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Your theory is wrong. I have some big nice Guy syndrome remaining , yet make no mistake, I could Talk about myself for fucking hours. When i get confident/feel "Safe" with a girl, I get really obnoxious (and i enjoy It LoL) talking about myself. Narcissist maybe, But Im not sure about self love(whatever that means anyway) and Big No to "treating Girls like dirt" And also, Im terrible with Girls (although I am getting better) Thinking about It its probably in my case a Big problem with anxiety/confidence/(aka, the Monster). Because in the very few moments in my I've had anxiety free with Girls I feel i could be really good. And yes I agree in those moments i always feel super narcissistic-god like-cocky, etc

@Tyler Durden I mean somewhere It must start. But maybe Im not the first. Probably not. Although in 5-meo-dmt the concept of linear time was revelaled to not be Absolute.

Can anyone confirm that when physical death occurs (imaginary physical death of the imaginary physical body) which one of the following happens: A) An infinite eternal black void of Nothingness Unity for ever (never again its imagined a material illusion with duality ?) B) A can happen (or not) But just for some time. Then another "Life" its imagined and i get to play the illusion again. (All the circunstances change, of course). IMO, option A) would be more closer to What mainstream culture thinks What Death is. Yes, there is still awareness But there wouldnt be any illusion anymore (which was the whole point of Life ?). So It would be basically like being dead :facepalm: Option B) would be better... But just shoot me with the Truth.

Then all the previous years of watching videos , reading posts/books and thinking was useless? ?

@Nahm should I discard all of my concepts of What reality/Truth/death is?

I 100% agree. But I think that you might be "above that" now because you have had some succcess with women and have "burned" the material Desire/karma so you see Now the "falsehood" of It. I also agree that IS a low conscious way of rating women. But I also think that sexual attraction is low Consciousness overall. Also notice that rating by personality traits its also biased and selfish. What about the hot Girls with great tits and ass that are not that smart or interesting? ? Pity them... because some brains cant change in the same Way an average maybe cant ever be (physically) a 9. I didnt date her. ( I just knew her- shard flat with her for some time). Yes, you might be right that i am elevating the rating from maybe a 7-8 physical to a 9 or 10 since she also showed high Consciousness rare personality Affinity and traits. But i also Will you this: if she wasnt physically hot in the first place I would find hard to get attached/interested in her. But Im a man which is still struggling to attract Girls and overall i am conscious that i have karmic debt of material attachment and overall Focus as you say, in "meat value". And i must say, It feels i cant help It. Now It is What It is. I suspect that in the future I Will start to think more like you, But right now i am where i am...

I always do that unconsciously. I must be a little narcissist. Its good to know that Girls like that LoL @Someone here You sure there is no blockage around Girls of any kind? Do you make other people laugh in the past?

After spending 3 hours each day for +6weeks in downtown/stores/places with high density of people, this last days Ive started to feel like I am "more close" to people, its difficult to explain. But lets say that usually when i used to go out, i would be in the street yes, But there would be this "imaginary boundary" separating (conceptually) other people and me. I have started to feel that i can approach anybody and Talk to anybody out of nowhere withouth no apparent reason, since there seems to be this "safeness" and "closeness" energy in the environment, wether before there would be like this "danger" and "restricted" energy between people and me. Sometimes i look into peoples eyes and its like i am already talking with them. Like in a sense we already known each other (getting into non dual profound territory here). But this has make me think that What if all kind of social neurosis and deficiencies its just the representation of how far IS your ego from the Truth of reality ? How much "boundary" do you feel between 'other' and you? The more boundary more falsehood and all kind of problems and lower-type of energies might arise. The less boundary the Closer you are to truth the higher type of energies you can experience and create to you and the ones around you. To be continued ?☄️? ?

Kanye has always been fucking crazy. It just happens that he does great music

@Tristan12 I get What you mean, and there are some points that I agree (or I would used to agree) with in this your last post. But consider: "What if the endless narrative of 'i need to solve the underlying root issue' is actually a mechanism of the mind to not accept that the "Next step" might actually become confortable with stepping into tension, and overall, vibrating in more masculine type of energies"? (This IS just an example Regarding social anxiety) For example, a guy that has never approached a Hot girl and wants to learn pick Up might think "oh man, I would really want be totally healed as a man or be like that Guy that has approached 3000 Girls, so I can approach her Absolutely calm and Safe like i would Talk to my grandma". Yet What the newbie might be missing is that this phase of Life might require to let go of wanting the "safe-nice-calm-femenine" energy to be the whole of your reality, and actually become confortable (literally re-contextualize It in your karmic body as "good") with tension and resistance. What i am suspecting lately is that social anxiety is a lack of integration (and love) of masculine energies, and over exageration of femenine energy in your karmic body. A lot of growth is Lost because there is this belief that masculine energies are bad .

Watch Sadghuru please. Guys we have to stop this victimhood mentality towards the Monster (or inner Child, which is an eufemism of the Monster to protect itself ?). Sadghuru says It pretty clear imo: "What has happened is that your intelligence has turned against you" "If you had the controls of this machine, wouldnt you create the best possible bliss for yourself?" Imagine Sadghuru crying like a bitch hoping to finally "heal his inner Child" muahahhaha its just ridiculous guys. We are NOT the inner Child. We are not whatever fucked Up bullshit mechanism has taken the controls through the years. Just take the controls and generate / create What you want. YES, its obviously better said than done, But no, lets stop feeding this narrative of "i have to take Care of "my" inner Child"). Sadghuru would laugh of having to heal any inner Child. He just get high AF when he wants because he has the controls. Hes not the Monsters bitch, as many of us are.

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No, you clearly are infering things that you Dont know. I've been diagnosed by my therapist as having social anxiety, so one of the "measures" I use to see if I am doing actual progress or not, is seeing how do I feel in certain social situations. Do i feel contracted or expanded? Do i feel inside my head or in my body? Do i feel this overall shame/akwardness energy, or this light/good feeling energy? Do i constantly thinking when i am in social situations "am i behaving in a correct manner/not weird" or i am just relaxed and doing What i want? And of course, do I have to "push myself" to Talk to people or do I Effortlessly Talk to people out of pure genuine desire/wanting. And What happens is that since 2 months ago I've been going out consistently and for the first time I am finding relief and feeling at last like "normal" around people. Basically What a small of benzo or phenibut would make me feel, But I am in that state now "naturally" with this routine. Guess What, something that years reading books, doing trips, listening to self proclaimed self help gurus, youtubers, introspection, and a lot more of new age theories didnt do. So excuse me if i am skeptic of this approach you are saying is the "neccesary" to do. Meanwhile years pass and there is a high Risk Life Will get more crude if I keep playing this pussy ego Game of always AVOIDING ACTION and wanting Life to be easy and handed to me.

Imo anti anxiety medication is only worth It as an ocasional thing. For long term solution I see It as a terrible mistake.

Right. I forgot about that :facepalm: WoW thanks for the info. Very useful

I Dont like It because i Dont like to behave like a bartard. But the hard Truth is that you Dont got game/are socially anxious drinking Will get you more results than not drinking anything

@Nahm That´s interesting. I was reflecting some weeks ago that, yeah, indeed, the "monster" is already another 'story'. It's ultimately false, YES, but I need it , it's a false pilar to construct the life I want. You don't get it (please don't take it the bad way, you have helped me a lot ): I can meditate everything I can but one day I might be in a situation and experience bad feelings/emotions/energy and that's it. Again the "monster" got me. It's still there. Behind me. Inside me. For example, people that have PTSD could meditate and let of of all the thoughts they want but if (for example) they are driving and hear a small explosion of a firecracker that might get almost a heart attack). That's the 'monster' inside them. They can become very "thought-free' but the PTSD is inside and it will still get triggered. (In this sense, I agree with @Tristan12 . I just don't agree with you buddy in the way that I can "make peace with the monster". I think I just have to declare it war for ever) In the same way of the PTSD, @Nahm in my case I have a different type of monster. And If I ignore it (let of of the "monster story") it won't disappear. Then why doing several psychedelic trips, going to therapy, introspecton, etc...haven´t healed my monster and yet going out and socialize each day (with no thinking, idea of "healing", etc) has been the only way that has provided me relief and hope I will be free of this? (I am actually free each day for some time already). @Tristan12 Seems that when I go out it´s just me creating what I want, elevating my energy to a one of creation/power/freedom. In this energy, 'healing', 'inner child', 'emotions' etc seem like doesn't match with this new energy. It seems these are concepts of egos that are stuck in lower energies. In my view, IT´s a all a story that God is imagining. God is imagining energies, and also concepts and words related to this energies. Such as that a concept of "healing" , "shadow" or "trauma" only matches a story of victimhood and stuckness. Which are concepts that match low vibrations such as unworthiness, impotence, frustration...etc In my theory , to actually "heal", you literally have to let go of the narrative that you need to heal. So basically what I am saying is that in a sense, your perspective of healing it is crucial and useful at some point in the road, but at some other point later it might have to be let go of.

damnnnn . I'm already seeing tickets... what's the best season of the year to go Kiev? ?

Not inherent worth. They have more worth "relatively" in the world of dating and attraction towards men. In the same sense a pro PC gamer has more worth than a 60 year old granny in counter strike. There are some girls that can be total douchebags, of course. But most of 9s and 10s show that behavior as a test to for selection. The fact that you get emotional triggered from her games already tells her that you are needy and not enough grounded for her. Like I said, it's a "preconfigured" attitude they usually have because they get approached so much and are desired by so many. But that's still rating them. See, you do it like everybody else. There are 9s and 10s that are not arrogant , haughty or go into surgery. Last 9 I met was into non-duality, very compassionate/intuitive, was a healthy girl (do daily exercise) and was a nurse. Careful with the stereotypical beliefs. She's going to be very selective in regards to sex, however. It doesn't matter. The Sex game is a selfish and biased game. That doesn't have anything to do with attraction and dating girls. You can have all the compassion and love in the world but that won't get you girls. Although having that in top of having game would make you more interesting high quality man for some girls definitely.

??? @Vrubel Your advice is good But i Think radical honestly can also be abused and be counterproductive. At the end of the day, probably the best attitude to have on a date is not have an attitude. Game, not neediness, being you...etc if something really honest arises, sure why not...But i Dont agree in paying It like a "Card" yes or yes

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Loved the pictures! Answering your questions, no , It doesnt feel like a separate entity. I basically name "The Monster" anything that happens in my Life which has this taste of self defeating/self hate/anxiety/unworthiness etc... Each thought, belief, perspective, emotion, body feeling, etc that has any of these "tastes" its the Monster acting on me and throwing me a punch. And when i act on my true desires and inner good feelings no Matter What the Monster Tells me, thats me throwing a good punch to the Monster ????? I agree. And how do i usually feed It? by accepting non-inspected Beliefs? @Nahm

Because sometimes I have online meetings.

I know remote working is a privilege, first because of saving so much time of commute and second of commodity (i can Fix myself proper meals, or even take a nap if i need It). However i work in a small cubicle of a room with NO NATURAL LIGHT lmao, so basically 8 hours there + 8 hours sleeping. And one of my goals for this year and upcoming is socialize a lot more. Currently i am making sure I am out at least 3 hours i day. In weekends i try to do more of course. It helps But still sometimes when i go back home i have this thought of "here we go again to the prison cubicle until Next day by 5-6pm ?") Any additional advice guys?