Javfly33

@machinegun look, almost like your username: machinegunkelly & young thug "Ectasy" (Pure codeine, I need extra now Pure codeine, I need extra now, yeah Pure codeine, I need extra now) Pure codeine, I need extra now, ecstasy Pure codeine, I need extra now, ecstasy Pure codeine, I need extra now, ecstasy (Wah, wah) Pure codeine, I need extra now, privacy (Yeah) [Chorus: Young Thug] Molly, Roxies Oxycontin (Yeah) Jubilee, Ostrich (Uh-uh) Ten a key, we need thousands (Okay) I can take the stick and I can lift it up (Yeah) I can take this bitch and I can lift her up (Ayy) I just took a bankroll and I lift it up (Okay) I just drunk a PT, it was double sealed up This is the best music right now. Hip hop is the new rock and roll. And young Thug is right now the top 3 most important musician in the whole world (I'm not joking).

Fair enough, not everybody dislikes his job. Im in a job where nobody likes it here and is kinda of depressed so sometimes I forget there's actually people out there who enjoy what they do LOL.

I CAN´T stand Indie, emotional, immature, heartbreak music. God i hate those weak hipsters.

+1 Now that you say it, I've been contemplating this weekend and I've come to the conclusion that Mark Mansons famous book "Models" might have fucked up my game real bad, with that "honest" shit. Honestly I had so MUCH MORE SUCCESS the little pick up I did some years ago, totally following techniques, escalations strategies, push and pull, accidental kino, etc. Now this last weekends Ive approaches more girls than those years ago, and I had close to zero success, because Im all with this "honest" shit. Yeah I think I am going back to the "real game" of people who actually are PUAS and get you results!

Cute story, tomorrow is monday gotta get up for the "imaginary" work for the "imaginary" survival and deal with "imaginary" people. I hope you don't wake up early tomorrow if you are "so awake" that is a dream.

SDS can hurt the body obviously , for example the back

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@Nahm thanks ? It does feel bad these stories and it def would be nice if there is no self as you say. @Leo Gura "Just shut up" Lol you always so hard with me Leo. But I get your point I need to stop fucking around with my mind. I think the microdose made it worse in this case. I think I'm putting psychs for a long time now and focusing on results and material goals. Approach, socialization, and go out for a whole year each weekend and just shut the fuck up and only contemplate until one year has passed of doing this. Yeap.might be a good idea. @PurpleTree I feel emotionally drained but at least i feel yesterday broke through approach anxiety a lot.@Raptorsin7 And what would I do? I have done a lot of instrospection this last years, some trips here and there, and they haven't really solved the root thing. At the end of the day the root problem it's imaginary, so I will keep going out and try to focus on what I want in life. (Even though my fucking mind tells me each second that there's something wrong with me) @Nahm I don't think my life is that unstable. I've always felt like fucking shit most of my adult life while socializing with most people and of course with girls. Nowdays I'm just honest lmao

I'm afraid taking the microdose might have been a bad decision and might have traumatized myself tonight.

Girls doesn't get attracted to looks that much bro. You might get online dates but when you show up in real life you better not behave like a pussy if you actually want to get laid

@The0Self That's right, I'm not sure I understand you...

Because its death. Reality stops being real. Who would want to accept such a thing? At least the ego doesnt.

I've started meditating again after so much time. Not because of spiritual purposes But for relaxing/letting go. I've already noticed a subtle overall positive effect on my calmness and ability to let go through the day. However I've also noticed something concerning. I wake Up each day with my mind Racing. First thing that i do i find scrolling through social media and emails, But once I've finished, Im left with this overall sensation of "edgyness".

Entertainment for monkey mind

What you mean when you say "everything is imaginary" or "you are imagining everything, including, people, tress, sounds, etc". I can see that as possible, when i am meditating and i become conscious everything is happening in my Consciousness. For example i hear the lift sound because somebody clicked the Button, and i can become aware What IS true IS the Sound + the thought "that sound IS coming from outside my experience where exists a physical lift". So i can become aware of that difference and open my mind to the fact that i might be imagining the lift, (and the Sound) However What about when i walk around budy downtown. My city has a very busy downtown, lots of Cars, peoples, stores. On a saturday night its really nuts . This is when i find VERY DIFFICULT to accept that God COULD BE SO TWISTED to try to deceive me by creating SO MANY TYPE OF SOUNDS, COLOURS, PEOPLE MOVING AROUND, DIRT, CLOTHING, CITY LIGHTS, ETC !!! WTF? That would be such a ridiculously complex imagination. Cmon. This have to be Real. I can accept i am imagining my whole room, the lift, the chair, and my body. Ok. But not the REAL CITY, with REAL PEOPLE.

Not this complex. They are way more simpler.

The phrase itself already caused dumb laughter here ??

I might try this weird shit soon. Discovered a dominatrix which some years ago switched to doing tantra and Consciousness perspectives. Lets remember than bdsm and fetishes are darkness and ego shadows, and tantra IS the supposedly the higuest kind of sex (purest/healthiest) energy a human can develop. Apparently are two opposites sides of the Coin according to the current literature. This woman says can play between the two to provide the healing/release experience you need. (Obviously in a person which has bdsm tendendies/fetishes. If you Dont have then theres no point. Just go to a classical tantra massager i Guess) It might waste a money too But i am def intrigued how the experience can be. Does anyone here tried something similar?

I think Im gonna pass btw, she charges a lot and honestly Im going to pay to feel bad about myself meh Dont think It Will be Smart

I find It just find that there are people that confess having no link between bdsm and trauma, But i just find suspicious that a lot of people I've talked to about this, get very triggered when i say my opinion. Like, yo, honestly i just Care about my relationship with bdsm, But why you guys get so triggered when i say bdsm IS indicator of low Consciousness if you guys feel so good and healthy with It? ?

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oh that's very good sir

Fair enough, But take a look at my last reply to the user @Elisabeth

I might be weird, But hate-kind of thoughts have always felt terribly bad 'round here. Now this progressive kinky culture here trying to tell you that you might be anything else less that Love and you should accetp It? now they normalize hate as something you have to accept ? Hace we gone crazy @Nahm ?

@Elisabeth I am defintely surrendering to them to feel them as accepting them as full as posible. However, its also true that some bdsm inclinations go Hand in Hand with self-hate and harmful beliefs. For example as a man inclined to femdom and last year to findom, I've find that when i have unveiled false harmful beliefs about women and myself (like a weekend socializing for example and discovering Im not "Broken" or "wrong" or "bad") i felt more inclined to being turn on by normal sex. Yet in moments of isolation, social anxiety, beliefs about myself+women ...etc have been always a trigger for seeking femdom, findom, etc and all kind of sense of "being abused" and feeling "hated" by the opposite sex and enjoy It. I'm not saying the fetish are bad, i think they are there to BE FELT, yet one cant avoid to think that if the triggers are mental health problems and harmful beliefs, they are a representation of the low state of Consciousness of the person. I Guess that better than saying that bdsm IS bad, is better to say that bdsm inclinations are INDICATORS of trauma, self harmful beliefs, mental health problems, ego...etc. In the same sense that a stomach Pain IS not really bad, is just an indicator you have been poisoned. The Pain have a purpose, i Guess in the same way bdsm does ?