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Or it just feels this way when "you tip your toes in Truth but you didn´t stay there for the whole movie"? I´ve never had experienced psychosis but I yesterday I had by 10 seconds the most intense mind fuckery experience of my life, and what i imagine it would be to "lose your mind". However fast, very fast my awareness re-focused to my human conceptual identity. I think it was because there was an incredible intense fear in the mind being experienced, and the mind coulnd´t handle it. However it seems mistical experiences are like actual "trips", people stay there for a while and laugh, and become in awe. That wasn´t my experience. What to you think? I´m the whole thing guys

Lol I really loved your message.

@bejapuskas I agree although at least in my case the fear was not arising in form of thoughts. It just arised and it was gone. It wasn't like a train of thoughts that end causing a emotional breakdown in some people. Imagine if you are now typing on your PC and in the next second you are in a whole other setting, like I don't know, sailing a boat across the ocean. See you don't have even time to think and form thoughts via fear, it just it's so shocking the re-contextualization that the mind can't handle it.

I was recalling your video "live enlightenment". That's basically where I got that idea. And well other similar experiences like Sadghurus or Adyashanti who recall their awakenings which it seems much happiness. I imagine that is the ultimate step and before it were a lot of confusion and mindfuckery to the point of starting to think if you should stop doing this. So this stuff is ACTUALLY serious and real. Ok. Fuuuuuuck me.

How can you?

How?

@Serotoninluv beatiful thank you too. The last paragraph impacted my heart strongly.

But I'm reality experiencing a human mind. Right? If right now there are tree in front of me, I am experiencing the tree. Experience is all there is therefore I am the tree. However somebody in Africa now is sungazing and this experience is not experiencing sungazing therefore I'm not absolute. I can't get out of concept even after so much work . But thank you in a very love way for all of your insights ?

I was listening to the video "What is Truth" while walking on a forest (where I am still trying this right now) on low dose of LSD (just the triple of a microdose, I'm experimenting a lot with this promising dose lately) and I experienced nothing that I couldn't even know it was possible. Now, I've done some trips here and there, not a lot but I know psychedelics can increase emotions, but what has happened was NOTHING LIKE THIS. And I know what is the thought or feeling of "fear" or "anxiety", this wasn't any either. This was just 6-7 seconds that, while I couldn't say HOW and put into words now, but in that moment I understood WHY I have a "subjective" experience and I'm experiencing the rest of the world. The problem is I don't know or how could I put into words what happened but I feel in those seconds I got an answer to "my experience". All questions answered but not a single explanation given. How could this be possible? Of course now again I can't understand why I'm a subjective being experiencing reality. But in those seconds I got an answer. Wtf?

As far as Im understand, self-talk with the intention of maintaining and surviving an Identity is devilry. For example, I might have the opportunity to think or act in a different way to accomplish or see what I sense is of a higher level to my evolution, but because I want to keep being what I think I am, I resign. Self-talk which moves with the "flow" like creative talking and etc would be more aligned with reality. I am not sure of the last paragraph thought. It's very tricky to see when you are going forward and when you are being delusional to think that you are going forward.

Yeah, last time I was having a "crisis" I just surrendered to it and it finally dissapearred this way. It's so counter intuitive though that you actually have to feel it and embrace totally to actually let it go of it

I am feeling an emotion, and I am experiencing pain, I have paused several times in a "self-inquiry" way to try to see where this pain is located. I can't find it. However it keeps hurting. I am very intrigued of this. I would like to hear people who consider themselves to live in a higher conscious lives than the average, if they can see clearly through an uncomfortable emotion when they have it. Thoughts are more or less easy to "control", however emotions mobilize too the body and maintaining awareness at that state is incredibly difficult, therefore I can say that while I have improved in several aspects of my life thanks to spiritual work, in the aspects of emotions I still feel I have nothing to do and I get totally lost in attachment and suffering.

The more you go deeper into this work and your state of consciousness goes up, psychedelics get more and more powerful with less dose. The same happens if you are just from born more prone to be open to the truth. For example me nowdays I can take 32.5ug of LSD (just three times of a functional, coffee like microdose) and have profound spiritual insights, although definetely not "satoris" or clear non-dual states.

@Matt8800 Hi and thank you for answering, I have this strange fear at night on my house since ever. It's not that im frightened of the dark because in any other houses I don't experience this fear, even if im alone. I've tried to think into memory if it could be because of any "traumatic" event but I just can seem to remember anything. It's just very serif don't you think? Could be explained because of negative energy?

How to not defend an image (let's say of 'toughness' or 'coolness') towards the female genre? See, the thing is I have observed that if I totally let go of trying to show a certain image, or I stop trying to defend an image a might be un proud of (nervousness for example) I will, ironically, don't experience any nervousness and pretty grounded confidence in the interaction in the girl. It's tricky because: 1. There's this culture/beliefs than certain "weak" aspects of personality are turn-off for women (or even creepy 2. But if I try to hide them I ll experience anxiety and therefore will make it worse. If I don't and accept them I'll have confidence. Which one wins? Maybe the best is the balance between the two?

Yeah, I agree with that so much. I've only started to realize yet that doing that have shot me in the face in "full circle" move. Now I have to let go of judging of so much years lol so difficult but you're totally right. @modmyth 24

You need to transcend that red/blue stage if you want to get anything interesting done with your life in this life time buddy. The definition of strength and weaknesses changes depending on your perspective and values about life. There's really nothing accurate about strength or weaknesses apart from what gets you closer to the truth on how reality works or puts your deep into the hole into delusion.

Just expect some emotional pain as well some unexpected success. The key is that you are doing it for growing, not for an specific result in your mind.

That's a start. I've had full afternoons of self-detattachment to the body/mind after some gold streak of successful self-inquiry. Still it feels like something is lacking, there is this effort of maintaing that state that ironically makes it impossible to actually completely transcend that sensation of identity.

It's nice, although I have never tried with acid. What I like to do with psychedelics if I feel anxiety before taking them, is taking a light dose of a benzo 2 hours before dosing. That way you can take the psychedelic with no impairing anxiety/ normal excitement, and by the time it peaks, the effects of the benzo are even lighter (+4 hour if it's acid) so I have never felt it ruined the experience. I recommend it although you must take a light dose. If you take too much of a dose you might find yourself to fearless to dose a lot more of the psychedelic, and by the time the benzo starts to wear off you might be hit with a train in the face you weren't ready to encounter yet ?

@Cykaaaa Yes, that's exactly that I've been trying to avoid a long time. I guess it's time to become ordinary! @JustThinkingAloud

How to not have superiority complex? All of my career and other type of goals are driven towards me imagining getting them will make me feel more superior to other people/society I compare with. (Except getting a remote job and in the future being self-employed which I really want) I am working on my self-esteem. Will enough work on self-esteem remove superiority complex?

@JustThinkingAloud i Agree with that intellectually. However I can't seem to really integrate it in my soul

I think you are confusing God for god's false identity. I do ask myself too the nature of suicide, thought. It's a very taboo aspect, even in spirituality.

You seem happy though :D. Please keep us updated .