Javfly33

LOL I can see myself going down the same path. Funny story for sure. I´m going to save that one for the future.

I can tell you my own personal anecdotical evidence, one friend of my father did stop using methadone (which is even nastier to quit than heroin) after just 1 session of Bufo alvarius, so I´m pretty sure Leo´s story is legit, other story is how my father´s friend is now... usually people need to start transforming their lives after such experiences, is not just take a pill and you are done. But the mere fact it gives you that opporutinty is already gold ill give you that.

When thoughts are arising instead of you thinking the thoughts. When they arise you can choose which thoughts you give them energy/find them interesting, and which not. When you are the thoughts, or the one thinking the thoughts, then there´s no possibility to choose, you just go where the mind wants to go.

I do have pictures of yoga exercises but unfortunately the explanations are in spanish. You can always try using a translator so with the help of the pictures, you can basically sort out how to do all the exercises pretty clear. I think it´s worth it. I can PM you the pictures if you like.

Isn´t this just eating once a day at night? PD: Not trying to de-motivate you btw, I actually encourage you to try fasting it will surely be good for you, and yeah meditation + eating less they go hand in hand for better results

Bro I don´t see a problem with it I actually have basically the same vision BUT the difficult thing is how to survive with so little. One strategy could be getting a remote job, so the rest of the day you can spend it meditating. Then once you have saved enough off that remote job, you get youself some basic self-sufficient home technologies like solar panels and some other stuff like that, and then you reduce living to the absolutely minimum to be able to spend the rest of your live meditating with those savings. Once you have some savings, I actually don´t see it so difficult, as long as you don´t spend absolutely anything and you eat very little (which won´t be a problem once you have high levels of consciousness). The question is will you have the balls to actually do it. Is easy to say it from home, but making the decision to actually do it, and living the risk of living off basic survival (once you have quit the remote job and you are living on savings) will require that you are actually serious with this. Also, let me point one risk and that would be the elastic curve of inflation and unpredictable economy. Who knows how money will be 20 years from now? Maybe the dollars from today won´t value as much. In this case to avoid this risk you could get yourself some land and some animals but then you are fucked because then you´d depend on society.

Bro don´t ruin my excitement for the discovery Let me enjoy the shock and awe i´m in, while it lasts.

The most i have reached is the sense "I Am". The good thing is that "I am" is previous to any categorizing of the mind. I am is literally who you are. You are. Therefore there aren´t any questions really for me, because the mere substance of reality is that what you are. All kind of perceptions and sensory stuff happens within this substance.

Who is this "we". There is no "we". There is only One playing games here.

I am conscioussness experimenting myself. Conscioussness have infinite dreams, and I am one of it's dreams. You are too, but "you" doesn't make much sense. Because there's no "you", just conscioussness. It feels like a dream because it can't be anything else but imagination and creativity. LOL

Start by doing the practices and then later in the future you´ll worry about if you stop doing some of those low-consciousness activities.

Yeah i support this. @Christer Although I must say, I was also afraid of the dark, (way less than you), and it wasn´t until I encountered a "dark set and setting" with several psychedelics in low doses that I had to face my fear. When nothing is pushing you to the fear you just keep procrastinating. The weird thing is, I don´t know yet why I had that fear. I would say it has gone away like 70% of it, but I had no idea what it was lol. For the OP I would suggest very low doses if you decide to go ahead with psychs

I read that book, but I´ve found in my research that a lot of ED too is related with psychological issue, not so much with the fact of jerking off to porn. Although I´m sure some people do have ED due to abuse of porn, I just think the whole no-fap movement haven´t told all the truth, and I think it´s important since for lot of people (I included myself) it was easy to use porn as an excuse for all your sexual or social problems. But your advice is inherently good, I am not going to argue that. Defintely rationalizations can go backwards and part of my message might have been as a way to justify my abuse which I´d like to be less HAha. That being said, at the same time I know the pure reason why use too much social media or if watch too much porn one week, it´s really not because of being dopamine hijacked but because of deeper reasons like my anxiety or lack of accept the present moment. But I mean dopamine is a "thing" to represent some stuff in the brain, I just think some people use it totally as an scape goat, like in a "deterministic" way of why his life its why it is, so they can feel justified about their acts.

I "think" so. I just leave the mind and body to do what it wants. Since I am not it, the only thing that is a problem is when I believe I am them. That´s why I just care about doing the practices and being conscious, the rest of the day "I plug out". The more conscious I become the more the illusory identity "falls apart" like you like to say. Sometime shadow work must be done but a lot of others times much of the issues are related straightly with the identity,so if the identity stops being feed, the issues are just seen as non-sense things which just stop being re-conditioned.

I'm not sure about that. Last year I was very deep into quitting porn because I felt almost sure how bad it was because of the dopamine release but then I'll realize much of it was psychological. (once I read that porn was so bad and it was the responsible of my problems, my mind absorbed and belief all of that dopamine bro-science as absolute and seriously think I did some serious nocebo effect on me). I realized much of it was psychological, in our super stimulated world if you don't get stimulation from porn or social media you'll end up getting in other forms in the internet, doing push ups and listening to techno music (lol)... etc. Sure, doing push-ups and socializing is definitely a way more healthy mechanism of releasing dopamine than watching porn or scrolling throughout YouTube and Instagram, but, the point is the mind in either way in all those cases will be and crave be distracted with external stimulation. And particularly in my experience I am not noticing a very straight line between success in consciousness practices, and abuse of social media/internet scrolling addiction (that's what I call it LoL). In this days of quarentine I'm literally checking Instagram like 20-30 times a day, also this forum and lot...etc and it is mainly because I find myself I can't go out and the mind gets anxious... however at the same time I'm reaching levels of concentration in my yoga and meditation practices which are being absolutely amazing, like I've never have reached in my life. I must say, when i did abstained from porn and Internet scrolling, i did felt quite more calm and less anxious overall, but also more bored. I wouldn't say it improved my practice, I just felt a little with more patience to enjoy boredom (I guess with some consciouss practices this could be an advantage, but I think you don't want to get bored doing meditation or yoga because then you're probably doing it wrong)

What do you mean using psychedelics as a scapegoat?

The phone is happening because the phone is conscious of itself. But...what is a phone really? You think that a phone is an object happening, but that is just a desguise. For the phone to happen, you must be there. Think about it, have you ever been conscious of an object without you being there? No! Of course not. You must be there for the object to happen. The trick is, realizing there's no phone, only You!

Yes but you can't deny there is something being consciouss of this not-real self...always. what is this which is always conscious? And btw, truth told be by a liar...it's still the truth! truth by something/someone that doesn't exist...is still truth! You can't keep playing that fallacy of authority forever haha

By that perspective it could also happen that that One never remembers itself. Since for Awakening to happen, the One has to imagine that Awakening happens . Why if it never does it? Since there's no ground, also it can't be no defined end Oh boy that is scary. What if I keep dreaming for eternity.

We are going to live Infinite dreams, since there's no ground whatsoever in this reality isn't it? Haha... Just someOne dreaming everything possible, for eternity. Jesus Christ.

Woah chill bro I didn't meant to say it in an attitude of "your question is stupid". I'm far from being awake from the dream. So im still here .But if we get too catch up on the details it's going to be more difficult to wake up :0

Thank God you start integrating the truth about reality into self-actualization. It was about time ❣️? I'd say enough of conditional self-love. Lol I ditched my therapist recently most world still stuck in conditional love/esteem. Discovering who you are the best self-love path ever.

I just think it´s all just a fucking dream man.

I used to think this too but I noticed they are just thoughts in my mind. Once I stop feeding the thoughts (I was believing them), they stop appearing. The mind basically will construct all type of stories about you: "I am a bad person" "I am great person"...etc. The mind loves having the illusion of knowledge about something. I wouldn´t give it much importance tbh. Much people when they start spirituality have this dogma about it that spirituality is about being good. This was absorbed by religious catholic dogma, probably. But hey, I could be wrong and you could be judging yourself deeply from some things in the past or something. You must inspect if it´s spiritual ego judging itself for not being spiritual , or is it something "real" that emotions are trying to tell you.

Here you have 112 https://archive.org/details/OshoVigyanBhairavaTantra I´m sure you´ll find enough to keep yourself consciouss all day. LOL The difficult thing is not the methods is actually be discliplined enough to not believe your monkey mind