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Why can’t it be both? It's all that sweet culture and art and it's also poison. Such versatility

You can choose to be serious(or not). It's not like the weather or something.

Great opportunity to do some inner work on that anger if you can’t work out anyway. Who knows that might help your shoulder too. I am not saying it is your case I am no doctor but psychosomatic injuries are a thing.

Why do you wanna overcome this addiction? Make that extra super clear. Write pages and pages about it with utmost detail then condense it then write about it some more. What is it that you hope to realize by overcoming this? Having more energy? Why do you want that energy? What are you gonna do with it? Details, details, details and it needs to resonate with you emotionally. You won't logic your way out of this.

I think "average people" will probably not be interested anyway and brush it off pretty quick.

Idk opinions seem to be kinda unavoidable as long as you're a human being. For instance why would you choose to eat healthy food instead of junk? Healthy food = good and Junk food = bad? Nah it doesnt matter in the end wether you are overweight, sick and lacking energy unless you decide that it does and make choices accordingly. My opinion is that the taste of junk food ain't worth the toll on my body. It seems like any choice requires an opinion of some sort and choices get made no matter what. Stage yellow has opinions but it realizes that they're opinions and not truth. What stops is the need to prove or defend them. Up to green there's a belief that "Im right about this and that", there's preaching and other shinanigans. All of that gets recontextualised at yellow. Turquoise may be where all this gets recontextualised again to where one realizes that no one is actually making any choices or having any opinions and all of this is just happening as is but I have no idea about turquoise.

The only good it did me was to give me the experience of overcoming addiction to it which is a broader lesson I can apply to other things. It is mind expending and can give insight into personal stuff but it's so murky that I would forget everything by the time I woke up next morning. Not worth it imo. Also smoking it destroys the lungs. If you are to use it, use oil. Definitely not a proper psychedelic.

I used to drink as a teenager and then I started getting into meditation and stuff (psychs) so I quit. Couple years later I take a glass of wine(I am small not super drunk but enough) and think to myself: "woah this is so clearly poison and bringing my over all state down how did I ever drink that and enjoy it?" Maybe you do fine with it I don't know everybodies' chemestry is different and stuff but to me at least this feels like anti-awareness.(As if there was such a thing)

Leo has talked about this ad nauseam I can’t remember a specific video but probably "how does psychedelic work?"

"Bro I discovered this whole field of psychedelics it is literaly unbelievable bro wanna try it sometimes?" "Nah bro I don't feel it bro there's like dangers about it I heard bro I am not comfortable or interested." "No problem bro I'm just so excited about it bro anyway what are you up to?"

Maybe he needs to move out

I do nothing. Then I suffer. Then I do nothing some more. Then I am fine. I notice myself wanting to distract with entertainement, food and other things but I don't because I know from experience that by doing nothing I will eventually see my thoughts for what they are and laugh it off. (I fall prey to distraction plenty even if I know that it doesnt work tho) Feel the way you feel with all your might buddy

Last visit thingy indicates November 28th but it seems he posted something October 11th

Weed fucks up sleep. Then poor sleep fucks up everything else.

@TK2021 good luck then I cant help you

I have a PUR filter and I like it. There's a bunch of models and sizes with basically the same activated carbon filter. I don't have a clue about the science but water tastes way better and I feel great.

Are there any Tool fans here? ?

I want to take 1h every day to put 100% of my focus into this. What are some practices, books, courses or anything that has to do with emotional mastery type ressources?

Open mind = open ears

Don't you have a dream? Why are you self improving? Theres no reason to change anything about yourself if you don't want to do so. Write what you want down maybe. Just so that you are sure about it. Self-improvement is action. If you did 10years of mental masturbation instead of actions then that's where the problem is. Its like reading about tennis for 10years and then being surprised that you can’t play tennis.

Take 5min breaks every now and then to do squats and stretch.

What is your career plan? The moment where you need to leave your parents will come sooner than you think. You might want to figure these things out already and start building skills. You are going to be at such an advantage by starting so young.

I grinded meditation for over 2 years before I had to take a couple months off. Now I am a lot less stubborn, I enjoy it a lot more and I can see the ENORMOUS difference it makes on the rest of my day(where as I couldnt see it before cause I was forcing myself to do it) so naturaly I want to do it. Leo said that recently: Enjoy it! Don't beat yourself up over missing a day. If you really feel like meditating It's gonna be so much more potent. But it is still true that practice makes perfect and consistency is key. Do the practice for the practice itself not to get somewhere. Theres no easy answer here

Why does pooping feel so good? Edit: I can’t help you because I don't know sorry. But like, it was a good question. Why does anything feel good at all?

Where do you live? I was thinking a IRL jam sesh?