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Incorrect. There's a actually rare research on the 60s using LSD to actually cure schizophrenia. Although the success were quite low, and the patients needed something like 50-60 Doses of it Lol. But just to give an idea how deluded mainstream society is, since psychedelics are usually known for "inducing" schizophrenia.

@Eternity can i dm you i think you could help me with my new Life after Deep awakening i had

Trust me, my Life is the evidence that God IS insane, twisted, But also loving and amazing. God IS EVERYTHING! The ONLY reason i love God IS because God IS me.

I thought the nervous system was in the spine? But has to do with dopamine??? This thread it's just insane bar commentary energy Lol

"destroys nervous system" I mean what the fuck that even means? Nervous system is something I started to hear when reading obscure kundalini yoga literature, seem like a word that sounded so intelligent but it means nothing

It's clearly you don't feel complete around her. If not you wouldn't ask this.

You talk about finding your soulmate yet your whole agenda is pure survival based. Humans are such bs creatures it's even funny ?

I have also consider medication. But my main karma is anxiety and what would work for me would only really be benzos or opioids. With benzos I will be mentally hooked to them forever due to his physical dependence, and opioids let's not even say, I would become a junky for ever too. So what option do I have? Either be in hell the rest of my life, or sort it out naturally Psychedelics can help but sometimes I just think Im bullshitting myself with them. Something tells me I need to heal myself naturally. You think with Zoloft could also help with my mind? I wouldn't say I have depression at all tho

@WaveInTheOcean I can't surrender brother. I need to "control" my life, "sort out" the endless thought stories. I think a fundamental belief in having lost faith in God, in Reality, is what prevents me to be able to surrender. That's why I keep holding on the fire. I am really scared what will I lose, if I let go.

And what a doctor is going to do for me exactly? Feels only I can get me out of this rug.

@WaveInTheOcean what about pain and suffering? You only quoted the "good" things LMAO Ironically when I had had "intuitions" that God must be real, it hasn't been when I've experienced deep pleasure of fun LOL, but instead when I've experienced deep states of impeding doom and anxiety. HAHAHA Those moments are so inexplicable for Me, because i had this Intuition of "how come reality must be THIS awful?? I mean if Reality exists, it should be GOOD!" That actually made me Intuit that there must exist God

That's the million dollar question. It's an essential Oneness question. My bet is that most people don't know it. I think you need an astonishing radical state of Consciousness to realize this. Additionally Nobody here can give you Truth ??‍♂️

@WaveInTheOcean I just realized an hour ago I don't want money, success, sex, women, not even personal development, I want... SILENCE!!! Silence from the mind! Shuuuuuut up! I would like to say to the mind each time it kills my peace. Have you become free of the mind brother?

I have this realization some months ago after "trying to get Enlightened" with 5-MeO and realizing that I am not the one who is going to get Enlightened, since "Nothingness/Presence/God" is already "fine" so I need to work on myself (on healing my ego and so on). But...not sure how to do it. Will try what you said, but I have this limiting belief that my mental structures are very rigid and solid and sometimes I get depressed because it seems nothing changes.

Last year I used psychedelics for personal development, specifically I used a method which i invented on my own using a specific psychedelic using a specific dose, working with a specific book, and in a specific setting, for a specific goal, which was healing social anxiety, and I've found It has worked better than anything I've tried and I've read in the literature about this issue. Lately I've been thinking if i could write a small ebook "selling" this method, knowing that what i would sell is based on my own personal success i think It could be powerful stuff I know there is plenty of market about mental health/personal development, and inside here social anxiety is a common issue. Yet Im not sure if theres enough market when including psychedelics on the mix. It probably would turno very niche and even taboo. Maybe you cant even sell on Amazon if you make a book encouraging psychedelic use. What do you think?

@Leo Gura Your logic seems flawed. There is understandable reason why to create a certain level of pain. For example the pain of a punch to the face, or a fall into the ground, or a headache. That kind of pains makes me already want to avoid them, and move towards pleasure. But what about intense pain? That's just unnecessary. That was created out of pure curiosity of thinking "let's so far can I go hehehe". The answer: God must be quite a twisted motherfucker.

Why that conclusion? After all you have never experienced anything outside this perception. You haven't experienced other people or other places. Just THIS. what if THIS is you and is all that it is? What would be God.

Can't you see that if you are God you couldn't ask for proof outside of you because you are literally the proof? Hahaha

But there are also others povs which are alone as their own godhood...so you are alone but you aren't ? And yeah to the one saying "there aren't other povs" whatever, doesn't matter, as long as it will be experienced at least 1 time , doesn't matter if it's a matter of space and time

It's Infinite

Here's my "curriculum": I have done - 5 Lsd small-medium dose - 1 5-MeO-DMT trip inhaled - 1 Changa trip - +10 5-MeO-DMT plugged contemplating about reality - +5 Several other trips of unknown psychedelic (mdma, ketamine, etc) with intention of self development/Spirituality and not recreation - +150 Hours Yoga - + 100 Hours meditation - +30 Hours self inquiry/mindfulness meditation - +30 Hours Watching non duality/actualized clips On top of that, I've always had a metaphysical inclination towards knowing what is Reality. STILL haven't realized Truth. Yes I've had a bunch of weird, nerve racking, heart breaking, joyful, ecstatic realizations, BUT I can't put my hand on the fire that Non duality is the Truth and we are one. I even can't say that materialism is false. I basically have beliefs about spirituality and "hopes" that death is not real and union is the Truth, but it's no different than a religious man. I need some advice because either I'm doing something wrong or there's a lot of people bullshitting themselves and not being honest about Truth realization. Right now I'm focusing back 100% on stage orange stuff but anyways I thought sharing this would be interesting to know if you guys relate to it.

Thanks for the motivation bro, will keep your advice in mind ? I don't exercise mainly because my job is highly physical so doing something as lifting weights or calisthenics would probably give an overstress to the muscles and bones. I actually took some days off last week because my back was too sore of the work load. I should probably do Yoga mainly to stretch my soreness right. I also have to finally the ditch the damn Kratom because I was physically addicted to it, and still I don't feel quite good without it and sometimes it confuses me I'm not sure if I'm tired because of work+sleeping on the morning or either because my body is in withdrawal

I took this job on a big city so I could work on my LP and socializing and dating but the job drains me too much. I am not doing shit with my life but resting and sleeping when I'm not working I should be grateful I have a job yet it doesnt let me do shit the rest of the day because it's a night shift so I sleep on the mornings and I'm tired on the afternoons and the weekends where I could have some proper time to work on my LP and self development as socializing and dating I cant get myself to do it because I feel I need to really rest from the workweek and actually enjoy sleeping on the night some time. Am I complaining bitch and I should get even more violent and aggressive towards pursuing stage orange goals no matter how freaking tired I am? God it's so frustrating also I took 2 days off of work because I went to a doctor because I got my back too hurt from work. Best thing about my job; basically 0 responsability/0 stress or anxiety inducing which is something not many jobs can be proud of. So that's that.

@Willie how much did you work night shift continued? I'm going to complete 4 months and I'm on the verge on losing my shit hahaha thankfully I have one month vacation coming in to inquiry and contemplate what to do

Thanks guys yeah I also think I should really stop working night shift, but I am holding on because my company each year have opportunities to change to morning or afternoon shift, so I am waiting for that instead of finding a unstable new job. Luckily I have only 2 more weeks till vacation and I will be able to make a reset to my biological clock.