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Is that ironic ? ?

@Nahm Right. Thoughts. Yesterday i did a couple of approaches more and after the last one i felt horrible in my body. Then I realized "I have an option. Either I Believe this thoughts (which appear as true) or i Dont (as a little hope that they might not be true). Crazy how TWISTED the mind is. It conceals falsehood as truthful. "That situation means that you are....X". No. That situation is just Truth. The mind is projecting thoughts onto truth and then saying those are truth ??

@Fearless_Bum Ok, got It! Maybe i can explain myself better knowing now better your experience. When you drink coffee and eat normally, you have x energy levels, right? Lets say you do fasting, which definetely (in my experience) can increase energy and clarity levels. Wouldnt you say that the fact that you had energy + clarity was because of the fasting and not because of the coffee? And to be honest, like, yeah, if coffee doesnt hurt your performance (maybe It doesnt, we all are wired different) by all means, keep drinking It. Im just saying, that the fact that you had energy+clarity was obviously because of the fasting, not the coffee.

@Fearless_Bum Ok, so maybe i didnt understood you correctly. Were you drinking coffee when you did the fasting? (I Dont mean that day, i mean the previous ones)

@Fearless_Bum dude, you basically a variable (fasting) and did anything else. Actually do another experiment of fasting WITHOUTH coffee. I mean its fucking obvious lol See i can be taking coffee for years and having bad sleep (i mean that wasnt my issue particularly But anyway just for the sake of the argument) and one day go jogging for 1 hour and then have amazing sleep. Does that mean that coffee wasnt an issue? No, It just means that exercise helps a lot with sleep. Thank God not all scientistics have the amazing lógic you have brother ?? (not want to offend But cmon, cant you see It doesnt make sense to derive that coffee wasnt the issue ?). Here's another example: "For years i thought doing aderall at 7PM was the issue of not sleeping well, until one day i Popped 5 Xanax, 2 cups of Codeine and a bunch of weed and i slept just fine. From that experiment i derived that aderall wasnt the issue. Hugely changed my perspective.".

@SQAAD @museumoftrees Update guys: Today I felt much much better ? Already reaping the benefits of being more calm and less edgy at work and being more productive. @Fearless_Bum Fasting definetely gives energy. But I don´t know how your logic makes sense. It´s like saying, "I thought sleeping 4 hours a day was the issue of being tired, until one day I did some meth and had amazing energy/clarity. Hugely changed my perspetive.".

Nice ?

It's more physical. Like, I just feel bad in my body. (And also, tired).

The question is, can you? No, you can't. Most guys if put close to a really hot girl, can't be themselves (truth) even if they want.

Jon Hopkins released a new album just yesterday, and it's called "Music for Psychedelic Therapy" If that wasn't cool enough, this one behind is one of the gems inside that album. You're welcome, sneaky eternal soul

@Moksha What you mean my true nature, you mean awareness? See i just think we Dont communicate well. I think we have discovered certain stuff. We are just not understanding correctly. When i Talk about understanding, i Dont mean understanding awareness or Infinity. I literally mean understanding for example why i had precisely the Life i had (as the ego). Why that car is blue and not Green. Why the Earth was created with water and Land. Why i was born in x city. Why Gravity exists. Why why why why. See What i Dont agree is in that just because awareness or Spirit IS behind language and concepts, then that means that the material dream, is just useless and doesnt Mean anything. Cant you see that the material dream IS also part of Spirit? That car you seeing right now when you walk down the street, is not a dumb cold object outside of yourself (Spirit). Is fucking Spirit too. If you Dont understand why that car is there, thats fine. But Dont downplay It saying Spirit is behind concepts. Because doing that Its begging the question. I am not asking about spirit. Im asking about the car! PD: and the car is Spirit.

@Someone here thats cute as a fantasy. Yet you Dont live as IS appearance. Im sure you take serious sex, food, murder, etc. If its all an appearance and imaginary, you wouldnt have Fear. You still have doubts.

Here's the "Phenomena": I am meditating, and suddenly intense silence sets in. Probably the ego is being deconstructed here. This is where the weird "phenomena"/reaction that Im talking about happens. Suddenly I move my head like crazy and do a sound, I do a wild gesticulation which I don't have any control over (its just happens) but here's the trick: once this gesticulation happens, it obviously puts me out / stops the concentration and I have to go back to concentrating/meditating. The silence/contration is lost. ¿A trick of the ego resisting the SILENCE? It happened yesterday after so much time without doing spiritual practices (I picked back up the mediation habit just 2 weeks ago), but it used to happen almost DAILY when I did that Yoga retreat 1 year ago. It's just sucks because it seems like the ego just keeps rejecting and rejecting the silence, no matter what I do, it always reacts once it gets too serious. HAHAHA. ¿Has anyone experience this and do you think it stops spiritual growth or I shouldn't give it much importance?

Of course, when anything that goes against your narrative of reductionism then its me who is understanding wrong. And if Leos saying in anyway seems to contradict What you say, then Leo was just "doing an analogy". @Someone here yeah unfortunately you might be right

@The0Self how much do you think i have until samadhi?

@Illusory Self sounds you have to release a ton of emotional baggage of the ego to actually be fully present, express, and enjoy social interactions. You should really treat this as a focus and not treat it like it's nothing. Focus for the next year on going full throttle to desestruct this social anxiety/shame/lack of masculine energy/love you got there going on. Psychedelics, pick up/social challenges, etc are some methods I've used. But of course that pain you feel over and over lately will be the main drive to make you put to work and sort this thing out . I'm also in a similar process as yours but I've recently had some interesting growth that has made me quite motivated. If you ever want to chat I have my DM open. Good luck !

@Moksha so Leo is bs? Sure I had direct consciousness of awareness. But WHY do you close yourself to the possibility of understanding? Is what I don't understand. And I'm not saying it has to be a linguistical understanding.

Yes, but that doesn't make you understand reality. Lol Exactly like me. PD: yes, I mean "enlightenment". If Enlightenment is Direct and Awareness, then yeah, it can't be "known" or "understood" @Moksha But then Why Leo talks so much about understanding? In the literal sense he means. He talks about state of consciousness, understanding, etc. In a very linguistic sense. Everybody can get a direct consciousness realization through DMT/Psychedelics yet that doesn't mean you understand (Paraphrasing Leo here). Huh, what do you guys have to say about that? @Moksha @VeganAwake

1 million I would say

@BipolarGrowth did u get it? How's everything going btw ?, haven't heard from for a while brother ?

How do you know that?

Do you manage yourself the database Leo?

HHAHA cute. Sexual Desire its Absolutely monstruos power in human psyche. I have done +100 hours of meditation, +100 hours Yoga, self inquiry, +10 trips of several assuming "ego dissolution/Enlightment triggering" Psychedelics + one natural inclination to the metaphysical nature of reality since being a kid. NONE OF THAT was Able to stop the sexual Desire, neediness, Drive, etc. Its Absolutely powerful. Now i have forgotten any Desire to "dominate" the mind. I am 100% Focus on Career (60%) and Game (40%).

Things to declare: I put at least 8 hours of sleep I do drink coffee (But i have cut it down a bit and before i didnt used to woke Up feeling SO BAD) I do drink kratom (again, i have cut it down a lot and in the process of tapering down. Still, before when i used to take more i didnt used to woke Up SO BAD). I Dont do exercise (this might be key, before i used to do at least something, although not much. Now Im pretty sedentary although i walk at least 25 min a day (commute work) ) My diet is Ok. I probably have a deficienciy of vitamin c and magnesium (i gotta get back to the tahini + honey + chía Seeds Sandwiches God damn It), But overall What i eat its good although not very varied. Lots of rice, avocado, eaggs, pistacchios, beef meat 2 times a week, kéfir 2 times a week. I Dont do yoga , i Dont do meditation (i used to do yoga in the morning It used to make me feel more energized But i quit It because i felt the benefits were NOT outstanding the efforts and time It took). Psychologically i wake Up usually with instant thoughts of anxiety and thinking i have to change a lot of stuff for reality/my Life "to be right" and at the same time i feel i powerless to do It (this make me anxious and frustrated) (But i know this is an illusion because i am awareness behind the thoughts). Still when i take cup of coffee, get dressed, move a little and go on with my day, i feel much better. But the first hour waking Up IS dreadful, emotionally, physically, mentally...etc its like i woke Up poisoned and sick.

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