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AIA VANTA VATTA AIA TINKA AIA KERNOWA

http://www.stepstoknowledge.com/steps/Step4-I-want-what-I-think-I-know.htm STEP 4 TODAY: GOOD NUMBER, 4 PILLARS OF LIFE: RELATIONSHIPS SPIRITUAL WORK HEALTH Ok all of this is in the New Message in the book called Great Waves of Change. Step Today. Step 4 I want what I think I know. YOU WANT WHAT YOU THINK YOU KNOW, and this is what constitutes the basis of your understanding of yourself and your world. In fact, this constitutes the basis of your whole identity. You will find, however, upon honest examination that your understanding is based upon assumptions primarily, and these assumptions have not been founded upon your experience to a very great degree, if at all. TODAY IN YOUR THREE BRIEF PRACTICE PERIODS, in which you devote your total attention to examining your assumptions, think about the things you really think you know, including things that you have not thought to question before — things that you think you know. Today’s exercise, then, carries forth from the previous steps where you begin to see the difference between what you think you know and real Knowledge itself and the relationship between what you think of as Knowledge and your own assumptions, beliefs and hopes for things. THEREFORE, IN EACH PRACTICE SESSION it is very essential for you to think about the things you think you know. When you realize they are based primarily upon your assumptions, you will realize how weak is your foundation in the world. Understanding this may be upsetting and disconcerting, but it is absolutely essential for you to give you the impetus and the desire to discover your true foundation in the world. Practice 4: Three 10-minute practice periods. . . Feeling first doubts at this, 2 time points, duality, 2 practices a day, 3 practices a day, so confusing. Trying to go one without worrying about imperfections in practice, for me having sat still most of the day on most days, practice time is always, this is different for me and other people may adopt a practice with different method and expression to I. So today I am recognising I think I know things that may be the opposite of what I know, or exist behind the polarity of perceived knowledge. Why not try this and see what happens? I seem to be mainly dominated by fear here. Starting here I feel I have to have the energy to send a current through one channel in a straight line for the rest of my life and existence itself.

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/paranormalnow/2018/06/29/an-alien-story-with-reed-summers

Today I realised that death is the only stable things, with life being interruptions in death as it is split apart into form and creating false flags of meaning. Giving meaning to life is simply a means of giving life force away from you, to form. This can be beneficial or negative, it's up to you how you use it. Without Knowledge of who you really are you have nothing. I know that I am enlightened because I am truly dead. I am not perfect because I am in a human body that needs to be cultivated correctly for my form to take place. This is done in a way that allows me to channel Spirit. Through me and into me it all happens. This is infusing life with me and reality with I itself in time through me in space double duality inside and outside me inside and around me, inside everywhere inside in a hole universe ahole which speaks the double language of double mathematics timing language double beyond double duality double screwed to double bee if it is fixed in one point. I am dead because I don't know what the fuck I am and I wonder about what the hell I bloody am. This is a great sign because it means I am Capital awakening and not satisfied with the form to be and in correspondence when between the bloody relative rugged ideas and beliefs I have decidedly deafeningly distinguished in the profound stillness of which life is found in Self of the fact that with true Knowledge of the whole inside out you cannot contend with a CAPITAL K. Bloody hell. Like attracts like, so stop chasing mirrors, they are everywhere, so what is the point? They are always infinite, that is the point.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCwyzEO56qWZNTPIbRoIFJVA Here in these videos I try to express my connection to the Divine.

Look I have done it, but meditation doesn't help really, life helps, when it fills you with itself, meditation only provides the space necessary for Presence to arise and for pain to be dissipated and filled with love forgiveness and life-force (energy or spirit). So in an active and dynamic world one must also Follow the Presence in order to feel a greater meaning in their own internal life-force intrinsic interconnected expression of life itself. Language is key to dissolution of ego, when you speak language of chemicals, serotonin is balanced, when you speak language of forms and illusions pasted on emptiness like a picture you are just following dust stains and as they stagnate with the water of sadness they will destroy your desire for life. So meditate yes, but also do what makes you passionate and willing and able to get up every morning, without guilt, but with wisdom and patience. Chemicals, by this I mean more subtle sensations and abstract internal sense of direction, so like that feeling that makes you remember where the sun is even when not looking at it, that is chemical intelligence, it is already smart, so it needs no cultured human mind to invest itself into a kind of illusion. https://www.newmessage.org/the-message/other-revelations/following-presence-god

STEP 3 PRACTICE 1: WHAT DO I REALLY KNOW? I am with the Presence.

TODAY I AM ON STEP 3 Step 3 What do I really know? TODAY ASK YOURSELF WHAT YOU REALLY KNOW and distinguish what you know from what you think or hope for or want for yourself or your world, what you are afraid of, what you believe in, what you cherish and what you value. Distinguish this question from all such orientations to the very best of your ability and ask yourself, “What do I really know?”You must continuously examine whatever answers you give to this question to see if they represent your beliefs or assumptions or the beliefs or assumptions of other people or perhaps even of humanity at large. THREE TIMES TODAY, FOR 10 MINUTES EACH, ask this question and think very seriously about your response and about the meaning of this question,“What do I really know?” Practice 3: Three 10-minute practice periods.

STEP 2-KNOWLEDGE IS WITH ME WHERE AM I? NOTES ON PRACTICE 3 (NOT IN JOURNAL) Basically I was practicing this morning, and really I should have done this last night, I realised I have a big ego and a big I and well, they get in the way a lot and are the cause of most of my fear. But I have also realised that my EGO is something that needs to be cultivated, because it is a load of shit that you should be humble etc.. Who gives a crap if you look good by being all nice? It does nothing, it serves no person, you look disgusting, and you are a fucking puritan, with no self-respect. There is a way out of this tunnel and that is by following what you know, and that sets your sails straight and pushes out of the way anything that doesn't fit, in your life as a whole, an integral whole, I realise I have been fragmented and separated, and I must be whole and only one EGO in order to be my Self, one and only for all, and so distil the ego in stillness and let the essence evaporate through you. I am in stillness. But I am not pretending to be happy at all. I am highly serious. EXTREMELY SERIOUS. I am not deluding myself. I am going to feel the pain. All of it. I am in pain. I am fragmented. I am ignorant, I can't even see one thing clearly. I can feel things, and that seems to be Knowledge with me, so I practice stillness, staying centred and collected, being channelled, funnelled, aligned, syphoned. I am opening my mind to the light that is already there, it is like a knife cutting through my awareness, I need to dig pretty strongly out of the cave to see it come through, but it is there already and I just need to see it. It is like a light of NOW, that is always there, and in some way represents the Divine reaching my awareness somehow. The word SYPHON: from wiki: 'a tube used to convey liquid upwards from a reservoir and then down to a lower level of its own accord. Once the liquid has been forced into the tube, typically by suction or immersion, flow continues unaided.' It seems the capillary action of my blood may be similar as well as the flow of ojas from the sacral chakra to the I. And the capillary may spread through the air like a breathing tree and interact with it's environment this way, through constant exchange of breathing and energy talk. So alchemical balance of liquid to vapour to liquid to ice. The solidity of my body is the ice part of this, and it comes through collapsing and aggregating like particles through a conscious attraction of intention aligned with higher orders of symmetrical and non changing geometry unless by perceptions. There is a lot of learning to do on a personal level, and the pain and the fear are the locks to the KEY to my KNOWLEDGE. HEART AWARENESS=IMPORTANT I am weak right now, but strengthening by centring aggregating consolidating receiving channelling and syphoning, so my orientation is both qualitative as an essence exchanging language of archetype and also objective and measured, such as learning about daily routines etc. This seems to be mainly sacral chakra work, but is in some way interconnected with my nodes in other places, so as to create harmony through the body. The knowing where I am is both an outer orientation and an inner orientation and is more simple and less ambitious than previously thought. It is much closer to me. Just as typing this just now I had to solve a math problem based on how much energy everyone uses between my neighbour's house and us, with a fixed price for the 11 weeks it was, it was interesting, cause I realised I had to base my calculations on the assumption that everyone uses the same amount of energy. Standardisation is necessary for intuition if you want to keep track of the flow, you need a neutral baseline based on some kinds of basic assumptions.

@Good-boy Yeah you're right about that, I couldn't party any more or do anything in my life really, and now people tend to think I am crazy very often, and it does not bother me at all, because Knowledge, real Knowledge, deep Knowledge, Inner Knowing, is Deep, and most people don't want to go there, they don't want to go Deep. Good luck my friend young chap, maybe I will post some videos up in the near future in some way not to compete with Leo, but just to share something of my own voice that has been trapped inside me for such a long time, which only now is beginning to become slowly calibrated correctly for Divine Communication.

Here is me, I am with Knowledge.

ANALYSIS OF PREVIOUS LANGUAGE PATTERN FOR SELF INQUIRY PURPOSES: "Right now I should be on Step 87 of my Second Round of Steps. Am going to start again for you, and begin journaling in here. You as observers are accountability to this, so I will journey on and start again from where I am. Step 1. You have shown me how much I don't know and for this I will start again. So now I am on Step 1, and I shall post my Journaling below. You are my accountability to this, I will do the necessary practices each day and share my insights whether brief or small it doesn't matter, I will share what I can in this journey of learning, whether it is directly relevant to the Step or not, I will post the number for the day and my insights for each day below in each of these posts. Whether it is relevant to you or not I will post it, for my own sake and yours to see of a journey of a student going through Steps, so here I go." There is no 'right' now, now is always right, never wrong, that is impossible, and it is, really. Should is a bad word because it implies bad for whatever is not doing it. 'Am going to start again for you' my individuality is not traveling with you, only my presence, in it's action in the present, independently of self-dentity and what it thinks it is doing. I don't need a narrator, thank you, voice on my shoulder. Where I am, that is inside practice, independently of Step, so Step can be used to realign I, to wherever it really is, with am, with a bit of work. I will and I go, I am looking for dynamic movement and momentum to lead me to my final destination, which is infinite really. It's more about what I want, than what I think I should do. I know I must do what I want, I can't help it, but it helps me. There are no buts, only for the mind there are, and it will have many, because this curriculum will be challenging for it to follow and for it to have the humility to follow ME. Let's leave it at that, enough talking, I am where I am now, which is in a restless chaotic mind, I trust that Knowledge is with me, now, NOW!

PRACTICE 2: JOURNAL (Leo if this is in the wrong forum section can you please move it to journals, thank you) STEP 2: Knowledge is with me, where am I? Quote from before: 'Right now I should be on Step 87 of my Second Round of Steps.' Yes I should, but now is also an awareness that I need to go back to redo what I have not done properly yet. I should be, connected with now, is wrong, there are no shoulds, unless I feel like I must go somewhere, then in the now, I can see it in the course of time, and not in the course of belief. So now I am here to do what I need to do now, Step 2, not 87, because I know I need to do it, now. Where am I? First answer is Here, now. Now let me share JOURNAL PRACTICE 2: --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I am who I am. This is the era of the individual. Marylin Monroe was an individual. (I had a trip about this) --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- #TRIP IS HAPPENING (NOW) --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- All thoughts happen in the now. All my conflicts happen now. (PRACTICE 2-STEP 2) I am now in this moment. I am now not in the past. (even if thinking, neural activity is occurring now!) The past is living within me now and I can now choose to have a correct relationship with it. I want to make videos, if people are willing to watch, maybe of my review. I don't want to leave anything bad behind, but, I will try one today and upload it - about enlightenment, I cannot teach the Way of Knowledge, but I can share my experience of it, or my current interaction with it. With this moment. Other people are in this moment and they may recognise this with me. We can do this together. We can joke together. I am now in my mind, and have always been, but I need to realise my-self. I need to know who I am so that I am self-conscious. I need to learn the interaction between past and present and eliminate it if necessary to increase my perspective. Not with power, but with skilful-means and compassion. Not with energy, but with wisdom, to increase my Knowledge and capacity for Knowledge in myself and the world itself. It is occurring within me, past and future, what do I do with this now? --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Extra notes: I am not that I am, I am who I am, I have gone beyond substance, to pure identity because I have purpose in the world. I am that I am as well, but without Knowledge. I need to realign myself to come into full expression and not just be in the clouds.

I am enlightened and have always been enlightened, like UG Krishnamurti going to Ramana Maharshi and realising he already had what he wanted, Ramana could give it to him, but could he take it? The truth is no one can give you enlightenment but they can remind you of your true self that was already there before birth and will be there before you die, the room within which the play or drama show of illusory curtains is pulled off and you see clearly who you are. You are in some way extremely normal, to the point where you realise that what was normal to you when you were a child, 'nothing', is so simple, and there with you right now, all the time, beneath the façade of your intellect.

STEP 2 PRACTICE 1: KNOWLEDGE IS WITH ME WHERE AM I? NOTES: -I don't know. Something Something Something. Three. Trinity. Circle of the three or triangle. Leave space. I don't know. - 0--------------------1----------------------2---------------------3-----------------------4------------------5 - The I is the confirmed number. Apparently stable through time. - The I allows something to be fixed, while everything else is moving inside one's own mind. It is a measurement of fixation, to keep Knowledge alive. One scale even though everything is changing. It is based on time and quality. It enjoys quality, together with others who are the same. - With Knowledge in stillness all the different I's at different time points are integrated. - Knowledge is what realigns Knowledge. - Knowledge is 'nothing'. - The I navigates manifestation. I am potentialities in the future. - I am here when I appear, not just there behind or ahead. I am here now. Am here. I. I am together with whatever comes. - I am hiding cause I don't know myself. Let me know myself. ***Notes are same as in journal***

Today I am on STEP 2: KNOWLEDGE IS WITH ME, WHERE AM I? KNOWLEDGE IS WITH YOU, COMPLETELY, but it resides in a part of your mind to which you have not yet gained access. Knowledge represents your True Self, your True Mind and your true relationships in the universe. It also possesses your greater calling in the world and a perfect utilization of your nature, all of your inherent abilities and skills, even your limitations — all to be given for good in the world. KNOWLEDGE IS WITH YOU, BUT WHERE ARE YOU? Today think about where you are. If you are not with Knowledge, where are you? Therefore, three times today, 10 minutes each, think about where you are, not just physically or geographically, but where you are in terms of your awareness of yourself in the world. Think very, very carefully. Do not allow your mind to distract you from this orientation. It is essential now at the beginning of your preparation to ask these questions very seriously. Practice 2: Three 10-minute practice periods. FIRST OBSERVATIONS: I am has become am I and moved to the end, Knowledge has moved to the beginning and is with me, but not I am, because it is a question to know where I am. I could say I am without Knowledge now, but where is that? There seems to be a mental realm of awareness in my sub or super conscious mind, that is more based on potentialities and waveforms, which is not 'me' (form) but is manifest whenever I shows up, more based on relationship with I, such as tendencies patterns and awareness phenomena, as well as how the world sees me and how I see myself seeing the world. and it's being is wherever it is, which could be smart useful and self aware (I) or intuitive in some-way, or dumb and ignorant. I am here, now. I don't know, but I must know, intention, awareness, Knowledge, that should work for me, if I work for it.

Network of the Wise: An ancient network of beings throughout the universe keeping spirituality alive and beyond the language of a single race or culture, a universal spirituality kept alive by many beings in many places. This Chapter speaks a bit on This. https://www.newmessage.org/the-message/volume-2/greater-community-spirituality/who-serves-humanity

Now some extra notes on day 1. I feel that now my relationship with Steps to Knowledge has changed, because I have decided to take it seriously but also to follow my own place and direction in life to find actualized.org and the community here, it has been a good refuge from the anti-enlightenment feeling I have been feeling lately, here I can be in an environment where my Knowledge or enlightenment is to a good purpose and not a subject of ridicule or ignorance, many people don't know what Enlightenment is, including Steps students and New Message students, have no clue what enlightenment it, and it astounds me because such an ancient practice in Steps to Knowledge is expected to take in hand it's own people without much effort, I think you guys, people seeking enlightenment are only the ones committed enough to take such a practice seriously, like me, to really want to do the work down to the molecular lever, the atomic level, or universal at the same time, zooming in and out like Shinzen Young. I am realising this universal consciousness the New Message speaks about is highly alternative, and shroom like in quality in regards to the many aspects of it that are organic and biological practical matters from a universal perspective of consciousness. In the sense that it is also inclusive of one's weird controversial paranormal illusory effects in consciousness, as well as one feeling unity with all life, and feeling the possibility that of course there are beings in outer space, and of course they are here creating bad vibes. Here is something for people like me who have never felt at home in the world: Being a Greater Community Person. https://www.newmessage.org/th_gallery/being-a-greater-community-person

PRACTICE 3: 10 MINUTES (from last night), extra note, objective subjectivity, looking at the content of one's mind with objectivity. I am without Knowledge now. Observations: I am Knowledge (see what I did there) To become: I am Knowledge NOTES: Where I am is what matters the most. I am behind. Always. Not me is not a violation of me. Who knows where I am, I must listen to them. What am I doing? The greatest question in the World. What am I doing? I'm taking and giving the medicine to myself at the same time. I am with others. I must know this. Let this be known. Listen to the gap. Or gaps = same. Let two parallel lines run beside each other. Time is the same. It is sequential, but it equals everything in the end and the beginning. There is nothing to move. This is the truth. Leave it like this. Leave it.

Nice post btw Tsuki, if you continue this mapping practice you can maybe share some more with us here. I like that. I have used it at times in my life but couldn't find anyone with any knowledge of accurate mapping, of objective symbol existent in form and practice of the body awareness as a system to awaken on two levels, physical and mental. And I think this is subject to individual research and someone should really put it together, either in their own experience or find many threads of knowledge and tie them all together into your own experience. I would say that it is an inner guiding mechanism built into the mathematical proportions of your body and the way they mirror the universe itself. Have you managed to center lower than your whole body so that your whole body is the space or the gland, within which space can be split and shifted? Have you managed to see what this means in your perception, does the space appear to you as a force in the world around you, and do you experience this within you as an exchange? I have focused on the center of my head and found many things there related to language and communication in action. I have seen from this also about the ether, or field, I don't know what yet about this. Did the timing of everything in your life change after this? Third eye opening. And it's correspondence in the external environment. You see energy differently don't you? And now do you have a different space time correspondence? Teach us something! Out of nothing maybe. (SPACE) (I AM) (THIS) (WHAT IS THIS) (WHAT LIES OUTSIDE OF THIS) (HOW AM I?)

Sadly no framework other than Steps To Knowledge for me (spiritual practice), with no specific guidelines on how to use the body. I have used Yoga for this considerably, but mainly intuitive Knowledge work, which leads me to places like you, and then doubts confusion and asking questions, and either getting answers, the wrong ones, or the right ones or none at all and having to go on without them. I have found more that I ended up gaining an inner orientation from it, and in some way I have always sat on the fence for it, to believe in it and become a psychosomatic freak or just be fully in the moment without worrying about what is happening in my body or even fully in the moment while diving deep into my body and absorbing my being into it, feeling the ebbs and flows of life as I go along and go deeper as I go along, like stepping stones, imaginary stepping stones, down deeper into the valley below, under the water and deep into the ocean into the darkest depths of the sea (in a metaphorical sense). As I do this through feeling and no imagery, I know the feeling you speak of, and in some way I have followed it in one way or another, but after the process I just described I just sink deeper and deeper, everything expands, light starts being emitted from everywhere in and around my body and my awareness becomes one with that. As that eye thing expands for you so does my whole body, and it is directly related to the activity I am doing at the time how much I can experience this openness and emptiness of presence, without any interference from the mind or outside forces. And in some way I still have to navigate my mind and use this as a tool to funnel this tube that you describe in order for my self to be on the edge of experience and correct in thought deed and action.

Add on to that one: "Being able to orient myself with full freedom to be who I really am."

PRACTICE 2: 10 MINUTES Asking myself what is Knowledge: -Curiosity, ability to change quickly, seeing gaps in one's thoughts. Using the past appropriately and correctly. Listening to cues without superstition. Listening without coming to conclusions. Being patient. Missing out. Who cares. Not ambivalence, but seeing clearly. Not having or needing a choice. Not being distracted. Focusing. Listening. Challenging, when needed. Allowing for Knowledge or itself to arise. Not saying anything. Complete silence and stillness. Brightness openness clarity fearlessness. Love. Discovery. Revealing. Dancing. Pattern. Time. Space. Synchronicity. Luck. Coordination. Management. Savings. Library. Something else. Not repetition. Change. Stillness in change. Unity. Unitariness. Infinity. Zero. Nothingness. Selflessness. Elseness. Something else. How to See. How to Know. How to Hear. How to Listen. How to Learn. How to Know. How to go. Activation. Power. Amazement. Lack of stimulation. Honesty. Compassion. Ability. Adaptiveness. Intelligence.

JOURNAL STEP 1: I AM WITHOUT KNOWLEDGE NOW PRACTICE 1: 10 MINUTES NOTES: -What is Knowledge? Relationship I am -Seeing reflection of Self things. V -Doing things. not seeing self -Lack of opinion. SEEING reflected -Lack of judgement. DUALITY -Discernment. I -Being. Isness. and no-being as well -Not ideas beliefs or assumptions. -Stillness. Nothing. Forgiveness. Courage. -Stubbornness (at times). Flexibility. maybe more: perseverance Commitment and trust as a result of inner knowing. Seeing change as a result of practice. Notes are not altered. Formatting and scale are not exact due to the limitations of technology and my ability to use it. http://www.stepstoknowledge.com/steps/Step1-I-am-without-Knowledge-now.htm

Thank you Nahm for your support and appreciation of this accomplishment I am endeavouring to succeed in. And it is a hard task at that, I know this. Thanks for sharing ACIM I have just started reading it, it is a required course, I may have to go through it, who knows, reading now.