Rigel

Yes I am a Jazz Major nerd 🤓

I won’t be. I’ll be playing 2hrs a day to maintain the stuff I gotta play for my finals. I am doing this during spring break. Gotta keep in mind that uni starts again after my retreat. It’s still 12hrs of pure silent inner work. I’ve thought this through mate.

I won’t take your word for it to avoid weakening my intent but I’ll be open about it & admit you were right if that’s the case.

That’s exactly what I am going for. I feel like I am about to go to war. I am prepping for & anticipating war. Catharsis is the right word I think. definition: “the process of releasing, and thereby providing relief from, strong or repressed emotions.” Purging is a good one too. Thanks for hyping me. I’ve told too many people to back off now lol. Time to put my money where my mouth is.

I decided to trip on day 4 from 10am onwards. I’ll do a moderate dose of mushrooms. I am expecting it to feel way different & deeper after 3 full days of emotional work/meditation.

Yeah I think seeing the sun everyday would do me some good. I was planning on going for a light run as part of my 1hour exercise routine.

Yes I did.

Those are all great ideas thank you 🙏

@The Crocodile Thanks for the inspiration but I don’t want to fill up my apartment with candle fumes.

I eat home made kimchi every day & I have noticed a significant improvement in my digestion. Nice, non-sticky logs that come out in one piece without struggles. No gas, no bowel discomfort. I used to get gases when eating chick peas. Now I don’t. And I just love the flavour of kimchi. I make it super spicy. Goes especially well with carbs like sweet potatoes, rice, whole grain bread & legumes. Meat as well. Tangy, hot & spicy health boost!

Thank you for your input Davino. Reading your comment makes me want to boil down & distill my intent to its most simple formulation & make it a sort of mantra. Something I can repeat over & over when I find myself loosing focus. Maybe write it down on a piece of paper & stick it to the wall where I’ll be doing the work.

I didn’t think of it but it makes a lot of sense. I fully expect my mind to try every trick in the book to derail my efforts during the week. If I can remove all guess work before going into it & know exactly what I should be doing at any moment, it should make it easier to stick to it & not take my mind’s bullshit at face value. Thank you for your perspective. I’ll contemplate whether I should trip or not during the retreat this week & put it (or not) in the schedule in black & white.

Unplugging internet & all distractions. I’ll be sitting on a Swiss ball/cushion/kneeling/standing staring at the wall 12hrs a day. Sleeping 8hrs so that’s 4hrs remaining for playing music, eating, exercising, showering & doing dishes. Of course I will be doing those as mindfully as possible. My intention with all of this will be to purge some shadow material. I am not in it for mystical experiences although I’m open to it. I want clarity & emotional release. I want to know what I want out of the next decade of this life journey I’m on. I’ve been feeling confused & down for a while now & I need something radical to snap me out of my usual thought & behaviour patterns. I expect this to be super difficult but my resolve is very strong. I’ve told this to my mom & cried over the phone with her for an hour earlier this week. I may or may not have a trip in the middle of the retreat. We’ll see. Any tips or things I should keep in mind going into this? Who’s done this in the past here? How did it go?

Your advice is basically what the book says lol Practice. No book is ever going to fill in all the gaps but it’s a good read.

Yes sensei. Real movement ability doesn’t come risk free😅 Although I like the idea of using Bulgarian bags or ropes to do those movements even more. Ropes is best imo. @Something Funny check out RMT club if you want to take @Michael569’s advice to heart & you are dead set on using a mace type tool.