Javfly33

There is this girl which I met 2 years ago, we had a bit of flirting back in the days but I was always inside feeling unconfident, a kid, anxious. Today I talked with her and I was in a completely different mode, absolutely grounded, 0 anxiety, proyection, voice, everything was on point. I was me and I was grounded in Shiva. And then I realized I was completely focused in my chest, heart chakra, my consciousness was focused there and the interaction was perfect, my real me. I have to try this more. Is like I've discovered a magic key inside me.

Who says being enlightened means there is no one to teach?

So if you are enlightened if a kid is being bitten by a Rottweiler you shouldn't do anything because you are conscious the kid is a duality or whatever? 🤣 @Terell Kirby I guess it depends on what you mean by consciousness. The feeling of being conscious? Reality? There are different things. Because when you go to sleep the feeling of being conscious is not there.

Woooow, that was a big and long slap of hard love. I understand @Someone herepoint though. You are one of my kind. Let me tell you, this Life, how is constructed, absolutely sucks. The more you contemplate, think, choose intelligence, comfort, etc... The more you will get near to death. And the more you act, move, stress, compulsively join the rat race... The more Life will reward you in all aspects. For example, my life was incredibly when I was doing oxycodone 2 years ago, you couldn't believe how much I accomplished in those 2 years and how easy and and sweet it was, but I was so blissed out all the time between that and the yoga of sadhguru that the gap between my lifestyle and the world was greater each time, so at one point it collapses. Same when I was doing heroin, life is 100000% more easy on it, you can't believe how incredibly easy is on it, it would shock you, but because of this, Life also will punish you because Life and society works around constant struggle and friction, so living a lifestyle of friction free will also not work at some point. So basically I realized I had to quit opiates, my true love, because even though they make life so much easier, softer, basically a walk in the park, Life and society punishes you because you are so outside the suffering matrix, you become an outsider. Not because you can not work or exercise or eat good, in fact doing this things will again be so much easier, but because again since you will stop accepting life rules (struggle) because the opiate entities seduce you into believing life should be good, stress free and Comfortable, you will stop connecting to others that follow God and Life's rules (struggle, friction) This is just to tell you life sucks and if you want to live Life SUCCESSFULLY EMBRACE sucking. Life doesn't want you to enjoy or be easy.

Yes when I almost OD, but you don't lose consciousness you are overflowed by consciousness.

Yes when I almost OD, but you don't lose consciousness you are overflowed by consciousness.

This is victim mentality. You are responsible for your life

There are certain people that try to humiliate me. For example, I have a very pale skin and brown skin people usually try to attack from that point, like "ohhh look he's so sensible you have gotten burn, you need to put yourself some suncream boy heheheh" I recognize it is ultimately my responsibility to protect myself from this attacks. Any trick to how to instantly respond in the moment it happens? Usually what happens is that "I froze" in the moment, is only later when I recognize what just happened, when is too late and the attack has been successfully inflicted upon my energy structure. @Schizophonia I'd appreciate your analysis on this!

Wise words! I'll put into practice what you say.

❤️‍🩹 Thanks bro, you are a good man.

As long I focus completely on the pleasure of the woman as like my penis is a “tool” for her pleasure, I can last infinite amount of time. Because it becomes mechanical, pure, clean. it becomes like doing push-ups. Purely physical and mechanical. However the moment I start to have “toxic thoughts”, (sexist), of dominating her or of “possessing her”, or of “fucking her like is my object”, etc… I tend to instantly or almost instantly cum. This is interesting. Basically this seems to look as like GOD rewards you when you behave good in your mind and punishes you when you behave bad (when you create toxic scenarios or thoughts about the woman)

Yes, I'm aware that is also the case unfortunately

If the body and mind and energy is serving You, you become a solution to the world. Most importantly for you, you walk in this earth completely empty, because your tools are not anymore against you, they contribute to your higher Self mission, which is nothing more than just helping and raising the vibration of the world. There is no other mission here than to HELP. The most important thing to do is making sure what you have gathered (body) is NOT an issue whatsoever to you. If the body and mind and energy is dominating You, you become a mess. You contribute to Karma and you can´t really help anyone because you yourself are entangled with your accumulations. So how are you going to help others who are also entangled? So the only solution is to be completely scientific: make sure just Existing, just Being is not just peaceful, but is completely satisfactory. Only then you will become a perfect human being, because then you are not another problem, another bag of karma, you are a Solution for the world. You don´t have to worry about money or success at this point, everything will come to you if you do this because the world will want to give you anything it has for what you got.

People get into relationships because of loneliness, not because of true connection. Then you see women having sex because of meeting their partner expectations and men having sex in a disconnected way to the woman because of their ego. Overall if you are like me with high standards you will need some time to find the perfect match.

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High vibration are frequencies more close to God or Truth, low vibration are frequencies more close to ego or falsehood The Richard Hawkins vibrational scale is a pretty good graphic description of this. @saif2 Yes, only when you by yourself are completely satisfied then you will be able to do what is necessary for the world.

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That seems a very healthy structure Yes, I agree 🙏

Is my nature, is just that I need some time to stabilize myself in that because it entails a certain maturity of consciousness. The preparation to look at the void in the eyes takes time, there is a lot of game of hide and seek, but is the only joy, the other option is being a slave, in one's little world, in a box, closed, comfortable but small, painfully limited. Openness means looking at the fear in the eyes, it takes time to see one is really ready for it

Consider that when it "hurts", is not about the other person but what your thoughts are telling you about yourself in that moment. Basically your mind is playing a trick with you, is saying the problem is outside when actually is inside. You can´t let your mind tell who you are. Because it will always tell you who you are based on your experiences, past and karma. Because that´s what the mind runs on: information about the identity it has constructed. It can´t reveal who you are. So if you use your mind to tell who you are it will always tell you the same story. You need to stop letting the mind telling you who you are.

Probably because your domination tendency in sex comes from a masculine healthy side, I think mine comes from insecure drive, like rapist kind of way.

How that would look like? @aurum Yes I do enjoy it, in fact mentally I enjoy it more, because is true union, if I let the mind arise domination thoughts that creates a duality, which makes me cum and therefore ends the sex LOL (end of union)

@Emerald Appreciate your words. I judge my domination tendency because it is not rooted on Love for the other person (fulfilling its desires and pleasure) it Is rooted on insecurity and emotional issues. The problem is I have a karma of being sexist, narcisistic, treating bad women and not respecting them. I never have put a hand on a woman but emotionally I have treated in a bad way, I have verified this because my father and grandfather were also insecure sexists. Trust me I have been a real villain, but at the same time I think by having become conscious of this I am beginning to change. For example I used to subconsciously judged women precisely because of being submissive, then I fully explored my submissive side in BDSM and realized that if I kept judging myself for having a submissive role that meant I judged women that liked the same, which is a lot of them. Thankfully all this shadows are coming up to the surface and realizing the mistakes I've done in my mind, and feel I'm close to a complete healthy transformation on my psyche regarding to sex.

Of course the like it, the point is to be able to give it in your mind you can´t be toxic, you have to behave like that but internally don´t produce any negative thoughts about her. I have struggled with this a lot because I come from deeply sexist family which they hated their own mother and basically seems they hated women lol @theleelajoker Your personality is different because is clearly seen that you don´t have any negative karma about women inside yourself, so you can easily fuck them like that while inside yourself "loving them". But there are men which inside truly have toxic thoughts and emotions about women, remember they are rapists out there.

Don´t be sad for what it wasn't meant to be