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But Leo, How come I've met typical normie guys that are average looking, don't have a high paying job (or company), yet they have a stunner of a girlfriend? When I see this examples in real life I find myself sometimes skeptic of all the PUA Theory and seduction. This guys doesn't have to have anything special. Could they be "naturals"? @Leo Gura

Is clear at this point That there is some kind of intense energy around my body, i Dont know if its because of beliefs, thoughts, energies, Chakras o karma or Who knows, But It just creates a Life which fundamentally revolves around self-neglect, shame, etc. Sometimes i sit myself in the middle of bed, and if i become very aware, i start to look at my hands/body and i become conscious my ego Absolutely hates this being. What a mothefucker. Ego can not fucking love uh. But..the ego is me, of course. I know i am creating It. The question is how do i stop creating It. I have no idea. I have spent some couple of years doing small doses of psychs for introspection, reading some books, and went to therapy some times. It was meh, particularly with the psychs i thought i was making progress But then you see to years forward the energy IS still there. So thats why i changed strategy and focused on ACTION. Currently Im focusing on making moves on my career which challenge me (like i accepted a manager role which helps me to view myself as leader role, which felt good, develops masculine side), and approaching Girls. Is obvious to say the latest doesnt go that well because i feel "that energy" around me most of the time. I am still working out in making It an habit also. No FAP/noporn helps But It doesnt solve the issue 100%. The possibility of going to a therapist IS there as an "add-on" (not as a Magic pill definetely) But i would like to "attack" the issue from all possible angles. I have Googled several keywords to try to research this stuff seriously. Nobody seems to know What really is self esteem (or the absence of It), love, hate, shame, etc. I find hard to believe as a society we still Dont have a manual to tackle this issues. Currently i am 26 years old and i feel this is a critical age. On one part i feel i am somehow moving towards healing, and other times i feel i am really going in circles, years pass, and i still feel the same way and behave the same.

@Terell Kirby ? @Nahm Yeah , definetely ? That clears things out for me ?

Because you Dont love yourself ?

Thx for the advices guys, relapsed today to findom after longest strike ever...was kinda of depressed because i didnt approached a Girl in over two weeks and horny and decided to relapse.. I Dont even like porn anymore anyways, got rinsed 90€ by a pseudo hottie in minutes, lol such ridiculous shit ?️?anyways tomorrow another day ?

How do i get the Love i am chasing through chasing success, women, respect, music, experiences...?¿? Not only its unsatisfaying, there It seems to be some challenges in survival Life which i dont end Up mastering/seems very difficult and this frustrates me therefore i Dont the get the Love. (Even if its a temporary one). Drugs are not an option because they are also temporary love and comes with high price not worth It. Yesterday i was meditating and i reached such a peaceful state...that would be allright to "retain It" in daily Life. What i Dont like about meditation is that the comparison with the "sober" non meditating sober Life is terrible so It frustrates you that the ego has you by the balls and creating suffering each second (It has me constantly chasing love i Dont even know ill ever get!!!!---> because its fucked Up thoughts creates neurosis , blockages, loosp, and self defeating beliefs ---> so i Dont even get the temporary love that sex or money can provide.... I HATE THE EGO) And by the way: Does the ego does even ever "have" the love? Because if its not a thing, But rather a truth or state, love can not be attributed then to self esteem! I Dont know, everything seems so pessimistic for me.

Yeah I know brain is imaginary i guess

I was meditating and suddenly become aware my thoughts were producing me discomfort, What i did was to Focus on Breath and let them go (one at a time) each time i was breathing out Suddenly I found myself in a strange position with my face against the table, just umovilized and focusing on Breath, letting go constantly of thoughts through Breath. Oh shit that was euphoric , i got high on the NOW. Afterwards It arised the insight that if i ever would do this each time thoughts arise, i would end Up with no self, because the self depends on attachment to thoughts. The Now is really then Now...woah. However (and this is One of the resons i quit meditation some years ago) i fast fall back into the ego state. Meditation gives you tremendous frustration, because It shows you What is possible yet due to brain genetics ego always comes back.

Yes, i can do it some times. Other times the emotions that prevents It is nihilism, cinic/black humor about the situation/subtle angryness

@something_else interesting tip...thanks for sharing

@Nahm its difficult because theres still a self in the Now because thoughts keep arising if Im not watchful Interesting, and why emotions responds? And to What? To thoughts?

@Nahm yeah. Any advice in how to "respond" to that emotions?

@The Lucid Dreamer oh thats such a great analogy! @Nahm ? nice But active noise cancellation doesnt work well for high pitch sounds/frecuencies

Have you ever tried the active noise cancellation features on the airpods pro or similar high-end buds? When you are in the middle of high traffic downtown and you turn in on and suddenly everything goes ... Puuuf ?️ I am having from time to time the same sensation when the feeling of SELF dissappears. I am very sensitive to sounds and i usually feel very threatening on my nervous system the high volume energy of walking downtown, yet when this "states" have happened, everything seems SO SILENT. Yet i am hearing the "same". Everything stops moving and becomes One Flow. Its so funny. And scary.

@Gregory1 Psychedelics have been useful for breakthroughs But Im kind of tired of them. They feel like a distraction from real work

Yes, thats exactly the energies i am vibrating recently... Also i am angry with the ego because of the loop of "anxiety then evasion then frustration" (because of havent done anything because of anxiety/overwhelmed). Both things are created by the ego. Ego is stupid AF. However i keep meditating and repeating myself to not fall into thought stories. I do not know Who Will win at the end of this Battle, But i am fighting It.

I was watching 5 minute prank video of a couple of youtubers of a city near me. The prank was that this Guy was carrying some ROSES and the joke is that he begins saying "Take It, honey, they are for you" while there are some Girls in front of him, however then an actress ( a friend of the pranksters) is always behind the pranked girls. (So the punchline is finallt the Guy was just talking to the actress ) Anyway, What it surprised me from this video IS the insane amount of instant-hook-attraction GOOD REACTIONS that the pranker got with just that opening. When you look at the Guy (the pranker) he doesnt say Nothing Fancy (as i said, he only says that 3-4 words each time he approaches a set). HOWEVER, he says It with such an amount of ridiculous confidence, boldness, 100% IN, non attachment. Fuuuck yeah this is how i want to feel when i approach. How the fuck you get this good at social games/pick Up? A damn lot of work? Of there is some additional shit you gotta to get to this level? Girls are just instant hooked when they feel the confidence of this Guy. When i approach its like my body/energy/soul is contracted/Broken/divided between 2. Its NOT ONE. I want to be One confidence grounded mothefucker in my own awesomeness like this pranker ?

I remember some Psychedelics trips were Nothing "crazy" happened in terms of thoughts or realizations or insights, however the high was so intense It eliminated my ego and all was an ever encompassing of visuals, sounds, and movement. After todays meditation i have contempled and come to the conclusion that Unity feels Good, with no apparent reason. And duality (Awareness + Thought) feels not-blissful. Not-that-good. Why this is the case?

@InfinityBeats Yeah, I understand. My LP is very ambiguous yet and I Dont see It until some long time of previous self development and Discovery. My current doesnt stress me much because its an assistant role But It probably Will change and i would get moved and promoted to manager of a whole Office, which definetely would elevate stress. Since I've been so little in this job, Honestly is VERY hard for me Tell if the stress Comes from my own making (anxiety disorder), the job, or the fact that the challenge (job) overpowers so much my skill, or even the fact that you have to deal with a lot of people and adapt a leadership role and Im not used to It. What makes me more motivated to change IS the fact that the job Will be Boring as fuck once i get used to it and especially that the company seems a shitty one.

What would you choose ? I am at a critical age ( 26 years old ) and wondering If I should do a drastic career change. I have some experience in coding and I know that with the help of polishing a bit more my portfolio and doing maybe a coding Bootcamp I could land a job in < 1 year in my current city. Right now I am working in a very large enterprise , which is half public/half private. Imo the majority of wage-slavery positions here are fundamentally: - Little to zero mentally demanding and intermediate physically demanding or ... you can go to management positions (Like the one Ive been the past month) and you can get: - Little Intermediate mentally demanding and physically comfortable, basic skill , the ability of management people and "pushing" people to work to make sure shipments get delivered up to date (Since my company is half public, lots of people here can't be fired easy, so this makes that the boss doesn't have much power most of the time, so Stage Green management here WONT WORK, you must work On Red/Orange attitude if don't want to be treated as a bitch here). Summary of my current company: Benefits: - Stable position on company, ( kinda unstable in management ( but there's been a lot of people too that have been on management, and I have also the possibility of taking a exam and becoming a manager of an office permanently). ) - 6 additional days of vacations each year - If you bite the bullet and have a Red/Orange personality, the rest of the job is pretty Ok and I don't think is that stressful, you can become comfortable, clock out (7 hours and half) and you are done. - It serves pretty good the purpose of paying the bills while I am in this city working on my LP Cons: - Meh Salary, with little possibility of going up even if you work there for years - The more time you spend in this company, the more "enslaved" you become to it, since you don't develop another skill than that one of the company) ). - My personality tells me that I could fit more on a more "scalable" type of role. Summary of what I think programming/software development would be: Benefits: - Salary according to your skill, the more you become better the best you will get paid. - You are not "enslaved" by the company. If one day you think the company is shit you have learned and polished a skill that you can later sell to another better paying (or better treating) company. - There are some stage green software dev companies. Cons: - Almost surely will be more mentally demanding (but Im not sure if neccesiraly that means more stressing, which is what i don't ultimately like) - To get to a management role I would to work a lot of years or create my own company. - Ultimately I want to create my own business and I don't think it won't be related with programming so ultimately I don't plan to program for my entire life as a living. Please tell me what you think. It would be nice if people who work on software dev comment and share if they would have changed career from a boring-little mentally demanding job to a programming one.

I have had anxiety although not to the point of anxiety attack (or maybe yes and i Dont call It like that). What has helped me the most have been having the good or bad luck to push myself into situations that elevated that anxiety. For example in my last job i was like 2 months straight going to work feeling anxious. The last month was even crazier because i had even more responsability. When i started this job, the same day on the morning i went previously out to do some pick Up, which also makes me anxious, with a Guy i didnt even knew. It wasnt a Conscious choice, i just had learned to be demolished and accept again and again the anxiety, to the point where It gets to a point you Dont feel It anymore. It was all in your mind. I feel now nowdays. I just had Broken again and again and insensitized my nervous system. Now days i may experience "anxiety" Rising Up But since I no longer fight It, i Dont Care, It ends Up dissapearing. A dumb joke of the mind shouting "danger" which i can no longer even hear. I have surrendered.

@cypres What happens in red/Orange society, which is basically 96% of the world countries, is that if you are soft and gentle you get treated as a bitch. After much Enlightment work, Psychedelics and so on, when i entered my job career on a stage low orange company, i had to force myself to forget everything about work rights, empathy, and so on, to be able to get the Job properly done, or face the consecuences when i didnt want to behave like a thirsty animal for food. And this happens in most companies, so i Dont know where you live But that ego strategy Will work like shit round here ?

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This has been refuted Leo. Stop calling "scientific fact" which is urban myth and lack of true analysis of society, brains, and history. For example its also a myth that Testosterone increases violence. This has also been refuted. Testosterone mainly increases social connection (and of course sexual libido). But it doesn't increase violence. Just because men have been stronger physically and have been the ones going to war doesn't make men more violent. Unless you limit violence to physical violence. Then Yes, men are way more violent than women.

@InfinityBeats Thanks , you really have motivated me.