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In other words free will is controlled by One which is the same as You and Me ?

Shit happens dude @StarStruck Everybody do shit wrong in the first date. Don´t see it as a "fuck up" rather see it as the first step of learning. Real learning has to come from somewhere, and it comes from real world experience and real lost opportunitties, not from watching youtube videos.

Start: Pick up Therapy Psychedelics ..etc Not necessary in that order. But do something bro. And no, I wouldn't recommend you to move back to your parents unless you are very depressed

And at the same time the "perceptions" are God itself

Yes, it seems like you haven´t almost even started yet. Lots of growth to do there.

Oh, Ok, that's great to know. Pure DMT will be next time then

Yeah I don't care about the visuals but I was using them as a "reference point" to see if the stuff has given a proper trip or not. I did have effects but I just suspect they could have been way stronger with 3 hits. Damn I hated to smoked that thing and felt like my insides were burning inside. Isn't other way to do DMT that is not through burning your lungs?

Tried it for the first time last Friday. Any reason why I didn't have any visuals? The experience lasted only 3-4 minutes and it was quite similar to 5-meo-dmt (but definetely with more body-high/anesthesia). I took 3 hits but nothing. Couldn't get any visuals. Each hit~ a trip about 2-3 minutes . Either my tolerance is very weird or I don't know how to smoke from a water pipe (I think they are called like that english). It was changa. Maybe I should try DMT cristals

? Great, I'm going to do it.? @Nahm

Directly. @Nahm

That's the thing. I don't have a problem with sitting in the cushion, I more or less have learned to sit well and be with my back straight. Neither I have with delivering packages, if I do it correctly my back shouldn't suffer too much. The problem is the clutch (manual pedal for you americans that drive automatic Lol). The clutch is very hard to push (they should fix it) so when you do push it my lower back suffers. Some hours it's ok yet 5 hours a day doing that... I feel I'm going to hurt myself sooner or later But thanks for the advices thought. I too think my job makes it for me easy to get into "flow" however is not exactly as meditation. If not also playing videogames should be a spiritual practice Lol . But thanks for the advices, you have a point .

Because it hurts my physical body. I could chew it if they were just be more kind to employers. But right now the situation is not good . (Basically the vehicle I drive has a problem that fucks up your back, and they won't fix it because they say they don't have sustitute vehicles) And yeah I'm stressed out because is a delivery job and I feel like I have to go around very fast to be able to deliver all the things. Also sexuality / social skills I am very poor. Need to work on that too seriously in the next year So basically my mind is occupied 100% with this aspects that are very important for my well being.

Lol. Fuck it! I'm quitting my job too! Let's go wild ! ?

Good to know we are in the same page. I agree. Yet, if its not realized, isn´t the whole thing lose the point? For who is this deep layer enjoyable? If the only who can enjoy it never exist at such deep layer?? You see the problem here? @Fran11

Yeah, it´s all you. All Love.

I did a spelling mistake. Of course Self, Now, Awareness, Consciousness exist. They are all names for God, which is the only thing that exist. I´m just saying that, since you are God, you can be lost on your on creation, or not. If you are lost in your on creation, there´s no "untouchable peaceful awareness" that can save you, because YOU are literally alone as God!! If you can´t save/awake yourself, nobody can save you. There´s no "outside agent" to hold on to as a saviour. Either you are awake or you are asleep. Of course there are states. But what i mean is that you have the 100% responsability. What you have written has nothing to do with the discussion (maybe you wrote it because of my spelling mistake). And I agree with all 100%.

Damn at the same place as you. With the difference that my job is far away from the city so now it's difficult to find time and energy not only to study but also to go to the city to work on my social skills

@Chumbimba "Unfortunately, the HackerRank Virtual Career fair is not currently available in your region." But thanks Dude Yeah, I have read some blog posts about how to do an interview. Honestly so far the interviewers has said I didn´t passed because they were looking for more experienced people. But that makes me suspicious because they if they were why would they interview me in the first place¿

Yeap . That´s literally the trap I´m pointing out. What is aware of change sometimes is aware, but other times is totally lost in the dream. So, no, you can´t hold on to that as a ground, either. Sorry but that is just how it goes. Notice that is the ego which doesn´t like that. God doesn´t have a problem with forgetting itself.

I've seen A LOT of debate around here about that type of discussion. Ime, the ego doesn't like the idea that the Absolute is not different than the relative. Ego likes to always re-assure itself that there's this "Self" that is always in Peace and untouchable and Now, because ego is terrified of the idea that Reality is not a fixed thing (since Reality = Illusion = Imagination). Ego loves the idea of being an untouchable ground, like Self, Now, Awareness, Consciousness...etc. I am not saying this "things" (or better said, "thing") exist , but rather that this thing is not separate from the dream, the illusion, the hallucination.

@The0Self I don't see how liberating is that the Truth is that a separate self is being imagined right now. ?

@Leo Gura So actually Infinity is not the Truth, is just a state of consciousness? This confirms what Ive been suspecting for a long time now, that the Absolute Truth is not Love, Infinity, or Non-duality, but just Imagination/Perspective. If God imagines itself trapped in duality, then that's the Truth. If God wakes up and realizes itself in Infinity/Non duality, then that's the Truth. So definitely Truth = Imagination.

The problem is how Reality works. Reality is a dream by One being and if this being dreams that it is a separate self then suffering will be inevitable. If this One being dreams that the separate self never realizes what is true then it will never realize reality is Love so what does it care if reality is Love, since what is being imagned is delusion, not truth.

@OBEler As much as I tried to prepare myself for it, it seems the heart race is kinda inevitable the first trips.

?? Seems like you got it. I'm so happy for "you" ?