DecemberFlower

I think you have issue with your self esteem.Work on that first:) Start slowly you dont need to rush with enlightement work.Stick with your meditation and inquiry habit and dont grasp too much on results.Did you had a glimpse of no self maybe? What is your issue with girls? How much dating and relationship experience you had?

What you suffer from? Maybe you should work on some aspects of yourself in different way not neccesary through enlightement work..enlightement doesnt fix all your issues

Why you want enlightement?

Sorry for my ignorance but what is actually a Tier 2 company? Whats the difference between ordinary company and that one?

From my understanding Leo and many teachers speak about opening ourselves to not knowing mind because it opens us to be more curious about life and inner growth.Life is a very chaotic and you never know what is going to happen tomorrow or by engaging in certain situations and activities.Embracing confusion is seen as having a great value to us.However it seems to me like we are fighting against something very natural to our mind.Like the need to go eat when we are hungry or drink when we are thirsty.My mind struggles hard with that notion about embracing confusion in life.Isnt being certain in what we want in life and in knowing our values and strenghts a good thing?

@Mu_ Thanks for clarification:) Lets say i understand what you are trying to convey to me but on intellectual level only..it seems to me like my mind is yet too much clinging to its "knowledge" to allow for experience to happen.More belief deconstruction is needed But when you say its similar to no mind or lead to no mind do you mean its compared to certain type of feeling like what you say anxiety or is anxiety just a defense mechanism of mind grasping to security when you enter the not knowing state?Is it a specific state of mind which is immediately obvious when it happens?Like when it hits you there is no doubt its happening thats what i mean

Does the recognition of not knowing in direct experience feels similar like no self insight?I mean when you really get and understand on deep level that you actually dont know there is no doubt in that insight or its just like a thought story your mind creates to amuse itself?I am asking because its always possible mind will deceive myself into believing that i got into some state of not knowing instead of actually experiencing the insight.After all not knowing is a state of mind isnt it?

@Leo Gura Yep thats what I am lacking right now..too little life experience to put pieces together properly and too much information and theoretical knowledge

@Highest Are you conscious of being God every moment of your daylife or you still operate under ego point of view?

Whats the difference between actual full enlightement where wheel of life and death is "escaped" and mahasamadhi where enlightened being consciously leaves the body?

If it is everything then it is not only formlessness but form also isnt it? If its everything then its also no-thing since there is no difference in reallity

@SQAAD Why you watched such videos?

Since there is only infinity and infinity doesnt exclude any possibility it should be possible

Asking question who am I mechanically wont do it..you need to find the source(Awareness Consciousness) from where thoughts arise..its subtle and busy and restless mind veils it hard Another way to explain is to find that "feeling" of just being just existing..feeling of I am and stay there as long as you can Good luck:)

You are not alone..i sometimes do that also as a form of meditation/inquiry..to be as awareness "watching" my face in mirror:D

Great explanation

Thank you for the clip So the point is that surrender can never be done by effort? Even effort to drop the effort has to be dropped

Have you done fasting before? I have never done it but 31 day seems way too much and extreme and it isnt even advised before some medical examination

Isnt becoming conscious some sort of control?You can choose to become conscious or not

Taking care of your health is more like having a better chance of having a good life..hard to have a good life if you will be constantly physically sick and in mental distress

We can see that everything in our experience changes.But what is actually change? What is it essence? What makes it what it is?

Parmenides argued as follows: "What-is-not" does not exist. Since anything that comes into being must arise out of "what-is-not", objects cannot come into being. Likewise, they cannot pass away, because in order to do so they would have to enter the realm of "what-is-not". Since it does not exist, "what-is-not" cannot be the womb of generation, or the tomb of that which perishes. The "no-longer" and the "not-yet" are therefore variants of "what-is-not", and so the past and future do not exist either. Change, then, is impossible. Equally, his argument continued, multiplicity is unreal, because the empty space necessary to separate one object from another would be another example of "what-is-not". And since things cannot be anything to a greater or lesser degree (which would require "what-is" to be mixed with the diluting effect of "what-is-not"), the universe must be homogeneous, a single, undifferentiated, unchanging unity. Also, it must be finite and spherical, for it cannot be in one direction any more than in another (and the sphere is the only figure of which this can be said). Thus, by a strictly deductive argument, Parmenides asserted that change is impossible, and that coming-into-existence or ceasing-to-exist are likewise impossible, so that everything that exists is permanent, ungenerated, indestructible and unchanging.

Parmenides maybe

@Arkandeus I had moments when i became very still and was watching nature and it suddenly seemed to me to became more alive and more beautiful...like tree for example..is that what you mean by interconnectednes?

@winterknight What is subconscious mind? Is there a point of no return in this enlightement path?