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Trying to unquote But i can't from phone sorry. This message goes to the OP @AdamR95 Not to brag, because Im an insecure low self esteem Virgin, But i had THREE DATES from just ~10-15 cold approaches some years ago, I you had 8 Dates from 200, you must be doing something really bad! Im also not that handsome. Im a 7 i think. Im not even muscular. Skinny!

Didn't know where to post this...if in this subforum or in entrepreneurship forum. Wondering if I could make a living selling gay content on onlyfans/Twitter I just realized I have a good body, I'm good looking, I'm straight but I'm open minded, and yeah I would be selling my body (pictures and videos, don't want to become a male prostitute) but in my job I also sell my body too. It's hurting my back. My ears. My soul. And it pays a shit. So why not sell my body in a more intelligent way Lol. From my home and in my own terms. I am not interested in real life sessions, I'm not that open minded Lol. Just want to know if I could make a living doing this online.

Os the opposite, dummy

So today and yesterday i started going out with a daygame noob and we just Dont have the balls yet to do Direct approaches so we just do approaches even though they are just asking the time, directions, compliment Style, etc. I was Able to redirect the first day a couple of approaches to asking number tho', and my wing was able to get a number today just because i asked the time to a Girl It was behind us and she just kept talking. so this cold approaches are not that useless even tho they are not that effective as Direct ones. But you still waste a lot of opportunities. Lots of Hot Girls that you just Ask where the damn Starbucks is for the 10th time and you let her go away 90%. I think an issue with this is that i am not Able to do Direct approaches because Im not relaxed enough, today we put cronometer, each of one we have 3 minutes to approach, one its finish its the other Who has to approach. And repeat. Problem i have with this technique: - It makes you anxious to approach -it makes you approach lots of times Girls you Dont feel It that much But because "you have to" you just approach her and Ask for a shitty direction again. In the other Hand It is a good technique in the sense that makes you move, today It was the day both me and him approached the most. However i was not Happy with the result at all. In Summary: 1). What do you think of this BS of avoiding Direct approaches? Its normal since we are newbies and its better to approach than doing nothing, or we are just avoiding the real work? 2). Is this technique good since It provides "results" or its a flaud technique since It does make you mechanic and (particularly for me) not in a fun mood But just robotic

What if all this Infinity shit is a creation/story of the ego to not feel Alone and do as other people and places exist apart from the present moment? Just as the materialist paradigm. Basically Infinity is the materialist paradigm But for new agers/people Who pursue "Enlightment", do Psychedelics, meditate, etc. Of course Im not saying Infinity is a fraud, Im just saying, the similarities are...really suspicious. ?

What was your route of administration? If It wasnt inhaled/vaped, theres no reason to be scared.

@Kalki Avatar wooow yeah i agree totally with that you said ! I need to Focus even more on awareness , being grounded in myself, etc, instead of What to say or how i am looking to the other person. Nice!

@WaveInTheOcean yeah i mean I've seen that But i Dont know What It is. Dont know why i would call It "Infinity"

Have you seen "Nocturnal Animals"? It talks in a brilliant way about why women do not choose weak men. Its a fucking brilliant movie.

I thought warming up would make Direct approaches easier, It does put you in higher state, But i end Up not really doing them totally. Lots of time in the past that i just went out and talked to nobody, so i thought at least do indirect ones. But It seems we are wasting time. Did you start just with Direct approach from the first time?

Great, the 999th post about how Alone i am por how we are One. Doesnt Matter, everybody here still lives as other are different than you (they are still selfish) and they are not Alone (they Talk to people and feel a minimal degree of self awareness).

Ok so before you say anything i know this is fucked Up What Im going to say, But regardless how fucked Up It is, this where "Im at" and would like insight in how could i stop feeling this way. So basically i was scrolling Twitter and i found a Girl I've been talking to recently, a second account of her which is oriented to Ask for payments for things. Clothing, drinks, sometimes this Girls even Ask payments for the condoms she going to use with his bf ???. The thing is, discovering that she was getting easy money from betas made me SO bitter and jelous. I used to do this too so that maybe didnt help. (I talked with this Girl for free since a long time, shes a stunner ok) Long story short, i got so hard while this feeling of bitterness and hate and envy was arising, that i couldnt hold It anymore and i said, fuck It, and i cum to the screenshots of the PayPal payments she recently received. The fact that in the screenshot description theres usually a text of the Girl lauging of how "loser" the Guy he payed her is, also makes me even more bitter/hateful. The PayPal payment of 100€ especially was really hurtful ( she also had others of smaller amounts of recent days that easily amounted to maybe ~80€, But those are more normal. But 100€? Cmon!!). Why i feel so envy jealous bitter and hateful of this Lucky girls ? Why i Dont feel the same way of drug dealers, exxon mobile CEO, Donald Trump, etc if they are more ruthless people and make way lots more money?? And especially WHY THE FUCK I cum AND GET HARD to that feeling?? Which is basically "negative"(bitterness, envy, hate,etc)

No. You just belief yourself that after watching too many actualized and non dual philosophy.

@Adamq8 thanks my man really appreaciate It ??

This. In regards What you say about lower stage and Consciousness, i Dont think its about that. I think its simply about this guys that are commenting here that they say cumming its essential they just have had too much sex in their lives (remember Leo has said he has approached thousands of Girls) so they just Dont get any proper pleasure just with fucking and they have to get to the climax for them to feel something intense enough. But for normal (not PUAs) i think we Dont give much importance to ejaculating.

Im a guy and i Dont agree What you guys saying about that its so important for the guys pleasure to cum. Honestly its the worst part for me since It means the fun its about to be over ??‍♂️?

@Adamq8 you probably wont believe this, But at the end of the fucking. The Pain was so unbearable, that i actually said "fuck It, Im going to enjoy It" and i actually fucked myself in the ass while jerking myself off, thinking i was the Girl imagining i was being fucked. Im not gay, But when you Dont fuck in Life, Life fucks you. Sometimes you have to learn to enjoy It. It was one of my best jerk offs of my Life. Yeah i have started to find groups to go out and approach. With some luck i Will be Able to trascend this painful phase in a couple of years if Im Lucky.

@Emerald Thank youuu ??

Hehehehe, oh if i knew.... Not very long ago I heard wall to wall how my i Girl i started liking was fucked for over an hour. To .make things even more juicy It happeend when i was at the comedown of AN acid trip... Honestly i Dont know if that was good or bad, if made the acceptance more easy or not, i defintely rolled through the bed several times in Pain ?

I Dont know. @mandyjw I Guess I want to know What i want ??

Idk i used to feel this way occasionally (envy) 5 years ago when i met this Girl. The i forgot her and It passed, But the thing that feeling was before discovering the fetish itself

@Emerald I Hope you can provide me with some insight here girl

I must confess, i am dissappointed with the results of my spiritual work regarding Truth. In regards to self development, spiritual work has turned to be quite useful. Even though i still suffer from daily anxiety, I feel less anxious and serious overall in the Big picture. Some deep trips have also developed in myself an strange skill of connecting and socializing just naturally with people. Sometimes i take for granted this, so its time time to say thanks. However in the purely Truth related aspect: -1. I do not know What reality is. -2. I do not know What am really am. -3. I do not know if my personal story is real or not (did my father really existed? Or i imagined my father body and additionally i imagined that he had a POV (he died last year) to really Lost myself in this hallucination) -4. If my father was real, why i cant remember my fathers POV since I am God. Blabla. You now the drill, this are same questions over and over that i had from the beggining and they have NOT dissapeared or solved after many years of - 1. Actualized videos - 2. Actualized forum -3. Meditation -4. Non dual literature -5. Of course Psychedelics. Overall i woudl do It again 10/10 (particularly that orgasm of pure love with everyone on 5-meo Lol) but honestly saying "those questions just come from the ego", "you are just a wave in the ocean" , "you are not real", "you are Nothing/awareness" doesnt fill my curiosity!! So What? Its there any point anymore in having Hope of answering this questions? It really bugs me that i cant really answer What reality is FULLY while i am living IN reality. I find hard to believe that its not possible. But at the other Hand I've tried a lot and i feel i am 1000miles far from truth as always.

@Nahm yes nahn i have realized several times that i am awareness behind the thoughts, and believing them to be an "i" creates the false story of ",i" having a personal past etc. Buuuut, i do live daily Life in that state of Consciousness.. How can you maintain a job, goals etc withouth personal story? I mean i get What you Mean But Im not sure if its possible to be there except in meditation retreats and so on.. Once you go back to material Life (aka paying the bills, maybe being concerned about your family, etc) a minimal level of Fear sets in and therefore you are always trapped in thoughts as long as you keep playing that survival Game (not talking about you, i mean my experience)

Yeah But how come i cant get myself to verify that as Absolutely True. It could be possible that my father is a dream character i imagined, But i Dont see how i could ever verify that? What if he was really real? How would i know?