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Nah. A lot of times i just get overwhelmed with the work i have to do (from career to dating etc) and i just get kinda depressed (not depressed in the serious way But cinicism) because i know its all for the ego, at the end the Love, pleasure, Bliss its of Consciousness, and the ego just wants to bs us humans with bullshit.

Am I the only one I am truly unable to cook just about anything that is animal-product when I'm on the comedown of a Trip ? LOL It just seems disgusting, I see the pain, the lower energy, and suffering in the pan. In the oil. In the dangerous heat. Fruit seems like "I am glad and happy for you to eat me" Haha. Really, like... Why only Fruit seems "Glorious and Valid" after a trip ? That tells you what foods are high in the energy/consciousness/spiral and which of ones doesn't. Unfortunately not everyone of us lives like Sadghuru Lol so meat has its place for certain people. (Myself included since Im exploring and integrating masculine energy and stage orange).

@Someone here I don´t think is bad. But I had some months ago a really lucid vision one day of my mother crying my death because I had killed myself. I know it's biased because its my mother but I felt that pain so deep that from that moment I swear I would never kill myself just to not make that moment happen. If I ever want to suicide, I will wait for my mother to die first.

No because too much suffering could lead you to suicide and that would cause even more suffering to other people. Although of course you could always say "accept that other people are going to suffer". But... yeah, I don´t know about your theory. I think it´s better to work your ass off to not suffer.

The thing is that 99% of humans , (therefore 99% of girls) are nowhere near any type of high consciousness. I don´t live in Africa, I live in Europe and +99% of humans are just animals. I include myself. I actually forgot everything about non duality, psych trips and that BS last year and I plan to the next year in order to get laid ? Its that sad how we humans are. ¿Consciousnes drive? No...just no. Sex is pure game baby. As Young Thug says: "Don´t hate me, hate the game babyyyyyy".

You can't use like 2-3 times a week to "relax" and let it go the rest of the days right?

I´m not sure if I understand you correctly here. Imo, most hired-sex is for the above reasons I said. Primal sex craving can easily "be cured" with masturbation. I´m a virgin and unless I do nofap, I could go on for 50 years more without sex. Because if I fap regularly, I feel fine. My brain doesn't seem to know that the sex it's getting (masturbation) is fake . It's the craving to be desired by opposite sex, intimacy and ego validation that basically drives the guy like a madman. Particularly when he is very deprived of love (yes, love through sex validation is fake and non-spiritual but... it just runs deep. It can't be deconsctrued easily. You are better suited if you just surrender to it and get it once and for all). That's why I find hard to believe that there are people that just have " a whole lotta fun " with escorts. Its just... physical pleasure without the psychological high in males is not much of a big deal. Although there is definitely an audience like that, I still think the majority of users is not that they don't want the burden of a girlfriend, is that they can't have a girlfriend to have sex with. This reminds me of the multiple conversations Ive had with Financial Online Dominatrix (not professionals, but these teens that they just want their Amazon cart bought or latest shoes paid) I've talked to when I have asked about how they feel about their clients to, they think Financial Submissives are this high end guys that just have so money to spend and have lots of stress and do bdsm to let go and step out of their leadership role in real life. ...When the reality is that they do that because they have the self-esteem of point of suicide, absolutely no sex, and most of them are in no way rich. It's such a naive and hunky-dory narrative that it's even cute.

You can buy sex. But You can't buy the "psychological aspect" that guys are pursuing when pursuing sex. The validation high. That self-esteem-profound self-love wound that runs deeper than the ocean. The mindfuck is that girls think men are crazy for sex, but it's just a means to an end, what they really crave is the validation and the "yes, I am loved and sexually desired by a girl I consider high value!". That is more worth than 50 hired-escort sex experiences! @Preety_India

In my short experiencing approaching when I was 18-19, You shouldn't have problems with 1-2 years above than you. If they are +4 years above than you then it gets more challenging definitely

Why you assume your personality is that? Being a "nice guy" is not a personality, its a disease/bad learned behavioral pattern. And it can be healed. Also, have you ever tried things like phenibut, etc? They can't be used as a coping mechanism but they can help revealing to yourself that you don't have a "shitty personaltiy" but rather some parts of your mind doesn't function correctly. Wish you luck and as always my dms are open if sometime you want to chat

@EntheogenTruthSeeker What about Kratom? It works wonders for fatigue. I mean it will hook you physically like coffee does, but you know, ponder the goods and bads. Maybe once your adrenals are healed, you can taper off the kratom and go back to normal and this way you maintained the job. Although im not sure if Kratom uses adrenal energy too, if it does then discard this idea.

I am not sure if its possible to reach Enlightment But i Will keep fighting for It until the end. Freedom its always worth It no Matter the price ??

Now you seriously gotta be kidding me. That's my dream job. (well not that I would work there for ever or I would change my career for it, but I would have liked to work in such a place for some time). @EntheogenTruthSeeker What is adrenal burnout by the way? Are you taking too much coffee? Do you use kratom?

Jesus what a bunch of dumb things you just said.

Just realized that everything in mind phenomena... is a thought, never truth. Because there are some Thoughts that seem "more than thoughts". Yeah, you know which one Im taking about. Those ones that appear to be a separate self, But are, actually, thoughts, only. "Woah, that was great, But now the meditation is over i Guess" its still not a separate self, but a thought. "Today i had a very good meditation session" its still not a separate self, But a thought. "Thats amazing, I achieved such high level of Consciousness" its still not a separate self, But a thought. Its all thoughts. By the way, "Its all thoughts" IS also just a thought, not a separate self ??

I still don't understand what reality is. After hundreds of Leo's videos, hundreds of hours meditation+yoga, +10 psychedelic trips, Reality seems ALIEN for me. Today I was walking back home and I was listening to music. A space "opened up". It felt like the music was being played in this "space". Sure you can call it awareness. But that doesn't explain SHIT. Afterwards I started looking at the Cars parked on the right. The scene was humoristic, like a sadistic humor. Because this cars suddenly didn't look like mere objects. It's like they were Reality, itself. Like I was looking at the most important thing in the world. And they were just..."cars". Anyway I didn't understand what that experienced meant anyway. Just like it was alien as fuck. Then to conclude my weird fucking day, i did my 30min meditation session and in the middle of it I start to explode in this wave of energy with hands and arms like I just gone crazy. What did I do it? No fucking idea. And the last 5 minutes I just started doing the same twisted scene that I did on my last LSD trip, which was started to move and touch my hands trying to "wake myself up". "Hey, this is it, wake up, you are here". "Dude, here, here, here". Like I had been dreaming a fantasy, a dream, with my own mind all my life with thoughts, the universe, I, material reality, everything were concepts and thoughts, all of that wasn't real, and suddenly I wake up that it was just a dream. But who knows, all I know is that now I gotta go fix me some dinner and tomorrow gotta go working. Never going to get it.

It depends entirely on you how much approaches will it take you to stop feeling embarrasament and "cringy". As Leo said, it´s all in your head.

How many people realistically are in stage coral? 300, 400 ? ?

@Breakingthewall In the void there´s no understanding. I´ve been there. 10mg pure 5-meo-dmt through crack pipe. Everything dissappeared. Yet there was no understanding. If the void/God is so good, how it´s so dumb it doesn´t even understand how/why it created the whole universe?

Is that ironic ? ?

@Nahm Right. Thoughts. Yesterday i did a couple of approaches more and after the last one i felt horrible in my body. Then I realized "I have an option. Either I Believe this thoughts (which appear as true) or i Dont (as a little hope that they might not be true). Crazy how TWISTED the mind is. It conceals falsehood as truthful. "That situation means that you are....X". No. That situation is just Truth. The mind is projecting thoughts onto truth and then saying those are truth ??

@Fearless_Bum Ok, got It! Maybe i can explain myself better knowing now better your experience. When you drink coffee and eat normally, you have x energy levels, right? Lets say you do fasting, which definetely (in my experience) can increase energy and clarity levels. Wouldnt you say that the fact that you had energy + clarity was because of the fasting and not because of the coffee? And to be honest, like, yeah, if coffee doesnt hurt your performance (maybe It doesnt, we all are wired different) by all means, keep drinking It. Im just saying, that the fact that you had energy+clarity was obviously because of the fasting, not the coffee.

@Fearless_Bum Ok, so maybe i didnt understood you correctly. Were you drinking coffee when you did the fasting? (I Dont mean that day, i mean the previous ones)

@Fearless_Bum dude, you basically a variable (fasting) and did anything else. Actually do another experiment of fasting WITHOUTH coffee. I mean its fucking obvious lol See i can be taking coffee for years and having bad sleep (i mean that wasnt my issue particularly But anyway just for the sake of the argument) and one day go jogging for 1 hour and then have amazing sleep. Does that mean that coffee wasnt an issue? No, It just means that exercise helps a lot with sleep. Thank God not all scientistics have the amazing lógic you have brother ?? (not want to offend But cmon, cant you see It doesnt make sense to derive that coffee wasnt the issue ?). Here's another example: "For years i thought doing aderall at 7PM was the issue of not sleeping well, until one day i Popped 5 Xanax, 2 cups of Codeine and a bunch of weed and i slept just fine. From that experiment i derived that aderall wasnt the issue. Hugely changed my perspective.".

@SQAAD @museumoftrees Update guys: Today I felt much much better ? Already reaping the benefits of being more calm and less edgy at work and being more productive. @Fearless_Bum Fasting definetely gives energy. But I don´t know how your logic makes sense. It´s like saying, "I thought sleeping 4 hours a day was the issue of being tired, until one day I did some meth and had amazing energy/clarity. Hugely changed my perspetive.".