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Yeah i think its more jealously/hate towards Girls more than judgement

Yeah but several ones. Burned 300$ of those 500$ on just 5 hours, not even the crackheads can spend that much! Wtf why not mental health information about this stuff cmom liberals What if not and I can go even worse? Do you think I should quit my job and focus 8 hours a day (just like a job) on making myself a man and mastering socialization and dating?? @Harlen Kelly I have some savings and I could easily go about 9 months without working on a big city with lots of social offer. @mandyjw I'm believing to starting is all in my head tbh

It was 1 year or maybe more since I've ate a frozen pizza. Today i bought 2 Its been 4 fucking hours since i ate them and my stomach is still doing the digestion...wtf Frozen Pizza is poison Arent any good options healthy for pizza to buy in the supermarket? Im trying to gain Weight and mass muscle and i feel i need some "cheat Code" to get calories in. Eating very clean makes me look too thin

I've done a shit ton of 5-MeO by this point and wasted a lot of time and hope surfing high states of energy / consciousness on LSD (because this world we live in, that energy is useless u need to behave like a a real devil to properly survive) I still doubt Love. Or at least I find it hard to believe it.

No. But you must be careful in opening up with certain stuff depending on the stage of ego development.they are. You should be able to connect with people because of the mere fact that they are...people. Oh yeah you are so special! Keep playing this game yeah see what that did to ya

Hahaha you should try findom that will give you a taste of the dinamics of beta behaviour

?? took me a while to realize

I have found some concerning info about the of toxic heavy metals in this article: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7432033/ This is really concerning because I've been taking Kratom for over a year daily, except some little breaks here and there. I haven't noticed a downside in my overall health or energy however. Anyone knows if this is accurate for all Kratom powder and if there is something I could do to counter act this (maybe I should take a toxic metals test) apart from considering stop taking Kratom altogether.

Because nobody is sure, because truth is just a brain state. Infinity, frame, holons, there is no death! Blabla bla. And then everybody is scared shitless about death and attachments everywhere. Do not trust anybody, Investigate for yourself and careful in falling to ideologies masked as "Truth" and "Direct experience". Unless it's your direct experience, their direct experience is just more parroted ideology.

Im on holidays staying at my mom's house, in the town I was born and raised. Sometimes I feel alone in my room at night and I feel I should have done done proper socialization the previous day to have been able to get a date with a girl or have some friends to go have a drink that night. Just to avoid the pain of feeling alone. I don't have a problem with being alone usually, but in this case, being in my town triggers some trauma points of my ego. I feel this necesity of feeling finally "One"/Loved/Accepted with the people of the city I was born. I don't know why but my ego , since I was I think ~14 years old, constructed a story about how this city sucked and the people of this city were losers and different than me and basically "I was too cool for them". Of course this was a defense mechanism of the ego due to trauma I suppose, but I fucking believed that shit for the next ~10 years almost, which costed me not socializing almost at all during the years which you are supposed to go more parting, having the first dates with girls, etc. I also changed city a lot because "this city was not for me". (In fact I don't live here) However in my last 5-MeO-DMT (although I had done already some progress before that year) I had a powerful vision of being ONE with the people of my city. It was particularly meaningful because I had been judging (and feeling judged) by the people of my city, (the city in general, I thought this city was lame, boring, etc). And suddenly 5-MeO put me to the ground to have sex in an orgasm of metaphysical love with my the people of my city. I felt so United with everyone. It was so meaningful, fucking beautiful, that was pure art from God what I experienced. ?FUCK? And now I think, why stress out of having someone or some girl to have a date with, if at the end of the day we Are One For Ever For Eternity ? Hahahaha. I guess it depends on your state of consciousness. You must have realized the truth endless times to finally believe the unbelievable, that you can't ever get Love because love is not a thing you can get, is what reality is. Thanks for reading ?

Of course by this I'm not trying to encourage avoiding mastering socialization, but saying that socialization should come from a place of joy (you want to share stuff with people) or desire to improve an aspect of yourself which eventually will make your life more profound and according to your true nature, rather than socializing because of feeling "incomplete" from a place of scarcity.

Contact your supplier. I talked to mine and they said they do test their product against heavy metals. So now you can't even trust the "organic" word uh?

Today i had non dual state for some seconds. It felt like such an intense Bliss, realizing i was the screen of my phone, that "i" was an ilusion. Then i thought that this state is What Users of hardcore drugs must be seeking. That state of completeness, not localization, and end of self referential "Iness" is What brings a peak of heroin or meth. (By all means do not ever try this drugs they go completely against What Actualized teaches. They are not a wise way to get to non duality, But they are a good way of increasing your chances of making your life more difficult and actually increase suffering). But...What i want to say with this, is, if those drugs, or any psychedelic, or meditation with other practices combo, CAN INDUCE THAT STATE... That means that Enlightment / Non Duality is just... A state. A brain state. Its just a state more pleasurable than the default "Dont do drugs/psychedelics/meditation" state. But...its not truth. If you can induce It with a drug, how is going to be the Truth? SO, the truth must be that which is outside all states! The bottom line is, as long as we have a brain (Leo has said that brains are imaginary But they DO exist, they are just being imagined by Consciousness, But they do exist) we cant ever get to the actual real Ultimate Truth. Maybe once we lose our brain (physical death) we Will be Able to access the truth. Then It Will be posible. But with a brain we cant. My experiences with 5-MeO-DMT inhaled makes me think that maybe we Dont need a brain to "exist" But, as long as we do have one (in this plane of Consciousness) Ultimate Truth is not posible.

@WelcometoReality nice

So after a loooot of trial and error trying to avoid the tough work of approaching and meeting women in real life (street/clubs/work, etc) by using all kind of tactics and strategies to seduce and try to build attraction purely online, I've realized this channel WON'T EVER WORK EVER It has take a lot of time to accept this. But I have. It was also difficult to come to this realization because I AS A MAN I CAN DEVELOP ATTRACTION PURELY ON LOOKS, which means that for me, it's possible to become attracted to a girl just online. In my ignorance, I hit my head on the wall over and over trying to sort out why "she wasn't getting attracted" to me after all kind of trials, patience, different strategies, etc... Because when it's ONE girl it's not a problem. But when it's one And two And three And another, and another, and another, You start to believe there is something seriously wrong with yourself. But thankfully I had this insight that maybe my brain is actually significantly different than her. That no matter what I do she will never be attracted to me online. So that's it, I'm done with trying. I'm basically from this time from now all kind of contact with females online with any implicit hope of "she liking you" it's NOT POSSIBLE. Online, You can only offer her money, basically. You can not provide her with any other value that will match his sexual value demands which she values on a man. As Leo said (paraphrasing here), "instead of criticising women for wanting your money, maybe they want you money because you don't have anything else to give them that would of value to them". Peace!

Well I can tell you I totally been where you've been, like, totally...and nowdays if you put me in that situation I would have a blast! I am still haven't mastered the lead and dominating aspect of game and dating but I would be like fish in the water in the intimate game and the bdsm/sex questions game. It just took a tremendous work and a massive letting go of my ego Vs others, you must realize that you feel weird in those games because your ego is trying to control the situation, trying to control how you look in front of others. It seems your ego has a problem with emotional vulnerability and sex stuff. Instead of trying to avoid being seen as X or Y, work on being Ok/Feeling Cool/Loved etc showing your vulnerability and kinks and etc. I mean you must be ashamed of this things in some way if not I don't see why would you have a problem sharing it with those guys. . So have hope that you can get there, if you want. It will take a lot of time though.

?Yeah maybe we millennials some of us grow up with stage green teaching of our parents, which were great to prepare us for our mind to be open and for new ideas to come, but terrible for getting things done and terrible in terms of accepting that getting results comes with sacrifice and hard work. I basically never knew the meaning of "hard work" all my life until I've started to dip my toes into how you build a business for yourself, mastering relationships and dating, etc. I think life were too easy for us from childhood and we are paying that price of expecting things to fall in your lap. I did grew up with that implicit belief I totally agree.

Thanks buddy, that definetely clear things out for me

Ok, I will do that. I have tried online dating (real dating apps) but I did not hire any photographer. I have to say I still had hope in pulling that off. I mean they are women after all I can't understand why they can't get attracted even though they are there to make money.

Tough to accept for "me" too that I am creating you ? There is only One God bro ?

Its very difficult to not ponder solipsism as the Truth after reading this kind of messages Leo

No

I think the problem too has been that I didn't met all this chicks on an online dating site. It is more of a porn site (it's not really porn but girls try to make money "here") but I try to refuse to pay and seduce them Lol

Well anyways this online shit can go fuck itself real approaching/meeting is way way faster to deliver results. The comfort pays the price of very poor efficacy

Don't know how to ask this ... I hope the title of the thread is not very weird... Some hour ago I was doing Yoga and suddenly it popped in my awareness that "I" wasn't anywhere... So I started looking at my hand, and I thought : "I must be there". Then I look around at the window at the buildings far away and I started Contemplating: "where this thought is happening?" While I looked at the buildings, people walking by, trees, I asked myself "Is this thought happening 'there'"? Because obviously I do not know where thoughts are really happening. Because I went back to my room and sat in my bed and I tried sorting it out by saying "Here, here is where the thought is happening" while pointing at my head. But, "here" is just a thought. I can point to the chair near me and say "Here", does that make that suddenly my thoughts are happening 'in' the chair? And what if I look at the wall far away and say "here", I could too, since who draws the line between "here" the "there" LOL. Does that make suddenly that the thoughts are happening in the wall? And what does it even mean "here" and "there" by the way? It's just a word that has meaning because "here" means my head. So everything else is "there". But we already came to terms with the fact that "here" is a word. So where the fuck is my head? Shit and they said that Yoga was relaxing and to calm the monkey mind. ?