Brittany

I think that feminism in the turquoise stage sees that it is all a dream. I feel like turquoise is the one that can see past the dream at all times while still interacting with the dream when it wants to.

I can't speak for Emerald. But you and Leo are triggering the crap out of me. haha Romantic love pulls us all into ego. And when I read your posts, I can't read them from the perspective of "the void". Romantic relationships are noise from the perspective of "the void". I have to go back into ego-mind and view them from the perspective of a woman. But I think it's divine. Like nature wants us to be triggered. And deal with our shadows. Romantic relationships are an excellent way to self actualized and face all of your demons.

I do not fully understand romantic love. It is the most complex ego mechanism we have. It's a beautiful expression of duality. And it's most confusing part of the dream. The most tempting part of the dream. It can be extremely beautiful and/or extremely destructive. Romantic love is the yin and yang. It is the dark and light. It points people to all of their shadows and emotional hunger. I have not seen any non-duality teacher, philosopher, or psychology do this subject justice.

I agree with your post. From the perceptive of the void, spiral dynamics is "the dream trying to understand the dream". Spiral Dynamics is flawed simply because it is not silence. All noise is in the dream. And spiral dynamics is part of the noise. It is good to see the bullshit in all systems but still see the usefulness in playing around in them.

I am the same with my parents. They are blue. I stopped "preaching" to them and just love them.

Fun for Louis received a ton of hate in the media for his vlog series in North Korea. This is a good example of what it looks like when Stage Green tries to help out Stage Red.

Adulthood is awesome! ............if you do it right. haha It can be ultimate freedom and joy! There are 4 choices in adulthood that you must be careful with: 1. College Debt 2. Romantic Relationship with unconscious partner. Especially, marriage or having kids with someone who is not conscious and who is unable to self-reflect 3. Mortgage Debt 4. Credit Card Debt When these 4 decisions go wrong, adults become really serious, zombie-like, and miserable. If you make these decisions wisely, while continuing to self actualize, you will have an enjoyable adulthood.

I put a movie poster too haha but I think Leo wants videos - so he can make a video project. I added the trailer for the Schindler's List below:

Some more depressing Green stage songs that are meant to "Wake people up". They are kind of like a sword into the belly of Orange.

Another old-day song that makes fun of the Orange stage.

Popular Classic Rock Green songs that speak out against Orange

So yellow is the end of judgement? But how do you tell the difference between a yellow person and a philosopher who just knows a lot of head knowledge? Because I know a ton of people (philosophy geeks) who are like your example.

I feel the same way sometimes. You write well and your English is perfect (many people would kill to have perfect English). Have you considered doing something relating to writing or English? Maybe start small. What do you already do well? Maximize on those things.

You have a sword against your own self. Do you see your sword? You can swaying at yourself. What are you trying to change? Who are you trying to change for? What are you trying to change into? You should do what you want to do. I don't think the army is bad or good. It's neutral to me. But realize that you already are in a war inside of your mind. And the enemy on the battlefield is yourself.

You should join the army if that is what you feel called to do but: Everything you are saying about yourself are lies. It is a lie that you are a loser. It is a lie that you are a failure. It is lie that you are paralyzed. It is a lie that you can't move forward. It is even a lie that you are poor. In many ways, metaphorically, you are rich. Anyone who discovers non-duality and the truth (being here on actualized.org) is rich. So I am not sure what life you are quitting - if the life you are seeing is not a real one.

I binge watch and read non-duality and have insights I have also been getting into Vernon Howard lately which has been given me a huge blow to my ego. My mind is still really busy but I can quiet it within seconds now. And I can tap into feelings of insane bliss within seconds too - through my focus. I am also able to see that everything I am saying here is B.S. and a part of the illusion. But I still don't know if that counts as yellow. Because I am still super neurotic at the same time.

Doubting my mind has been the best thing I've ever done.

Lightning in a Bottle is another one! I would never go to one of these though. I couldn't handle it. They are too wild for me. haha

I am confused by Yellow too. I don't fully know what it is.

Teal Swan teaches that regression doesn't exist. And that you only move forward. And that moving backwards is an illusion. Her perspective helped me a TON.

I think if young people have a desire for these things, they can. But as someone in my 20's who has never even once desired to party or drink, it wouldn't make sense to go down that path.

Bentinho Massaro is one. He was into this topic since he was a teenager.

Sounds great! Good luck!