Rigel

Only have experience with good ole cow poop lovers

Why are you doing nofap?

Physics is also just a spec in the infinite. But every part is also infinite. Sociology is infinite. You could study anything. There’s no end to any of it.

Here's an exemple of a logbook entry: "9:30: Drifted past lydian, settled on lydian dominant. Spent an hour there moving up & down trying to make groupings of 3 & 5 sound good over 2 bars of even 4/4. My voice is doing great, can reach low Ab(keep shoulders back & rib cage open). My mind is scattered a bit. Lots of intrusive thoughts. 11:30: Fred still struggles with his bar chords. He says he doesn't practice everyday. Grateful I get to make a buck teaching but I look forward to more serious students. 14:00: Been listening to "America Undefined" by Pat. I love the quintuplet sections. They pop out all through out the album. Dude the intensity when the train sound comes in. Wooh, Magical. 18:00: Been working on some lyrics over tea. I have a great sense of the through line on this album. Been told by Will that I should put less chords in after the jam😂 He doesn't understand I need the spiiice! 19:00: The choir tunes start to make sense. Spent an hour making a chord chart for them. I want to practice them with an accompaniment." ~ My purpose is a shipwreck!

I watched an interview of a guy that was shipwrecked for almost a full year at sea the other day. He & his family survived by drinking turtle blood & eating raw birds. Imagine the seriousness that comes when your survival is at stakes like that. There is absolutely zero space for pettiness in this kind of situation. Now realize that your purpose literally is your survival. Imagine yourself being shipwrecked into your purpose. The only thing you can afford in this situation is to put all of your effort on it. If you slack off & waste your time online or engaged in petty bs you will be swept away. You won’t starve but your passion & love for life is going to be sucked out of you. You’ve got no other choice but to take the hardship head on. And make no mistake, it WILL be hard. Now imagine the relief & exaltation that comes from any kind of progress you make. Imagine catching your first meal in 8 days. Imagine how satisfying that raw bird would be. Imagine how grateful you would be for rainfall & any kind of dirty water bottle floating by to help you collect it. Eventually you might even land on a deserted island. You are not out of it yet but now you have fire & soon enough, shelter. Imagine the total absorption your psyche would be in with the situation. Every single opportunity is embraced. Every single step you take, you thank God for. Every day you wake up in the morning is a victory. I started keeping a logbook of my purpose. Every day I write what happened, what could be improved upon, what the next step is & how I feel about all of it. I imagine myself being alone on a tiny sailboat & the only way I will make it that day is through my own strength, courage & determination. My purpose is as serious to me as being shipwrecked in the middle of the pacific & I love the thrill of it. I love the adventure of it. I love who I have become to live & thrive in the chaos of it. My purpose is a shipwreck.

Pick something that’ll move you closer to your goal. For instance a lot of musicians teach before they can live off gigs & such. You could work as an assistant for a newspaper or something like that. You’d be exposed to people who write for a living all day.

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Yeah replace one of the butters with blueberries & strawberries

Any elimination diet can do that. Food is more complicated than plant vs meat. It depends. People tend to want other people to adopt the same lifestyle as them cause they tend to fool themselves into thinking they know everything & what works for them will work for everyone.

Meat is also like that. Try eating raw chicken with no salt. Butter doesn’t even exist in its “natural” form. Plenty of fruits & veggies are delicious raw. This idea of “the natural human diet” is one ripe for the bin. Cooking does great things to your food.

Are you insane? There’s so many tasty plants. I am no vegan but that’s just delusional lol

Don’t you crave a blueberry sometimes? I can’t imagine my life with blueberries.

Yeah suffering is your baby. You need to cuddle & kiss it every time it starts acting up or it’ll get louder & louder until you give it the love & attention it needs. And if you are anything like me, that means every single day.

Embrace your suffering like it’s your own child. You distract yourself cause you can’t bear boredom. Stop. Suffer. Don’t try to escape it. Scream into a pillow & cry if you need to. The solution is very simple. Cut out the distraction & suffer. SUFFER! suffering is good. You know exactly what to do. This post is just another way to try & weasel your way out of it. There’s nothing we can tell you that you don’t already know.

Niacin & Ginkgo Biloba are also vasodilators you could experiment with. They do work. I was shocked at how effective they are.

Where I live, education is not that expensive but I understand that it’s not the case for a huge part of the world. If you got the money to spare or are a lucky bastard like me you should try it & see for yourself. You can always drop out if it doesn’t fit you. I have class mates from outside the country that have the same courses as me & they pay 4x what I pay for the same thing. I get it if it’s too expensive for you.

Networking, networking, networking. Yeah knowledge is free nowadays but I kinda like it. Surrounded by people that are into the same things I’m into.

What if your attachment to it meaning anything at all is the weight? Strange Fruit Loopy af

What you describe is not health for health’s sake. What you describe is health dogma. If you go vegan cause you read somewhere that it’s healthy but it clearly isn’t for your genetics, you aren’t doing health for health’s sake, you are being stupid & disregarding your health in favour of ideology. Health for health’s sake doesn’t mean you start believing every quack doctor on YouTube. Health for health’s sake means you look at health in the eye & do what it asks of you. Health is never going to ask you to drink too much water. Only dumb humans will do that. Health is well being

Health for health’s sake > Health for longevity

An instant pot & sound proof from neighbors.

Niacin is one of the best ones I’ve tried. Initially I was using as a pre workout because of the vasodilation it provides. But it turns out that more blood flow doesn’t just make you stronger in the gym. It also means that my hands stay warmer & that is a huge help when I am practicing my instrument. So I have been taking it most days for about a month now. I don’t get much from Lion’s Mane to be honest. I use it as a filler for my homemade microdose capsules. I want to grow them eventually though. They look sick & are very tasty. The interaction between niacin & psilocybin has been talked about before in the context of neurogenesis which is more of a long term thing & it’s not obvious what it does to the experience itself, in the moment. I need to test it on a macro dose for that I think.

This my stack Caffeine Niacin Omega-3 Magnesium L-threonate Psilocbe Cubensis 0.05g (half a low micro dose) Lions Mane Creatine I would eventually like to experiment with Vitamin D3 Ginko Biloba L-theanine Ashwaganda

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