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Sorry but...isn't weird that just casually Consciousness is localized here? Solipsism here we go ?

Yeah Jesus Christ the difference between 15mg and 20mg is incredible it seems like I'm taking a whole other beast of a drug when I did 20mg last time ? Can't imagine what 25mg can do fuck hahaha

@fridjonk ??

I also had a deep Oneness experience about some year ago but it was just a feeling in the moment. Like...I can't really unite the dots now and don't really know what it means now...

Because it's imaginary and ultimately it all depends on your will as God to be depressed or be happy.

I think we have gone through this plenty of times. If I accept that this colours and sounds and feelings are happening to God/The Self and my persona/ego is just a construction built on top of the Absolute, then I am alone and this is a dream and I am just talking with imaginary people of my Consciousness. If being conscious of this and accepting it is Enlightment, then people who are enlightened would stop playing the dream altogether. And this is clearly not the case. Every teacher of non duality who according to this forum is enlightened, is still playing all kind of games. Teaching to imaginary people, building business which are imaginary, using cars which are imaginary, uploading videos to YouTube which in fact is also imaginary and is reaching nobody...etc. You were questioned by this in the past and you said "I keep playing games [...] because there Is no other thing to do ." Yeah right. What an excuse, man. Sorry but I don't buy it. I keep myself open minded but it's really difficult to keep going in enlightment path because it's all seem so contradictory. I mean it's so obvious. If t's really clear for you that every object and person is imaginary then nobody mentally sane would keep doing like they are real. They would stop just playing. They would probably just sit in a rock probably and then imagine another dream (because in my book this one would be "done" once you truly wake up and realize you are alone). Or forget everything and go back to ego like nothing ever happened of course.

Why don't you find yourself a nice place on Airbnb for weekends and trip there ? Is what I do, and works just fine ?

@Leo Gura Yeah I am pondering that I might be God and this is not a POV but just the whole thing/universe. But since you also exist as an idea in my mind which eventually will materialize (as you said, I "will" experience some day to create actualized.org. Since time is imaginary that "will" is also "now". So in a sense, your pov exists! Therefore there are two POVs! (Mine and yours) So it is safe to say this is a pov. At least metaphorically. Just to diferenciate myself from you, I make that distinction. Is useful for me to use the word "pov" even if it's not technically true "now".

I don't have a problem seeing that a rock is selfless. The thing is, imo there isn't a rock. It's just a proyection of my consciousness/it's just being. So of course being it's selfless. But I was doubting if you meant that there was a POV of a rock where God was Incarnating. If you meant the first yeah I agree

Well hum.. ok ? ? I guess one day I'll get it. Radical openmindness ?

@outlandish this! I eat a decent amount of wheat bread with 12% sourdough (I'm not sure if this is very little but the bread seems just more healthy than others) and I love it! I for example can't eat much pasta or rice and I will get sick. Good quality Bread however I can eat a lot more and feel just fine.

Why do you assume God incarnates into rocks? Or do you mean the *appearance of the rock that appears in my POV?

@Someone here Contemplate the difference between "physical" and "not physical". It's physical for you that which have an appearance and non-physical that which doesn't? If then, what about seeing a person in a dream? It has an appearance, is the person's dreamed body physical? What about hallucinations? If someone on a psychotic state hears an helicopter pursuing her, is that sound "real"? I mean it sounds just as fine, so I guess it is? So what is "not real"? Consensus of the human? But how do we know that consensus is correct? After all the consensus in the past were that the earth was flat. And that God , something that we have never seen, existed.

@Someone here That's the same as saying " Sadness is caused because of low energy and low mood". instead of actually looking deeper than that an observe that sadness was just the result of maybe your family member dying. AND after the sadness builds up there's low energy and low mood. In the same way the neurotransmitters levels are just "representations" of a type of life and personality and habits. Answering your question: No, it doesn't seem we are biological robots. We can change stuff in our body and mind, and THEN the neurotransmitters levels will change. Understand the chemical levels of your brain as the representation that can change anytime depending how you use your mind. Not the other way around.

On one level it´s more peaceful in the sense you don´t have to sell , and interact with people much. On the other delivery driving usually usually demands some stress management skills and driving has on it´s own his level of anxiety... which is minimal, but doing it daily for hours it ends up builing up as an another level stressor to the job.

I recently got a relocation that I asked in my job, from a very little town to a big city, with the intention of making here possible my LP and also some other self development tasks I have yet to master the next years. But the problem is, life in this city is much more expensive than where I was living before. I don't know what to do. I feel so poor. I've been staying in a friend's house so far.. The room is so small, I have no natural light inside and the bed is also so small and crappy tbh. Lucky that the rest of the house is nice and comfortable and I have a great friendship with my friend. See my idea was to have this job while I work on my LP in this city, but I am beggining to stress the fuck out because just imagining the idea that I'll have to live like this for maybe 5-10 years it's crazy. I shared flat everytime I've lived outside my parents house. I thought now with a steady job at least I could have the luxury of living alone. But no. I have to share flat and even that is ludicrous expensive. Fuck this economy man!! W I mean I could but maybe rent some verhy crappy apartment on my own but if I do that I won't have any savings left at all at the end of the month Lol. No possibility of retreats or maybe even buying clothes lmao. So I have to share flat if I want to have some money left to have proper nutrition and do retreats and work on my LP. Yeah sharing flat is the only option being this poor. Jesus. I feel frustrated because I want to make money NOW. I dont want to be this fucking poor for the next 5-10 years until the LP makes me money (if ever does)

@Leo Gura If inside the "main experience" (God) I start to make disntinctions between forms ad colours, thoughts and feelings, yeah, I am having new experiences. However the main experience is always the same. ? @Forestluv ?. Yeah, the other perspective makes life more fun, opening the possibility to experience all kind of experiences (once you tell yourself there are "new" experiences). Of course both perspectives are valid to take into account ?

@Forestluv Another perspective could be: there can't be new experiences since the experience is always the same. Unless we make endless categories of course, which is exactly what language does

Yeah it's only you man wtf you talking about lool Also, i don't think this subforum is the right place to post this.

@James123 ??

There's something "fucked up" that happens in my experience when sometimes I see a couple of cute girls doing a selfie and they upload it to Instagram. I never gave it too much importance, but lately I am getting more close towards they call in spiritual practices: "feeling". And therefore and I am becoming conscious I am having some weird fucking thoughts sometimes when I see this pictures. Before getting close to "feeling" and Actually recognizing that I feel bad when I do, I didn't even want to recognize the thoughts, it's like feeling was protecting me with the thoughts. By basically not even sending me the message that I am feeling bad (this doesn't make any sense sorry) It would be great if nahm give me his output here) When I see this kind of pictures, I feel bad s lot of times. I just realize it more clearly. So I look at thoughts. They say something like "Look how they smile. They are so happy because they are better than you .They are so superior. You can't never have them. They humiliate you. They think you are an inferior, beta, weak scum bag that shouldn't even talk to them". Now that's some weird thoughts. Because I dont remember ever being bullied or humiliated and definitely not by cute girls Lol. Yeah sure I was s little bit special and shy on school but honestly not so much. Like I wasn't any weirdo who would have trauma of being so different or ugly to others that they would get trauma from it. And I have even done some pick up here and there and I have gotten positive feedback from it so I have a *rational understating that I can be attractive to girls if I make the effort and work on myself. So basically what you think this weird perspective of reality is coming from and how you think I can heal (if this is the correct word, because I don't remember being hurt). I feel this perspective is what is causing me some residual anxiety/thought stories and perpetuates the false story of the self, so any advice to clear this out to have a white canvas to work on the rest of my life would be great ? thanks for reading.

I think they are notoriously known by rejecting psychedelics. However this shouldn't mean much to you talking into account that most Enlightments nowdays happen through psychedelics and not because of the methods of this traditional teachers.

No way David Hawkins is this stupid. Sorry if it comes too harsh but come on, categorising the consciousness state of people who lived thousand years ago it's laughable.

@Nahm ?? I would say the only 'issue' here (not even an issue, just something to be aware of to make the process faster ) is that sometimes (hell, most of the time except this week, or after retreats, yoga, or tripping) , it feels like they aren't thoughts about myself, but rather they are about reality. In that case I am left powerless just feeling bad not even knowing WHY . When I am aware enough to go deep into feeling and unveil the thoughts, then is when I discover they are about myself and I can change them. For example in what sense "they think I am a loser" is a thought about me? It's something that they They think. Therefore it's about reality itself . It can't be changed. (I don't actually belief this. Just playing the devil's advocate here)

@EmptyVase That sounds very coherent. And definitely "feels good" because it's about being good NOW. The belief that I need to heal something about the past seems that is more BS from the false self. Nice. Thanks all for the juicy and very insightful answers.