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The Self!!! The void or nothingness is intelligent and can choose to identify with thoughts, or not. That´s my view at least @Someone here

@James123 Got it! I´m beggining to "understand" what you mean with that. Nice I´ve done so far a retreat or 6 days. And I wasn´t even meditating for 3 days. Next one I will be able to do a 7 days with way more intensity. I am serious, but at the same time you also say that you must work through the survival basic things before going full throttle with enlightement. So my focus is not 100% on enlightment right now. But that is a strategic move, not because of lazyness. I am suspecting now in a real way that I might not be the human body so this is beggining to become really serious and exciting. The big "I", the Self, the Universe, thats who I am and that is the one who keeps falling to the illusion You are right that the "I" is the illusion (the "small I"), it seems you have "got it" permanently by your messages. Happy for you man. By some weird reason though it seems "I" keep believing myself to be this illusion You say that a lot and i think it´s brilliant but it seems a quite impossible thing to do sober. I can only opening up to feeling when I am on psychedelics because they literally force me to it. But in my normal state (oh men, I am doing it again ) seems a very far away possibility to do.

they can cure neurosis and the shadow of the ego which eventually is what causes homicide. But of course there is never a guarantee. And some psychopaths probably are genetic. So no psychedelic can help you sometimes i guess

Exactly!!

Only 1 rejection? And what is that BS of "asking her out"? We are not in high school.

This is with no doubt the more acid-esque trip report I've read in my life. Congratulations for having survived that. I enjoyed reading your adventure very much.

It means Consciousness, the Universe, or God awakes to who they are and stop dreaming they are a separate being or a human.

Woh, you have trip/awakening report of that? how did it happened? @The0Self

"meat is just meat". Lol yeah sure.

@Brivido how my godness. I´m speechless of this trip report. Please share the dose that you used.

Everything is God. Ego too!

@Preety_India Cheers for all that info!

@Amaal There are certain shapes, forms and colours that form something that you call "your sister". In that sense your "sister" is real. That label describes a particular form, shape and colour.

oh my GOD THERES NOBODY BEHIND THE EYES!!!!

Not true. I can be in good shape, even exercise regularly, but if I eat shitty food, I will be just miserable, I´m not even talking about long term, just the digestion process, the +3-4 hours after eating the junky food, it makes me feeling always like shit. I can permit myself to feel like that once in a while,but there would be no way I could do that daily and maintain a productive and active life.

If you take a look right now, at this moment, you reading this lines, all that is really real is that this moment is BEING. You'll say... "Oh yeah, I knew that. Right. Being". But what it really cracks my mind is that If you remember a memory of 5 years ago, you will see that you are still in the same place right now!!! Take a look at what is the "essential material" of that memory. Pick any memory. If you try to remember right now what happened 5 years ago, you'll see that you experienced that experience "in the HERE" Whatever you experienced, the "Being* material was neccesarary. It Happened HERE, HERE, HERE. What it really is more radical, it happened NOW! You are in the same place right now! No time has passed., you only think that 5 years has passed because right now there are different thoughts, shapes, and colours. There are thoughts of "We are in 2020". "I have a different life right now" "my body has changed". And of course maybe the NOW is rendering now different colours and shapes than the ones it *was (Is) rendering in the memory.

the fuck? Then what´s the whole point about Truth??

That´s good to know. My diet right now is probably 95% food i prepare on my own and I only use virgin olive oil and coconut oil, but who knowns, maybe the bag of highly processed cookies or the menu from mcdonalds i buy once every two weeks or so, could be enough to caused me acne. What is interesting is that this foods most of them include milk as an ingredient, although low quality oils also too. It´s so difficult to point out what is really the cause sometimes. If you can eat diary now then I guess for you it was the oils or additives then.

Rape is nice if not because the method of administration is really nasty and painful. But I would totally take it if it could be vapeable

Yeah, yeah, It´s an illusion. But an illusion can feel very real. @Someone here See, pain is also an illusion, because if you investigate what pain really is, is just a physical sensation + a thought about that sensation. So fuck it! Who cares about pain? Let´s go into that dentist withouth anesthesia! I´m so fucking enlightened! Precisely because knowing it´s an illusion on an intellectual level is not the same as being conscious in that moment. If you would to be conscious in all moments, then that would be no problem. But that is not the case. Not for most people.

I´ve tried 4-AcO plugged and it was on-par of potency with oral ime. Maybe it could have been that my technique was wrong? I did experience way less body load (practically non-existent), so it definetely feels the way to go next time I want to do it.

There´s no problem with that. The problem is when you think that you are that "me"-

Before trying to "force yourself in thorugh the torture" it might help first to contemplate what is really - Pain - Rejection - Aversion This three things are very related to suffering and torture, yet they are more specific and can be more useful for contemplation. You could ask yourself the following questions: - What is really the mechanics of rejecting something of reality? - What is really the why of being adverse (not loving) something of reality? - What is pain? Getting direct insights into this question might make more easy to see torture (animal and human) on a more expanded perspective. Maybe a radical different one.

Yeah, when I was about 20 years old, there was a inflex point in my life. I didn´t know about self-actualization, spirituality, psychedelics, self-love etc. All that my mind "knew" was accumulating experiences and conditionings, and therefore it accumulated so much, it got to a point than there was something dangerous involved that my self was increibly close to do. If I had been succesful, this would have meant dramatical consecuences for the rest of my life. Luckily I was not succesful and something afterwards happened which made it just like a bad dream I woke up a lot of years already ago. Maybe something to tell my kids, the truth is I haven´t tell it to anybody and by the moment I don´t plan to do. After the "plan" failed, and some afterwards months of more hell passed, I decided to take LSD for the first time. It didn´t solve of my ego´s traumas and problems, but having a complete break from the contracted and hurt ego for 6 hours were enough to completely change my life. From that point I had the "secret" knowledge that I was more than my mind, thus making healing possible, for very difficult that might be or how long it would take. Anytype of "bad thought" which had been constantly ruminating for the past two years, didn´t cross my mind after that single trip. It was like magic. Like waking up from being locked in a bad dream to waking up the following day and just laughing at the absurdity of the mind (and the hell it created). The problem is when you don´t even know healing is possible, when you think you can trust always your mind at 100% and always is the truth, no matter how radical, dangerous, or painful feels for you, in that moment you are 100% locked to whatever your mind wants to do. What is exactly how incredible and atrocious acts can be done by any human. When your only paradigm is your reality and truth, then that´s a moment when anything can happen and it will be justified by the mind 100%. I´ve been there, and yeah, it´s not pretty. It gives you an idea why crime, murder, rape, etc, can be done by anyone, doesn´t matter how moral you are, and like Leo has said in the past, this happens because the murderer totally thinks that what he´s about to do is totally justified and it´s the right thing to do.

Well I guess I´ll have to ditch it then. Thanks for such complete and juicy answer! What good level we have in this forum