Rigel

You're thinking way too hard about it. I know that it might not make sens for you right now but the best thing you could do is drop that whole story that you just wrote and go socializing with zero expectations. Just be yourself for God's sake! Even if you adopte some behavior that will attract people in the short terme you still won't be fulfilled. Be yourself and the right people will show up in your life. Now the trick is to actually be yourself. It's not that easy when you're stuck in thought loops of lack. But I think your main focus should be this instead of trying to fake it just so you can attract people. Much love?

By dropping the fear of going back into this darkness. By embracing the existence of this darkness. It's soooo counter-intuitive.

Depends what your confort zone is. Only you know. Highly individualized process.

If you identify with yourself then what is the thing that's being depersonalized? It's not a trick question.

It's not about raising Self-esteem or becoming this or that. It's about removing the nonsense that keeps you from being who you are. Who you are might come off as having self esteem or being confident but at that point there's no need for such silly idea. Be true that's all. People will say that you come off as confident but it won't be the case you will only be yourself.

Do you really know? How would you know if you knew? What is suffering really? You say you don't want to suffer why is that? You say suffering is the way, how do you know?

Who do you identify with if you don't identify with yourself?

@Leo Gura Amen?

You can't keep a habit because you don't know what you want from life. If you want to be healthy and you are definit about it then it is only logical that you would eat healthy. VISION. Why do you want your place to be clean? Is it because you love a clean environment or do you feel like you should because x and y?

@The Don I feel like Leo should do whatever he wants to because I think working to please people is going to diminish his contribution greatly. Passion leads to much better quality. If it doesn't suite you that's alright? I personally love where he is taking actualized.org so there's an audience for spirituality also I suppose. There's already enough PD content on his channel for you and i to integrate for the next decade so... How about the shoulds episode? ?

I experimented a bit with 4-Aco I think it's worth the try go for it! Very similar to mushrooms indeed.

To me that's a non-issue. Focus on your growth instead of bickering about minusa. Nobody is holding or forcing you to do or think anything here. This forum is a nice resource not the end all be all.

What is it?

You talk about it like you know what will happen. You don't. And you won't know until you know.

Yep totally normal don't worry?

My advice would be for you to not get caught in the vegan VS meat eater war. It is a gross waste of time. Try it, if it works, it works. If it doesn't, it doesn't. But keep in mind that it is going to be a matter of years of trial and errors before you figure out what works. Personnaly I haven't touched a piece of meat or dairy in 2years and my mind is sharper than ever. I do eat eggs sometimes but not a part of my day to day diet.

Thank you for your concern bro that's love right there

Take a moment to bask in the confusion?

It can for sure but it is a very tricky substance in my experience. Tends to get me addicted. Cause it won't get you anywhere unless you sit down and contemplate seriously. It's easy to take it as a way to enhance whatever material experience.

Yeah of course? keep walking!

Don't you remember a time in your life where you did the exact same thing? Were you conscious of what you were doing? You gotta keep in mind that they are not conscious of their unconsciousness(obviously dah). Would you get mad at a toddler for not already being able to speak? Understand that he needs the exposure to the language and many trials and errors before he can get an idea across.

You need to seriously check out your diet. To be quite honest most of the things you listed are straight up poison for you. Get your diet together and you'll see improvements for sure. Organic and fresh fruits/vegetables above everything but you'll need to pace yourself during the transition if you don't want your intestines rebel against you. With proper diet you should be able to ditch coffee and all medication that you are taking. @Michael569 you got great advice from this guy up there.

I guess it might but it might also not. My health is in way better shape since I stopped counting macros and shit. Your body knows what's up if you care to pay attention.

That's inspiring ?

Forget about what you think it is. This is it.