Javfly33

There´s no world, not even creation, only God. "We" must surrender to the Truth so only Real Infinite 'I' remains.

Lately everytime after jerking off i start to uncontrollabily laugh like a madman. I am going through a phase where there is 0 sexual repression in my Mind. Whatever kind of fantasy or scenario my mind starts to generate, i fap to It, no Matter how Taboo, weird or "abnormal" It maybe be. Has anyone gone through a phase where sexual fantasies are about being hurt, beaten, hated by others? What IS beyond that? What kind of karmic structures im touching? I Still dont know really what IS there. But It seems just at the point of cumming i can see It. Is like pure terror. Hatred. I dont even remember any of this. I dont remember being tortured in a gulag, but It does feel like that. The intensity of how dark the feeling feels. I even consider the possibility im working on past generational trauma/karma that hasnt been solved by past generations. Who knows. In anyway, It is daunting. Before i used to repress myself sexually and i would try to avoid seeing this by all kind of mechanisms, like nofap, or forcing myself to jerk off with normal fantasies. But nowdays im all in, no repression. But also no breaks, almost everyday im getting close to the fire, getting burned, to the limit. Everyday experiencing this "feeling" but i Still dont know what the hell is. Thanks for reading and deeply appreciate insights that can help accelerate this process 🙏🩵

🤯 Wise words. I mean you did not made him/her up in your mind like a schizophrenic makes a demon up in his mind. lol Is just simply recognising God in a 'human being'.

5-MeO is great but i wouldnt say "one dose and they are cured". 4weeks in 55%, 12 weeks 45%, well we all know that the percentage Will be going down once the weeks and months pass. We all been with psychedelics in that phase where we think It has cured us... However im sure It Will be Still infinitudes more effective than the rest of treatments we know...so applaud that. Good times are coming for psychoterapy

Yeah, but wait 5 years lol

You find out now that sex online work is a business...? Chump change? There are some girls that make in a month what I make in a year. Search findom or financial domination. And is not that niche anymore, almost any girl on sex work online soon will start jumping onto the findom business.

Good stuff!

It can. Is doing now with You. 'I' can not chase nothing. Rather 'I' can surrender Truth can appear. But is hard because there is a lot of conditioning in the ego. Surrender takes time but I hope I finally surrender. At the end 'I'm just playing a falsehood game I can not win with Life. I´m not talking in the future. Not at all. No lol you are cool

You are clueless and have never experienced a legit awakening. Just mind and more mind.

Yeap. Like there is boringness that comes from psychological aspect, which is a form of slight depression or apathy. And then there´s the Bliss Boringness. Which is sweeter than a mango. This is the boringness that is not so boring you could say. The key is Going after Gods boringness. Not ego boringness I don´t see how it could. Simply if you have a problem God is not awake. God is entangling itself with thoughts. Which does not mean that you can think stuff to solve and so on. But if it becomes a problem and it stressing you out, you clearly are not in God Consciousness anymore. I think is obvious. Would God consciously hold a thought that make him anxious? Only if God again is deep into the illusion of 'I'.

I don't think Burning Karma means entangling yourself in survival-aspect desires like everybody else doing. LoL.

You sure you have realized God? God does not have problems or needs. For having realized God the illusory I seems to be very active... With the I God can not Exist. Only if 'I' surrenders God appears.

So there arent borders then. Because border is just a concept. There is not an actual border right?

Yes, is creepy. This experience is happening in Gods Mind. Surrender your self, Only then you can touch Gods Eternal Bliss

Well said this matches my experience very accurately.

Does THIS have 'borders' in your experience? true

It will serve you of nothing to verify if one dude is God-Realized or not. Because for you it will just be another concept that you hold within infinity. hahah... That´s why I said to you...don´t worry about verifying others....Awake yourself, then honestly it won´t matter who is awake or not.

Yup. Most of them do not come to that realization. No. Most of them no. It might be in the sense that their ego might still think is real. Whether here it has been seen ego is not real. It´s tricky and is understandable that you are confused. I can not prove it to you because Realization is direct. You have to grasp yourself.

I can´t prove you that I am God-Realized because there's no an I that realises God. God just awakens within a particular being. I can not prove you that I am God Realized because I am not God realized. I do not exist. Only God.

I mean yoga is powerful is not like you are taking a psychedelic. You guys are exaggerating a bit I think. I´ve had some crazy reactions doing the shamavhi kriya but is very gradual, you get one every few weeks, then you get one every few days, then you might have 2-3 reactions every day you go the kriya for a month, but at that point the body/mind is so used to that level of energy is not a problem anymore, there is no a trace of suffering of fear, just pure explosivity. Psychedelics just put you in that intensity non-stop for 5-6 hours before any kind of preparation. Is not the same. Also imo is still not potent enough, that´s why I personally keep doing the yoga, even me that have gone pretty hardcore and serious with this stuff still find I would like more potency. So unless you are schizophrenic or something if is a well designed kriya nothing serious should happen to you. Also you can literally connect with sadhguru via consciousness if you want if you get enough conscious. You dont need to send him an email. One time I channeled him for a couple a minutes after finishing the shamavhi.

Take it as a trust test of Love from 'God'. Here are some weirdos in a forum telling you Reality is Boundless Love but you want 'proof'. That tells you your faith is low. Faith is not enough to awaken, but a little intuition that you might be something more than your body or your personal life must be there in order for you to walk the path. Another proof would be, try to find a border in your current perception. Or inspect what your current perception is made out of. When you awaken prepare for absolute loneliness. This is not a path for normies. So you asking proof from outside is the worst you can do. Nobody will proof you who you are. Only You.

Sure, it has a body, but not only that I mean 😅 I guess you can, but the price might be human life.

Infinity has everything. You are just playing with words and is becoming to get tired. You don´t seem to be conscious of who you are. Not sure what is your point exactly. The absolute is Infinite. It is not confined to any perception or experience.

Because you won´t be able to hold yourself in your current body. You think this is like changing Remote WEBCAMS on a website? We are talking about Consciousness here. Consciousness Is not physical but it has a physical bound aspect to it right now in your experience. The little times I´ve gotten peaks outside my current perception already felt it was too much for the body to handle. Notice this will completely destroy your reality and illusion for ever if that would happen. Maybe if you get your system to an extraordinary stable point you can do some wacky stuff. But definetely won't happen writing in a forum. For that there are yogic schools and so on.

I gotta be with Leo on this. You can not tap into all Infinity while maintaining a body. Body will break/won´t handle the energy soon once you open the "gates" of perception beyond one's own current senses. You can peak a bit outside, but not too much, or the light might blind you and kill you 😂.