Javfly33

I like that phrase. ☄️?? I suspect It might have a bit of Truth to It

Hahaha yes, It was a typo ?

What typo you mean ? ?

Nice ? This is good timing since recently I've started to become interesting on writing my ideas/insights a little bit each day (even though its been just a journal tho'). Going to do some of that exercise now : )

Sorry guys, i appreaciate your answers and Im open minded to discussion But guys, @Tristan12 @ted73104 How isn't all of this new age parroting of the classical "accept yourself", "love your shadows", and of course the typical "you are guilty". Read/listen to high Consciousness individuals such as Shunyamurti, Sadghuru, Tolle, or even Nahm here. They Will never Tell you "you are the Monster" or "you hate yourself". They actually always teach about separating Who you really are from the shadows/identity of the Monster. (The ego, in other words). One of Sadghurus famous explanations of Enlightment is "when you can separate from your intellect, the possibilities are endless". See, I've done a shit ton of work Regarding "healing", "accepting my shadow", and crying like a bitch, in Psychedelics and What not. And you know What I think about It?, That is all the same Game, It never ends. The ego loves to feel special/hurt etc and It Will re-live this BS of shadow/healing/hate etc for ever. All Im saying is, maybe things doesnt work the way It works. You might not agree with me, But actually contemplate if Sadghuru would ever Tell a narrative of victimhood in regards to the Monster (like the one you guys are making, believe It or not), or at the other hand he would preach that What i am is always free and powerful Now. You Dont even have to go Sadghuru, just read Nahm's posts around here, they never have this new age victimhood taste narrative, But one of empowerement. And also, to me What you guys are saying is mumbo Jumbo. I Dont see any practical advices. Hope you take this message with a grain of salt, It goes with love and respect.i do appreaciate your help anyways.

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Their cities might be 'boring' and lack history, but unlike a lot of big cities in europe (and asia even more) that a lot of people live crammed in mouse-trap-like buildings sorrounded by constant cars/traffic, stores, dogs (LoL) (basically all kinds of stress factors, also POLLUTION) ) , when I click in google street view in usa in basically literally any damn street of any city, there´s this abismal space between houses and trees everywhere. This kind of housing, which seems like its normal in USA, it´s considered very, very high end/luxury to afford in European big cities (I imagine asian cities too). Things that usa cities have that are a privilege in most part of the world: 1. Space 2. Clean air 3. Lack of noise stress/ pollution Any other things that usa cities-arquitecture rocks over the rest of the world ? Never been there but seems like an amazing country. Also it seems its always sunny LOL

You can do both, buddy. Set aside 2 hours a day just going out in the street and practicing getting to a social mood.

Since I Dont drink coffee Im experiencing extreme non-interest for porn and sex, especially porn. Today i just forced myself to FAP because i felt i needed. With most Boring and vanilla video i could find. At the end i actually enjoyed It. HOWEVER, its been +2 hours since I did and i feel dead tired, its like my whole body aches a little, ESPECIALLY I have this feeling of constantly wanting to stretch my legs, i fucking always get this uncomfortable feeling after I fap (and It doesnt go away until 3 hours after fapping). Could someone Tell me if this might be an indicator of a nutrient deficiency or something like that?

I did . It´s even funny remembering some of the situations of yesterday, at some point of the findom drain, after paying the domina some findom game which was -130€, she said something to me like Domina: "If you got so much horny paying me this, imagine how you are going to get if I let you pay my monthly rent" Me.: "How much it is"? Domina: 150€ Me: "I can´t do it its too much already". Domina: "(some more persuasion) .... Cmon, do it now!" And me like a fucking pussy I send them to her ??

I could become an Alpha and humiliate fags (its pretty common in twitter) but morality doesn´t let me... fuck that shit

@Knowledge Hoarder I relapsed yesterday hard, I sent +700€ in just 6-7 hours of non stop findom ??. This was my far the most expensive findom binge ? Im telling ya, this shit is not known but it can get ad fiendish as fucking CRACK. God i Hope this really serves me A as wake Up call. Its part of the money of the herency mynfather left me...?‍♂️

Free públic restrooms? WoW

How do you deal with this irrational Fear? When i used to live "by the day" i didnt Care much except making at the end of each month. But last year I received some money from an herency, and now im always reluctant to spend money. Its almost like It hurts physically LoL. For example I recently got a remote job and this last month ive been living with my mom, the whole month I spent like 5% of What i usually spent on my own. Oh my God the feeling of seeing those savings not going down, But Up. I decided to go back to a Big city to work on my Life purpose and self actualization, But this costs me a HELL lot of money. This year actually since I have to Pay a debt, if i live by my own i Will be losing money each month, about 400 each month. But since Im a Young guy i think its a good investment, to proritize being a Big city with high intensity/social Life/opportunities in contrast to saving money BUT being in a place way more limited Do you think Im making the right choice?

you must be actually 'dumb' in order to work

Im not going out to pick Up girls right now. I have way way too much shame/hate energy and approach anxiety to be doing Direct Game. I've done It in the past and meh, I become tired of forcing myself. last time i did nightgame i went home crying of how shitty i was feeling. Lmao. When did Life got so ridiculous. I am going out as i said to"heal" myself. It heals my social anxiety. Proper Game and Girls its a step that is there but i Will get there properly when the energy is good. now my approaches consist on looking for "No's". Sometimes I would get a full interaction But most of them are just 20-30 second LoL. And Im Happy with that. But its helpful to read your advice once i get into actual pick up

@Roy Yes because It can strongly act as a placebo or nocebo. No joke, when i was Deep into nofap, some days i would literally experience 0 social anxiety in social situations. Then when i learned It was Bro science and i stop believing in It, It doesnt anymore work ?

I think Im done with the theory LoL Yes, its literally my first priority right now in my Life. (Well, not *literally getting Girls, But basically healing my shame/hate energy (aka, The Monster, as i like to call It). (But satisfaying and burning my sex and intimacy desires are also a crucial part of the process of course). I am going out 6 out of 7 days a week since 1st of January of this year, doing st least 3 approaches each day. Ideally i Will jump It to 5 a day soon. I am at 46 right now i am already seeing tremendous benefits in my "energetic aura" and third chakra. But the work is nowhere near done. I am at 0.5%> The idea is doing my first 1000 approaches this year.( I've done probably 50 approaches over the years But not really consistent and with less inner Game/introspection/idea of wtf i was doing ) What do u think?

LOL. Life its so awfully designed Lmao. So when you desperarely want them you wont get them not even a bit, and when you Dont Care anymore about them And they have Lost the appeal in you, then they Will want to be with you? Jesus...the Guy Who designed this joke...

@aurum Ok But I Ask because I see men that have Hot girlfriends and i am (almost) sure that 90% of them didnt get them following PUA theory. They get them just being them (although being "them" in that sense might mean 'having game' as Leo says) I Dont Care about optimizing the highest possible number of lays LoL (Who wants that? XD). I Care about becoming "natural" to the point i can attract a Hot girl withouth scheming constantly in my mind What should I do or What should I say

Ok I know the "real deal" to grow as a man is being out there approaching women But i thought It wouldn't hurt to try to have some dates in an "easy way". When you get the match, you open the Girl and What do you say? Explain like i am five... How escalation in text Game looks like until successfully accomplishing the goal of the Girl meeting you in real Life?

Thanks, this kind of posts are like gold. Thanks for sharing your experience ???

?? By the way, really "You likely Will even get las less"?

Currently my contract is "Junior Java Developer" But i do a very strange thing not related with Java ? Basically editing .Json files with some hand-made properties and objects created by the company specifically for this project. There is a backend app built in Java to extract data from an outdated flash app with thousands of Pages, so depending What you put in the .json file the front end Will build a "copy" of the original in flash (each .json file corresponds to a single flash web Page) but as a proper html+CSS front end deployment (powered by angular). Pretty fucking freaky But they say its saves more time than actually doing +3000 Pages manually from Scratch -- Regarding the English, yeah i Dont close my Carrer perspective on that, But right now I have some prioritites outside work so i Dont mind now getting paid little in exchange of a low stress and confortable job

Thats true. Once covid passes the city Will be much more interesting. Your advice is good. Ill probably do 2-3 months here and if i see Im not doing much ill probably go back to my town and save for 2-3 months