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@mandyjw Stuff to contemplate thank you very much?

@Shin I got lead to that 3 or 4 weeks ago and got really interested. I am doing it most of my days since the Christmas break. The cleanse took that to a whole other level. I feel like anything I do which isn't just sitting there basking in that feeling of emptiness is avoidance. All my usual coping mechanism aren't helping me cope anymore. @mandyjw Thanks a lot I haven't looked at it from this angle yet. The thing that I struggle to wrap my head around is avoidance. That's funny I did what you said today without even reading it. I went and jammed with two of my good friends and It was very enjoyable. I didn't think about anything I was in the flow and everything was going great. Then it ended and there I was/am again. I don't understand how doing something fun and inspiring can fulfill me long terme. Everything feels like avoidance right now. @DrewNows Thanks a lot friend.

Are you sure about that??

Sing your heart out!

You train your concentration by concentrating. What are you passionate about? (assuming you diet and sleep is on point)

I have thoughts on this but none of them really useful. Nice investigational spirit tho you inspire me!

Enlightenment

I noticed that my intuition leads me to different things at different times. Some weeks I would go crazy on smoothies and make that every single day. Some week I eat raw with bunch of herbal infusions. Some week I might go for eggs. Some weeks it's nuts and seeds. Etc. But mainly I eat whole food plant based diet 99%. It works for me. I also do intermittent fasting from 10pm to 1pm every single day.

There's absolutely no reasons:)

Maybe, I don't know. Do you?

Chances are your gut microbiome is compromised. You might want to cut bread/sugars gradually and try intermittent fasting. Slowly build up you fibre intake. Fruits and veggies digest better than legumes and nuts but you should aim to include them as well eventually. There's a bunch of stool test kits that you can buy online to determine what kind of bacteria are living in there and treat it accordingly. Maybe consider eating eggs to up your calorie intake during the adaptation periods that you'll need to introduce legumes and nuts.

Pretty useless concept in my opinion. Just adds to the division.

How about you don't take Leo's word so litteraly. There's litteraly thousands of perspective that you have to take into account and check with your direct experience.

@zeroISinfinity ?

Very interesting question. I think it's a bit misleading to think of it in terms of a place that you'll eventually get to because the depth of mastery is unfathomable. Once you reach what you thought was the end your perspective expends to take in more and you find yourself right back where you started. That's why the greatest Masters didn't view themselves as that but as eternel student. Mastery is more of a mindset and a process not a goal. No matter the skill level if you are able to get into flow for extended periods of time and let your intuition guide you through the learning that's what I would call being on the mastery process. My point of view. Also creativity and mastery are leaning on each other. Being creative in whatever field you are mastering is going to boost your progress a lot.

Try to find something that is not consciousness.

The emotional content is not the same. A belief comes with attachement and a sort of arrogance for it to be right. Faith on the other hand is a desire for what is true regardless of the outcome. Faith leads to investigation, Belief leads to dogma.

@undeather You can very well get to a point where you are as confortable alone as you are with other people without enlightenment. Just acknowledging that ego of yours and taking ownership of it goes a long way.

That's entertaining ?

Loneliness isn't a real thing you only think that. Being with people and being alone is no different.

You keep the question as long as you don't have an answer or until the question becomes irrelevant due to deeper realizations. @Lento Yeah You could also switch things around I don't know.

I bought a book from the Isha foundation with a bunch of recipes and there's Chili and other "negative pranic food" in them. There's a coherence probleme here. I don't know what to do with that but in my experience the problem I would see with those food is linked to digestion not the nervous system.

Mushrooms, meditation and books

You're thinking way too hard about it. I know that it might not make sens for you right now but the best thing you could do is drop that whole story that you just wrote and go socializing with zero expectations. Just be yourself for God's sake! Even if you adopte some behavior that will attract people in the short terme you still won't be fulfilled. Be yourself and the right people will show up in your life. Now the trick is to actually be yourself. It's not that easy when you're stuck in thought loops of lack. But I think your main focus should be this instead of trying to fake it just so you can attract people. Much love?

By dropping the fear of going back into this darkness. By embracing the existence of this darkness. It's soooo counter-intuitive.