Javfly33

Dunt know. It's just a weird intuition I keep getting in deep psychedelic trips.

What is wrong with being alone? You are just thinking that that is bad. But it's actually amazing because it also means you are so United with yourself.

I found out. I'm just talking to myself ?

You sure ?

Because the relationship is too damn obvious to not do it. A lot of my inquiry points to this is nothing but a dream.

@Someone here Does free will exist in the dreams you sometimes have when you go to sleep? Like...is not like in the dream you are deciding move by move or having a thought of "I am going to do this" or "I am going to say this". In that sense there's clearly not free will. In the same sense probably that you . However notice that you are alone dreaming. So "something" must be "deciding" the content of the dream.

Does it matter though? If at the end of the day you know you are love and everything is love? Everything will be reduced to "you". So fuck it if that "everything" includes this form or not. True love only what matters ❤️ Yeah apparently not ?

@zeroISinfinity hahaha. It is interesting 'round here. You are having a great time ? Just talking to yourself right now

Well, yeah I plugged. With the first question I mean, I haven't blacked out yet but it felt I was close.

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Because most people don't even know about self realization. Also, you must take into account some people have strong attachments that provide lots of times deep entertainment and pleasure, even though usually you also have to work hard for them. Most people who go to self realization hardcore it's because most of the time they are suffering and they don't have much strong attachments to pleasure and entertainment in their daily lifes.

You can let them go/not attach to them as any other type of thought. But here's what I find tricky about this. And is that the mere thought of anxiety comes with the subconscious message that not attaching to that thought or letting go of it, it's dangerous In other words, it seems the thought comes with a subconscious message that itself is there to protect you. So letting go of it would be stupid isn't it? That's why I always say, all fear is fear of death. Because of thoughts anxiety are survival oriented. So when you let go of them you are basically choosing your peace of mind Now Vs your survival. Which I guess that's the essence of spirituality. But Damn the price to pay for that peace is high!! Isn't this reckless behaviour actually? The problem probably is that some survival mechanisms are way too active and over exagerated, and that's what we would call pathological anxiety. But again, how do you know what is pathological and what is actually saving your ass. If I have thoughts of anxiety most of the time it's because my body or mind has learned to trigger them because it thinks are useful to keep me alive. And it seems it works because I'm alive. So when you ask to let go of thoughts of anxiety you basically asking " just don't trust your body survival mechanism". Which ...I can for some time, but at some point I end up listening again to the fear because...hey it keeps me alive. Maybe it works. It's tricky stuff really. It seems nobody actually trascends their anxiety. People recommending you about your anxiety being exagerated is just because their body and mind from childhood learned a different mechanism which maybe doesn't trigger so many thoughts of anxiety/fear. That's it. Please tell me where I might be wrong. My view is kind of nihilistic but honestly I am losing hope with my mind. Everything seems very deterministic.

@Someone here Unfortunately (or fortunately ?) you are God, so if you are experiencing suffering it's because you are literally creating it. Not in the way of you having thoughts and beliefs and that way creating suffering. No.no no. I mean in the literal sense. All of your life story is a dream and suffering is part of the dream. I don't agree with the mantra of suffering.not existing. Suffering does exist. But as an illusion. All can I say is don't worry at the end nothing matters and you were always fine as your true nature. But I won't be hypocritical to say that you are not suffering or something like that. It clearly exists. As an illusion, but it exists. Fortunately nothing is permanent, too.

Wait until you realize all of your life was a dream and your suffering was a gift to yourself from God to your ego to teach yourself about love and to remember yourself how great you are. Haha! Ups.i spoiled the surprise. Couldn't keep it to myself I guess ??

So how do you differenciate between blacking out and Infinite love? Lol I felt I couldnt go any further than I went in intensity this time. I did 20mg and it seems this time was much potent than before. The burn was quite intense, I started being concerned about if I have fucked up my ass in the middle of the come up of trip which was not a good thought to have in mind.

@traveler well yeah. That's exactly what I'm staying dude

Yeah for me it seems more like the latter. I don't feel like I am God. I might be a God but in my own imagination/universe. But I am not anybody else's god. So fuck it in reality is not that different. Everyone of us are separated for ever, the only nice thing is that we are Inmortal. But non duality? Yeah right but in our own madness. No with each other. No "universal God" it seems. More like alone God So I think eternal spirit is a better word.

No idea - Don Toliver

Yeah I agree. A lot of young men lack masculine.energy. ironically lol

In the dream somehow I reunited all of my teenage friends and acquaintances of highschool in a big reunion supposedly because I was going to take a super psychedelic and it was very important for me to be there all of those people ( don't ask me why, dreams are weird) However before I had the time to take it (you know how in dreams linear time don't work that accurately lol) I had the best feeling in the world ever known: I felt immense love in the dream and I felt all of my ego story healed itself in a single second of feeling this inmense pure love. I healed EVERYTHING with this feeling. It was pure love . Omg --- I don't usually have good dreams but when I do I have the deepest awakenings in them ???

@James123 ???

I currently work from 23.30pm to 7:00am , when I started I was happy because I was not tired or sleepy when I work but I've noticed the last days some fatigue it's starting to build up unless I drink lots of coffee. I put 7 hours of sleep but I noticed the sleep quality is not the same as when I sleep in the night. It's like a long nap. Some people say you get used to it and others don't. I could change the shift to the morning or afternoon BUT my salary will be about 20-25% less. And I could use the money now that I am starting from scratch in a new city. But in the other hand money doesn't serve me if my health is going to be fucked up and I won't be able to work on my LP I only have 2 days left to decide. Advice?

Enlightment is when I know what is Enlightment ?

That's the end of all questions about non duality/reality Lol. I also question myself this. This basically the "point" of all of this game I think. To discover the truth of this question.

I don't think. It's obvious most people here are not in a God state of consciousness 99% of time. If they would they wouldn't be typing here most of the time. And I'm not talking about a super state of awareness like a peak of a psychedelic or 5-MeO.