Javfly33

Of course is magical! Reality is magical.

I am Feeling itself ? Love what a woo woo world. I would like to call it Infinity or just Me ?

Awareness it's not a property of Nothing, it is Nothing!

Congrats for taking that dose like a champ! Keep doing deeper

How do you know there wasn't an ego? If there was the understanding of loneliness, then the ego was there.

@Nahm Glad to know I'm doing my homework well ? PD: @Nahm just tried what you said... Time got frozen a little bit... It wasn't silly dude... think i did it right ??

Yesterday I took some 5-meo (not breakthrough dose since the batch i have is pure shit and it Seems i can't breakthrough on it no matter how much I take). Still i thought it was better than doing nothing on Sunday and since it still gives noticeable effects, I decided to took it a couple of times back to back and put myself to contemplate the whole morning 1. First i started to become aware of the internal dialogue of my mind. There was a space that opened up. In this space the voice of my mind started to become misterious. My whole life i have been assuming the voice in my head is Me and that the voice is the human mind. However I started contemplating that i actually do not know that. A possibility opened up that maybe the voice in my mind might be the voice of the Universe. Maybe the mystics when they say to ask yourself "who i am" is to actually realize the voice becoming Conscious is not an individual human but something else. Or maybe not. The possibility just opened up. 2. Second i started to look at objects and become contemplating how i know if I am actually not there. One of my biggest assumptions too has also been assuming that the Internal voice is happening inside the head behind the eyes (in the "brain") however it strucked me that i have no proof of this. I looked at my heater, and i wondered if the heater could actually be the one thinking the thoughts and the internal voice. Since the internal dialogue might not be happening in any place in particular. 3. A little glimpse of Infinity. I became aware that maybe this present moment is completely empty of substance and i have projected substance on to it. But no breakthrough . It's just a possibility. 4. This is the BIG ONE. I actually got a little mindfucked and shocked and how clear i saw this one. I was looking at the syringe on the floor which I used to plug the substance 20 minutes ago. Then IT HIT ME. I am also ASSUMING that that is actually the syringe that i used. It was clear to me that I have no proof that is the syringe i used. Because it felt very clear that syringe i was looking was existing and being put into existence right now in that precise angle. So when I was looking to it in another angle, it was not the same syringe. And that's it. A pretty good session and straightforward to contemplate reality. I probably won't get Enlightened with sub breakthrough doses but it really felt 5-meo facilititated opening my mind during the contemplation. There were some assumptions (like the forth one) which I can't imagine having sober. The mind is just too closed to start questioning those solid assumptions. Like the one about physicality. There's no doubt Psychedelics help with that. And 5-meo plugged is quite straight to the chase and with very little wacky or side effects as other psychs then to do..(5-meo inhaled is another story though) Thanks for reading!

I do. I struggle sometimes with a daily practice due to work. But you can practice through the whole day! In the form of being more focused, practicising concentration, surrender to the moment...etc + regular retreats. Doesnt need to be meditation particularly.

"Not with the mind"

Fear is only because of thoughts

Careful with nuts. I don´t think the human body is prepared to eat nuts in large quantities as a regular thing. I used to do Keto too and I would eat a shit ton of nuts in the morning. I ended up having the worst stomach aches and pain and nausea ever. Needless to say now I can´t basically eat a single nut. Since just seeing them makes me sick. PD: Just read you are talking about cashews. I haven´t find that difficult to digest those. Also pistacchios are probably the most easy on the stomach too. My main issue was with walnuts. Those are the ones which I can´t eat now

@Nahm (づ￣ ³￣)づ

That was neat AF

Alternate nostril breathing + Fire of Breath

Yes, Definetely. I was for a long long time trapped in the free will thing. It's not fun to be there. To answer your question, unfortunately, the ego does not have a free will or choice. So Awakening will happen whenever God wants.

You have a choice as Consciousness. By focusing on thoughts or not, you can "motivate" certain psychological aspects of the ego or not. For example, if your character is someone who is anxious, when thoughts of anxiety that over-exagerated arise, in someone who is not Enlightened, the normal thing that Consciousness will do is to feed those thoughts (simply by believing them). In an Enlightened being, when thoughts arise, there is an intelligence going on that it wasn't that strong in a non Enlightened being, which is that Consciousness will not feed/belief those thoughts, since Consciousness is aware that those are just thoughts, not an I thinking them, therefore, automátically the character/body will stop behaving so neurotically anxious and becoming more sane/healthy. So what you need to do is basically raise your Consciousness. It's not that you have to control what the human does. The human might meditate one day, and other dont. The human might want to take a Psychedelic one day, and then go 1 year withouth doing them. This is NOT your problem. Again the human is none of your business. What you need to do is being awake, now. That starts with being more aware, simply. When a thought arise, be aware. Start from here, and remember you are always safe, only thing that you need is to wake up, each second. Live life like each second "you need to remember yourself." There is only one thing to do, surrender and be aware. Each second. Make it like a "life purpose". Once you start to be more aware you will start to "change" behavior of the character. But again, saying *change" is kind of tricky because it might give you an idea that you will have to do Some kind of effort, which will send you again into the illusion that you are the mind or the thinking and you need to "sort things out". Is more of that an intelligence will wake up, which it will be the only thing neccesarary to make things right. And again it will be effortless, not a struggle.

Never thought non duality would be this literal. Glad to know that I am already dead ? thanks man @Inliytened1

I think God designed it this way exactly because you can't never actually know. So of course you keep playing the game. Just "in case". ? See I'm doing it right now ?

Let me tell you, I have a theory and is that you are still in this realm because you haven't yet surrendered to the fact that you are alone as God. The Solipsism surrender is the last one I think. Sure I can surrender the fact that the present moment is imaginary and I am God imagined it. But as long as I just deluded myself one more time, with the story that "maybe", in some way, the humans i interact with are somewhere being experienced, (even if it's by me), then I can keep playing this Illusion. The illusion really ends when I surrender to the fact this is my dream and you do not literal exist.and I'm just talking to myself. Now you understand why nobody really is REALLY AWAKE. It would end everything. Even the Imagination of the present moment. Because if it's clear you are creating the present moment and actually there's no one to share it with, then why keep creating it? Something to inquire about

It's simple. You as God has free will, not the character. Just like in a dream. And just like in a dream, even if you become Lucid, you can't change what you are creating. Because again the wanting of changing anything would come from the character. God's will is already doing what it wants. Just surrender and increase your Consciousness. There's no point in trying to control anything.

You have to take into account that many psychonaut trip for pure recreation. With that intention, when the mind stumbles upon something that it wasn't expecting or more radical that it could imagine, the instant reaction is normal to be of rejection and fear. However I've seen that in spiritual users ready to explore, it doesn't produce that many negative experiences. I don't know the details of Leo's panic attack on his first dose of 5-MeO, but I am not sure that could be labeled as a bad trip. I consider a bad trip a session of several hours of insanity, fear, and madness.

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But isn´t chakra and kundalini energy just stories of the ego? I´ve never seen something like that rather than just thoughts labeling "chakra" and "kundalini" to appearences in consciousness. However I agree than they can cause such a thing

This horse has been beaten to death. Ime, my opinion of psychedelics for enlightment has changed. Yes they definetely can induce enlightment. But you go back to your old state afterwards. Afterwards, is the surrender of You that has all the power decision. No 1000 thousands trips will enlightened you if turns out Consciousness just don´t want to surrender to itself. Yet maybe 2 trips is all you need if you have an "old soul" (if you want to believe in that sort of things), and just a glimpse of a few hours is all that God needs to accept itself and delete the ego confusion for ever. But overall, psychedelic experiences for spirituality are most of the time deeply useful, as always, the best thing is try to do everything you can to wake up. No magic pill exists since ultimately You are the one who has to "make" the decision to be Wake Up

You are the present moment. I love you.