Javfly33

Kundalini usually is misinterpreted by all sort of things... Kundalini is real but at the same time is just a metaphor, is not like if you feeling anything in your spine or belly is actually "kundalini"... However I don´t want to say to you what your "experience" was because I obviously don´t know. But with this kind of things one says "what was that" is better to just leave it there. I had strange experiences too but since they haven´t solved or clear any confusion really I just don´t give them much importance.

I still feel empathy for "humans" in situatinos of suffering, so I guess I haven´t yet embodied what I´m saying or else is just another concept of the mind. The future will tell. But truth is, everybody says "doubt everything, you need to see things outside of the perception of the mind/language" Ok. Well what I have observed is, I am not sure when you look at a human being, there is a person there. I don´t understand exactly how suffering is fucking possible. I have seen with my own eyes my own person being nothing more than a part of reality which doesn´t live at all more than the "lifeness" than the awareness projects onto this own body. It´s clear than awareness can´t suffer or feel. But is also clear than the body, or thoughts, also can´t suffer or feel. Then WHO the fuck is actually suffering or feeling?? Jesuschrist this is going to make me nuts (but, again, who is really going nuts here?) Broh If i start like this i won´t end until im exhausted and more confused than ever. I´m beggining to accept i´ll never sort it out and I will rest just in the breath. At least I will in peace.

That´s amazing that you say that. I´ve been doing that since yesterday´s morning. I had a brutal insight doing Yoga after a couple of miserable weeks of monkey mind and increased anxiety. During the exercise it was pranayamas and the last exercise was to just "be conscious of the breath". I realized my chest was fucking constrained by my ego-talk and anxiety i´ve been pain attention all of this time. I realized if I put my back straight, open my chest and breath slow and profound, I regain power. I´ve been doing this since yesterday and I think I can seriously change my life a lot if I keep doing it. However when I engage with work or whatever I have to let go a little bit of this concentration. But so far in the "doing nothing in particular" moments I am doing it.

First of all, let me say that I am not sure if my experience should be posted on " Meditation, Consciousness, Enlightenment, Spirituality" , or in " Health, Fitness, Nutrition" in fact I am writing this to see if anyone has experienced the same, or even better if this isn´t something as uncommon as I think and it is just a "side effect" of doing exercise sometime, and it shouldn´t be "deluded" with minor-awakening or shift of consciousness. However, since I have been running since I am 15 years old, and this experience only has happened to me 3 times, all of them in the last couple of months, I thought it was something worth to share and maybe pay some attention into discovering what is happening. So I´ll get to the point: Bascially it has happened to me 3 times while I am jogging/running , that I get a very strong "disorientation of perception". I´ll try to explain what happens: I am aware of my body running or my thoughts coming in as always, but suddenly, and out of the blue, basically I get this "shift" in which I do not know where to attach myself. Basically is like the most "fundamental I" inside me stops identifiying with the body, and I basically, during about 10-15 seconds I literally do not know where I am. During this short time, there is an increase heart-rate, and "minor panic sensation". It suddenly ends because I start talking again to myself" re-assuring of where I am" and it finally ends. This "feeling" doesn´t come from a thought, so its not like I start thinking, whoa, whoa I am feeling dizzy, where I am. No. It´s more like, when you are meditating, you know that "neutral place" where everything comes from? Well that place in that moment doesn´t know where it should focus/attach to, because it stops attaching to the body, so basically during some seconds that thing doesn´t know where it is located. After 10 seconds the thing again starts being located again in the thought and the experience ends.

Yeap, I remember when working downtown I used to hang out several days afterwork to grab a beer around 9:30pm, then I would get home around 11:00pm, take a shower and finally eat at 11:30 I wouldn´t say this style damaged my habits or healthy life, its definetely radical but depending on what society you live some times its what works best.

I read in psychedelicsociety that dosing is (obviously) much accurate and therefore safer, if it´s synthetic 5-MeO-DMT than if its "picked up" from the actual toad...Is this a concern regarding tripping at psychedelic retreats? Like, should I make sure the 5-MeO-DMT they offer me will it be from synthetic form? If its not should I pass and look for another one maybe?

It depends on the kind of life you have lived. If you have lived a very fast-paced life, with lots stimulation, etc it is very hard to not fall again and again during your spiritual road into the desires, hopes, and traps of the mind. Apart from that,I think there´s difference in each brain/sould/body and depending who you are, you will be more "prone" to awaken, or not. But the first point is very important. Difficult to awaken if when you get into daily life you have 100 desires and goals, lots of trips with friends, etc. So basically what the 90% of modern world is now designed.

From my research on several psychedelics/drugs forums, Datura and similar delirants, are very risky in comparison to reward. Apparently with this one the urban myth "you can actually never come back from the trip" is actually possible.

Yesterday´s night I woke up at 2.00am after having some kind of strange experience (in the "dream state" or wherever I was) which lasted about 5 seconds. This experience was similar to sometimes "hipnogonic hallucinations" which commonly include a "ringing sound" for some seconds which sometimes I had experience (I have experienced them maybe 4,5 times, they are quite common). Well, I don´t give much importance to it, apparently its something similar to sleep paralysis and so on. Can be uncomfortable, can be weird, but during the time it passes one has a sense of "I". But yesterday it was different. I remember during the first second or two I became consciouss of being the "Observer" and there wasn´t anything else there. There was fear but since it wasn´t anything more than that, I had to let go of fighting what was happening. What preceeded was an incrementing shining light (im not kidding) and then for some seconds just pure emptyness of being. When I woke up I felt like I had been somewhere else. I wanted to know if this could be related with Spiritual Development, since I have been doing important progress lately, or it could just be another sleep disorder/hallucination to not give much importance to.

Thanks friend. I wish you luck

Porn will be out of your life when you´re lifestyle doesn´t match with porn. For example, do you feel like binging on porn when you recently went out running/exercising? Do you feel like binging on porn when you have social appointments or a date that day? You get my point, right? There´s plenty of stuff to do but the "fastest" way to get porn out of your life is mainly fix your dopamine chasing habit (1. By exercising long-enough reguarly EACH DAY) and (2. ) by having enough social interactions/appointment conection with people. Start changing your life enough to do a lot of those two points (especially 2., but don´t forget number 1) and you won´t have to worry about porn. Don´t try to change but instead try techniques or "magic-pills" (like nofap, meditation, kratom etc) and prepare for a long time high and lows, suffering, hopes, and relapses. Source: Personal experience

1000 girls? wtf...man. I don´t know what to tell you but... I think you should focus in marketing. I think have enough skills with that statistics lmao... By the way, to fellow actualizer to fellow actualizer... what advice would you give me to start picking up girls? I used to do it about 5 years ago, where I was more shy than now, but now I can´t get myself to fucking do it lol, what surprises me because now I think I´m more confident than before...or not lol I´m so confused. Need advice. I think I have get very comfotable and because it seems so uncomfortable start picking up again i can´t get myself to doit.

I don´t think this would be flow state. I do programming and i have entered supposedly what they call "flow state" and yeah you "lost the track of time", and if you ask where I was during the "flow" i would answer you "in the program/screen" but there is never a change of awareness, in fact I would say is the opposite, you are total focused in the thing. Also flow state usually lasts a lot longer, this is just some seconds where I shit myself in my pants and then I come back to monkey mind haha...

Thanks, I will keep running then HAHAH

I think you are going too far with the psychoanalysis dude I said all kind of shit on drugs in the same or worse intensity that the OP experience... I could either go mad and delusional in that every one of those things that I said meant something or... I just could accept that those things are part of the deal when you are doing mind-altering stuff like LSD. OP should go "deeper", but only if he has an history with his sister of any kind of trauma or has fantasized with her in the past or etc (which I think OP would know...) if not, he´s torturing himself doing "contemplation".

Dude, you getting this waaaay out of proportion. And also a lot people commenting here too! I understand the shame must be horrible to deal with but as long as you say your relationship with your sister is normal, there is no way you should blow this out of proportion. Stuff like that arises easily on drugs that inhibit rational thinking lmao, I said pretty mindfucking stuff on psychedelics, so what you think my friends gave a shit about what I said about them? I think one time on mdma, which I can´t think of drug more emotionally inhibitory than that one, I mentioned the newborn of a friend and I said pretty nasty stuff about it. Like really nasty. Although I was saying it I was with a fucking smile on my face lmao. Not because I had anything against my friend or because im a sadist for newborns but rather because the more taboo and inimaginable stuff, the more juicy for the mind is to shout it when the mind is carefree with no boundaries. They never have judged me because they understand some drugs can completely anhilate mental boundaries . I don´t want to judge your sister, but if she loves you/is smart enough she will eventually understand drugs make you do this kind of things.

When Sadghuru usually comes to spain? I wasn´t aware of this haha

If you "I Am x" you already something. Next step you should just say "I am" and stop there

If you are in Europe you can send a sample to analize at https://energycontrol-international.org/drug-testing-service/ That way you'll definitely know if you have 5-Meo-DMT for sure.

So here´s the deal. Writing this lines I am being consciouss on how radical this is but this is what I am discovering: -My identity, my person, it seems it just it´s a form, a representation of the "whole", call it consciousness, call it "oneness", call it "reality". From this point of view, I can see now why everything in my life has happened. Or in other words, I don´t care why anything in my life has happened by x or y reason. Since i started self-development I was obssesed in discovering why I have been "like this" and since started spirituality, apart from achieving that what they call "true liberation" i was hoping also it would answer some "questions" about "myself". But results are not going as I expected. I am seeing the "importance" of consciousness that my "identity" has, no different that the importance of consciousness that my coffee table or matress has. From this viewing, is not that I don´t want to ask for "answers", its that I see that asking for answers is meaningless the same that if I ask for answers for the universe why the coffee table has 2 trillion atoms instead of 2.1trillion atoms. I know below some teachings this could be view as "low self-esteem", because Humans are supposed to have "tremendous value" inside them, but I don´t see this in a negative way. I just have meditating very fucking deep lately and I open my eyes, I get consciouss of me, and I just see something moving. Nothing else. Like a car is moving. Is it bad to don´t see much difference between yourself and a car? Now...what is the next step? It seems I should just let go of everything. Just live. Hoping each day I will be more tuned with the truth during more time during the day. But at the same time it´s seems it consciouness its still identied with the person its because the person need to develop itself more. But I don´t undertand why yet. Or Should I just shut Up and maybe just keep practising more? Anyway, sorry if this is not a very "enlightning" post, I don´t know any persons who do this kind of practice and sometimes I just need to share this stuff to not feel that alone in this "path".

This is what I call mania+ego-inflation by being obssesively focused in anything for a lot of amount of time lol Nah, now seriously...I want to believe you but...what happens if you go distracted for a long time into anything (work, etc) you think will be still awake when you go back to your practice?

abandon all desires

I only heard the concept "zen devil" from Leo lol

Why he doesn´t retire to a cabinet to go meditate/yoga/psychedelics for ever? I don´t mean this question in a negative way/attack, I ask purely because of true curiosity. In fact I guess it´s because he must have reached a point of quite the balanced-life where although not fully enlightened his ego is very stable, yet the "need" of awaken 100% is not such a need like in others. I´m just saying this because if I had enough money saved to have food for the lets say, next 20 years (and purely not a single more expense), I mean there´s no need even to be worried about enlightement or not. As long as your only time you spend it meditating and doing yoga, you are already in the "zone". At least that is my experience. I might have bad days of pracitce but overall I know that if somebody would give a plate of food each day withouth me doing anything, I´ll be just doing yoga 24/7 and I would be in a state of neutral peace lol. Why worry about getting total enlightment since i wouldn´t have to go back to the ego/goals/survival/fear world! You get my point? The only reason why people have awakening experiences and then go back to ego state of mind is because in fact, their lives are still planned to go back to that kind of world after doing whatever retreat/practice they planned to do. For me this is common sense but maybe some disagree... I am waiting for your answers. Today I have been all day planning about how can I start saving money and search/build some sustainable housing in order to accomplish something like this. Once I don´t need to worry about food and housing, I´m going full 100% into the consciouss practice. I don´t even care about light/heating. I plan to build the house in an all-year warm type of place lol

Better, that way they can bring me fresh food