Romazho

I think since I have watched the "What is reality" video late at night trying to fall asleep, I have started to develop the "Main Character Syndrome". It was my second time watching this video, but when I woke up it didn't really affect me. I only noticed it when I was at the gym (a couple of days later), I still thought about it from day to day, but nothing too serious. Until, one day when I was at the gym. Usually, the gym is pretty packed, but this day, it was kind of empty. So, I just sat on a leg machine, looked around the gym, and the idea of reality being an imagination came to me. After this idea, I just started looking differently at the people around me. I was trying to see if they are real or just bots walking around who are trying to act like what I would imagine would make sense to me. The entire time I was at the gym, I thought that I was like the main character of this imagination. But, then I came back home and it faded away after a couple of hours. From time to time, I still get this feeling, but nothing like the first time it happened. Occasionally, I try to force it (because it's a cool feeling), but it doesn't work as the first time. Do you also experience this perspective? How often? Am I regressing into a narcissist or is it part of the development? I also took the narcissism test that Leo have posted on his blog, I got 11/40 and I took the test very seriously (took me like 15-20 minutes).

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hoooooooooooooooooooollllllllllly shet I just did a 20 minutes session and that was crazy. I never experienced something like that before... I tried to do 30, but I just could not do it and I don't know why I stopped... I just gave up. Maybe because it was physically demanding. My fingers forced themselves into a weird position after 10 minutes (especially my thumb). I was doing like the meditation pose with my finger without even wanting to do it in the first place, it just happened. My fingers started tingling after like 1 or 2 minutes into it. I don't remember what I was thinking about during the session... After I stopped, I realized that my whole fucking forearm was numb and it took like 10 minutes for it to get to be normal again. After that I raised my arms above my head (I am still laying down) and my fingers started to feel weird again, but this time it was a different weird, it felt like I was flexing my muscles, but I wasn't, I resisted it at the begging, but than I remembered to surrender myself to this unpleasant feeling. So, I did and after that I was feeling FUCKING HAPPY. I had a smile on my face for like 2-3 minutes. I also felt burning sensation at my fingers in the end. so thank you Leo for sharing this technique with me! I will definitely try it again.