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@Schizophonia Makes lots of sense, however realistically, energy wise i see a mountain from where i am to that. Maybe i should bath myself in testosterone to see if i can tap more to that death drive

No, i think i completely understand you but holy shit It seems extremely difficult to get to that place from where i am. How the fuck one becomes the source? If i didnt achieved It after years of grueling sadhana and spiritual work what now? Maybe hit the gym and pray things magically Will change and i Will become "less femenine"? @Schizophonia in other words, testosterone to the rescue?

Why not share It with your mom, Dog, male friend, etc already? Or can you share It differently or more intensely with someone of the opposite sex? If that is the case then obviously they have something you dont have inside ( well, you do but for some reason IS not "activated". If It would be i would be able to feel exactly the same looking at a wall Alone in my room than after picking Up 10 Girls straight perfectly) Ah?

Im quitting spiritual sadhana because I have realized my ego was using the spiritual path to feel special, and in a way, to maintain the Karma of Being special of other beings. Sometimes the most important sadhana is to stop all sadhana, any kind of meditation yoga or psychedelics. Ironically the Only thing preventing me from enlightment is actually realising there is no enlightment for me. Once you have absolute claritiy on how your ego is maintaining the karmic bag then you know exactly what you need to do, you dont need to meditate all your Life. You just need absolute claritiy on what your ego is avoiding in Life to maintain separation or maintain a "Bubble" of individuality. Then from that point you Will know the exact steps to take at every moment of your Life

By some reason I can not seem to transcend this twisted game. I met a girl some while ago and that hell of starting to become attached to his attention and even text messages replies has been created again. Luckily I know where this goes so I rapidly have stopped this before it gets too ugly, but it really bothers me that things have to be like this. Is sad I can not seem to be able to have a relationship with a woman that is just healthy, on the same level. Has anyone with the same issue being able to go beyond it?

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Yeap

right, I got ya. Congruence within, staying the source.

Ok, Ill try those advices I dont understand what you mean by that

I don´t think feminine manner matches neediness. By that logic most women should be needy, but that´s not the case. Something in my energy system clearly does not work right, I think you guys are right in that masculine energy is partly shut down in my part, probably going to stop doing spirituality the next couple of years. What you mean with that?

Lol

@NoSelfSelf Yeap man, totally resonate It with the last thing you said. I have to be source, not her 💪 Whatever It takes brother. Thank you

Good point brother, im taking advice @NoSelfSelf 💪💪💪

No, i understand you, when i connected to her equal to equal was precisely because i tapped in that attitude of trying to see her more than his looks, seeing an interesting person

@NoSelfSelf Funny thing is, as always happens with this women, when I stop caring about her/ignore her (not consciously, just because i was focused in other things) SHE WOULD COME BACK!!! And when i would start to grow attachment again, she would run. lol What im getting about this is, there is no shortcut with this scenarios, either one maintains itself in a place of equality or one suffers. But the Worst thing is that to really be succesfull to this women one really have to see them as a bag of meat with no value at all. Then they come to you craving your attention because they see you are the few guys you are not giving attention to a 10/10 This women was not Only physically very attractive also high IQ, i had learned a lot. Do not project value to anyone because we are all beings of equal value. The moment one projects value one is fucked.

It was beyond a bomb. It was a fucking nuclear bomb man @Someone here @Buck Edwards good words ☝️

Yeap , genetics is a type of karma LOL

@Salvijus im actually never Heard sadhguru talk about solipsism, you remember which video is?

Lol

Sure, sadhguru has many type of characters depending on the audience. Try to Watch the really old videos of his Channel in YT. Those of 12-13 years ago recorded in Spanda Hall. You Will be surprised, is a whole other teaching that those of today (which are adapted for the masses and "practical" Spirituality)

@Ramu @Leo Gura Isnt understanding intelectual by itself? IMO is more of an experience or not. Either you are now experiencing solipsism/oneness or dont. If you dont you are in duality. If you are you are Awake.

I guess is in doing it in the most conscious way possible. But regarding the externality thing, I personally have no interest at all in what society has sold me. I would love to have courage in go live in the mountains and drip in the bliss and perfect oneness and loneliness, is not because technically I can´t. I can, I have a free house, remote job, and tools to achieve that and make it stronger and stronger in intensity the more I focused I do it. But the focus is not there because the collective virus of externality has been programmed in the mind. So I say no to that and keep running the wheel, and for this I will pay a price I know, it will take me x20 more time to get to the same place im going, just because I keep taking detours because of society and collective virus of trying to achieve completeness from external outcomes, because everybody within feels weak, the being within feels like is never enough so you have to go extract value and love from the outside. And so the wheel keeps going.

Yeap thats why i was saying, ukranian war is the storm that makes the previous Sunny day be complete forgotten But is true that ukranian war probably happens because of the colletive contraction and closure. When success or feeling enough means i have to be above other being, we end Up with this issues. That with our mental intelligence get much worse in proportion, compared to 2 tigers which the worst thing Will be slashing each other throats, but not wars in the proportions of humans. @Breakingthewall Thats why I see the issue in accepting not being able to feel completely satisfied within without any external influence, that means you are going to have to get that satisfaction in the outside, and that means getting that job while the other Guy doesn't. And to get that women to the bed the other 20 have to stay at their home jerking off to porn. Thats where i see the issue with the perspective of external.

Yeah one can survive without the need of the unnecesary barriers. I Talk about stopping the wheel but that do not come from evasion but from mastery of Life mechanics. Once the wheel is stopped doesn't Matter if one is in the world or not, any way one is beyond it.

The end of the game. But for that you have to stop seeing value in the game at all. Personally I don´t think this is worth anything. I don´t think this Is worth anything but because certain maturity is not there in the intelligence, this keeps going. The wheel keeps rolling. I mean the day the sun shines you think the game is wonderful, but the next day the storm comes and takes away everything and you realize, what is the point of this endless ups and downs.