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Exactly, I think the problem we nebiews face is that at first we are not socially calibrated and can give a creep-vibe. I must confess first night of this year that I went gaming, the first set I approached, at one point in the conversation, which lasted maybe 30 seconds, one of the girls said "No, we are lesbians, we are going to do a trio now on our own". And I said to her in the most creepiest/serious tone "Oh, how that would look like" + creepiest look in the eyes HAHHAHHA (I was on a fucking microdose of Lsd so I was terrified/anxious inside more than usual but at the same time as "real" as I could ), when they started walking away, one of the girls of the set end up shouting me from far away "Pig!" or something like that Lol . That first experiences until you get calibrated can be quite traumatizing. . Also btw fuck psychedelics for doing game. Worst drug I could ever take for that.

@Nahm Definetely it´s overwhelment the emotion experienced. ? How do I move up to frustration/impatience? Just feeling overwhelment the best I can? That gives more clarity, thanks.

I Dont get the point of this post brother

@Rilles@ADD thats interesting. Thanks, ill try that. @Rilles Exactly, although i Dont have a problem in meditation not helping me in achieving my stage Orange goals, i would find concerning if its making It more difficult to achieve them But making me less tolerant to discomfort/anxiety.

Do meat lowers energy? @EntheogenTruthSeeker You think is lower vibrational foods?

@Yarco 2000$ a logo? Cmon... And I've done graphic desing. A now there are nuances between a 20$ logo an a 200$ one..But 2000$> woah

?Amazing Looks you had real high consciousness fun ⭐️

I agree with Leo in this one. Liver is the organ across a lot of animals (including the human being) where toxic stuff is processed. It's not wise to eat that, regarding what the paleo or keto fanboys might say.

I'm better each day... Now after 2 hard months I am starting to reap the benefits, can't wait to quit it completely. I'm currently doing 100mg daily only ?

I always suspected i have low testosterone But i never do analysis Magnesium i Dont think so due to my diet Vitamin d IS the one from the Sun?

It's not lovely Lol but I get what you mean. From outside it does seems as a joke. If you are a curious search In twitter the hashtags #loser #paypig #findom etc. You'll see payments of today of plenty of "losers" ? You'll be amazed how crazy this fetish is ?

@bloomer ?? Nah but yeah you are right @Knowledge Hoarder Yeah since quitting caffeine I am more conscious and I don´t find findom appealing at all. I just find it quite false and such a facade. Never again. Gave away +2000€ probably in over 2 years! @Rilles Which might not seem a lot but for someone who was unemployed and then when I have been employed I have a low paying job is a lot

The wrld on drugs, one of my fav albums of all times ?? But definetely NOT woke

Today I was sitting in a bench, blissing myself out just because , when...it hit me. Of course! Of course meditation is not supposed to fix or help you reach your goals and desires, and attachments. Of course. Meditation is not about the self. Meditation works for you to just make sure that you are always you. With that all entails. Happiness, peace, nothingness, death, right here. And if apart from that, you want to pursue goals attachments and stuff you think you need, by all means, go for it, switch Off the Self, attach to the mind, and try to pilot the beast the best you can, but know that meditation won´t follow you there. You will be alone fighting the wolves with the other wolves. And that´s fine. Not saying that is bad. It is what it is. Attachment, desire, play, it´s Ok. We came here to play. But Meditation is not about playing the game. Don´t expect meditation to help you become rich, don´t expect it to help you pick-up chicks, don´t expect it to help you become even charismatic or fun. Meditation cares strictly about You. Nothing more, nothing less.

@Fearless_Bum Thats not the intention. Bro, maybe coffee for you doesnt do you much, i Dont know. Look, i have reasons to quit. Its more than being the cool guy. For me, before I started to quit coffee, i used to do 1 coffee once I woke Up, and another at the afternoon. That was It. And lately, (the last 2-3 months) I remember waking Up feeling TERRIBLE until i managed to fix myself the first cup of coffee. Then, i would go from feeling like a zomby to feeling jittery and "all around the place" in a Matter of 20 minutes, so i would have to chug at least 1.5gr of Red Kratom to comedown of that anxious stimulation. By that time i wanted to start quitting kratom and It wasnt easy because i would feel so jittery and "on the edge" after taking a coffee. Now, you could say that It wasnt the coffee, It was kratom WD, But, turns out, Im still doing kratom everynight. Now i only do about 1gr through the whole day , and at the end of the day, (the days i keep my caffeine dose the same) i feel FINE like i havent felt in ages. Also, i enjoy an overall CALM through the whole day since I drink coffee, as someone with some social anxiety, i feel much more calm and grounded, I actually think not drinking coffee IS helping dramatically my mindfulness ability also. I just feel more grounded through the day wherever i am. Anyways, that was It. Just to let you know that i am not quitting It to be cool. I just think It really damages long term my ability to feel calmed and relaxed. I remember working on coding projects while drinking coffee and feeling all over the place. Building stuff , and deleting It, over and over, because i couldn't Focus on a single Page of documentation for more than 20 seconds. Now i Dont feel those "productivity peaks" But i just go slowly and thinking through What i want to build and design before coding anything. I Dont know, It just feels more healthy and conscious to be naturally energized on your own motivation and own resources of the body, not on a dopamine-noradrenaline pedal that comes and goes. But that is perspective. Maybe coffee doesnt affect your sistem at all and you Will be fine with It

A body

Lol. Enjoy your coffee addiction ?

I know What you mean, But i decided to switch to energy drinks because It was difficult for me to measure how much caffeine i was drinking. Also i was unable to divide the coffee in morning - afternoon and i ended Up always drinking It everything at once at the morning . Too "bingeful" for me that first cup in the morning. Im sorry @Michael569 But as much as I appreaciate your posts and wisdown in nutrition, i feel you have a bias towards coffee here. I find It shocking that you say that one cup per day wont give me an addiction, when the mere fact that i would have to take 1 cup per day to not feel bad IS basically What a physical dependence is. The fact that you guys wont ever accept that "having to" take anything daily to feel normal and on homeostasis is not only because coffee might be a Safe high its because your body is hooked on It . Not to say that coffee IS the worst drug ever, Dont get me wrong. Im just saying, i prefer to not feel that much as stimulated. Personally, after feeling What It is to work / study withouth caffeine, i really Dont see any reason to come back to that dopamine-noradrenaline rollercoaster as long as my WD symptons of tiredness and sleepyness goes away.

Prove to me that you can do mahasamadhi. I doubt It.

?I see ?Got it

Really? Those seems like really good news. But then It wouldn't be a "forced" 'there', right? I mean... If meditation is there, then whatever is happening is happenning effortlessly, which in my experience is the opposite in how It feels when Im trying to "achieve my goals", in some of them i feel a resistance which *seems, is asking for a separate self to appear and control them. Would you agree that the meaning of "pursuing" or even "doing" would become contextualized because there wouldnt be a self/control that decides anything?

You are not boring. Your body is god´s body. There must be some energy or aspect of yourself that you must be rejecting/blocking so you are lame in conversations. It might be good time to go back to psychedelics a little bit and inspect/contemplate. I find hard to believe that if you truly find a girl attractive, you are not exploding of expresiveness/enthuasiasm with her. So either find women who you really find attractive (I am not only saying pyhsically, i mean the whole thing) or considerate you might be "blocking" yourself.

Still feeling sleepy most afternoons even though i´m putting 8-9 hours of sleep each night. COFFEE WD is fucked up

Updating. Soon I will be doing 2 months since I started doing the taper off caffeine. Currently I am doing about 120mg of caffeine each day, from an energy which I doubt that caffeine is even active because I don´t feel it at all. I am experiencing significant WD tiredness symptons through the day. I been getting the caffeine from a Monster energy drink but not carbonated. THIS STILL SUCKS.

"Other" is a concept. Never Direct experience. Quite mindfuck right there .