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I woke Up at 4:20 am and I decided to chug down half of MONSTER HYDRO SPORT Bottle (whole Bottle is 650ml, no joke) for breakfast. First, i have a theory that the caffeine that this drinks have are useless. I Dont know why But the caffeine doesnt work as well as in a proper coffee. Secondly, i always have a hard time stopping to drink more because the taste IS SO GOOD. Im sure It has being engineered for months on a lab to make It sugary irresistible. It tastes better than Coke. And thirdly, which i find more concerning and why i decided to open this post, after drinking It my throat starting to Itch and i have to tough It up until the Itch was gone. Also, i had for some minutes Hot/cold rushes. Like..What the fuck? Definetely quitting them altogether. The purpose they have been doing these days since I quit coffee has been plabebo anyway, because the caffeine in them Dont fucking work also lol What a scam

Cook your own food then

I Dont know What is Love leo. That Love thing sounds alien to me. Unless you mean romantic/attachment love. But i intuit you Dont Mean that one.

Truth triggers the devils ?

Reframe them ? cool guys thank you. It´s actually the same thing Nahm said to me

Fuck that seems fucked up. And you see some Monster cans that have 50 or even 60gr of sugar. FUCK this system really. Fucking assholes poisoning childs .

Cool, then its good that i start a new job in 10 days, i have some time then to re-build performance. @Gregory1 Cool. Can´t wait then Lol

Right ? My opinion is the same I did nightgame on a microdose a couple of months ago and i feel i was traumatized (It was the first time i really approached directly and more Girls tho').

@actuallyenlightened ok thank you. Ill try It. What you also think about doing pick Up/socialization of a microdose of Psychedelic if you have social anxiety/approach anxiety? @actuallyenlightened

I want to believe you, But i find hard to believe ? @actuallyenlightened Now seriously , your whole post is very interesting. But i have a question when you Talk about approach anxiety and processing the emotions. How am i supposed to process the emotions if those emotions arise ONLY when i am literally walking towards the Girl and actually speaking to It? If i just walk around that emotions Dont rise Up, making It imposible to process them/letting them go

Yes, of course, I 'agree' in that.? Its all an Infinite Dream where I imagine all sorts of person, places, and things to make It as real as It gets. Although I've never seen the back side of an object, or something outside my Pov, i still have doubts if some kind of material reality exists outside my Absolute Imagination/Perception. But yeah i Hope one day i will accept Im God imagining stuff and Im Alone ? not sure how that would become "Love" But anyways

Finally we agree on something ?

I've been tapering coffee like 2 months like pussy lol . Going down from probably 500-600mg daily to this week that i was doing about 66mg daily (according to my energy drink, But i think its plabebo). From tomorrow im doing 0 coffee to see if i can really Kick this demonic thing for good. Its been 2 months. Yes of course i feel better than when i started, But i can study like 20% of What i used to be Able with coffee (i get tired very fucking fast). The fact that this stuff is harder on the body (wd symptons) that Kratom its just shocking to me. What the fuck sometimes i wonder if i ever Will have energy as i used to on coffee ??? What do you think? How many days you think i got left? @flowboy

@Leo Gura If reality is infinite, wouldnt i live that imagined childhood one time "for real" at least? Its imaginary But It happened. And Dont reply "you just imagined that ;)" ? please

Ha, cute. The basic trick to not accept that you are all Alone and we are not real. ?

@Shin Heres the catch that nobody wants to accept. If you are not awake now, then you are not so sure if What you experienced was Truth If you still feel fear, Guess What, you are not so sure of Truth, if you would be so so so clear to you that What you experienced was Truth, how could you have Fear still? Fear can only if you still have a doubt. You still have a doubt "But maybe we really have a brain" You still have a doubt "But maybe, just maybe, , there is really such a thing as a material reality". "So , just in case, let me save some fear... You know, just in case...". Leo actually talks about this thing about "doubting" in one of live enlightened videos. @Shin @OneHandClap

@flowboy ey, thank you for the motivation! Im much much better now, But Im not done, so i appreaciate your post! Im Closer each day to freedom ?

@Shin certainty of saying that "Truth is What remains when no thoughts exist." As Leo says, no-self Awakening can be great But its NOT God-Realization. If Truth is Love/God-Realization, a simply no-self/no-thoughts state is not Truth . Or in other words, sure Truth can be exactly What you are seeing right Now, no Matter if you are on DMT or just have taken a beer and are sleepy, But you Dont understand. Thank God Leo gives importance to understanding. Everyone else here just gashlight you saying "Dont be dumb Dont try to understand Truth is awareness, just Dont get It with the mind blabla". And Im not saying that Truth is an intelectual answer, the fact that we say It requieres understanding doest mean we say its a language understanding. You have sit in Truth all your Life But that doesnt mean shit if you are not Conscious What that means. Getting into a no self state with no thoughts, and then when you come back to the ego saying "that is truth" is BS. You actually Dont understand, as Leo IS saying you are just paying ganes thinking you are awake. @OneHandClap

@Shin I've had states of no-thoughts. Yet i Dont share the same "certainty" of you. How do you explain that? @OneHandClap

Well i got ya, you expect that affirmation to be truth! ? If truth is not a Word, even saying "truth is not a Word" would be false.

Phenibut is the best thing ever you can try to Game/socialize. Alcohol is a joke compared to It. The problem is tolerance and It hurts your stomach (its very acidic). Also the interaction with food is tricky. If you eat the wrong stuff you can have nausea/stomach issues that day. So its not sustainable. Actually, the best ever I've tried its Phenibut + low dose of 3-MeO-PCP. That can do an awkard social anxious incel turn for a couple of a hours into a proper player. Its fucking ridiculous how narcissistic and confident the boost of the 3-MeO gives you. But again, this is One is even more toxic than phenibut. So its cool maybe to have a couple of reference experiences But they cant be used sustainably to get good at game.

@Nahm how do you know that? How you know truth is not a thought?

@OBEler Yeah, exactly was my first time trying anything Psychedelic. Exactly was 150ug of Lsd the first trip, then another 100ug 3 weeks later, and then another 100ug 1 month later of this last one. I can recall (i can be wrong because more than 4 years have passed since this) that about +6 months since those trips i started to come back to ego, to be in the mind, etc. Its important to notice too that after those trips, i started meditating daily. Although i end up losing the habit after some months probable ( again, difficult to recall) About 1 later i was probably full on back to suffering, and this has continue till today, regardless the endless trials I ve tried to re-activate that powerful neurochemistry change, although, i also have always encountered big resistance to do +100ug trips since that several-months no-self experience happened (maybe that is the ego defense you are talking about). So its being difficult to see if that experience could be replicated again) (With the exception of As i said, last summer that i did 125ug. But i would say It wasnt really potent like i would expect of 125ug, didnt get visuals almost).

How much your average dose has been? @knakoo Mayve i havent done enough But i have become because SO MANY TIMES i had sn insight or healing realization/emotional release with the Psychedelic, yet in my daily Life everything remains the same. So one day i just realized, woah maybe psychs are really just drugs. And part of the delusory side of them is that you believe that they "heal you" this time or you discovered a super useful insight, until 2-3 days passes, and everything comes back to normal as always. I have had that thing that you said about one trip permanently changning your baseline though. It wasnt permanent But It lasted 4-5 months easily (or more). They were 3 trips, 1 , But anyway, yeah that shit was amazing. I was literally depressed and to the point of killing myself and one trip changed everything and from the Next week to the following months i basically had the best moments of my Life so far. I was on a state of flowing/almost no self (in didnt know about spirituality back then, But i can remember i was just having a thrill with Life, music sounded amazing, and i was NEVER in the mind ruminating). That I must say, was impressive, and It was What made me fall in love with Psychedelics.) However that has never happened to me again. I've tried with 5-meo, shrooms, ketamine, more lsd (But lower doses), ...etc Nothing. Nothing compares to that first few trips that really changed my neurochemistry for some good months. Maybe its the fact that i havent done almost no lsd full-on trips again ike the ones Im talking about that "changed me". i did one last summer But It wasnt that powerful. I Dont know if its that i have bad luck or Lsd is not as potent nowdays as It were.

Well you just fucking asked Why Does It Feel Like People Are Looking At "Me"? Thats my answer. If you don´t like it or think I´m right, fine. But don´t expect me to write something else that you would like me to wrote. Yes, you have that because you have an ego. (again, if you actually read my thread I also talk about ego and awareness, but anyway dude , whatever ?? )