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the fuck? Then what´s the whole point about Truth??

That´s good to know. My diet right now is probably 95% food i prepare on my own and I only use virgin olive oil and coconut oil, but who knowns, maybe the bag of highly processed cookies or the menu from mcdonalds i buy once every two weeks or so, could be enough to caused me acne. What is interesting is that this foods most of them include milk as an ingredient, although low quality oils also too. It´s so difficult to point out what is really the cause sometimes. If you can eat diary now then I guess for you it was the oils or additives then.

Rape is nice if not because the method of administration is really nasty and painful. But I would totally take it if it could be vapeable

Yeah, yeah, It´s an illusion. But an illusion can feel very real. @Someone here See, pain is also an illusion, because if you investigate what pain really is, is just a physical sensation + a thought about that sensation. So fuck it! Who cares about pain? Let´s go into that dentist withouth anesthesia! I´m so fucking enlightened! Precisely because knowing it´s an illusion on an intellectual level is not the same as being conscious in that moment. If you would to be conscious in all moments, then that would be no problem. But that is not the case. Not for most people.

I´ve tried 4-AcO plugged and it was on-par of potency with oral ime. Maybe it could have been that my technique was wrong? I did experience way less body load (practically non-existent), so it definetely feels the way to go next time I want to do it.

There´s no problem with that. The problem is when you think that you are that "me"-

Before trying to "force yourself in thorugh the torture" it might help first to contemplate what is really - Pain - Rejection - Aversion This three things are very related to suffering and torture, yet they are more specific and can be more useful for contemplation. You could ask yourself the following questions: - What is really the mechanics of rejecting something of reality? - What is really the why of being adverse (not loving) something of reality? - What is pain? Getting direct insights into this question might make more easy to see torture (animal and human) on a more expanded perspective. Maybe a radical different one.

Yeah, when I was about 20 years old, there was a inflex point in my life. I didn´t know about self-actualization, spirituality, psychedelics, self-love etc. All that my mind "knew" was accumulating experiences and conditionings, and therefore it accumulated so much, it got to a point than there was something dangerous involved that my self was increibly close to do. If I had been succesful, this would have meant dramatical consecuences for the rest of my life. Luckily I was not succesful and something afterwards happened which made it just like a bad dream I woke up a lot of years already ago. Maybe something to tell my kids, the truth is I haven´t tell it to anybody and by the moment I don´t plan to do. After the "plan" failed, and some afterwards months of more hell passed, I decided to take LSD for the first time. It didn´t solve of my ego´s traumas and problems, but having a complete break from the contracted and hurt ego for 6 hours were enough to completely change my life. From that point I had the "secret" knowledge that I was more than my mind, thus making healing possible, for very difficult that might be or how long it would take. Anytype of "bad thought" which had been constantly ruminating for the past two years, didn´t cross my mind after that single trip. It was like magic. Like waking up from being locked in a bad dream to waking up the following day and just laughing at the absurdity of the mind (and the hell it created). The problem is when you don´t even know healing is possible, when you think you can trust always your mind at 100% and always is the truth, no matter how radical, dangerous, or painful feels for you, in that moment you are 100% locked to whatever your mind wants to do. What is exactly how incredible and atrocious acts can be done by any human. When your only paradigm is your reality and truth, then that´s a moment when anything can happen and it will be justified by the mind 100%. I´ve been there, and yeah, it´s not pretty. It gives you an idea why crime, murder, rape, etc, can be done by anyone, doesn´t matter how moral you are, and like Leo has said in the past, this happens because the murderer totally thinks that what he´s about to do is totally justified and it´s the right thing to do.

Well I guess I´ll have to ditch it then. Thanks for such complete and juicy answer! What good level we have in this forum

How much do to meditate regularly? If you have a 1hour a day practice and try to do 8 hours of meditation a day, there's a big change you will burned out by the second day.

Isnt that conceptualizing?

No, but unless you have some weird brain chemistry it´s just not gonna work. Your view of enlightment is too naive and hunky dory. Since I started enlightment I would say I am even more miserable than when I didnt LMAO And ive been on this path for a few years already. fucks sakes...who sold me this enlightment was playing a good joke on me haha..

But what is THIS? @VeganAwake

Ketamine is a hell of an interesting Psychedelic. Unfortunately it's not bening to the body as most classic Psychedelics. It can take a toll on the kidneys and bladder I've heard. A shame though since I had my first taste of Oneness on that one. ?

I am not sure thoughts appear as they do in the normal waking state. For example in my normal state right now I can have the thought of "I must prepare me dinner right now", and I can follow that thought and go to the kitchen, or maybe I can let it go if I dont think it´s so important. In the state I was describing, that thought would arise too but it wouldn´t really materialize into words. It would just arise as a sort of intuition/intelligence. I would go to the kitchen, knowing why I am going to the kitchen, yet If you ask me if the thought "I must prepare me dinner right now" had arisen as in the first example, I would definetely say No. It´s weird. But you can totally function in this state. Although don´t expect to build the next Fortune 500 company on this state thought. I think it´s a state for poor planning and very simple life. Can´t remember if this state was triggered by psychedelics or not. I do remember it was an "after day" of an awakening it had happened the previous day. But couldn´t tell you if this awakening was because of psychedelic or sober.

I think is possible, I had states of awareness where there is no thinking, but there is still intelligence to plan, talk, move, etc withouth no problem. I haven´t been able to maintain this ones for more than a few hours though. I would say that I would choose thoughts, but there would be no thinking. Thoughts wouldn´t be chosen by me, but rather "be chosen" automatically. I would be in the back seat as nothing as you said. However I doubt Ralston is in this state 24/7. But maybe ïm wrong. Who knows! If its true, he´s a lucky motherfucker

Yeah, man, thanks for sharing. The magical thing is that surrender is already the case. Thoughts arise, and we believe we are those thoughts, "rejecting or fighting reality". Such a silly ilusion, but very hard to break nonetheless.

Ha A rock is You

Don´t ask a human. Ask him.

Yes, and it seems you are this "Infinity" huh?

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oh man Didn't you say you were "no one"? ?

Consciousness. Yeah, I know I am not a human. I am Consciousness. So? The fact that I am consciousness doesn´t prevent that I can forget myself and become human in an hallucination/illusion type of way. See, the fact that you awaken in a dream doesn´t prevent you that you might fall asleep again. And I can guarantee you that being Awake is not the same as the ego claming a deep knowledge or a conclusion about awakening. You can certainly have a narrative around enlightment and that you are always Enlightened, and that there is no one, and how you have "sort it all out" but make no mistake, that is not the same as being awake.

Cute, but you ain't awake.

Last night I imagined that i was a videogame, especifically a racing game. Imagine when you are playing a videogame. There's the screen, and then there's you back there behind the eyes being the player of a videogame. Well in this dream all it was was the screen. What was even more funny is that the characters of the videogame were kind of "alive" (since only videogame dream existed at that time, they felt real), and the videogame was basically a question of live or death. Basically all it was in the dream is like a I was God looking at a screen, going thorough a videogame to the next one, but with zero awareness of "Me" as the dreamer. Just the videogame after videogame. If reality is anyway like this, man this galaxy or headspace hologram we are in is a twisted motherfucker one ??