Javfly33

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  1. Oh, that´s so cool! I have a friend who´s intro tantra and he have recommended me several times that I try a session... I think your experience tells me I should really bite the bullet and try one of those soon. Thanks
  2. seems you had a potent awakening. What caused it? I am still lacking that "I am everyone" realization despite some years in the spiritual path already...
  3. it took me about 2 months to completely feel like i could live withouth smoking "just fine". Hold on. Once you pass a certain amount of time, youll hit that realization of "I dont need this anymore!". It´s just like an eureka moment Lol.
  4. How much time since you quit?
  5. @RedLine What do you think would happen if you observe a glass withouth maintining the belief/assumption that there is a you (a perceiver) looking at a glass? Notice that you do not have to "do" something to do this experiment. Just look, and let go of the "feeling" that there is a You that is observing a glass.
  6. Very juicy! And by the way, the second thing you mention I also experienced it too, but in my case it wasn´t only as a child it has been also through my adulthood. If you keep inquiring into that one a deep realization migh arise that could leave you shocked . Anyway, thanks for sharing!
  7. I remember when I started healing and self-actualizing i began to become aware that nearly all of my thoughts were the ones which were causing me anxiety and social anxiety. I started to become aware that If I inspected them they were not true. And once I saw there weren't true i was able to let them go This makes me realize that when we are attached to certain thoughts that do not serve us, it's because we still think they are TRUE. What brings me to the following question, "what are 'true' thoughts"? Are all thoughts for the mere purpose or survival (physical or the ego) and in reality there are no true thought at all?
  8. Yeah, man, It´s called drugs . Being serious now, as a rare user nowdays of femdom porn, who was occasional not long ago, and quite regular not long ago too (and I also played with findom a bit, but it´s been some time since I didn´t waste money in that) Here´s what I learned in this time which maybe could help you (but don´t make the mistake of believing me, but rather try to verify it on your experience. Also, I am talking from my own experience, yours might be different, but I´ll leave it here in case it resonates with you in any kind): 1 - Femdom porn is a mirror/inner reflection of my feeling of frustration/impotence. When I feel this kind of "believes" about myself are true, femdom feels congruent so I feel like it. When I feel good about myself, loving, knowing who I am, then normal sex feels like the thing to do. I might try for pure habit to use femdom porn, yet it just doesn´t resonate. In the ohter hand I might want to spice things a bit being more dominant, always in the sense of energy, joy, not really believing that "humiliation" is a real thing. 2 - After all it´s a drug. Playing victim by acting like it´s a deterministic drive you have inside you is just being sneaky. See nobody is stopping you to jerk off. Yet you prefer to go watch porn and then jerk off. That´s because you want to get high off femdom. Is not something "crucial" to you. You need serious healing and self-discovery if you think femdom or a even a kink that is crucial about you. 3 - Femdom is not a real thing in women. Like, dude, women don´t think that men are THAT important. Why a beatiful women would like to spend their time and energy in YOUR pleasure and fetishes? It´s totally not the case. Women want value from men, not to entertain them and pleasure them just "because". And if they truly want to humiliate and ridicule you, then that´s just because they are sadic. It doesn´t have anything to do with sex. Sex is Union! Not differences. Overall, what your fundamental problem is that you think that this kink tells something about you. As long as you keep believing this thing about you, you obviously will keep seeing femdom porn as something to be avoided or feared, ironically maintaining it appealing and attractive.
  9. @Beginner Mind Sorry, where is this peace? I must have lost it somewhere LOL.
  10. So their truthness depend on what subjectivity your looking from? Right. If you are a socially awkward poor confidence person you might think "they are looking at me, they think I'm moving weird". And if you are a super confident guy you might think "oh I'm going to nail this speech" and then the thought 'they think I'm moving weird' you just let it go/doesn't even arise Which thought is true? It seems none since their Truthness depends on their subjective identity and the sole purpose of truth is that it must be objective . @Nahm If I got it correctly, your phrase is totally relative. Since if I think you are saying the truth, then it will be false. And I'd i think you are lying , then the statement will be true. The meaning of your phrase depends entirely on my view. And I think that's what reality is when we operate with thoughts as they could be tools for objetive Truth. We create subjectivity thinking there's such thing as objectivity with mind. Then shit happens.
  11. Man such high quality moderators we have here . Brilliant answer
  12. I heard in last Leo's video that knowing about business marketing and sales is absolutely crucial to escape wage slavery. Me being a slave currently in wage slavery, I got very frightened and instantly started surfing the web for resources Lol. But it seems a very big world. I don't know where to start. Or who to follow or give authority to. So that's why I'm asking...please share the best roadmap/resources you can! appreciate it a lot!!
  13. ???? Eternal being is too free to carry any"permanent" chains ?
  14. Greatly over-rated
  15. Yeah, here in Spain is the same. You just sit outside a supermarket, and in 15minutes you can get someone to buy you food. Homeless, at least here, spend ALL the money they get from people in drugs, alcohol or buying stuff. Never on food. Not to say that is a particular comfortable life, i wouldn't chose that life, i would prefer to stay in an ashram or just go to nature to see how time I can survive lol. but just saying, it's definitely not a full time job . Source: a friend of mind went homeless for 3 months
  16. Yeah, but the funny thing about that is that to do that kind of commitment you already have to want to let go of your survival pretty much : let go of sex, let go of fun, let go of money, let go of adventures ?? Although is a good resource to know about in case one day you fall homeless. ??
  17. The problem is each person has a quality level of what he considers Enlightement. I think categorizing in state of consciousness as lately Leo does, it's way more accurate and it avoids a lot of BS and self delusion. What I wanted to point out is that I feel people use the phrase Enlightement too easily. Lots of people are way too stuck in survival yet you guys call them enlightened. @Breakingthewall thanks for sharing. That's interesting because I read several trip reports of 5-MeO where people report the same "feeling" you are saying. In my case my trials with 5-MeO it hasn't happened any of this. There wasn't any feeling of "everything happened in my life to get me Here". This seemed like a ego type of story to keep the control or feeling of importance within the dream.. But maybe I'm still a newbie and I ll have to go deeper. Who knows.
  18. What is your reasoning behind this? Have you asked God or Reality itself if it has an "intention"? I didn't meant that. My main critique is that you always define a Enlightened being as a being who has trascended survival (So far this is what Enlightement is supposed to be), yet it seems you justify that these beings maintain a survival agenda and you still consider that person enlightened. See, even "helping humanity" is a bias of you being human. Why not "help ants"? If you have a human bias after Enlightement, then what did you really accomplished? Not to say that awakenings can do a tremendous difference to make a person more conscious, loving, ...etc. Yet calling that Enlightement...hmm.