Diane

Amazing things that happened today: Even if I was tired after the internship I went directly to the library to study for a bit. In spite of the weather forecast it didn't rain, at least not on me!! I'm more and more committed!! Ways I could have made today better: Waking up earlier and reviewing some questions of the bar exam's written part. Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist: Going to the internship; Studying. What I learned: I'm not superwoman, yet, but I'm on my way!!!

Things I'm excited about today: Being positive!! Being mindful of the importance and the impermanence of every moment I get to live. Growing!!

Like an ovary I was thinking about the concept of being detached from results and this image came into my mind: it's like being an ovary that works incessantly throughout the whole month to produce a single egg cell that most of the times doesn't even get used.. And then the cycle starts again, till the end of the ovary's "active" life... We should definitely give more credit to our ovaries!!! Amazing things that happened today: I did everything I had and wanted to do with ease, I just surrendered to it and it was amazing!!! This: It's so beautiful it hurts!!! I see repeating 1s more and more often!!! Ways I could have made today better: Expressing and exposing myself more. Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist: Going to the internship; Studying. What I learned: The beauty of just doing things without thinking too much.

Things I'm excited about today: Being ok with what is. Repetita iuvant as my anatomy professor always said.. Being authentic; Being proactive.

Things I'm excited about today: Being ok with what is; Giving my best to everything I do; Money!!!

Dare to be white I spent the past hour and a half watching some Richard Grannon's videos (thank you @Natasha!! ).. I was attracted to the topic "Getting rid of toxic parents" for the fact that I was feeling sad and bitter because of a comment my father indirectly made about me.. One of the things Grannon referred to was the meaning of the lotus flower in Buddhism: the idea of blooming through suffering (I'm aware that I don't know what real suffering is but still..). So I decided to use the image of a lotus flower as my profile picture. I firstly had chosen a pink one, then I saw a white one and my first thought was: "Me? I can't be a pure white lotus, I'm too soiled to be a white lotus!!". So I challenged myself to dare to be white (and more loving and caring of myself!). Amazing things that happened today: I ran!!! I definitely was focused on studying. I'm gradually learning to accept and even befriend fear and resistance. We're in this together so we might as well be kind to one another.. Right, friends?! Ways I could have made today better: Being more cheerful!!! Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist: Studying and preparing for the written part of the bar exam. What I learned: To challenge my map of realty, as Richard Grannon says it.. Maybe it's because of the fact that I didn't meditate every day this week, anyways in the past few days I found myself denying reality as it is and being angry for what is not as I would like it to be.. The map is not the territory and that's perfectly fine.

Things I'm excited about today: Studying studying studying!!! Running. Being focused.

It's Friday!!! This week has been quite intense and different from the others because I had to stand still in the operating room for most of the time and the internship finshed in the late afternoon so that when I got home I didn't have much time nor energies to study and do my routines. I didn't run either.. As a consequence my anxiety level increased a little, nothing serious though. On the hand I learned a lot in the operating room, books really can't describe anatomy as it actually is!!! Today I also helped my tutor with the two surgical operations he had to do, it was amazing!!! It's as if Cardiology was the love of my life and Surgery a little crush that never loses its charm as I don't hang out with it too much... Amazing things that happened today: It was sunny so I went to the internship by bike!! I was confident!!i While I was "operating" there was some very nice background music (an entire playlist of my favorite Italian singer, Jovanotti, and then Alicia Keys, Beyonce and Rihanna)!! Ways I could have made today better: Studying more and preparing for the written part of the bar exam; Running. Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist: Being very focused at the internship. Studying. What I learned: To direct my joy.

I FINISHED THE LIFE PURPOSE COURSE!!! Now let's go back to work... Things I'm excited about today: Learning, learning and learning!! The surgeon I'm doing the internship with gave me a great insight yesterday: I need to be more pragmatic and stop answering questions as if it was an exam. Those times are gone, it's time to do the work and be real now!! He also said that one starts really studying only after graduation, interesting!!! Restarting all my routines from scratch, the past few days have been pretty difficult from that point of view... Being happy with what is.

This dropping shoulds thing is as hard as liberating.. This morning I woke up feeling that I shouldn't have fallen asleep when yesterday evening I laid down to listen to the last five minutes of Leo's video (I shouldn't have gone to bed after dinner with the idea of staying in bed for just a few minutes in the first place...). Then I should have gotten out of bed when I was awake for a moment at 2am.. But here I am, nothing of that happened and I woke up at 4:30, which is actually the hour I want to get up every day at!! Talking about funny things, yesterday I realized that I am a little bit stressed in this period.. When I'm stressed it usually manifests itself as a mild form of angular cheilitis. When it appeared a few days ago initally I didn't understand why because I wasn't feeling as bad as in the past and I was like "how can I be stressed with all the self development work that I'm doing!?!". Finally yesterday at the end of the retreat I realized that the problem is that I feel that I should do more than I'm currently doing, which is actually very close to the best that I can physically do.. "Realistic expectations" right?! Things I'm excited about today: Giving my all and being ok with whatever it is! Learning new things at he internship. The surgeon I am with asks tons of questions, I don't always have the answers but at least I get to learn something new!! Running!!!

Things Is excited about today: Meditating in nature!! This: I don't know if you can sense it from the picture but those roses are amazingly beautiful, it's as if I could feel their beauty!! Being focused and present.

Amazing things that happened today: The mini retreat started very well! Right now I'm prioritizing sleep. I was authentic and followed my heart. Ways I could have made today better: Studying. Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist: No one.. What I learned: To always keep the ultimate objective in mind.

Things I'm excited about today: The retreat I'm going to this afternoon!! We're going to be talking about love, I think it will be very interesting!!! Studying?! Making today a masterpiece!!!

Amazing things that happened today: I saw 11:11 again!!! The conversation I had with the head of Cardiology was very useful and inspiring. There was also a friend of mine's father who was a psychiatrist, he gave me great advices too!! The universe keep telling me to look beyond Italy... I think that if I don't do something in that direction soon stones will start being thrown to me to better remind me of this possibility.. I spent a lovely night out with a group of friends, again!! Ways I could have made today better: Studying more. Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist: Studying. What I learned: To be happy with what is.

Things I'm excited about today: Continuing to manifests things!!! A few minutes ago while trying to solve a problem with my mum's mobile phone I started updating my gratitude journal. Among other things I wrote that I was grateful for having found a solution for that problem. After that I found it in a matter of seconds!!! I had been trying to figure it out for almost an hour and then there it was, unbelievable!! Meeting the head physician I contacted a few days ago. This night's latino dance party!!!

Amazing things that happened today: I studied all day long!! I ran in the rain, it was actually easier than the other days!! I spent a lovely night out with some friends, I'll be seeing them tomorrow too.. I've just realized that I actually manifested both tonight's and tomorrow's events through my vision board!! Ways I could have made today better: Being more focused during the afternoon. Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist: Studying; Preparing for the written part of the bar exam. What I learned: Vision boards are dangerous weapons: they manifest themselves without even notifying you!!

Things I'm excited about today: Studying studying studying!!! Having fun with some friends this evening!! Being a Diva!!

Amazing things that happened today: Apparently I was the first to answer a particular question asked by the doctor I'm doing the internship with. It actually was a basic maths problem but I was the first and therefore the best!!! I ran!! I'm pretty sure I won't be having so much resistance towards running anymore, mostly because I'm conscious that this month I need to have as much energy as possible to prepare for the exams I have in July.. Oh extrinsic motivation!! Authenticity is becomnig a second nature to me!! I learned to ask for help!! It's such a relief to know and believe that I don't have to figure everything out myself, people are actually eager to help!! Ways I could have made today better: Studying. Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist: Going on with the life purpose course.. -1!!! What I learned: To be grounded.

Things I'm excited about today: Starting a new internship!! Being conscious; Being open to life!

Amazing things that happened today: I studied diligently. Yet I feel a bit unsatisfied because I didn't study as much as I wanted to.. Just an other thing to accept I guess... After all, ain't nobody looking for perfection, right!? I was perfectly on time with the weather, it rained almost all day but I managed to run some errands in the morning and to run in the evening without having to open an umbrella/bring a rain slicker!! I've already said it but it's worth repeating: I RAN!!! Ways I could have made today better: Waking up earlier. Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist: Studying. What I learned: I love running but I don't run every day as I would like to.. As I always say mindfulness is the answer to everything!!

Things I'm excited about today: Being kind!! Running!!! Studying!!

Amazing things that happened today: I saw 11:11 when I was about to take a break from studying this morning!!! I guess though that the Angels weren't telling me to make the 15 min break into a 1 hour long one... Or maybe they were!?! I spoke on the phone with the head physycian of the dipartment of Cardiology of a nearby hospital!!! I don't think I will ever get used to all the great things that keep happening from the day that I decided to realize the dream of becoming a Cardiologist!!! It's even poetic, following my heart means getting to know about the heart and my life purpose is to make people healthier through consciousness, in the sense that I want to help people to better understand themselves (and their diseases) so that they can improve their health (in the wide sense of "complete physical, mental and social well-being"). I did go on with the life purpose course!! -3!!! Ways I could have made today better: Taking fewer breaks. Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist: Studying; Preparing for the written part of the bar exam; Calling the above head physician and being calm, present and confident during the call! What I learned: I am powerful beyond any limit I can think of!!

Things I'm excited about today: Living and embodying my life purpose!! Going on with the life purpose course!! I'll use the same attitude I'm using with running: to keep writing it until it somehow manifests itself!! As regards running today I decided to do it in the evening, we'll see how it goes.. Studying!!

Amazing things that happened today: I discovered how much I've changed by interacting with my father. I'm so grateful for all this personal development thing!! It's incredible how I now can look at things as if from a third person point of view and see what is really happening in the moment... I loved myself; I studied!!! Ways I could have made today better: Running!! Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist: Studying; Finally filling the registration form for the competition exam to get into a medical specialization school. I procrastinated a bit on doing this.. I feel a little discouraged because I "start with a disadvantage" for the fact that I can't count on many points related to my previous academic career... But again, I can only accept it and do the most with what I have!!! What I learned: To accept reality as it is.

Things I'm excited about today: Studying, a lot!! Going on with the life purpose course! The closest I get to finishing it, the more faraway the end seems.. Go figure!! Earning some money.