Javfly33

So basically in the following weeks I'll be starting a job of postman. The thing is, I been learning the past 18 months almost daily programming. So far I got three interviews, I was pretty excited to have my first developer job if I kept applying jobs because I did it all of my own (self-learn) but now I'll have to rethink my strategy since I landed this postman job My biggest concern is, sure I could land a developer job but I honestly don't have a clue if it's actually a good job. Because if I land one and it turns out to be shit then I lose my postman job which is a pretty safe job it's difficult I'll get fired from it (the company is from the government) My life purpose is not to be a postman nor a programmer, but to open a retreat of consciousness work. For that I would need money / time, so I thought that with enough experience of programming which could help in this two factors, with enough experience I could get paid much more than being a postman and if the position would be remote I could have much more time to start building my retreat But tbh maybe the money of the developer job will never be enough to open the retreat so might as well just not expend 2-3years coding accumulating experience and just try to make a business online making an app/product on myself I don't know, there are a lot of options but I'm not sure what could be the best. Advice from people that have worked in software engineering would be appreciated too

@Chumbimba Yes, they are relatively in high demand compared with other jobs. I don't have a degree. If you have one I'm sure it will be more easy for you to land a job in Spain. @ajasatya I see. Thanks for your advices! @Hello from Russia That seems a very good idea. What would be different between being a freelancer and having an web-dev agency thought?

Damn Good observation ??

Contemplate the difference between real and non-real ??

Kriya Yoga, I imagine being more powerful, is also way more subtler than Hatha Yoga. Probably somebody with 0 experience of Yoga jumping straight into Kriya won´t be able to appreciate the changes, so having experience in other form of yogas more physical probably is a good preparation for Kriyas and Pranayamas that are more subtle than just asanas.

@universe Yeah I probably look into part time roles see if I can land one of those. @ajasatya What do you mean exactly with mental space? Like you think about work at home you mean?

@WHO IS exactly man, but maybe God is trying to show himself something by showing all of that. @mandyjw Thanks man, I mean yeah I'm more or less in peace lately regarding what happens because I know what is real and what is not. However sometimes I wonder some stuff about my "story" and it would be nice if actually an intelligence is running the show and is not just all random.

@James123 Yeah I guess I would have fun lol That's the thing..I think God is the present moment/Existence. I see it as a numb/null thing that is just doing it's thing Not something that might have intelligence @Leo Gura So God literally has intelligence, God doesn't create random stuff? Does this intelligence sometimes have in mind the ego, or it doesn't care?

How so? You are @James123 and I'm @Javfly33 Where are you, exactly, right now?

@James123 That would mean that you are me.Cant be...I think you are other than me @Nahm Any advice to avoid self-deception? The old classic of "choose the thoughts that feel Good"? But what about when all thoughts seem alright ? And none of them quite right at the same time.

What do you mean?

Have you noticed that Reality is the only thing that exists? All of those concepts go through the roof as you said, because they are not always present as Reality is.

LOL Yeah good luck with that attitude to "arrive at Truth". Truth is not for you if you put so much value at your survival. I do think your message is good thought, according to the subforum we are in (self-actualization). But just wanted to give you a heads-up

Did your body hurt afterwards?

Amazing insight! Whether you love or you judge, you are loving or self-denying yourself. Very good trip report! Keep them going!

That's also my LP. Don't copy me! Lol Maybe if you are successful before me you can come to Spain and we can partner up ?

It's obvious that you can't get a DMT trip by breathing. I don't know if it releases DMT or not but the question is how much. Unless you are breathing for several days non-stop Lol

@JessiChell Yes. Ime, It's because you are not being authentic in the interactions. Have you observed that when you were with your partner you were more authentic? If you are not opening up in the socialization as you would with other people (for example partner or family) then, of course you will feel lonely afterwards. Because you haven't connected truly.

There are a lot of complex things going on in reality I guess, but you don't have to understand all of them to be, at least not yet. It's quite simple, really, you haven't erased the "I". Suicide is not an option, not just morally or whatever because I'm nobody to juzge anybody if if wants to end his life, but rather that it's not an option because your survival conditioning won't allow it. That's what one of the turning points for me. My ego would complain about how life or this or that is an illusion, nonsense or whatever. But then I realized that this ego actually the problem. Also that this ego prefers to stay the same before actually changing and finding peace. Basically I saw clearly that the only problem in reality was my "I". From that moment it was crystal clear what I needed to do. I guess until you see this you won't have this realization. It doesn't take only suffering but also wisdow/observation. Really observing if the problem is reality or is your "I"

That´s all very good but You haven´t removed the "I" yet. Don´t act as you have finished.

It´s frightening, yet profoundly liberating at the same time. I guess that´s why they call it "liberation".

If reality is imagination, does reality change when you are conscious that you are God? For example let's say you are talking over the phone with someone, if you are conscious in that moment you are God, then it wouldn't make any sense that you talk with anybody over the phone, because the "other one" would be you. However there are supposed to be enlightened beings but they seem to live a very normal life. See being enlightened doesn't mean that in that moment you are conscious that you are God, right? Only that sometime you did. So my question is, if you are conscious that you are God, imagination will change, right? For example on the example of the phone the other person should suddenly dissapear or etc... because there wouldn't be any point since you are fully consciouss there's nobody at the end of the line.

I see. So God needs to imagine that there's something outside itself so it can communicate/express itself. I think I got it. Projection is necessary since One can't communicate with itself, there must be at least TWO to communication to happen. That's why I project sentient beings and objects as God Until not long ago I had the same version yeah but, (and I don't mean to since I don't consider myself Enlightened or awakened at all) but I think there aren't any others . Is just me projecting stuff all around so a communication can take place. But lets say that they are not unconscious or consciouss, there aren't sentient beings. I am imagining them as God, just as I am imagining the wall or my body . But honestly after reading Leo's and others replies here i think it does make sense. I need to project stuff in order to create anything at all. God can't talk to itself because you need TWO to have a communication! Of course!

Interesting. I'll contemplate what you said ?

For me that doesn't make any sense. See, I see it like this. Imagine I am in my room and I suddenly start acting like my water bottle is actually a sentient being. And I start having a communication with the water bottle. Why do that? Why do the whole illusion and not just talk to myself directly?