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@Preety_India Omg fucking loved this went straight to my "man heart" . You women also rock

How to know when your body wants to naturally fap and not it's just because you want to binge on porn and a distraction? When you are at home and you get an erection, should you fap, and get it out of the way (without bringing at all on porn . Just do the minimal thing to fap and that's it). See the problem I see is that most people fight constantly urges and cravings to release sexual tension, but then when they do they make the ritual an addiction: they engage in porn, fetishes, etc. And then they make a hurted identity out of it which reinforced the urges and binges when they do relapse Wouldn't be better to just fap, no matter how much times ,but make it totally mechanic, anti binge, and shameful free?

It can be answered

But what is THIS?

No, infinity is also here. Helllooo! Over heeeere! You are talking to yourself !

Yes, you are God and you are imagining me right now... And I am imagining you.

What really means for you 'hating yourself'?

It might be helpful to inspect your reaction to your anxiety. For example, I used to have a significant amount of anxiety regarding social interactions. I used to give a lot of importance to that feeling of anxiety, with thoughts as "this feeling of anxiety must mean that I am in danger" or "I shouldn't be feeling this this is so wrong" or "if I feel this I won't be able to perform the social act correctly". After discovering much of the anxiety was coming from variables that weren't necessiraly correct or accurate to real danger, I started to give less importance to the anxiety. The less importance I give it, the more easy it became to go and accept deeper the feeling, making it less "anxiety" and more "excitement" some times .

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Lately I´ve been trying to see if my "life story" is really real. This week, i´ve been going through a process of letting go of beliefs about "Myself" . It's great because it's like a heavy weight from my shoulders it's falling away. Like... my self-esteem is improving a lot. But, I feel there is something missing. I still believe myself to be somebody. Why? Because this body was born and that means I am somebody in particular different from other body. If my "physical body" didn´t get here by a biological process (my mother giving birth) then the reaaaal growth could actually start for real. I could actually let go of the whole fucking story, if only, that assumption could be proven to be just another "story". Then I would be really fucking free

I want to start a youtube channel and most of the content will be shot on the street. Therefore I need someone who will record me. I´m kind of lost where to search. So far i´ve tried in craiglist (not very popular in my country), messaging random people in twitter (doesn´t seem very effective). Either I get a friend with a camera or ïm fucked? pd: Obviously hiring a proffesional is not an option. Since my budget is limited and I´m not looking for a pro production yet

That's neat.i Surely It's funny how the ego slowly starts to corner itself to the point that it can't escape anymore with its own means. At that point is God's time to take the lead ?

I've been there, and I gotta say, it's the apparent honesty, or the apparent recognition, that something needs to be fixed about yourself, that it's the whole problem. You are constructing that identity. I don't know why, but you are. Trust me, I am needy in relationships and I have look everywhere and beyond for causes, shadow work, and so on. There isn't anything. A lot of people had worse childhood than me and are fine. There are more variables than family. The main variable thought, is that there isn't a fixed variable. If you start telling yourself the story of a past, then that's how you construct your suffering.

Nice, that was mesmerising to watch. Was your ego death on Ayahuasca your most profound one ever?

What is it really fucked up and crazy is that there is no time. "We" have been alive "for ever". I mean it's just unbelievable. You have to surrender the mind to not have vertigo just thinking it about it

I can't believe what I just read. Jesus Christ This is comparable to nazi concentration camps

I do . Not recommended at all for spiritual and self development purposes. It's still a much better alternative to other "coping" drugs, but yeah, have in mind is a coping/evasive drug and is addictive for most people, so...can't recommend it really.

@Nahm What worked?

I absolutely can't believe how powerful neediness is to change your body reactions. There is this girl who works at a venue , and I go there about 2-3 times a month to deliver some packages. Well, the first few times I went there, idk why but I was in a good mood and I just started to talking to her and I saw how he became attracted to me. But here's the thing. My mind started to become needy and thinking about how I could ask her number. And from that moment I FUCKED UP. The next times it's been worse and I've been feeling super anxious and having 0 game . From that moment I go into the venue and I my hands start almost trembling and I can't even talk to her. This is INSANE. The first few times I had 100% game and I was so cool talking and "playing" and having fun seducing her. But once I started having thoughts of neediness, it's literally like I am another person The problem is i don't know how to change this. How to go back to having 0 expectations and trying to impress? Lol. I hate my needy mind.

Damn that was actually pretty neat @SamC You killed me there Lol. Yeah I´m trying to show a character of coolness.

Fair enough

Sorry, I didn´t explained myself correctly. The first time I did not play a role, really. That´s why she became clearly attracted. I´m saying, after that, I actually started to put pressure on myself and neediness started to happen. I want to go back to that

@abrakamowse exactly. That's the most interesting thing. That since I am the truth, unless I literally realize what is true, no amount of reading, teaching or advice will do, since I would just be projecting my own authority...scary.

@abrakamowse I agree, I'm open to ideas. So I'm basically open to the idea "others exist" and also to the idea "others do not exist". I am only saying, it seems most people talk from beliefs and ideas. Isn't spirituality to be about what's true? If one have never experienced other avatar than themselves, then the most normal thing to do is to accept that that is the truth. The truth is not "my avatar + other avatar". The truth is "my avatar + belief of other avatar". That's why I have said, if anyone here have actually switched from one person to other and can remember it, then I will shut up. Then the existence of others are actual. Then is not just a belief.

Can you explain it in a different way? I can't understand what you mean by "something" and "everything"