Javfly33

I have tapped into some states of true joy, yes. But they have been like 0.000001% compare with the rest of time I have been living on this earth (excluding the years of childhood. Although I don't remember that much from childhood) I would compare true joy with the joy that a child feels just looking or doing something extremely simple. Because of course deep down they feel how magical and a miracle reality is. If you get in this state of realization you will have true joy. But of course it's will be rare since your monkey mind will be very concerned with survival problems. If you want true joy you will have to take survival less seriously. Ask yourself, if I didn't care about survival and I knew I was infinite, that I am going to be here for eternity, wouldn't I be just amazed by each second of reality? I imagine this is why high conscious beings walk around always with a smile on his face, for example Sadghuru.

Hallucinations that can occur in the consciousness state between waking and sleeping. Of course you interpret the meaning "hallucination" as you want. Some people will call it Kundalini Awakening. Others energy raising. Others just that the body needs the rest. I don't know about you, but I would say it wasn't an hallucination, I recall that the leg did tremble intensely. But it doesn't matter much if it was 'real' or not because as Leo says, everything is an hallucination.

+1. It could be some kind of hypnogogic state. I had a similar experience like the OP I while ago.

I wouldn´t jump into conclusions. My direct experience I have no direct experience of "other things happen simultaneously". If I am the truth this must be the whole universe. I mean sure I can think that the life of Hitler is happening NOW too but that just be a guess/imagination. Things might change though, I´m open to be wrong.

You starting to get it, yeah. Reality is Infinite singularity. It would be impossible to not be life. Life is unavoidable. There´s no "point", just what is unavoidable.

It´s the most intense yoga i´ve tried, but I wouldn´t consider it "a head trip".

I just change between sitting in half lotus and sitting just on a chair. I think the only solution is really to develop flexibility enough so you can do full lotus with your spine straight. If you have enough flexibility the legs and spine will be relaxed so there will be no problem.

That's a very interesting story. The funny thing is, the word sad itself has negative connotations. I wonder if after you did that (you accepted and sat with the sadness) it was still sadness. Or did it convert into something else? I can't imagine how a "negative* emotion can still be itself, after you totally accept it and sit with it, like one would do with joy or excitement. So simple, yet almost everybody tries to deny certain emotions. It doesn't feel good to surrender to them. How do you do it?

Hmm yeah, I´m preparing a trip for this summer finally...luckily I´m getting closer towards the end of the seeking.

I used to ask myself a similar question like that some time ago. The question would arise after or during going for a run out in nature, where there are many rocks around. I would be like "how is it possible that this rocks are still there, being themselves, existing, even when I am not around?" I don´t know why but I would find really really weird that those rocks would be there, being "maintained" by this "universe" while I was in the city, having a shower, or even me in another country. LOL. Idk but I made an intimate connection with this rocks and I couldn´t sort out why it felt so weird that they could exist withouth me there. Now I know I was into something . But unfortunately nothing has happened Even though I know I am using the materialist paradigm to explain why this rocks can exist withouth me being there, well, I can´t see why not. Damn I´m trapped I have been brainwashed. I want my enlightment!!!!

The content. Instagram can be quite customized for your tastes, there are channels like NationalGeo, artists...etc. Facebook I like it way less but it has some functionality with groups. But TikTok is nonstop teens twerking, silly jokes, people smashing cakes into their faces...etc That kind of humour.

Why? Ingesting it seems a pretty effective roa

That´s the whole point of enlightment I think. Annihilating your fictional identity so that only God, alone, remains. In that sense yeah, it´s kind of pretty fucked up. You get born by god and then you have to "let go of yourself" because being an individual entity turns out it sucks. The thing is, is not God´s fault. God can only BE. Your life is/was inevitable. Your choice is that can choose between keep living a fiction, or remaining in Truth just resting in asbolute awareness. But even that is not your choice. It´s God´s.

Listen to your heart, less to thoughts . Your post sounds much like "since reality is this way... I can´t do that". That seems like a limiting belief/thought. Maybe try re-thinking your life purpose, but withouth any kind of limiting thoughts. This way you will have a clear view, of what you really want.

Amazing trip report!! Now I´m even more excited to try this molecule

Anxiety exists thanks to thoughts my friend. Anxiety withouth thoughts, is just body sensations. Feelings. My advice: Maybe step up the meditation if you have time,and get closer to the feelings in your body. Surrender to the anxiety. Try to see it what it is. Isn´t the problem that there is a thought you think it shouldn´t be there? Next time this happens to you, instead of seeing it as a bad thing, try to see it as an opportunity. If until now you would respond in a reactive way such as "this is not good. I just finished meditating and my mind is again anxious" try to give 20% of your attention to the feelings, and try not to judge the thoughts that make this feelings "bad".

You are mis-interpreting the term "nothing". If you become conscious enough you can see an object is made of literally nothing. IT IS nothing. But of course once you give it a relative meaning, it becomes "something". Nothingness is what reality is, you don´t need to close your eyes. You just need to stop imagining meaning is real.

HAHAHAH Suffering is survival? I think it´s more "you suffer because you care about survival"

I suggest you to start doing long-mile runs (out in nature if you can). It is the activity that has resembled to me more relaxation, bliss, beingness...etc in a sober way. And it´s healthy!

We clarily have different versions of what enlightenment really is. For me enlightenment is not realizing Truth (even if this truth shows that Truth can't be owned by a person) but embodiment. By that logic anyone who has a breakthrough in the assumedly super-potent 5-Meo-DMT should realize that enlightenment is not owned by the person therefore stop the seeking right there. Yet that is not the reality as you can easily see. Call me idealistic, but if you going to have the same survival agenda and attachments like a human being that doesn't know anything about conscioussness and haven't meditated a single minute in his life, then going around saying you are enlightened is nothing that self-deception. Isn't all this work about the person? The Absolute is already fine. Is the person that needs to be integrated.

Sure, but relatively to what Maharaj is doing, we can guess how consciouss he was. Would you believe that someone it´s enlightened being a crack addict? I totally get what Maharaj is saying, but I´d like to know at which point of his path did he said that. If someone is still trapped in the "play of gunas" 10 years after having awoken, then I wouldn´t consider them enlightened.

It depends when he did those things after realization. If you´d tell me that he would still be smoking cigarettes and fucking prostitutes 10 years after awakening I wouldn´t consider him enlightened. But I set the bar quite high in terms of being unified with God. For me is not having just a realization but embodying God. Why would you hurt your body if you are really that conscious? It seems unexplainable to me.

That's a good excuse of the ego ?

Truth = What Is - any concept, thought, projection or idea you hold about what is. If you are hallucinating an elephant with red horns flying around in your room in that moment that is truth. There's no reality. Just conscioussness. ??

Kundalini or Kriya Yoga. But overall the goal of Yoga is not body awareness but rather raise your conscioussness levels high enough you realize you are not the body. Yoga acts primarily in the 'mind'. But it uses the body in combination with breathing awareness to accomplish this.