    Improved compassion
    Improved motivation
    Better memory
    Increased energy
    Increased productivity
    Increased creativity
    Increased focus and concentration
    Baseline of happiness and joy is raised drastically
    Better sleep
    And so much more!
    According to the ancient Chinese knowledge about Semen retention, the reason for all these benefits, are of course because of the vital, creative energy “Jing”, that balances your body completely, and makes you able to live in flow with life, and not out of balance. Don’t you think it’s worth giving it a try? Imagine you can have these semen retention benefits in your body, in 4 weeks, 4 freaking weeks, and you’re feeling immortal, and if you keep it up, it’ll only get better from that point on! If you’re truly serious about develop yourself and attain higher baselines for yourself, I’d definitely choose semen retention over nofap, as there is just more benefits to semen retention, but again it’s also a more difficult approach, I agree, but the benefits exceeds the hurdles.
    Can you even comprehend the power of all these benefits? Like, how really powerful they are? Imagine if you really had all these benefits, what you would amazingly profound life you would be able to create for yourself, and the way in which you would be influencing the world in a positive and powerful way!
    It’s important to mention that the benefits come at different speeds, it totally depends on your current history of sexual addiction and your current state of sexual maturity progress.
    Some people will feel the benefits starts to blossom within a few days of doing semen retention and for others it may take longer, but I can assure that you will feel some difference, within a month at least, and if you keep at it, and go all in, you will seriously get some powers you didn’t even know existed.
    If you remember we were talking about “Jing” earlier, the life force which you keep inside of you, that is the primal energy source of all good in your life, then it doesn’t take much to realize that if you keep leaking that energy over and over and over again, you’re depleting your body and mind. Which of course means that you’re operating from a very low level of energy.
    What you put out, is what you get.
    Low energy -> Low productivity -> Low results -> No semen retention benefits
    High energy -> High productivity -> High results -> High semen retention benefits
    Do you ever think about how you’re acting in your day to day life, in terms of consumption vs. production? Without an understanding of this principle, you will never gain any benefits of semen retention. Are you consuming more than you’re producing? You should make it a rule of thumb to always produce and do more, than consume more. Stop watching Netflix, browse social media, eat bad foods and engage in gossip, these are all weighing you down inside, because the deepest core of you, wants to express itself in creative and productive ways. It’s not for the funs that monks and other very conscious and enlightened beings are living an ascetic and spare life, and yet have a vibe and magnitude over them, that is out of this world. Living a lean life, minimalistic and frugal life is the key to happiness and a higher consciousness.
    What you put out into the world is what you get. Just like you can’t just sit on your couch every single day and watch TV and complain about you’re not reaching your goals, society is shit and you’re depressed. It’s logical that you don’t get the results that you want to achieve, when you don’t put out the energy that needs to be expressed.
    Maybe you’ve heard of the book “Think and grow rich, by Napoleon Hill” Maybe you haven’t – But just to sum it up, it’s a book about the most essential principles on how to attain a rich life. A bestseller with over 100.000 copies sold as of 2015. Napoleon Hill grew super rich in his financial and personal life, by observing what principles other succesful people were embodying. And a very underrated chapter in his book, is all about retaining ones semen. Where he explains the semen retention benefits of increased sexual energy that is then able to be transmuted into productive energy such as building a business etc.
    Here is a nice snippet from his other book ”Outwitting The Devil”:
    “Controlled sex supplies the magnetic force that attracts people to one another. It is the most important factor of a pleasing personality. It gives quality to the tone of the voice and enables one to convey through the voice any feeling desired. It serves, as nothing else can serve, to give motive-power to one’s desires. It keeps the nervous system charged with the energy needed to carry on the work of maintaining the body. It sharpens the imagination and enables tone to create useful ideas.It gives quickness and definiteness to one’s physical and mental movements. It gives one persistence and perseverance in the pursuit of one’s major purpose in life. It is a great antidote for all fear. It gives one immunity against discouragement. It helps to master laziness and procrastination. It gives one physical and mental endurance while under going any form of opposition or defeat. It gives one the fighting qualities necessary under all circumsatnaces for self-defense. In brief, it makes winners and not quitters.”
    When doing semen retention or nofap, you should be aware of not only the benefits, but also the consequences that may seem negative in the beginning, but carries a seed of positivty only. It may very likely be, that you will start to rise up to a higher level of consciousness when doing seminal retention, which means that you will give up bad habits and toxic relationships, start to think in new ways and express yourself much more authentically. This could result in you having to cut off friendships and other relationships that you deep inside of your core now is not good for your personal development, your energy or consciousness for that matter. This can be a very tough pill to swallow, and many don’t do it, even though they should. You should be satisfying yourself, and break free from the bondages of lower consciousness behavior and relations, and as you move up the consciousness ladder, the more conscious you get, the more you can consciously engage in helping people in a lower consciousness to rise up to a higher consciousness, this is what this work is also all about! Making a change in the world and inspiring other people to express themselves as spiritual beings. Raise the vibration of the people of the earth, create positivity and benefit from this higher consciousness, that is what we all need in these times! In fact, this is already happening, but not on a big enough scale. You have to bite the bullet, start listening to yourself and do whatever your heart tells you, don’t be so head, be more heart.
    Is Seminal Retention harmful?
    In order for you to gain full benefits of semen retention and not harm yourself, which can happen if you’re not doing it correctly, it is important that you do semen retention in the right way, and with the right intentions. Imagine this raw energy builds up, if you’re not doing anything with it, you can have a lot of stagnant energy, you can amplify your current state of mind, maybe negative emotions, prostate problems etc. If you’re just keeping your energy in your penile area, you are seriously messing up with your body, it’s so easy to release the energy to benefit from semen retention, you can do that in ways like karezza, neo’s etc. We will get into that later.
    To add on to this thing about your sexual energy, you can’t just go full on celibacy, as we as humans are just driven by this sexual power. It’s all about transmuting it. If you just want to throw in your sexual energy and sexual drive into a closet and close the door, imagine you being at a bach having a plastic beach ball trying to drown it in water, you can never drown it fully, the pressure in the water and the air in the beach ball, will shoot up the ball from the water. That’s exactly how your sexual energy works, and if your mindset is like this, you will never gain semen retention benefits or nofap benefits. So go with the flow.
    ”The sexual energy always finds a way to express itself.”
    Prostate issues if you’re not moving your energy around.
    Massage your penile area and massage your testicles everyday – that is also how to activate the production of hormones, you can use techniques like Microcosmic Orbit Technique on this, to circulate your energy and activated hormones around in your body, you’re super charging your energy, your health and it just feels great!
    You can also massage the prostate.
    You can externally massage the prostate through the perineum just by pressing in there and massaging it and there’s also a really great technique when you take a tennis ball, you sit on it. Essentially you might want to put like a towel or something about so it’s not directly on your skin, but you press, as you sit on the tennis ball directly on your perineum to really press into that area, so youre giving yourself like self acupressure there and that helps to break up any stagnant energy og energy blockages in your body. Any man should be doing this! It gives you so many benefits while doing semen retention. About 80% of all men who reach the age of 80 have prostate cancer cells in their prostate! And that is really a serious issue. This is one of the most neglected parts of our bodies, and when we neglect a part of ourselves that’s just asking for unconscious patterns to grow and disease to grow, so it’s important to be in your body to be embodied
    Handle Your Sexual Energy by Doing Qigong When on Semen Retention
    Qigong is the art of controlling and circulating ones piled sexual energy, to benefit from semen retention.
    The work consists of very gentle movements, repeated several times, often by stretching the body, then increasing the fluids in the body (blood, synovial, lymph and cerebrospinal fluids etc.)
    External and internal movements in Qigong, compared to western exercises, everything is primarily external (running, biking, weightlifting etc.) External and internal movement is required to experience the semen retention benefits fully.
    Qigong is not that popular in the west yet, because of our way of understanding language in the west, is so much more different than Chinese. So culture and language is really a blockage of westerners learning to do qigong, but luckily you’re here, reading about this, so why not start implementing this into your life and start to handle your sexual energy and raise your consciousness and gain the benefits of seminal retention?
    Qigong is often used for these following diseases/illnesses
    Cancer
    Internal organ ailments
    Poor circulation
    Nerve pain
    Back and joint problems
    General physical disease
    Handling sexual energy etc.
    Inner peace is a biproduct of doing Qigong. It brings you so much inner tranquility and clarity of mind, which then raises your awareness of your inner energies, and makes you capable of transforming this sexual energy from the semen retention, in the best way possible, to use this sexual energy as the driving force for the desired results you wan to achieve in your life. This is personally for me, one of the coolest benefits of semen retention when doing qi gong! Therefore Qigong is a really great practice, because it helps you crystallizing your mind and remove the pollution from your monkey mind, it makes you see clearly and know where to go on your journey. The practice of Qigong helps with managing stress, anger, anxiety, grief, depression, negative though patterns, brain fog etc. If you wish to learn more about the art and science of chinese energy healing and qigong, I suggest you check out this book ”The Way of Qigong: The Art and Science of Energy Healing”, It’s a really comprehensive and well-researched book, that is perfect for the beginner and even the advanced practitioner of Qigong. It explains the Qigong exercises as well as scientific and medical background on how it works.
    Maybe you’ve heard about energy blocks before, maybe not? But what I mean by energy blocks, is the same as, if you are on semen retention let’s say, and you’re completely rejecting your sexual location of your body, and just trying to distract yourself from it, you’re also rejecting the sexual energy and power that is building up. That avoidance of that energy and area, is then creating an energy block in that sexual area, which is then going to create all these physical and mental problems for you, if you don’t start to circulate this sexual energy around. Many people and monks who have tried to attain spiritual enlightenment, by doing very tough and daunting meditation techniques and other spiritual work, has damaged their body greatly, for not clearing their energy blocks, before going into this brutal meditation exercises, we don’t want to do that, we are only looking to gain the semen retention benefits, and not the disadvantages.
    Here are some really good exercises for transmuting your sexual energy via these of Qigong, you can use, when doing Semen Retention, trust me the benefits will be mind boggling! You should definetely check these exercises out, and the information available on this site!
    By the way, I think it is also important to mention, that Qigong is not associated with any cult or religious beliefs, it is an exercise typically used in the eastern world, to be able to handle ones internal energy, and gain the benefits, which is then useful for you as you’re doing semen retention.
    Semen Retention benefits VS. NoFap benefits – What is the difference?
    Semen retention benefits and NoFap benefits are actually not that far from each other. NoFap has these different modes of NoFap, like monk mode, hard mode, light mode, normal mode etc, and they all mean something different.
    Let me just recap the different NoFap modes here, so you know what I am talking about..
    NoFap Light Mode
    You are allowed to engage in all physical sexual activity (You can masturbate, have sex or whatever..)
    No porn or fantasizing allowed
    Doesn’t really give many benefits
    NoFap Normal Mode
    You are not allowed to fap at all
    You are allowed to have sex with a partner
    Gives decent amount of benefits
    NoFap Hard Mode
    Strictly forbidden to fap at all times
    You are not allowed to have sex
    No porn, fantasizing, teasing thoughts etc. is allowed
    Gives a good amount of benefits
    NoFap Monk Mode
    Strictly forbidden to fap at all times
    Strictly forbidden to have sex at all times
    No toxic behavior of any kind (Quitting bad habits, Social media, etc.)
    Literally going full monk
    Best and fastest way to gain NoFap benefits
    VS.
    Semen Retention
    Allowed to engage in any sexual activity, as long as you are not leaking any drop of semen, you are allowed to orgasm via the help of Karezza and or NEO’s (will explain more in depth further down in the article)
    You are by the rules allowed to watch porn on Semen Retention, but you’re still blocking for some deeper benefits on semen retention when watching porn, as it is low consciousness and can damage your psyche, perception of the world etc.
    Critique on Semen Retention
    People don’t believe in the benefits of Semen Retention, because they don’t know how sexual energy is getting transmuted!
    I believe that NoFap is currently much more accepted on the web, compared to Semen Retention. Many people think of Semen Retention benefits as the biggest bullshit thing ever, that the semen is so valuable and so on. I understand that peoples egos wants to find something wrong with everything, but seriously, if you have an open mind and do some in depth research on the benefits of semen retention and how it all actually works, it should be so obvious that semen retention has some seriously positive benefits. I think we will see both the NoFap and Semen Retention communities grow much more from now on and many years into the future, maybe it will take form in new names, and new ways of doing it, but I am sure people will be more and more conscious of the way they use their semen. Especially if people started to use exercises like Karezza and NEO’s. It’s a win-win situation in my opinion, people just aren’t aware of these opportunities yet.
    I believe that the active community of semen retention is more mature and has maybe a bigger audience of people, typically adults who have studied things like Chinese medicines, acupuncture, qigong etc. although this is very raw and generalized, I believe this is how it is 
    Nofap is more a starters stepping stone towards personal development for a younger audience, and older of course, but I think you can spot a difference in the maturity on the two subreddits – Not to diss on NoFap at all, I am just as much a supporter of NoFap as I am of Semen Retention, but in the online communities, I feel like the debate in Semen Retention is much more meaningful and deeper than NoFap, and you can have some seriously good debates in the semen retention subreddit.
    NoFap and Semen Retention is exponentially growing communities
    But I feel like the world is currently in a very chaotic state of collective mind, but at the same time, the light of hope is growing brighter for each day. It’s like so much chaos is going on, but at the same time people are waking up. More and more people are moving away from atheism, and turn towards buddhism, hinduism, zen buddhism, new age stuff etc. People need something bigger nowadays, and I feel like NoFap and Semen Retention is playing a big role in this collective awakening of society, as it reminds us of our organic homeostatic biological nature, and gives us semen retention benefits such as peace and balance in a super hectic world, because none of us can handle this stress all the time. Not only NoFap and Semen Retention is growing communities, just look at Meditation like mindfulness, visualization, yoga and so on, it’s really fascinating and definitely exciting times to be alive! The benefits of semen retention and nofap really has the powers to wake up the world!
    Check out the two subreddits here
    https://www.reddit.com/r/Semenretention/
    https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/
    Can Seminal Retention Cure Porn-Induced Erectile Dysfunction?
    Sure, Seminal Retention or Semen Retention and even NoFap has the ability to help you with PIED, but you can’t rely on these tools only. You also have to practice energy work such as Qigong or other exercises like Hatha Yoga or maybe a combination of running and meditation and so on.
    Imagine if you’re only focusing on your sexual location on your body, then all your energy is stuck there, where your attention goes, energy flows. That is then blocking your blood flow to your veins, which can then lead to Porn-Induced Erectile Dysfunction.
    So start doing Semen Retention or NoFap and combine it with an exercise that is focusing on internal and external movement. I would suggest you to do Qigong, Meditation and Yoga, several times a week, for the optimal benefits of semen retention. Many people also combine NoFap or Seminal Retention with cold showers, fasting, weightlifting etc. Which is also of great benefit! Experiment and see what works for you, but remember to don’t be too hard on your body.
    Can Semen Retention Help With Hair Loss?
    Absolutely! Just dig around the internet a bit, and you’ll find literally tons of reports and reviews of people doing nofap and semen retention, who have reported that their hairline is coming back and their hair is getting much thicker and feels more healthy, also their skin is much better and many people even cured their acne, thanks to seminal retention! This just tells you something about the amazing powers semen has.
    So, what is the science behind this harloss?
    Hair loss is often due to too high Prolactin levels in the body, which then screws not only with your hair, but also internal biological systems, that maintain your hair and so on, so you’re just seeing the outer damage, not the inner. Excessive release of Dopamine by the Hypothalamus also inhibits Prolactin’s secretion. And as you may know, everytime you jerk off, you’re releasing dopamine.
    Check out this article here, for more information on the study of prolactin and hair loss…
    How To Lower High Prolactin Levels in Men?
    Primarily, Prolactin is responsible for stimulating the process of milk production in women, so they can breastfeed their kids (lactogenesis). This Prolactin is found in men as well, actively functioning in over 300 seperate processes. It’s recognized as a hormone with multiple purposes, with one of the widest ranges physiological actions of any hormone.
    It’s super important for salt and water regulation, metabolism, reproductive behavior, immune system, hormones, the brain and general overall health mentally and physically.
    High prolactin levels in homo sapiens, is often associated with nurturing and parenting behaviors.
    In women, prolactin can both strongly increase or decrease ones sexual desire, but this depends on various factors.  In men, prolactin suppresses sexual behavior in rats.
    Higher levels of prolactin decrease the level of estrogen in women and testosterone in men. Although it’s more profound in women.
    Normal levels of prolaction enhances testosterone and sperm creation.
    Nonpregnant Women4-23 nanograms per milliliter (ng/mL) or 4-23 micrograms per liter (mcg/L)
    Men3-15 ng/mL or 3-15 mcg/L
    Pregnant Women34-386 ng/mL or 34-386 mcg/L
    Children3.2-20 ng/mL or 3.2-20 mcg/L
    High prolactin in males can cause:
    Infertility
    Low testosterone
    Low sexual desire
    Erectile dysfunction
    A small benign tumor (microprolactinoma) is found in the pituitary of over one-third of women with high levels of prolactin.
    Hair loss
    Low prolactin is associated with ovary dysfunction in women.
    In men low prolactin is associated with:
    Low testosterone
    Erectile dysfunction
    Premature ejaculation
    Low sperm count
    Reduced sperm motility
    Decreased function of seminal vesicles
    In one study on low prolactin in men, normal sperm function was restored when prolactin levels were raised back to their correct values.
    In mice without prolactin receptors, the hair cycle is disrupted such that shedding occurred earlier and there was a reduced duration of the telogen phase.
    For more in depth information about prolactin, I suggest you take a look at this article.
    Supplements that decrease prolactin levels
    Mucuna
    Ginseng (Very powerful)
    Uridine + Glutamine
    Ginko Balboa
    What is Karezza / Non Ejaculatory Orgasm (NEO)
    A non ejaculatory orgasm, is a way to reach orgasm(s), without leaking your valuable semen. It’s accomplished by masturbating or having sex, but having intense control of your penis, you’re controlling your leakage of semen. So you’re literally riding the waves of edging, to such an extent that you reach a dry orgasm or a non ejaculatory orgasm.
    The word Karezza comes from the Italian word ”Carezza” which means ”Caress” in english. It’s almost like a yogic form of sexual interaction between a man and a woman. The intend in this sexual continence of Karezza or Coitus reservatus, is to have deep, spiritual and meaningful intercourse, by controlling the ejaculation of the man. Instead of ejaculating, the man attempts to remain at the plateu phase, where he never climaxes full on with ejaculation, but rather climaxes on the waves of upcoming orgasms, for as long as possible, which then results in a real orgasm, without ejaculating. This is quite interesting, and people have reported some really crazy benefits from doing this sexual tantric intercourse! I will tell you how to do Karezza in details in just a moment, don’t worry – But first, I just want to share this Karezza report from a reddit user, which I found really amazing and inspiring as well!
    Karezza / Non Ejaculatory Orgasm (NEO) Report From A Reddit User
    ” For one, it lasted for an hour and a half. I have never had sex for so long in my life (I’m 25, male). Everything was extremely slow, and pretty soon we were both in a state of intoxication as a result of being so deliberate and methodical with our bodies. We began to feel much more of every little sensation that comes with contact; brushing ankles together felt intense, I grabbed her hand and she felt chills down her whole body, the whole experience was like this.
    Towards the end, I expressed to her a desire for us both to try and see what an orgasm would feel like, even though I know that we need to avoid such things for karezza to be true karezza. We both indulged each other, and I can say, unequivocally, that the orgasm was intense, but not as intense as the moments of bliss that we were both experiencing throughout the night. If anything, the orgasm took both of us out of our blissful awareness of our bodies, which I attribute to the dopamine crash that I’ve read about. I even felt the effect of wanting to flee, of wanting to get away, but I am now aware of why that happens, so I managed to ignore it enough so that I still want to see her again.
    It all makes perfect sense now. There is no need for an orgasm, and anyone who has not tried karezza-style sex yet for fear of lack of orgasms, let me be the one to tell you that I had never known what heights of ecstasy were possible during sex, and the orgasm itself was far less pleasurable than the sex itself. Whoever thought to eradicate the orgasm from the sexual experience totally validated their idea with me and my partner’s experience last night.
    We both came away from that experience astonished. Karezza / Non Ejaculatory Orgasm changes my entire perception of sex. Many of the insecurities that people typically feel with sex, such as not being “good” at it, not having enough experience or whatever insecurity that can be performance-based, karezza dispels all of that. Everyone is good at cuddling. Everyone is good at moving so slowly that every single thrust, spread out minutes between each other, is so incredibly powerful, that there is no need for worry about how you will perform. There is no pressure. Even when my erection was less strong than it normally was, it didn’t matter, our hands were so charged that every caress had the impact a deep thrust would have had.”
    I hope this helped you to understand the depth and meaningful experience of Karezza, I was just really fascinated by his report of Karezza / Non ejaculatory orgasm, and it just says something about how rare this is in our society today, but this may be the sexual intercourse tool that we do need, to reestablish our personal deep connection to each other again, and become more present and gain the ultimate semen retention benefits.
    Source: https://www.reddit.com/r/karezza/comments/uftxe/first_time_with_karezzastyle_sex_last_night/
    How To Do Karezza / Non Ejaculatory Orgasm (NEO)?
    There is no exact step-by-step guide on how to do karezza, it’s all about how you want to do it, and the personal connection you to your partner. Although, the setting should be very relaxed, gentle, yin-yang attitude and some sort of spiritual mindset is needed to go into this intercourse. It’s a very gentle and soft intercourse, that requires you to whisper sweet words into her ears, accept her fully, accept yourself fully and go with the flow of love, let love itself take you, and be moved by that, and not thoughts or anything else, be present in the love, and you’ll be navigated around automatically, whatever your intuition tells you to do, follow that with full love and understanding.
    Lay side by side, or on top of each other, keep the penetration slow, soft and gentle to avoid any ejaculation and orgasm. The more you turn each other on, the more the connection will be vibrating and the love will be turned up in volume. Try to do the following things, without causing an orgasm:
    Give gentle kisses all over your partners body
    Whisper in your partners ear and compliment him or her
    Look into each others eyes with full love
    Kiss softly each others lips, eventually a soft bite in his/her underlip
    Make wordless sounds of contentment or pleasure in front of your partner
    Massage your partner
    Hug your partner with the intent to comfort them and eventually tell him/her that you love the person
    Comfort your partners genitals
    Make it a room full of acceptance, love and spiritual connection!
    The more often you do this Karezza, the more your semen retention benefits will grow
    Make a nice scenery, before doing Karezza, sprinkle flowers over your bed and play some soft music, eventually buy some chocolate 
    What is The Goal of Karezza / Non Ejaculatory Orgasm (NEO)
    The goal with Karezza / Non Ejaculatory Orgasm, is to create a much higher vibrating connection with your partner and to become more loving, accepting and intimate with each other. This is one of the ultimate semen retention benefits, Increased closeness you could say. Give it a try for atleast a month and see what happens, I almost promise you, that if you do it the correct way, you’re doomed to have tons of benefits in your relationship and your personal life as well, you will be much more comfortable and less neurotic in your day to day life, start to appreciate the world and yourself so much more!
    In case you want to go deeper and want to learn more about Karezza, I highly suggest you check out: Cupid’s Poisoned Arrow: From Habit to Harmony in Sexual Relationships by Marnia Robinson
    What Are The Benefits of Semen Retention / Karezza / Non Ejaculatory Orgasm?
    Helps with bladder problems
    Helps with painful menstruation
    Helps with prostate cancer
    Gives you more energy in life
    Gives you more confidence
    Gives you a more loving perspective towards the world and other people
    More calmness and less neurotic behavior
    Overall a better health on all levels, physically, psycholygically and emotionally

    I hope you were able to get some valuable information from this ultimate guide to semen retention benefits and NoFap benefits anno 2019!
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  22. Escaping wage slavery went like shit... But I grew a lot!
    Escaping wage slavery went like shit... But I grew a lot!
    Hey there, I just want to share my experience of escaping wage slavery. I didn't achieve it, everything basically went like shit, but I experienced some deep growth from it!
    So, back in late 2017, I wanted to become financially independent with affiliate marketing. I made one sell, however, most products on popular platforms were low-quality products that I didn't like, so I stopped everything. I was also in a work environment where I was bullied a lot, I was quite depressed, and I decided to quit this job.
    At the beginning of 2018 I went back to my parents' house, in March/April I started to work on a SAAS app. At this time I was very angry at the world and more particularly with my father (which I hated). I also found a new job located more than one hour away from my hometown. Concerning the web app I didn't know many of the technologies that I needed, so I learned on the way.
    For several months I had to do more than two hours of traffic every day, I was working on my computer in the bus and was really tired. I was also stressed by putting a lot of pressure on myself. Sometimes I was very productive, sometimes less productive and I was very hard on myself. I was telling me things like: "Some people are working 70 to 80 hours a week, so stop complaining about your life and go fucking do it!", and was unable to do any work. Hard masculine compassion (like Leo did in some videos) didn't work pretty well for me. Because of this the day after I would backslide and speak negatively to myself and be depressed, then another day I would try to catch up the loosed time by working late and sleeping only four hours. I was also at this period of time going to the gym five times per week, at 5 AM.
    Finally, one day, the pressure becomes so hard with all the work, stress about my productivity, and all the intense hate against my father that I had a panic attack, the first of my entire life. I was very scared and thought I was going to die, I had difficulty to breathe and was very thirsty. I almost didn't sleep of the night but managed to calm down by doing some deep breathing.
    This experience really calmed me down. Days and weeks after this, I didn't stop working on my app, but I was calmer. I also had several other panic attacks, but their intensity decreased more and more in time. Two or three months after my first attack I moved into the city where I was working, to not have to work in the bus. I was alone by myself, I didn't have and still don't have a lot of money, but I'm more independent now.
    Concerning the project, I really underestimated the complexity of making a web application. I had to redo many things, work that I didn't do right, unexpected changes, etc. I basically tried to build something too complex, and it didn't even get off the ground. So I feel a little fucked up.
    Now, something that I really didn't expect to happen was spiritual growth. After my last panic attack three or four months ago (who wasn't very intense), I had some deep spiritual growth which I didn't expect. I learned that acceptance is one of the most powerful things ever and I started to fully accept reality as it is and had some deep feeling of happiness. One day I had a very intense ecstasy feeling when I was in my bed, I was so happy that it was overwhelming and was unable to sleep. Sometimes I was looking at the room where I was sitting and also other things like my body, my hands and was feeling deeply connected and in peace with the world. I was smiling and had some small laughs all alone. I was looking at everything and was like: "Wtf? Wtf is all that? All of this is incredible!" I tried to describe my feelings with words but was unable to do it.
    Right now I'm so grateful of everything that happened to me, so grateful that I've experienced those panic attacks, so grateful that I'm alive and exist. All of this is incredible, Even though I'm still a wage slave, I've learned a lot about myself and about web development. I did many mistakes from which I learned and feel more authentic and more happy with my life, even if don't have anything fancy.
    I'm continuing my journey now

  23. I let myself pursue sex again after Leo's recent posts
    I let myself pursue sex again after Leo's recent posts
    So I feel like I progress on my path, but I'm a baby Leo; After he's recently posted many posts on Dating about one night stands and picking up women, clubing and so on, he enabled me to pursue sex again. It's liberating, but at the same time I see that I'm super dependent on his ideology. Should I break free? What do you think? 

  24. I let myself pursue sex again after Leo's recent posts
    I let myself pursue sex again after Leo's recent posts
    @Amadeusz You young people who follow me have to understand that I talk about extremely advanced stuff (nowadays). Really, really, really advanced stuff! It took me tens of years of earthly development before I got to the lofty topics I'm now covering. There are many earthly materialistic development topics which I hardly cover at all even though they are very important for the average viewer.
    It's sort of like I'm teaching a college calculus class but you walk in by accident as a 5th grader. You need to handle the basics first.
    What most of you guys need is some basic Tony Robbins shit. Do some of that before you try to get all spiritual. Be mindful of getting ahead of your skiis.

  25. little insight
    little insight
    The female equivalent of pickup is maintaining a social circle. Girls are sponteneously much more social than guys. Becausw that's how they survive.