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  5. Posted · Edited by Javfly33

    1 hour ago, Fuku said:

    ... the feeling is stunning, almost if I connect with something greater that makes me abandon myself to...not sure how to explain it.

    Yeah, man, It´s called drugs xD.

    Being serious now, as a rare user nowdays of femdom porn, who was occasional not long ago, and quite regular not long ago too (and I also played with findom a bit, but it´s been some time since I didn´t waste money in that) Here´s what I learned in this time which maybe could help you (but don´t make the mistake of believing me, but rather try to verify it on your experience. Also, I am talking from my own experience, yours might be different, but I´ll leave it here in case it resonates with you in any kind):

    1 - Femdom porn is a mirror/inner reflection of my feeling of frustration/impotence. When I feel this kind of "believes" about myself are true, femdom feels congruent so I feel like it. When I feel good about myself, loving, knowing who I am, then normal sex feels like the thing to do. I might try for pure habit to use femdom porn, yet it just doesn´t resonate. In the ohter hand I might want to spice things a bit being more dominant, always in the sense of energy, joy, not really believing that "humiliation" is a real thing. 

    2 - After all it´s a drug. Playing victim by acting like it´s a deterministic drive you have inside you is just being sneaky. See nobody is stopping you to jerk off. Yet you prefer to go watch porn and then jerk off. That´s because you want to get high off femdom. Is not something "crucial" to you. You need serious healing and self-discovery if you think femdom or a even a kink that is crucial about you. 

    3 - Femdom is not a real thing in women. Like, dude, women don´t think that men are THAT important. Why a beatiful women would like to spend their time and energy in YOUR pleasure and fetishes? It´s totally not the case. Women want value from men, not to entertain them and pleasure them just "because". And if they truly want to humiliate and ridicule you, then that´s just because they are sadic. It doesn´t have anything to do with sex. 

    Sex is Union! Not differences. 

     

    Overall, what your fundamental problem is that you think that this kink tells something about you. As long as you keep believing this thing about you, you obviously will keep seeing femdom porn as something to be avoided or feared, ironically maintaining it appealing and attractive. 

     

  6. Posted

    On 19/11/2020 at 5:49 PM, Beginner Mind said:

    I was thinking something similar this morning.  It takes seeking in order to realize that there is nothing to seek.  For most of us, it's not enough to be told, "Let go of seeking."  One must go on their little spiritual journey and discover for themselves that the peace they are seeking is already here.

    @Beginner Mind Sorry, where is this peace? I must have lost it somewhere LOL.

  7. Posted

    8 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    They are partially and relatively true. Assuming you're thinking well.

    Your thoughts are true from a certain point of view.

    So their truthness depend on what subjectivity your looking from? Right.

    If you are a socially awkward poor confidence person you might think "they are looking at me, they think I'm moving weird".

    And if you are a super confident guy you might think "oh I'm going to nail this speech" and then the thought 'they think I'm moving weird' you just let it go/doesn't even arise

    Which thought is true? It seems none since their Truthness depends on their subjective identity and the sole purpose of truth is that it must be objective .

    @Nahm If I got it correctly, your phrase is totally relative. Since if I think you are saying the truth, then it will be false. And I'd i think you are lying , then the statement will be true. The meaning of your phrase depends entirely on my view.

    And I think that's what reality is when we operate with thoughts as they could be tools for objetive Truth. We create subjectivity thinking there's such thing as objectivity with mind. Then shit happens. 

  8. Posted

    28 minutes ago, Forestluv said:

    It depends on how you are defining "enlightenment", "joy" and "permanent".

    In a traditional context, psychedelics are unlikely to induce a constant feeling of joyful orgasm for the rest of the person's life. Yet they can induce long-lasting shifts in how the body and mind relate to reality. Many of this shifts could be considered "good" at a personal level. 

    Another way of contextualizing "joy" would be to freely and effortless experience the appearances of Now - whatever those appearances may be. Yet this isn't very appealing at a personal level. If we told someone "A deeper Joy is that Which Is. Even if you are experiencing anxiety, there is an underlying Joy". That's not the type of thing the mind and body seeks. It wants the feel good stuff. One of the most common ideas of "enlightenment" I observe is a continual feeling of peace and joy. I'm not saying that idea is wrong and perhaps there is a dimension in which the body has a nonstop feeling of joy. Yet to me, that isn't that appealing. I don't want to be locked into anything 100%. Experiencing nonstop pain 24/7 would be miserable - yet experiencing a nonstop orgasm 24/7 would also be miserable to me. Experiencing a wide range of human experience is most appealing. Yet I would go heavy on joyful / peaceful feelings - perhaps 80% of the time and the other 20% being neutral or 'negative' feelings - such as intrigue, analysis, confusion, anxiety, hurt, insecure etc. At a human level, those moments give contrast and allow the peaceful / joyful feelings to be even deeper and more profound. 

    Man such high quality moderators we have here B|.

    Brilliant answer 

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    I remember when I started healing and self-actualizing i began to become aware that nearly all of my thoughts were the ones which were causing me anxiety and social anxiety.

    I started to become aware that If I inspected them they were not true. And once I saw there weren't true i was able to let them go

    This makes me realize that when we are attached to certain thoughts that do not serve us, it's because we still think they are TRUE.

    What brings me to the following question, "what are 'true' thoughts"?

    Are all thoughts for the mere purpose or survival (physical or the ego) and in reality there are no true thought at all?

  14. Posted · Edited by Javfly33

    I heard in last Leo's video that knowing about business marketing and sales is  absolutely crucial to escape wage slavery.

    Me being a slave currently in wage slavery, I got very frightened and instantly started surfing the web for resources Lol.

    But it seems a very big world. I don't know where to start. Or who to follow or give authority to.

    So that's why I'm asking...please share the best roadmap/resources you can! appreciate it a lot!!

  15. Posted · Edited by Javfly33

    9 hours ago, Lyubov said:

    Not in San Fran, you can get like $300+ a day busking there a few hours.

    How does that old saying go to answer the op? wish into one hand and piss into the other and see which one fills up first.

    Your survival is taken care of when you take care of it. Doesn't matter what you do. You can do it in a functional/selfless way or a greedy/selfish way.

    Yeah, here in Spain is the same. You just sit outside a supermarket, and in 15minutes you can get someone to buy you food. 

    Homeless, at least here, spend ALL the money they get from people in drugs, alcohol or buying stuff. Never on food.

    Not to say that is a particular comfortable life, i wouldn't chose that life, i would prefer to stay in an ashram or just go to nature to see how time I can survive lol.  but just saying, it's definitely not a full time job .

    Source: a friend of mind went homeless for 3 months

  16. Posted

    41 minutes ago, Vipassana said:

    There are monasteries in asia that will take you in if you wear a red robe, shave your head & meditation 10 hours a day. 

    Survival will be taken care of unless you develop some diseases then you're on your own. 

    Yeah, but the funny thing about that is that to do that kind of commitment you already have to want to let go of your survival pretty much : let go of sex, let go of fun, let go of money, let go of adventures ??

    Although is a good resource to know about in case one day you fall homeless. ??

  17. Posted

    23 minutes ago, snowyowl said:

    @PurpleTree  yes, if you're a good communicator and can speak to people's hearts and souls they'll come flocking to hear you - the danger isn't so much whether you will starve, but how to avoid creating a cult.

    @Javfly33   For an enlightened person the survival motivation is service to others - Jesus presumably felt that giving up his life was in the greater good, whereas Buddha felt that a long life teaching the dharma was the right thing to do. Who am I to judge between them?  'Why not "help ants"? ' Sure why not, St Francis helped animals didn't he?  But I remember Leo also saying something like enlightenment doesn't automatically remove your bias and cultural conditioning, or give you emotional mastery.  Numerous sexual scandals attest to that. 

    The problem is each person has a quality level of what he considers Enlightement. I think categorizing in state of consciousness as lately Leo does, it's way more accurate and it avoids a lot of BS and self delusion.

    What I wanted to point out is that I feel people use the phrase Enlightement too easily. Lots of people are way too stuck in survival yet you guys call them enlightened. 

    @Breakingthewall thanks for sharing. That's interesting because I read several trip reports of 5-MeO where people report the same "feeling" you are saying. 

    In my case my trials with 5-MeO it hasn't happened any of this. There wasn't any feeling of "everything happened in my life to get me Here". This seemed like a ego type of story to keep the control or feeling of importance within the dream.. But maybe I'm still a newbie and I ll have to go deeper. Who knows.

  18. Posted

    3 hours ago, Breakingthewall said:

    That is not so, you can call it a dream and think that there are no others but each molecule of your body has a plan, an intention. If an enlightened person teaches others it is because it is what he has to do, the same as another having children or being an alcoholic.

    What is your reasoning behind this?

    Have you asked God or Reality itself if it has an "intention"? 

    54 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

    Or how about be of some service to mankind and earn some coin?

    This idea that money is evil while begging for food is noble is absurd and needs to be jettisoned. It certainly does not work in modern develop countries. Maybe it worked 2000 years ago.

    I didn't meant that. 

    My main critique is that you always define a Enlightened being as a being who has trascended survival (So far this is what Enlightement is supposed to be), yet it seems you justify that these beings maintain a survival agenda and you still consider that person enlightened.

    See, even "helping humanity" is a bias of you being human. Why not "help ants"? If you have a human bias after Enlightement, then what did you really accomplished?

    Not to say that awakenings can do a tremendous difference to make a person more conscious, loving, ...etc. Yet calling that Enlightement...hmm.

  19. Posted

    1 hour ago, Moksha said:

    The Buddha came back because he loved others and wanted to help them. He fully devoted himself to that dharma. That doesn't mean every Buddha is the same. There are Buddhas, here and now, engaged in the world of doing. Not every Buddha sits in a cave and starves.

    Right. What I think its that there´s about 90% of people who say they are awake and enlightened and in reality they are just BS. 

    For starters if you would be really awake you realize there are no others so it´s kind of playing a dumb game with yourself by "helping others".

     

  20. Posted · Edited by Javfly33

    4 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    @Leo Nordin survival is to stop caring about it. But that does not at all guarantee you will survive. But luckily if you did part 1, you no longer care about part 2.

    Enlightenment is radical stuff.

    @Leo Gura Well if you don´t go beg for food you will literally die. So basically what you are saying is that Buddhas either they starve to death or they are homeless.

    If a Buddha keeps a full-time job, maybe he is not so enlightened. (Unless of course his job is something very passionate which brings him joy)  Why the effort of mainteining a job? He should be sitting peacefully meditating not caring if somebody will put a plate of food near him or not. 

  22. Posted

    5 minutes ago, Someone here said:

    @Javfly33 

    My entire history as human is just a thought. Boom gone. Where is it? Lol Hard to maintain an illusion. The NOW is the only reality. Don't define yourself by your past. Your past is imaginary as is your future. 

     

    No I transcended the ego long ago. Had massive no-self awakening . 

    That´s cute, but you don´t fool me. You are mainteinig an ego like all of us.

    This is actually not even a matter of discussion, there are level of consciousness where the ego doesn´t exist and there are levels where the ego does exist. It exists as an illusion, sure, but since illusion can give you a very real toothache, for the sake of it we take that state into account too.

    See if you what you are telling me is that you are in constant high-awareness awakened state of consciousness, then that´s fine. I don´t believe you though, but yeah if you would then ego would not exist there.

  23. Posted

    4 minutes ago, Someone here said:

    Bruh? Did I say something false? 

     

    In the absolute sense you didn't said something false, but who lives in that state?

    The reality is that most of us are stuck within the relative , thus we carry an ego with us. 

    Ego is your whole fucking history as a human. (And the one you are maintaining right now unless you just a had a sudden raise of consciousness). So yeah, I think it does 'exist'.

  25. Posted

    1 minute ago, Inliytened1 said:

    No no no.  You are still thinking like a materialist.  The brain is doing none of that.  The brain is imaginary.  Psychedelics will help you transcend the brain.

    I think few people has trascended the brain ... everybody seems victim of brain chemistry no matter how much awakenings they had. 

    I sometimes wonder, if we really can´t change our state at will, are we really conscious reality is imaginary? Probably because we are not. Or we are not so sure.

    At the other hand, only God has will, not the ego. So all this is just mental masturbation probably. God somtimes it´s so depressing that the ego it´s so powerless in just everything. :(