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I´m so sick of this. I can do about 40minutes of work and then I have to take a fucking nap because I get sleepy and tired again. I wish I had never tried coffee in my life.

Honestly, i Dont know whars neccesary anymore to be seen. I had plenty of trips were awareness "appears" and its seen that the voice inside the head are just thoughts. I had also awareness appear with sober methods. Hell even in daily meditation routine, sometimes identification stops. Yet after all of this work, obviously Awareness still *thinks is the voice inside the head. Awareness acts as THAT is him/her. Why? Is awareness is stupid? How many times awareness have to discover the wrong identification to stop It? Is God Dumb? Why It jeeps believing the little voice to be a self? Because honestly man, this is ridiculous. What a joke. Im so dissappointed with Awareness/Consciousness. Dumbest thing ever.

@Username I see ? I only had the opportunity to try half small blotter of ald-52 and yeah It seemed quite more "chill" than the eléctric 1p-lsd. Interesting reflexion thanks for sharing ?

@Username Im Happy that you had a good time! I never could Im that situation. the fact that some people can trip on a wedding on (according to your measures) 70-80ug of 1P IS beyond shocking and also unbelievable for me. You must have some weird neurochemistry to not feel anxiety, also weird natural tolerance, at 70-80ug for minor visuals are already starting to begin. Subtle Time dilation, also. Crazy high sensitivity to light. And of course, i would completely lose my shit in a social setting on that dose. Whats your usual dose on tripping? How much of 1P you usually require to have a mystical state/awakening/? Just trying to understand how this is even possible...

@Emotionalmosquito Topic closed ?

I have had lots of fillings but I don´t know if they are metal fillings or resine. Now I can´t see any different in colour in my teeth but I remember a while back ago i would see some "grey" stuff. Still, it wasn´t brilliant grey like those amalgams look. How much time has been banned to do metal fillings?

offtopic, but its worth it: This is going to make you smile even more ? Pd: by the way this is a great example of the power of "Energy" : making a rainy gloomy borough of London vibrant for some minutes.

1:20 That's "mania" talking, right ? Man I know your Bipolar thing is serious and all of that but it's so cool how it makes you talk, ( confident + cool tonality of voice).

How do you know those Buddishts and religions are just not spreading dogma? That Karma stuff seems very similar to the Cristian "sins" narrative . Coincidence...mhh I don't think so my dude.

@something_else where do u live?

Is this a trip reporte? WoW amazing read 10/10

You think some people could never awaken to being God as long as their ego doesn´t want to deconstruct reality completely?

But I mean when I am sober. Now, I have a different understanding of the NOW that if I am with 20mg of 5-meo-dmt up my ass. I suppose now you are saying me this from memory, you really are not Conscious of God-hood Now, right? (for that, as you have said, your state must change). So maybe I have to go that "state" hundreds of times to be clear that I am God sober (when I am in the normal state)

I know, I know ? It just takes time

So you don´t exist and I am hallucinating all of this forum member discussion. Cool. Let me go watch some tv, this is too much to open myself to be real...

Just one quesiton Leo, are you trying to convincing us a way to re-assure yourself that you are God? I mean if you were sooo sure that you are God, you wouldn´t reply to comments that are being written by your own consciousness ? Got ya ?

In other words, a potent direct clean psychedelic like 5-Meo-dmt or dmt

Yes, of course you could also abuse them and use too much, But most people problem is not using them enough, not too much.

Yes, work must be put outside of tripping, but... I think the worst mistake when taking psychedelics is not taking them regularly enough. The ego/homeostasis protects itself by abstaining from tripping by all types of rationalizations, and then of course accuses the psychedelic of not "really working". Bitch you were not supposed to just do a trip a year and expect that to solve your life. ( I have made this mistake )

Nice! That is a powerful sign you really had a potent awakening. Psychedelics or sober?

In my opinion there are two things that keep trauma alive. 1- The triggers, which usually rise up in the body, and you can´t control, it´s not just thoughts. ( For example anxiety would be good example of this. Even if you do a lot of meditation and you are used to let go of thoughts if your body suddenly rises up your adrenaline, cortisol, or whatever, good luck avoiding that. ) 2 - The ego and the personal stuff. Is not only the triggers, is the ego which each time they happened it makes a personal story about it making the problem bigger than it is. ( The illusory self is identify with its trauma therefore it actually helps it survive it in a way. ) So my question is... Do you heal the trauma doing "stuff" until the ego/minor self stops re-feeding the personal story ? Or... Do you heal it with "inner work", for example feeling them emotions, psychedelics work, "sorting out", "getting to the root", etc? 1- Does it requires BOTH approaches to succesfully heal the trauma? 2- Do you think it´s more important the first one or the second one? 3- Is there a third approach?

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@itachi uchiha No But i Heard of It. How/where do you do It? Are they books about It?

Thanks, very complete answer ? Are u sure one can go back in time to heal the trauma? What if i Dont remember? If its usually in your childhood one is now 20-30 years old you really think you can access the memories clearly to heal them/forgive them?

Btw guys you think its Ok if once i quit It I can drink one coffee every two weeks or so like on a friday or saturday to celebrate? Or os this addiciton talking? @flowboy @Gregory1