Diane

Alex and Mimi Ikonn are doing a "dream review" and I decided to give it a try. I should have done it before the yearly review but nevermind. I'll use the domains in Michael Hyatt's "LifeScore assessment". My vision of the next five years Spiritual I meditate every day I practice contemplation I trust the Universe Intellectual I am up to date with all the research in my domain I read a lot, personal development material and also lots of different subjects to broaden my culture Emotional I am equanimous I embody the four agreements (be impeccable with your word, don't take anything personally, don't make assumptions, always do your best) I am love Physical I am lean and strong. I run every day and continue to practice CrossFit and Pilates I can dance gracefully on any kind of music Marital I have a wonderful husband that I love, admire and inspire and who loves, admires and inspires me as well. We live in Switzerland, of course. Parental -I'm still not sure if I want to have children but in case...- I am a loving and nurturing mother and I give a good education to my children Social I have a group of friends with common values and aspirations. I see them regularly and we always have a great time together I take part to a lot of work and non work-related events and I network easily I have friends all over the world Vocational (career) I have finally found what "being a healer" means for me I do volunteering work in Burundi Avocational (hobbies) I cook delicious meals for me, my family and my friends Financial I'm debt-free!!! I have an emergency found and a saving account with six months of income I have profitable investments

There's a big win I forgot to mention: money management!!! I've just started so there's still a lot of work to be done but the act of facing my finances itself is a very big win for me!!

So, despite all efforts also 2018 is coming to an end.. It's time!! 2018'S YEAR REVIEW CELEBRATE: It's been a wonderful year!! At the end of 2017 a friend and I used to call 2018 "the year of the breakthrough" and it actually was in many ways!! Wins I need to celebrate of this past year: I moved into my first apartment!! A wonderful place I love and enjoy every day more!! I'm less and less concerned about other people's expectations/opinions. I'm learning to be and at the same time creating "myself". A very present example is that if nothing changes from now then I'll spend New Year's Eve at home by myself. I could easily find a place to go but I decided to take these few day as a mini retreat to recenter myself.. I relaxed. I'm not fully sure it's a "win" but I definitely did this year. I went out a lot, host my mum on Easter, I did a wonderful tour of North Sardinia with a friend in June, spent three weeks in Burundi, I had some Tinder experiences and also went home for Christmas. Oh, and I had an amazing 30th birthday party!!! A part of me is not so proud of all these "achievements".. Now that I think about it, in the last few years there's been some kind of a pattern of grinding during odd-numbered years (in 2015 to graduate and in 2017 to move to Switzerland) and relaxing during even-numbered years. Maybe it's time to move from being a sprinter to running at a constant pace, it's not as appealing but I'll probably get more done and avoid this feeling of not deserving the beautiful things that happen to me. In the end it all comes back to running... Yesterday at CrossFit there was the "Abbate" hero wod, much more running time than usual. For once I followed the coach's advice not to run too fast from the beginning and I was able to finish it before the ones who surpassed me during the first laps... I did the wod with 20kg tough, I could have used a heavier barbell so maybe that helped me too.. What I was doing when I achieved my best results from last year: I actually did not achieve 2018's big goal. I had this idea of getting married/engaged but I did none of the two and I'm happy about it. For what I did achieve, when I did I was focused, determined and willing to do anything to reach my goal. As shallow as it can sound, the first example that comes to my mind is my birthday party, I socialized a lot before it on purpose.. One life lesson I learned from last year: Patience. Had I "manifested" a husband as I wanted to I wouldn't have learned it.. So again, thank you Universe!! One big goal for this year: To be the best I can be. To make it more measurable, here is how I envision my best self right now: Running 5km per day. It's not as "sexy" as scheduling 10km or more runs but if I do this every day I'll be running 35km per week and there's not one week I've run so much in 2018. Doing my morning and evening routines every day. I don't have neither a partner nor a children, there's really no reason I couldn't make it. Studying. A lot!! Not wasting time on social media. Having a 15min per day spot where I use them and no more. Being a great doctor. Actions in the next 3 months for achieving my goal: Making a plan and following it to the letter.

Amazing things that happened recently: I transferred all my notes from EverNote to OneNote. It's really amazing!! Tonight I found out that you can create vocal notes so I recorded the list of everything I had to do this evenin, every item separately in casual order and then I went on doing them (the "fun" being in the fact that I didn't know which was which before opening every audio..). In reality it was Matthew Hussey who actually made me get up and do what I had to do (nothing so difficult per se -things like washing the dishes, washing my teeth and face, emptying the Crossfit bag and the evening routine- but as they say and I now know by experience, what is easy to do is also easy not to do...). I studied!!! I (re)started using Goodbudget, this time with much more consciousness. It was a bit painful facing my financial truths.. I realized that I had this kind of mentality: "Money is to be spent, as fast as possible".. I don't know where it came from but it's definitely the money mantra I've been repeating to myself in the past two years.. Now I have a "Sexy saving" account, because saving IS sexy!! How could I have made these days even better? Not procrastinating. Running more!!

Amazing things that happened today: I (kind of...) saved a life!! I helped a neighbor remove a stitch her doctor hadn't removed completely.. All this in her kitchen!! And she's still alive!! While reading the book "How to get rich" by Feliz Dennis, I had a flash about one of my earliest visualization sessions when I saw myself working just for passion, not for money. Maybe it came out of the life purpose course.. I had forgotten about it.. Again, thank you Universe!! I adulted!! - "to adult" is a verb so it can be conjugated, right!? - Anyway, I'm surrounded by wonderful people!! How could I have made today even better? Accepting and acting on the fact that "cheerfulness is the best attitude and the best strategy towards solving problems in life". I went out with some colleagues this evening to see the movie "Bohemian Rapsody" and I definitely was a bit under the weather.. I went on and "accepted" the fact that I was sad and that it was okay. Hopefully the next time I'll remember Leo's words.. Watering my poor poor orchid.. I should have done it on Tuesday.. I'll do it now but I'm afraid it's too late even for the last branch..

Amazing things that happened today: I decided that my evening routine is a must, even if I still have tons of things to do. I didn't give in to sadness. I'm more flexible and accepting. I don't beat myself up for not having written in the last month, I start from now and I've also shortened the number of questions so that it's easier and takes less time. Maybe I'll buy the Five Minute Journal for 2019, I'm not sure though. How could I have made today even better? Really giving my best during today's wod!!! It's such a pity knowing that I could have done more!!

You're alive. Act like it!! Just a quick reminder to the me who was about to cry because I didn't find the phone cover that was supposed to be arrived at the post office two days ago. I'm a bit stressed for the whole moving to Switzerland thing so I easly get depressed.. Yet I know that "everything is figureoutable" (as Marie Forleo says..). I just needed a reminder. Thank you Universe for always having my back, and thanks to Gabrielle Bernstein for this concept.

I wish I was a poet I wish I was a poet to be able to summarize in a few words the last month. But I'm not, at least not yet.. So I'll just write everything that comes to my mind as it comes.. I'm happy and very conscious about it. I just had a flash about the fact that you generally find love when you are happy by yourself. The great thing is that what I feel is kind of a humble happiness. I see things (or people) I want but I know that I'll be happy without them too. I was thinking about what exactly made me happy and this post came to my mind.. Anyway, I have a lot of things to love and be happy and grateful for: I had a great birthday party, it was really amazing!! Nothing hyper fancy, we had a few drinks and something to eat at a bar but it really was a wonderful night, everyone had a good time!! Yesterday was Friday night, I had plans to go out with some girls of the rock climbing course but in the end we canceled the night out and went home after training and I couldn't be happier!! Who would have said that a dinner alone eating gnocchi al pesto with a glass of wine and the perspective of writing here could make me so much happy!?! Freedom!!! I blocked two guys I had met on Tinder so now I don't have to put up with hot&coldness anymore!!! I have a good life in general and beautiful things keep happening to me.. Like the videos I find on youtube. Two examples of that are Gabrielle Bernstein and Tom Bilyeu and his hosts.. Here are some of the gems I got from them: Those who are certain of the outcome can afford to wait, and wait without anxiety. Gabrielle Bernstein Anyone can change the world by changing themselves. Kyle Cease No person has ever broken your heart, they broke your expectations. And by breaking your expectations, they get you closer to your heart. The only thing we have is the present moment to enjoy, we don't own anyone. Kyle Cease In this month I also practiced being comfortable while being uncomfortable and managing my anxiety.. Organizing and preparing for my birthday party was a bit stressful but I went for it anyway and it was awesome!! The following weekend my parents came to visit me, we had the best of times but there were some issues with transportation.. The day they came here there was a general strike but they made it to take the plane, albeit with some difficulty.. The day they left the train to the airport was late and they had to take the next plane.. While booking that next plane, at a certain point I told myself out loud: "stay calm D, we're solving it!!". So here I am.. Hopefully this month I'll be more regular with my routines and all the other things I have to do (and be!! ).

@Hellspeed

Amazing things that happened in the last 10 days: I reconnected with a friend. I love her and she loves me, we're just one crazier than the other!! I'm learning equanimity, to accept things, and people, as they are. I'm learning to be an adult or, as Mel Robbins says, to parent myself. Ways I got closer to being my authentic self: I went out with some colleagues and today I spent the night out with a friend. Yep, I did practice. I ran the first 10km of the season. If I could relive the last 10 days I would: Study more. Deep work time: 13 hours and 30 minutes!! What I learned: The hard way is the easy way.

STOP I feel a bit confused.. Where am I going? What do I want? Am I doing the right things? So let's review the basics.. My life purpose is: "to do plenty of research and public speaking to make people healthier through consciousness".. Which ultimately means I need to be more conscious myself. So it's a good thing that I try to meditate every day. Ok. Then there's my professional life. I actually know what I have to do, I just need to make myself do it. Last but not least there's my love life.. I had the best of dates last week (really, it was perfect in every single detail, we kissed while saying to each other "no, one cannot only live to work"..).. Yet I know that I want more than "just" great sex.. As Eddie Pinero would say: the problem is belief. I don't see it right here right now so I feel sad.. Guess I just needed a reminder to "just keep swimming".. And loving, everything and everybody. Because even if no one came, I will have loved. And that's the only thing that matters. Amen.

Amazing things that happened in the last week: I find myself happy more and more often. It just happens, without anything in particular happening I feel happy and content!! Today, while re-programming my schedule, I looked a bit at the grades I gave myself in the past months on the various "Big Blocks" on the perfect notebook.. I definitely got better in the relationships and fun&recreations areas, I stayed steadily good for what regards "body time" and in September I was very good in the "personal growth area" (I read a lot and only skipped meditation for 7 days). The big blocks that are suffering most are "professional goals" and "skill building". So now I have one more reason to get myself to study.. I also decided to put off to February the French certification exam so that I have more time to do the courses of speed reading and rapid learning. Today I finally went back to Crossfit, it was A M A Z I N G !!!!! I can't explain how much I had missed it!!! I'll be going only two times a week this month though, so that I won't be forcing too much and I'll have more time to do other things (like running.. and checking up on my health..). Ways I got closer to being my authentic self: I definitely was selfless... I went out for lunch with my colleagues. I ran and I danced!! I went alone to a party (aka bye bye comfort zone!! ). I hosted a friend for a night. If I could relive the last week I would: Study!!! Deep work time: 1 hour and 40 minutes.. I was very very busy!!! What I learned: I'm intimidated by the bulk of what I have to study but really there's no way around: little by little I'll do everything.

Amazing things that happened in the last two weeks: I've just realized that, in spite of everything, I'm finally realizing one of my year's goals: "to make reading a daily habit". I'm currently reading "It's not about the money" by Brent Kessel. It's a great book about getting to know one's deep relationship to money. He talks about 8 basic archetypes. For the moment I totally identify with the pleasure seeker.. So no more credit cards for me... I also should implement a one-day-no-spending routine, or as he calls it "a day of resting from wanting". Doing the exercises in the book I realized that this kind of relationship with money comes from the belief that "I am not enough as I am".. Another advice Kessel gives to pleasure seekers is to be more present in the moment, which is very different from the "you can't take it with you" mindset. Being more conscious and present makes it easier to recognize the deeper feeling that is being anesthetized by the irresistible impulse to buy something.. I guess I've been a bit avoidant on this issue of feeling as not being enough.. The universe then sent me this book and a forced rest from Crossfit as I got a stiff neck I'm still recovering from.. I remember I was so angry for the fact of not being able to train.. Oh, my equanimity!! Instead of using the newfound free time to do all of my routines (I did meditate almost every day though), I re-signed up to Tinder. In spite of the part of me telling me I was wasting my time, in a way it did help me accept myself more... Hopefully I won't always need external approval to feel that I am lovable as I am (not only for my body, there's a guy who's still writing me even if he has already categorized me as a crazy head.. we'll see each other on Sunday). I started the rock climbing course. It's a very mental sport.. I can't say I love it yet but I like the fact that in the end it's just you and the wall.. Also, you can't think too much about what to do because you risk to lose the momentum.. A very powerful lesson!! I am am embodying the value of professionalism by always arriving early at work. Ways I got closer to being my authentic self: Tinder... I've actually already unsubscribed again. The hard way is the easy way, and also more fulfilling.. Today I went out for lunch with my colleagues. Two Saturdays ago I went to a barbecue organized by the rock climbing school If I could relive the last two weeks I would: Study. Deep work time: I've started to use Forest also for meditation, visualization and reading time.. So in the last two weeks I've worked deeply for 10 hours. What I learned: To love myself as I am.

Amazing things that happened in the last 8 days: My "future husband" wrote me out of the blue end ended up giving me the number of one of his friends who lives in the area where I'm going to live in Switzerland!! I am becoming an adult also in the way I write texts: I usually communicated mostly with gifs and memes but now I actually write what I think!! While chatting with my neighbor she told me she's into rock climbing and now I may start rock climbing too!! Ways I got closer to being my best self: I hosted two friends this weekend, it was amazing!!! It's definitely something I see myself doing a lot!! I studied, not much but I did. I decided to have a "senior doctor mindset": instead of whining and getting depressed about what is not going right at work I now act on it and try to find solutions. If I could relive the last 8 days I would: Study more, eat less or at least better and be more active. All this "accepting imperfection" thing sometimes turns into pure laziness and being totally unfocused.. Deep work time: 5 hours and 40 minutes. I am 300 leafs away from planting my first real three with the app Forest!! What I learned: Love is the answer. Love for myself and for others. It's the difference between "grinding" and "working towards my purpose", between the "old" Tim Ferris and this one.. This mentality also helps me to be more empathetic towards the people and situations I encounter every day.

Adulting Today I realized that no one prepares you for it, or at least no one prepared me for it, or maybe they did but I wasn't listening.. So here I am.. With all this personal development stuff I went from a shy silent little girl to not knowing when I'd better keep things for myself.. I'm behind almost with everything I planned to do, nevertheless I accepted new engagements at work. Ok, I just needed to externalize my complaints.. The engagements I took at work are a case report on a rare disease and a research, both things I can't wait to do!! And for the impostor syndrome, as I said I'm not perfect anyway, I just need to make sure I always give my best, which is definitely not what I did today. #failrecommit

Time runs so fast when you're having fun.. I went to Burundi from the 8th to the 24th of August and then right back to work on the 25th. Today I felt a bit overwhlemed, depressed and anxious so I thought it was time to recalibrate.. While in Burundi I wrote this: The good thing about my present self is that I am learning to accept imperfection. I thought I would complete the page before posting it but in the end I decided to accept it as it was and go on. I think it's a form of humility too, I acknowledged that I am not perfect and it's ok anyway. So today I welcomed back my beautiful friend anxiety in my life.. It all began with a feeling of sadness because of some difficulties at work then in the evening I started feeling anxious in a way that I hadn't in a while. Quoting Grant Cardone: "fear only exists in situations that matter". I think that part of my sadness came from te fact that I tend to come back home late from work, which doesn't leave me much time and energies to "mind my own business" in Robert Kiyazaki's words. Fortunately I also know that there is always a solution, "everything is figureoutable"!! It's time!!

My poor computer is not working so I wrote by hand..

Amazing things that happened in the last two week: I RAN TODAY!!!!! The last time was on April 29th... Fortunately I still can run!! I helped a friend with self esteem issues telling her my story and what helped me.. Healing others by healing myself, it could be a good definition for what becoming a healer is about.. I moved!! I moved on July 12th, I loved the apartment at first sight, now little by little I'm starting to see all the little defects here and there.. #highrisemodeon!! Fortunately the benefits still overweight the disadvantages!! One of the advantages is being able to stay out "late" without having to ask or disturb anyone.. For example this evening I went to the summer dinner organized by the Crossfit box I go to. We had a very good time. Also, on Monday I went to a dinner with my colleagues and it was great too!! If I could relive the last two weeks I would: Spend less, if no time on Facebook!! Deep work time: Idk, maybe one hour... What I learned: "Balanced days create a balanced life". It's a quote I came up with more than one year ago I think.. Today it came to my mind when I decided to stop cleaning to start doing something else..

Amazing things that happened in the last two days: I received a great lesson about being an adult. As silly as it sounds I "learnt" that it's never a good idea to accept an invitation "just to get the chance to practice dating"... So I canceled the "almost date". The incredible thing is that the guy was just like "ok, nevermind". I also met him by chance today and he greeted me as if nothing happened. From my point of view he's probably a serial killer but he might also just be an emotionally mature person.. Eddie Pinero did a Ted Talk!! Lately I've been living my days a little randomly, it was a good thing to open my mind to accepting imperfection yet I think I ended up missing the point of it all, like when I found myself wondering why I do what I do or yesterday after realizing I had just accepted a date from a guy I wasn't minimally interested in.. Thank God I can always count on Eddie (and the universe using friends to let me see things as they are..)!!! Crossfit. I probably won't qualify for the competition I registered in but preparing for it was a good life lesson, very humbling.. If I could relive the last two days I would: Study. Deep work time: None... What I learned: I actually can have it all, a disciplined and fulfilling life with also moments of relaxation and fun.

Amazing things that happened this week: I'm moving to an apartment!! I'll effectively be moving next week but I already have the keys of the apartment.. It's not Versailles but it will be my first time really by my own. One of the reasons I had decided to stay in a dorm like the one I'm in right now (very close to staying in a convent in the end, it's run by nuns, we have a curfew and we cannot let men in..) is that I wanted to prevent myself from expressing the fifty shades of h* in me... But now I'm more like: why not? Despite the force of my sex drive I know I am a responsible person and I can trust myself. I already have an almost date with a guy I had met at the Crossfit box I used to go to.. My BFF also suggested me to try Tinder, we'll see!! I think that my subconscious mind has suddenly realized that: 1) I'm almost 30 so if not now when?! 2) I'm about to leave a wonderful place so I'd better enjoy it full while I still can.. As always I did some research on the topic and the best answer came from Elliott Hulse: It all comes back to working on becoming the best (or the "strongest", as he says) version of yourself. I was firstly a little bit disappointed by the fact that the guy I was talking about didn't start texting me all day long as soon as he had my number, but in the end it's actually a good thing, I shouldn't be texting all the time anyway. Today I meditated!!! I'm sooo behind with all the personal development thing... Fortunately I didn't quit forever!! Fail-recommit, to quote Elliott Hulse again.. I have a lot of people around me and I'm learning to share my life and let myself be seen. I feel more and more anxious in the process but I know it's a good thing, maybe I didn't feel so much anxiety over the last year just because I had built a very strong cage around myself that kept me "safe" but also distant from other people. If I could relive this week I would: Get organized. Deep work time: None.. What I learned: To love and enjoy the imperfection of the present moment even if aspiring to greater things. It's similar to what I wrote on Monday but it's really something I keep learning every day!!

Amazing things that happened in June: "I have good benchmarks". I don't remember the exact context but I found myself worrying about my first world problems and fortunately came to see them as they were: petty and easily solvable!! "The universe brings me on the right pathway". So I had a 48 hours long Facebook flirt with a guy, it was so intense we were already scheduling a weekend together.. Then he stopped writing me out of the blue, just because I hadn't answered to a message in time.. In the end I'm grateful for that, we were definitely going too fast!! "Honor and glorify the Lord with your life". It's a phrase they sometimes say at the end of a Mass. I liked it already before knowing about enlightenment, now I know (and someday I will experience) that "I am God". It's a good purpose to honor and glorify the Goddess that I am. A few days ago I had a few moments of total depression and couldn't find an answer to the question: "why? why do all the things I do or wish I did?". And then I remembered how in the Genesis God created all things and "saw that it was good". In Italian they use the word "beautiful" and I like it even more. So yeah, I shall continue to do what I do "because it's beautiful".. Who knew the words from the Bible would have helped me that much... "I want to be a doctor". I did a night shift with our director and while having dinner he asked me what is my ultimate professional purpose. I tried to explain my wonderful concept of "making people healthier through consciousness" and he said that I was actually describing the job of a doctor... It's funny and sad at the same time.. The good thing is that he said that I am already doing all of those things!! If I could relive this month I would: Give my all, the true one... Deep work time: Too little. What I learned: To enjoy the present even while preparing for the future.

Amazing things that happened today: I'm writing here for the second day in a row, a great success!!! I'm transitioning into a new ward so I'm coming back home pretty early, it's amazing to have time to do things with calm. Crossfit, it's always a great place to stay in!! Ways I could have made today even better: Waking up earlier. Deep work time: 30 minutes. What I learned: I've been binge watching Empire last week and I can proudly say I have no regrets!! Things get really dark in the third season fortunately, I stopped there..

Amazing things that happened in the last 17 days: Oh Gosh, so many things!! Fortunately I made a list but it doesn't include what happened today.. Today I went to a course about delivering bad news to patients. I found it very comforting and liberating to discover that there are protocols also on things like this, sometimes I'm a bit too cold with patients because of the fear of getting too involved.. And finally I have the confirmation that it's never a good idea to be the doctor of someone you love. Prince ea. Shall we talk about this guy's Talent?!!! "It's the little things that make big difference". When I first watched it I was of course focused on a romantic relationship but it can apply to every kind of relationship, the problem is that sometimes I don't know what to do, what is he little thing that can make up for a mistake, or even if it is worth it trying to fix a mistake.. I am loved even with my yellow teeth!! It was a profound realization I had while talking with a friend after an epic fight. She made me realize that I don't have to be perfect, it's ok if I'm not in front of others and also in front of myself.. All things that I already knew in theory.. But I hadn't fully accepted them emotionally yet. It was one of the most liberating moments of my life! I know now that I can be loved as I am and I am already, it's a good to aspire to be better but not being there already doesn't mean I'm not worthy of being loved and listened to (the other liberation was finally acknowledging that I can trust people and I can talk about my problems, there are other people who will listen lovingly to my problems, my ex boyfriend wasn't the only one I could open up to..). #onmywaytobecomingasuperhealer!! Authenticity. It stems from the point above, I can be me 100%, the world won't collapse, I actually risk to be more loved/liked. It's a slow process but I think the first step was the most difficult one, clear sailing from here on out.. Sardinia love. Now that I have less that a year left to stay in Sardinia I'm discovering all the good reasons not to go... I went to a local festival and spent an amazing night out surrounded by local traditions!! There's a profound "patriotism" here and I'm starting to feel it too... There is always time. A few days ago I decided not to run as planned to stay at home and study. I ended up spending more time on fb and Pinterest than what I had spent between preparing, running, coming back and even take a nap... Consciousness is King!! Ways I could have made the last 17 days even better: Being more productive. Deep work time: Officially (but maybe also unofficially) 3 hours and 10 minutes. What I learned: To be me.

Amazing things that happened today: I've just finished watching "The notebook" (yep, the "honest" trailer is better than the official one...). In the "honest" trailer they say that it gives unrealistic expectations about love yet I think it was exactly what I needed, I was starting to lower my expectations... So thank you Nicholas Sparks!! Yesterday night I did a 18km long pilgrimage, it was very instructive and eye-opening. On one hand to stop complaining about everything as there are people who have to travel even longer distances walking and on the other hand in view of an eventual marathon.. I haven't been running very much lately, I definitely have to get back on track on that too.. A few days ago I was about to start PMSing again but this time I fought back and incredibly succeeded!!! I finally remembered that I am in control of what I feel, there may be a pinch of depression lying at the bottom but I'm determined not to be its puppet anymore!!! Ways I could have made today even better: As way too frequently, having a plan and following it. Deep work time: I did study a bit but I didn't use Forest... I discovered some interesting things about EKG interpretation.. I would have been a great Cardiologist!! Now I'll be a great yet undefined thing... Becoming a healer in the end is somewhat a boomerang, it circles back to becoming the best version of myself.. Yet sometimes I do "make people healthier through consciousness".. It's a strange loop!!! What I learned: Patience and surrender.

Amazing things that happened in the last 8 days: Today I saw this video about being a "Proverb 31 woman" Yet another thing I didn't know about the bible.. What hit me was the fact that in spite of being from the Bible it perfectly described what I want to become, at least metaphorically. Sometimes I get a little sad about not having a man in my life, I've listened to so many advice that I wonder why I don't even have a date. At the same time fortunately I am immensely grateful for my life. I don't know if and when I will find The One, until then, as always, all I can do is my best. The only note I took was "Crossfit music". I'm totally in love with Crossfit, and that day the music was particularly perfect!! Ah, and I've also found the perfect gear for the summer!! The universe still has my back. Last night I had a night shift and today I had decided to go play soccer with some colleagues in the afternoon. This morning I started having some pain from mittelschmertz but I told myself: "David Goggins ran a marathon with pneumonia, who am I to cancel on a play with colleagues because of an egg??". Yet I could barely walk, running was really painful. In the end I took a nap in the afternoon and ended up being too late to go... Ta-da!! Ways I could have made the last eight days even better: As way too often: having a plan and following it. Deep work time: Two hours. What I learned: The brain gives you more of what you do, not what you want. Thank you @Dan Behm