Javfly33

There's so much pain in my soul that the moment I Focus some awareness on It, the body breaks in tears when feeling that much level of "perceived hate" towards hymself (the person/ego), But its meaningless to escape or try to distract oneself anymore. I need to get even more closer. Closer to the nucleus, the more time i can handle that place, the more I can feel the great discrepancy (which is, Pain) between my soul, and the hate, the more ill be Closer to the light. If my soul is really good, if i am really Good, then It must come a time when i say this is enough. There must come a time where i stop believing i am fundamentally a bad human being.

Seems you are focused AF, love it

Yeap...crazy, yet at the same time "totally coherent". Almost as crazy as now imagining there is this Guy called inliytened1 in another country telling me What is Infinity. Its only me.

Are u a profesional writer? Fuck that Life seems so cool.

Yeah of course the stopping of the pedestilazion is still in progress Mmm a little toxic the last phrase, At their knees sure, but I wouldn't call them weak for being at my knees man , just intelligent

How to Love yourself? Not conceptually like 'Yeahh now I really love myself. Like, I value myself, blabla". Fuck that BS ?! I mean actually FEELING yourself in this love/acceptance/goodness vibration wherever you are going, especially when you are in social situations. I am lately putting more work into socialize more+feeling and I just can't help to feel this hate, in form of thoughts/projection/gloomy belief when I look at myself of literally hate. Sometimes at night, when I open myself to feeling, much of the times I start crying because I feel this awful-feeling thoughts ( That I was not conscious through the day) Something tells me, If I don't start creating/Vibrating in Love just because (because to be honest, it's the same way I do the hate: " just because"...Since I don't really have a reason to hate myself so much you know) then nothing will really really change.

Its true, my father was around 46 I think, went to canary islands and this young hot Girl (she probably was around 20, not more) just wanted to go with him to his hotel. You have take into consideration Girls find usually attractive experience, older guys, etc

@itachi uchiha Im definetely doing daily work and Im feeling much better. Like my mind is changing. I Guess now i have to have patience

What kinda snacks does your brother have? Because most snacks have sugar or carbs and I cant be washing my teeth each 2-3 hours LoL

Most of my Life I have lived in a small town where the Air quality is at "Good" levels, But since 7-8 months ago i moved to a Big city, here most of the days the Air quality is "moderate" , with some days like Mondays/Fridays goes straightly to "not good" (there are still two more levels of "bad Air quality" though on the chart though). According to this web, the last 30 days on my location, the amount of 2.5PM particles have been superior to the "recommended" level of OMS each day. Not even one day was below the limit. Furthermore, the monthly amount levels of 2.5PM particles in my location is superior to the ANNUAL recommended amount of OMS!! This really makes me mad But the reality is that my Life purpose and self development would be greatly affected and slowled if i move again to my town (or other small city). Please Tell me its not so bad...

@Thought Art And What route did you go if may i Ask ?

Im.not sure they are Happy. They are ok. Like in a mild dose of anestesia. Living a Life with those habits that Leo has said, its imposible to have a Life of Joy and profoundness.

Trust me, getting good at music or art wont heal this Monster i have inside me ? But i know What u mean. Like some kind of motivation and shit. Its definetely important and i got it, its helping me to move my ass and each day i try to become more and more excited with it

I agree But I Dont even need such Big love. I am Happy with at least a nice vibratory áurea of Love around me ? The Love u Talk about its quite difficult to achieve (even though its the real nature of Reality)

what is duh? Please reply with some kind of education or don't reply please.

extremely high value and good looking men are in Tinder ? ?

To not feel so alone. So there is an ocean, imaginary, or not ?

Can you explain more on that? I have read it quite a few times and wonder what you really mean with it ?

This is the type of case where psychedelics could be a game-changer. The problem is first the person must have a little bit of "wanting" to change first. At least 1 little spark. Tricky.

I mean being honest, LSD have impacted way way way more intensely my productivity and Focus on my Life, than ever 5-meo did. With 5-Meo-Dmt, yeah of course when you are tripping you are completely out of the material Game, But when you come back you know clearly that the "gap" its so big, that you cant do much But to go back into the illusion to play. With milder Psychedelics, ironically i think they can hurt more Focus and productivity because the "gap" is less and they might make you think you can "embody" the trips into everyday reality, which in part you can, and thats why most people that start to take Psychedelics at stage Orange find very "easy" to move to stage Green. What is almost guaranteed is that no, 5-meo-dmt wont help you to build a start up, at least not directly. But honestly if i would have to chose one Psychedelic to do to have the least impact on my clarity and Focus It would be 5-meo! Once its done, its like "Nothing ever happened". Well at least this is my experience.

@Roy You definetely put It planly, But i would say a little too harshly Bro ?

Nearly always Psychedelics affect productivity. I wouldnt recommend It.

I was just reading the story of a guy who had a trauma at 4 years old and got diagnosed of PTSD , he lived 4 decades with that illness until he finally healed it. (apparently it was after an MDMA assisted psychotherapy) This got me thinking: The brain is imaginary, but is still ruled by certain neurochemistry. Why God was so cruel to make the guy live 4 Decades with the same neurochemistry?? Leo probably would say "This is God´s favour to you so you don't go crazy. You need congruence for your sanity". But Leo, I don't need 40 fucking years for congruence. 4-5 years would do it. Hell maybe I can do 10. But at the 10 year of living like shit, God could totally start to "change" the brain if it wants. (slowly imagining becoming better) Which brings me to the next conclusion, which it is, that God / Reality is imagining limits on itself, sometimes ridiculous amounts of limits, like you know, imagining the same type of brain during 4 decades of your life (maintaining that trauma/PTSD) until one day you take MDMA and (apparently) finally heals it. Quite twisted, to be honest!

?thats very well put indeed ?

@Nahm I Guess you are right But seems to me you are always pushing an agenda of "everything is thought" and ime is not true. @Thought Art not sure What u mean with that?