Javfly33

My man ??? We need more real 'shit' like this.

Who told you that...

Then you ain't really tripping property. My first trips of Lsd completely vanished thought loops of thought stories of obsessions/ocd/ego Careful with what psychedelics you use. Personally for example 5-meo-dmt or DMT do nothing for me in my sober life.

Only absolute truth exists. That's why it's absolute. Look around, that's absolutely true ?

The notion of drug, altered, and experience are concepts that appear and are understood in your current level of consciousness and brain state. Why do you believe your current consciousness level and brain state is THE TRUTH to compared to any "altered" state that differs from it? You ain't that smart, smart ass

Dumb me in the middle of the peak of my last LSD trip being all high I confessed to my roommate that I was her and Reality was love. Because I was conscious there was no physical reality and the flat we were on, with its chairs, floors, walls, windows, etc was Us and it was Love. She said that she had an intuition that we are One (probably she had read non dual/new age literature) but she wasn't Conscious at all because she said that reality wasn't all love. That they were also bad things. Of course she didn't understand me. I meant that the physical reality she thought she was living in was actually LOVE haha (because I was conscious there was no separation between my body , the chair and her = no separation = love) . But now I'm sober and not high on LSD anymore and it all seems like a great experience but actually now I feel separated from her. Because she's imaginary and just a thought in my mind. Maybe she doesn't exist now. Maybe this moment is the only that exists and that's what it means to be "in Union". Alone.

It's all very fucking simple. Either you love yourself, or you hate yourself. As long as you don't slowly elevate your vibration from hate to love, you will keep suffering this things. You are creating everything.

That's one possible, *rational explanation, yet maybe the growth might be in discovering the emotional explanation. What emotions were you feeling during her ? You already said "nervous". What is this emotion. What would entail for you and your beliefs to not feel nervous around her ?

Yeah. I just don't like where Truth is going. I don't like the fact that Isness might be the universe so if my roommate is not appearing right now on Isness, she doesn't exist. The theory of "We are One" goes completely to shit Lol Even the story of "You will experience all POVS" goes to shit to. Because other people are imaginary.

That would be amazing to be true...yet honestly , I think you are paying more guessing and interpretations... I had multiple mystical experiences, including one with high dose 5-meo-dmt where "it was felt" that I had lived as consciousness the life of one of my crushes...yet at the end of the day, it is a *feeling/insight, it's a map, it happened on the level of mind. Even if it were a high level mind...and it would be great to result that to be true, everyone of us wants to believe in the non dual Oneness theory...but the actuality is that you haven't even experienced other beings. They could easily be imaginary. The woman you made love to could easily be an imaginary character. You never experience his life because it didn't even existed. And that is of course more guessing and interpretation. But just to give you my two cents.

Right. The problem I have with is mainly with the map and not with the territory. The validity of experiences are undeniable...they are! But...what I don't agree still is with the *Interpretation of it. For example when you mean "THIS IS A REPLAY" I'm sure that is an interpretation and a contextualisation...I'm sure nowhere in the mystical state those words were actually appearing...

Main objection/frustration: If Enlightment depends on your brain state of consciousness, what is the point on meditating or doing mindful practices through the day? 1). I have come to the conclusion I can't raise my baseline state meditating through the whole fucking day (been doing Isha Kriya meditation this last days FOR HOURS through the day trying to completely eliminate the ego in my life = trying to achieve a light state of non duality sober). Can't do it. I always fall back. I achieve some seconds of bliss/heaven for some seconds and then the rest is kind of yes/no ego. I am not really deep suffering but there is still ego. I am not really joyful. But I keep doing it because I believe it will come a point where the ego will let go completely. But maybe I should just stop Lol. Why? Because the 2). Point below 2.) The thing is when I am doing this mindfulness I am not in this neurotic state of achieving stuff of spiral dynamics stage orange. Which is precisely which makes me suffer and Actually is counterproductive to achieve it (being neurotic). BUT, you guys say that one should first achieve this stuff (self growth of the minor s, sex, money, success of the ego) and then go for Enlightment. So the ego gets neurotic to get it done. But then I see the ego is ruining my life and I start meditating. But meditating makes me not being so serious about achieving it!! And then I'm at this stage of not achieving shit but neither being Enlightened! Wtf! Lol Then what do I do??? See if I choose one thing I'm damned and if I choose the other I'm damned too. 3). Yesterday night I was feeling sick and couldn't sleep and I took a drug that I know is good when you feel sick and makes you fall asleep. I had no tolerance for this drug because I quit a time ago, but I still wasn't expecting the strong effects it gave me. It triggered me a realization of the Self (it's not a psychedelic at all but when you have had awakenings and meditate, a lot of drugs can put you into spiritual states that for normies wouldn't). I was Consciousness and I was aware of the "I" thoughts. It's great that I got into this state but it's also very sad that still brain chemistry dictates everything. Why the fuck I can't get here by meditating? The drugs are just some neurochemistry imaginary keys.

I just woke from the most intense , crystal clear, dream of my life.( I wouldn't say lucid ) The dream was divided in several parts, going intense and more intense in each one pursuing absolute total God realization. 1. The first part, it was like an emotional trip, I cried a lot saying sorry to my father for not having loving him enough in this life (I had all the memories of him in the dream) 2. Then, things got more spiritual. I basically focused my sight on one fire extinguishers mouth and I wondered if I could turn it into a flower with my pure will (remembering what Leo says about tripping , mystics states of consciousness and basically everything being imaginary). And INDEED ?, it fucking started to morph progressively into a flower. 3. Then, I started meditating with my eyes open helping focusing my sight with my fingers, in a sort of kriya kundalini meditation. I opened completely my body and started levitating in circles while remaining my sight in between the fingers (trying to realize the "Presence"/awareness in the dream I guess) 4. Cool uh? Well there is more, the final part. At this point my avatar starts asking God for answers. He starts saying something like "But I want more God! I want more answers! I want all the answers! Why this and why that, and why X and why Y! Why! And while my avatar starts complaining and asking for answers to God a subtle intuition of "THIS IS IT" starts arising. My avatar can't really accept yet it's not Actual and Completely 100% God, because it it would, well there wouldn't be more answers, hehe. I'm God, this is a dream, and I am imagining everything. Including my father. [....] *** 3 hours later / I woke up from the dream *** 5. I woke up from the dream and start to remember. I know question myself, where was Infinity/ God when I was deep asleep in the dream. It felt so complete and One that the question of Infinity existing seems very difficult to contemplate. Because obviously in this reality, I am not really 100% God as in the dream..no. I'm just a branch of God. A wave in the ocean. A part of Infinity. Which will merge into Infinity (my own Infinity/Godhead) when the physical body dies. But other infinities/Godheads with their correspondent avatars will keep going. That's what infinity means. The universal dream is infinite. This is more than a single player dream. This is universal and multiplayer. It's not really like the dream I experienced. I'm not really, really and only God, right God? ?

How sure are you of this "Insights"? Especially "Other people" and "Death". Please be honest. If you say 100% , I expect you to no Lt be scared at all of death and be absolutely loving to other people since they are you and you will live their lives as God/Nothingness, right ? And if you don't say 100%, then we are just playing the never ending game, some mystical states here and there, and then some interpretations mixed with non dual theory and Leo's teaching, shake it, apply some belief intention and we are good to go to feel like we have sorted it out, but of course we keep behaving like scared little devils because deep inside us there is still doubts and we are NOT REALLY sure. So, please, give it a rate. Have the balls of saying "100%" ?

I thought we said that family is imaginary because I'm God and others don't exist ?

What's what I'm doing with Isha kriya. What I don't have is actually a meditation practice. @lmfao right, good point

I see. You seem to imply that I should (again) switch more towards Enlightment/Spirituality, since I basically understand from your point that I should try to enjoy the process and be more in 'being'.

Didn't we said that death is imaginary? ?

Live because you WANT, NOT because you SHOULD

Meh, I don't think a shot would make such a big difference.

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@IAmReallyImportant yeah that's a very good point. I would like to see the statistic of people who had actually meditated, learn about non duality, done retreats, and done psychedelics specifically for spiritual purposes, and still are not Enlightened as a sober baseline state of consciousness.

I asked for a relocation in my company because the position I was it was stressing and tiring as fuck (delivery driver). In a way I'm happier because the stress level of my current job is almost non existent apart from that I have some elevated baseline anxiety as my way of personality lol However now I fear hurting my back. Been 2 months and a half in this job and in the weekends the back is each weekend more sore and stiff, some minor subtle pain is arising lately and it scares me. I'm not sure if it's because the body is still adapting or if this will continue I will fuck up my back in a dangerous way. I don't like this because the back is a very delicate central part of the body. I don't like at all that this situation. I don't have much studies so it's kind of difficult to find something significantly better in terms of quality.

Right. I get that as a motivation to continue with my Isha kriya practice then . How much time have you been in that stage? I'm so frustrated man. Don't know what to do.

Simple. It's imaginary.