Javfly33

oh that's very good sir

Fair enough, But take a look at my last reply to the user @Elisabeth

I might be weird, But hate-kind of thoughts have always felt terribly bad 'round here. Now this progressive kinky culture here trying to tell you that you might be anything else less that Love and you should accetp It? now they normalize hate as something you have to accept ? Hace we gone crazy @Nahm ?

@Elisabeth I am defintely surrendering to them to feel them as accepting them as full as posible. However, its also true that some bdsm inclinations go Hand in Hand with self-hate and harmful beliefs. For example as a man inclined to femdom and last year to findom, I've find that when i have unveiled false harmful beliefs about women and myself (like a weekend socializing for example and discovering Im not "Broken" or "wrong" or "bad") i felt more inclined to being turn on by normal sex. Yet in moments of isolation, social anxiety, beliefs about myself+women ...etc have been always a trigger for seeking femdom, findom, etc and all kind of sense of "being abused" and feeling "hated" by the opposite sex and enjoy It. I'm not saying the fetish are bad, i think they are there to BE FELT, yet one cant avoid to think that if the triggers are mental health problems and harmful beliefs, they are a representation of the low state of Consciousness of the person. I Guess that better than saying that bdsm IS bad, is better to say that bdsm inclinations are INDICATORS of trauma, self harmful beliefs, mental health problems, ego...etc. In the same sense that a stomach Pain IS not really bad, is just an indicator you have been poisoned. The Pain have a purpose, i Guess in the same way bdsm does ?

Its good fake It until you make It But keep working on yourself to truly become non attached on validation. This is basically self love and unveiling false beliefs about women being this lights of being and so on.

At least the concept of "Love". Usually in spiritual literature they say about Love: "Love is the absence of separation between subject and object". Taking this definition from my perspective, i could say that my body IS the subject and the other person IS the object. If i stop believing that Objects are part of an outside material reality, and instead i realize objects appear in my Consciousness always, i can derive there is no separation. Would this be Love? Ok But now i wonder, God is imagining this whole concept of Love to not feel Alone. Because in the first place God is imagining that object too. There is no Love you are "united with" other persons. Because other persons is something God is dreaming Up. So Love IS not even real. Only imagination. Isnt love a part of Gods imagination and NOT something fundamental to reality, Leo? @Leo Gura In other words, Love IS as fundamental to reality as Fox news. Neither of both concepts are the "substance" of reality. Both are imaginations of the dream. Only Gods mind is fundamental.

Dense? Why not call It unicorn instead of Love?

Unfortunately no, that would be ideal, indeed.

Contemplating quitting my actual job because its very stressing for me and if i quit It i would have lots of free time to Focus 100% in finding a Job in software development. I am getting interviews already from time to time But im having a hard time in passing the Next application process. I have savings for 1 year aprox to live well I know rationality says keeep the job until you find the other one, But i also think that if i quit this current job i Will be - crazy more motivated to find this one - more free time to polish my portfolio/adding another Big project maybe. What you think? Im not sure if i can do a lot to increase my employability just working on coding 2 hours a day at most (i cant get more free time than that, i have others things to do too). If i quit Job ill be Able to maybe put 5-6 hours a day on It.

5-br-dmt?

I agree with most part of your post. But def not the last paragraph. I wouldnt say that "Love to be had", rather Love is unveiled between the two when they forget themselves on the other one or actions they do together, But that is just because sex and emotional attachment releases a lot of juicy chemicals which triggers this Union. What i mean the LOVE IS of reality, IS not of the humans. The women chosed the men selfishly as the man did. You guys keep thinking love. IS something humans do. They Dont. They cant. Because its not humans property. Thank God on that.

What the fuck. Im so tired of this jerofliphics zen stories. I know you mean well and all of that, just like nahm, sometimes you guys are imposible to understand (i know its tough since spiritual shit is difficult to communicate) you particularly lately with that "apparent" Word are getting more misterious, and frustrating too

So in YouTube there are a bunch of video recordings of people inhaling bufo alvarius/5-meo in ceremonies and in A LOT of them the people just go crazy/start shouting a lot, etc. Is this because they are having a God Realization and his reaction is a consecuence of their ego not being prepared for that radical Truth, or IS It more a "release of energy"? I just find It curious because I've done 5-meo 1 time inhaled and several times plugged and i NEVER had reactions of shouting, going crazy with my hands, etc. I've had experiences of crying and being in awe with my hands on the mouth for several minutes, But Nothing like those videos.

I vaped one time, But It was so intense Lost contact with sight a d closed my eyes then It was over. I didnt made any sound But my Heartbeat was fast AF. Unless vaped Bufo its as strong and at the same time It lets you keep your eyes closed

@flowboy sent you a DM

There are no others, just One. This One. So Barack obamas Life, Leos Life, my Crush Life, etc can only be lived/experienced Here. so i am them literally ? ?

It doesnt But i know leo knows i wont get It through language anyway ?

I did 32.5mg each week for a whole year, taking some breaks here and there because sometimes It was imposible to intégrate and for the ego to digest the changes in so little time. I would take the book of nathaniel branden 6pilars of self esteem, and maybe do the completion sentences, other time i would go to watch porn to engage in a fetish its related with shame, and also contemplate, another i forced myself to socialize st the end of the peak and inquiry/feel fully ...etc Just basically anything you can think that can trigger your anxiety/shame, etc, go towards It on a low dose. Do and repeat for over a year. Integrate before Next dose. Take It like a BUDS Navy seals challenge. It Will feel painful as fuck in the beggining until you become to gain the fruits of the grueling, scary, and hard emotional work that this entails.

Did a shit ton of small doses of acid during the time of 1 year or so, with purpose of healing social anxiety/self esteem/etc. Also i had to start a new job which forced me to be confident/lead, develop masculine/self love energy.etc its really a culmination of things yeah. Now i have put psychs a little bit and Im just trying to heal It with pick Up and being more leadership at work.

Yeah me too its very rare nowdays But sometimes there are situations which triggers It and It really sucks...It makes you feel terrible and like you Will never trascend this feeling/thing/vibration/energy

At least 2 liters since I need Water at least 3 times a day to chug down the damn kratom Lol.

Thatnks for the advice. Ill try that although i have this feeling that since I clocked out at 10pm at work, i finish very mentally activated so i have a hard time going to sleep early @SLuxy

Just to give you an idea, before i even try Psychedelics i was almost suicidal, have very obssesive ocd thoughts, But i did them and they completely cured me of that and for the following half a year i was just flowing through Life! Not giving a shit about the past. I remember listening Rihannas LOVE ON THE BRAIN song on my second trip and Rolling in bed in an full body orgasm with myself, completely full, not needing anybody, being conscious i was making love with myself in that infinite let go where was no more ego. No Matter how much i trip, This hasnt came back. Something happened in my (imaginary) brain with those specific trips in that specific amount of time really killed my ego for some months, Im not saying only the trips were intensely Blissful and felt brutal love, Im saying like the ego-death/flow through Life State was still there for at least 4-5 months (of course i wasnt vibrating in that orgasm non dual love, But still, It was amazing). But then It came back for some reason and Psychedelics nowdays they do help yeah But they arent Able to do What they did to me that the first times. Its like Im not Able to let go like those first times and thats why i think full Love/non duality doesnt happen.

Who knows if enlightened state can be really "maintained" in western society/advanced high demanding survival.

Well yes and no But back in the days i wasnt Able to open Up to people As nowdays so she didnt know much about my obssesion with her (and when i sometimes mentioned she downplayed the importance of It). Honestly from the beggining i kind of assumed i was Alone with this "problem" and nobody could ever help me But me. (And thats What i did)