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Nice, I was wondering too why Ekchart Tolle have this hate to the mind all the time in his narrative. I imagine he is very grounded in presence awareness to be very comfortable most of the time but he haven´t gone deep enough yet.

Because "I" exist. That´s the root of all suffering.

More like realizing that negativity wasn´t evert there in the first place. If you ask now..."But how come you say it´s not here? Yesterday i felt it and it was real as it gets!" Yeah, that´s how illusion feels like reality. If you don´t have a comparison between illusion and actual reality, then all you got is illusion. Therefore illusion becomes reality

This is enlightment.

I had a a thought that said: "What if I am a thought experiencing isness"? That would be mean that isness is prior to thought. That would mean that anything that would come from thought, it would come after isness/being/present moment is already here. This includes the though of "this is obviously a physical reality", "this is more than obvious I mean cmon" and etc . Those all thoughts seem very true yet they are thoughts appearing in isness, which is obviously prior to any thought. Basically the only thing I know for sure is isness. Thoughts can only try to interpret isness. I'm onto something or im just going insane and should quit Self-Inquiry?

@Red-White-Light Ask yourself if a psychotic episode would be possible in someone who hasn't known any kind of culture whatsoever, that has 0 conceptual knowledge about reality. Insanity can only happen if you compare it to sanity. An insane person really doesn't exist, but we make it so but putting it that label and compare the person withouth understanding about reality.

@PlayTheGame Realizing I Am doesn't explain that you are God. Personally I haven't experienced that I Am God, but I have an open mind to consider it.

@Zingo You still think non-duality is just a word-game. Doesn't it "feel" now that you are not God? Do you have another tool than just a belief to afirm that you are not God? Because if you actually have a tool that is not a belief, please tell me.

@electroBeam That post scared the shit out of me. I want to awaken or leave this shit behind for ever. I don't know how much time I'll be able to handle the mindfuckery for so long. Why don't you guys can't talk like Eckhart Tolle? That the path seems hunky dory? LoL

Does an awakening answer the question why reality seems some way and not another? I get there´s only Being but is there a why?

Yes, maybe you should move into other substances / practices. To give you an idea I sometimes have switched to effortless awareness at around the 50ug mark (although I think I resonate particularly strong with lsd) , so that you should give you an idea that you shouldn´t be neccesary to do such high doses. Or maybe you have a very strange tolerance effect.

@Arzack You could always crush your head against whatever solid you have locked yoursefl too. The wisest thing is to have a physical stronger than you experienced trip sitter. What happened to you with 5-MeO by the way.

It seems that after having some altered states of consciousness, solipsism is the last illusion of the ego and for some people it feels very hard to break through. Let's just see it at what it's really is. A story created by ego to, after been shot by Truth in the face, wants to fit in and make space for itself too in a game where theres only space for One! Notice how it can only play this card who more thoughts and ideas, the very tricks that it used to tell itself that it was alive. Lol! No! Dummy. You don't fit here. There's only space for One here. Only THIS @VeganAwake

Other methods are not useless, they just take a lot more time. Having said that, "the faster method" doesn't mean it's the best. For example I could do 5-MeO-DMT but I don't want because I feel I have a lot of shadow work and basic necessities to have before I encounter such big realizations. So I do self-inquiry and yoga and I have pretty good results. Depending on what stage are you you will need one tool or other, or who knows no tool at all. I think Leo just wants to go as deep as he can for the sake of it, not so much for personal development/end of suffering as most people do( which then they will be more concerned to integrate the realization into their daily lives as a benefit, it seems this is your concern regarding depending on a drug) however for Leo then the most logical tool is psychedelics

I'm going to the therapist currently and today I had a sort of argument (in a good mode lol not that we fought) about of self esteem and love. I told her that if self esteem was related with self love, that you always should have high self esteem regarding if you accomplish goals or not, because love is universal in reality/universe. She was shocked by this and ask me if that was really how reality / the world work. That that wasn't our experience as humans etc Obviously at the end I had to give her the point because I wasn't going to have an argument with someone who hasn't ever gotten out of the conditional mind, but what do you think about this? Isn't this a concern that society has no clue about radical self-acceptance and radical righteousness regarding what you have done in life? Overall my therapist is pretty good, I know you can't ask almost anybody to have an understanding of real unconditional love, but it kind of disappointed me too because I would like therapist which is in accordance with that I have discovered in high consciousness states. (not even talking about psychedelics, the Nathaniel's Branden book "The six pillars of self esteem" has also given me a taste of unconditional love/self esteem doing the exercises he promotes)

Mhhh...I guess both?

After being aware of the question "Who I am?" several times through the day, there is a kind of "pointer" which arises in the experience, to which his answer is THIS (what is happening when awareness becomes aware of awareness (if that even makes sense) I'm going into the right direction? Could be THIS what I am?

Check out the Six Pillars of self-esteem, by Nathaniel Branden.

I realized a thought was just a thought, not mine. I saw a thought like one would see a chair, or an eyelid. I realized intuitively that the 'taste' of this thought is the same that the taste of the thought of anyone else's. After this realization, this catapulted awareness and joy for the next hour. It felt like this was it. However ego comes back. What is the nature of this? Should I be concerned that there are things still in my "soul" that needs to be . It's a little disappointing touching joy to then let it go again and go back into linear-thinking mind time. "I" thought it was done for good.

@VeganAwake There´s nothing but awareness... I´m just watching this video and I think I really got the joke this time man, i cant believe it

@fridjonk Interesting, I should have asked her those at the beggining, damn. @Preety_India Yes! I agree totally with that. That is the self-esteem i´m talking about.

@LastThursday But the body awareness is identified with it was born, wasn´t it? In that sense romans maybe existed too?

Thanks a lot man, I'll surely check the resources you gave me.

It depends on what you mean on Ego. If you want to separate certain electrical signals in your brain which produces sounds and you call that an "identity", and separate that the electrical signals of a brain 100km from you are somewhat "different". Then, yeah, they are different. But there´s nobody there. Ego is called like a "symbol" to point to certain actions than a certain process do. A false identity is created, but its a symbol, an ego is a map withouth territory

When I ask the mind "Who I am", is saying "I". But i fast see this is just a thought. I have 0 evidence there´s actually someone there inside the mind saying "I"!! I entered this morning for some seconds a truly effortless state I can´t take this, I need to realize what the fuck is happening. I can´t be in that state self-inquiring for 2-3 hours a day and not getting anywhere.