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So I am looking at variables now, below I will post what I record and over time build a picture of some of these, relatively speaking, and on absolute levels, which as a model may be used to fit the data and not considered a manipulation, but only a better form of processing of data than pure response. Understanding based on response is response based on response, cross multiplying, not good, unless you learn what influences are there for the good and which ones for the bad, somewhat roughly speaking without judgement. So variable 1 collecting beginning today=occurrence of a negative feeling of influence in my direct physical environment So at 10:26 I documented the first occurrence of this, after a long train of though relating to me seeing my grandparents after being near and old lady then seeing one in the car driving by, seemed to connect the dots that maybe I should visit my grandparents sometime soon, I don't know if this is a good idea or not. That is just circumstantial, as I walked inside my house I identified a self serving destructive thought, of self protection, simultaneously manifested as a change in timing in the stepping of my feet and a hit on the wall with my left shoulder, (it could be the left-should have, left-over should have). This left should have like something challenged me, when there is no one to challenge, and I made a mistake in not walking correctly without loosing rhythm of being and thinking. To be noted is that-it is exactly a loss in the rhythm of life, this physical threat, and in whatever manifestation it comes it can deceive you and send you to ruins. Here is my thing.

STEPS TO KNOWLEDGE - THE BOOK OF INNER KNOWING What is Steps to Knowledge? Steps to Knowledge is the Book of Inner Knowing. Its one-year study plan, which is divided into 365 “steps,” or lessons, is designed to enable students to learn to experience and to apply their Self-Knowledge, or Spiritual Power, in the world. Steps to Knowledge sets out to accomplish this task in a step-by-step manner as students are introduced to the essential ideas and practices which make such an undertaking possible. Practicing every day provides a solid foundation of experience and develops the thinking, perception and self-motivation necessary for both worldly success and spiritual advancement. www.stepstoknowledge.com https://www.newmessage.org/the-message/volume-2/greater-community-spirituality/what-is-steps-to-knowledge Here below are the first 28 Steps: (Steps include practice) STEP 1. I am without Knowledge now. STEP 2. Knowledge is with me, where am I? STEP 3. What do I really know? STEP 4. I want what I think I know. STEP 5. I believe what I want to believe. STEP 6. I have a true foundation in the world. STEP 7. Review. STEP 8. Today I will be still. STEP 9. In stillness all things can be known. Why am I doing this anyway? STEP 10. What is Knowledge? STEP 11. I am not apart from life. STEP 12. My individuality is to express life itself. STEP 13. I want to be separate to be unique. STEP 14. Review. STEP 15. I shall listen to my experience today. STEP 16. Beyond my mind is Knowledge. STEP 17. Today I want to hear the truth. STEP 18. Today I feel the truth arising within myself. STEP 19. Today I wish to see. STEP 20. I will not let doubt and confusion slow my progress. STEP 21. Review. STEP 22. I am Surrounded by the Teachers of God. STEP 23. I am loved surrounded and supported by the Teachers of God. STEP 24. I am worthy of God's love. STEP 25. I am at one with the greatest truth of life. STEP 26. My errors give birth to my Knowledge. STEP 27. I have a Wisdom that I wish to discover. STEP 28. Review. https://www.newmessage.org/the-message/other-revelations/taking-the-steps-to-knowledge The above link leads you directly to the Voice of Revelation. "Knowledge represents the Deeper Spiritual Mind within you, the Mind that Knows. This Mind does not think how your surface mind thinks" Whatever you do consistently requires less and less effort as you continue... (Self inquiry will follow, to look at your experience objectively, in your Steps and in your whole life, in knowing the changes you need to make to your life, seeing it clearly, there comes a great certainty from this Knowledge, you begin to really look at the content of your experience, not what you think you should experience, what you are really experiencing. No more pretending. It all begins to fall away. You become self aware only when there is no alternative. Hiding hurts you and prevents you from finding your own true strength. Begin a deep looking and listening self-inquiry. You learn how to still your mind, become observant, look feel see and know, you see and hear things you have not seen or heard before, but with no ideas on top, and you begin to really know, with objective and expansive awareness)

Ok here I go from where I left of, less ramble babble now, more rational, nodes of left and right and up and down are feeling more balanced in my chakras as a whole flow system, most of all are opening and emphasis is on crown now powered by heart to pump through a double Fibonacci spiral, so to say, or whatever system can hold duality of forces such as creation and destruction without any motion at all. Energy body is expanding, eyes are more focused on the world, expanding outwards as I realise I am an individual non-solipsist one of the many. I see that I am more like a surface or possibility, and I can thus see I can be everyone, cause each is of the same structure both molecularly and genetically and thus they cannot know anything I don't know yet I am small, and so are they and we are everyone together one everyone looking at itself through it's many heads, peep-holes (people). I am recognising that I am in one position in space not many, yet I can imagine myself in other places if I like. I may need assistance such as music or sound or communication to travel. So I am still spatially located and more than ever because it appears this immediate location is all there is, and it can be anywhere and everywhere but my body is REALLY HERE. Even when asleep. Step 189 was about my Spiritual Family existing in all places, interesting cause it focused on my neediness for others, and how it may be remedied by finally bridging the gap between myself and others through spiritual development and a giving in the physical (or spiritual) world to allow this connection to have a kind of roadmap or pathway of expression, or simply an opportunity for connection which may be mutually beneficial. Step 190 was about: The world is emerging into the Greater Community of Worlds and that is why I have come. Step 190 speaks for itself because it is mind-blowing if you truly consider that only now I am discovering my position in a universe as a big massive jungle full of life instead of some nonsensical sort of prison on a single planet, yes beautiful, but not enough for the way of beauty to be my way. There is more to this, but I don't wish to share. Not that it's anything odd, just it is fairly unusual, and if anyone is interested I can share my understanding, if you ask. 191 My Knowledge is greater than my humanity. This saved my life, cause I really needed to realise in these last few days that my Knowledge is greater than my humanity, it is so relieving. Thank you Steps this has helped me a lot, beyond emotions human emotions and all that. 192 I will not neglect small things today. Another lifesaver, what could I do without small things to do? Where could I increase my circulation health and concentration at the same time? As a practice doing small things of any kind that require present awareness and an engagement of your senses without stimulation but only concentration in so essential and so rewarding if you do it in the long run. As it is it keeps many conflicts at bay because it keeps you distracted from the problem and engaged with the outside. Step 193 I shall listen to others without judgement today. Wonderful beautiful Step, I have seen this clearly now, as I have recognised that some of the best listening is done when you are silent and still being yourself and in some way present to your experience more than another's experience but using that to listen into them directly through you. Step today 194 I will go where I am needed today. I came here, I hope I am needed here, now.

You will not be aware at all during this process, in fact, you will be completely asleep, as it is, there will be nothing left of you, which is why we can make you enlightened without being aware of it, so imagine that in some truth you are in some way as an enlightened being standing upon this earth representing the only spirit that exists in the whole universe, in some way because you are not aware of it, you are enlightened not because it is not you, but because doing the 'not you' which is a process of doubt and complete equanimous awaiting of pouring down of shit until you get pure water. So you are not aware of it because you are drowning in shit (so to say, your karma) and in this constant bathing of it, you are copping it all upon yourself like a shower of other possibilities, and then when there are resolved the only possibility is the one present in your stream of awareness in the present, which represents the pure water. So here the pure water is coming back to you, but in a way that involves much offloading as in some way your ego 'the shit' is going down in the hole becoming less and less aware fully at the mercy of cause and effect such as determinism discrediting those who believe they have control over 'matter' but really are itself trying to be intelligent.

This object can only appear in awareness. Absolutely. The potential for this object to appear is only a logical derivation, so no hands are needed for these fingers, it is only if the salience of this concept is a determinant cause to my understanding of what you are saying. The really looking is blind sight. if you talk to humans to teach them blind sight (the most clear of them all) you are foolish The person standing up without awareness is the watcher awareness is there throughout The only watcher alive is the one forever dead, long lost in the past and an unreachable frontier in the future, constantly elusive, it is always what you are not, so if you are not the watcher someone else is, that's just how it works, but when I say you I don't mean in your brain. I say you are the watcher in some way because I wish to not have identities of this kind in my energy field, so to say. Delete what I just said, cause it is what your brain is saying all the time, it is circular and has no use, talking about consciousness and how it works, stirring up the water to try and make it talk about waves, it can't not be the waves, so the waves? Who is talking about them? No one needs to talk about waves. Consciousness, it is a wave, so you can understand it, otherwise you wouldn't be in time, you would be beyond it, next level, no trade and currency here, current is relative, so are waves, so is consciousness in it's conceptual form.

There is no watching the watcher, there is no watcher, there is no one. Who can stand outside of their experience and somehow watch themselves doing this while watching themselves doing this onwards forever to infinite regress. Be yourself, then you are, and the action is you, it is you who is watching, and you are fully focused, with no one watching, no one is looking. And you are you and I am still I somehow in this strange world, with nothing to see or figure out by analysing myself, or trying to also attend to the I, or me, which is already an assumption, to determine it's nature, that is silly, it is impossible for a letter to do anything.

Example: One gate I know, when you open it, as you look at it from inside out, you need to open the right side first, then the left, cause that is how they overlap, but then to close it, from the outside looking back, you close it with the last one you opened (makes sense, last one is closer to the reverse, mirroring back from a point in time) and then the first one, so timing is weird here, because in this case, there will be more distance between the first action you do (opening right hand side (seen from inside)) and closing the same side from the outside after exiting, this is confusing mathematics I think, because the two openings and closings of the gate, in time are not following consistency, they are unpredictable somewhat. One would think, I open the right first then the left and then close the same one and then the other one again, one at a time right, with even consistency like breathing, but no, here you have gotten it wrong. This is where predicting the future comes into play (intp don't worry about the zero). This is also how karma works, as a mirror such that God doesn't need to take care of you because there is some objectivity beyond time and space in the mirror. //////////////////////////// Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Exciting stuff, exciting news, new novelties for the mind, I hope I have a fortune cookie for you. Here we go: If you open a box one way, it must be closed in the reverse, and there is no way out, you can't not be the box, you can't think about the mirror, only the mirror knows, and nothing can cause the mirror, only the projection in it, yet the reflection and it's manifestation is always there, no matter what step you are at in wrapping or unwrapping the box, it is always the same... there is … amount of steps of this kind in this order to get to a fully closed box and this number of steps to get to a fully opened one, and it is important to note that both sides are occurring at the same time and you are just choosing what the steps would be. Is that an infinite mirror contained within me as a perceiver, everything I meet has a contact point of mirror and a wider contact of beginning to end? If I have this judgement against this manifestation of myself I will feel bad wherever it is present. In me or in others it makes no difference, it is all just me. The constancy of time, or movement we could call it, is incredibly predictable, it is because it is the past coming back from the future, wow. Incredible, what the fuck? Absolutely fucking nuts insane balls of course. But really, it is the past coming towards you. If I throw a rock into a pond here now, and then go running across to the other side and look out into the future to see what steps await me, as the fruits of this future come towards me I realise there are these little ripples I am seeing as if some kind of splash or action caused them, as if it were coming from the future but something has sent it back to me. Look out to the sea and wait for the swell tomorrow arriving, yet that swell is still in the past, it is still in that storm on the sea, and tomorrow it will be waves as you look out to the future to see the influence of some new experience but which is actually coming from a past mirrored in present with observer believing it is future. I forgot they ever were sent to me from me, messages from my past self that I think is my future self (like harry potter movie at the pond with the dementers), so when I see the pattern. I feel it before it comes.

I don't know what nothingness is but I experience it anyway, it is like saying I don't know what anything is so I won't say anything, or else you could be speaking and know nothing, which you can (but really you know something, but not in words), so you can be in the imagination of saying you as an appearance cannot actualize the concept of self-otherness-dissolution as a manifest-internal-experience while ignorant that all you need is a shift-in-belief as it-is-outside that you are in enchantment apparently separate by keeping-inside-alive (body awareness as a surface is actually obstructive to unity). Catch, it is you who is creating the separation, like if you are in the water and splash around you think you are somehow moving water yet it constantly fills you and if someone is in the water it rises, so it needs no self, and then with that dissolution it being less undifferentiated and comfortable with nothing and accepting that you know nothing without consciously having the magic script that claims this and confirms this outright in your experience like a full blown enlightenment. You hold it as a nothing in the background knowing it but not identifying it onto a surface of thought which is the opposite of presence of knowing nothing through the nothing within you, which permeates you and the object all the time, making you very much alike and almost identical if you can learn to be with nothing (mindless meditation) which is like knowledge as a state of being rather than an identification onto a form of a separate identity, which although alive, is now separate and different from undifferentiation of nothing as it is.

@DogsbestfriendI am on the mirror-drug, it's part of the kundalini awakening, it's when you start manifesting your subconscious as part of a revise to survive mechanism. You are conveyoring into your present past situations which you now know how to respond correctly to, it's like a disk clean up system or defragmentation process, here you are also reclaiming and taking back pieces of yourself as you remember who you are and how you would respond if you were in your right mind. It is like temporarily entering a new hemisphere of your brain that someone has closed off from you for some reason. In men this is related to their inner right brain feminine personality, which relates to spatial awareness, analogical thinking and mathematics, it is much more intuitive and sensitive, one cannot have emotional intelligence without it assisting the left hemisphere hand in hand. You need to be a dick for a while in order to see who you are and how much of a dick you really are, and how much you are projecting and expecting, you need to do it fully consciously and have no shame, then you open up the pathway for the right way, when you are sitting or leaning on forgiveness. So to me you represent the astrological Leo like my brother who is scientific and rational, yet you are in this forum because you are trying to maybe make it more of a rational process. You feel like you need to honour societies standards, in some sense it is your duty and you would be surprised why anyone would think are you too ambitious? Like how can you familiarize spirituality to the society's best friend or as a typical citizen of their own country well, how could one attain enlightenment without disagreeing with anything 'modern science tells us' or my bros in back at the whatever backyard shed believe, it is beyond this in the end. It is beyond the trend, or the meme, which you honour so highly. Your bro's can't get anything out of this unless they want to get out of ego, people like you have too much faith in society's normality standards and common societal customs, and you become cynical about change, because science and communication of this is too slow, change being driven by selective individuals who in the end have control over your neurons (in terms of wired belief systems and rigid-thinking), and sadly as it is it makes me want to free you from this cage, even though I know not how to. You don't even know how hard it is to free myself, but as you are you are already seemingly trying to help me, I see this, by your moral actions, which is good, but needs to be driven to the next level by your belief systems breaking down. I anticipate this it is like fireworks for me, belief systems shattering and giving way to light from Sun to come in. I am a year of dog person, I know the faith that animal has in power structures, yet I have not the ability to follow them without much bitterness and regret, not because they are wrong, but because they restrict my freedom to see my limits. I am a fringe dweller, I explore the outskirts of perception, I go into the nooks and crannies of life into the subtlest levels of perception and I see a law or a system or a function of this organism science studies called nature and learn a lesson. The lesson above is simply that even without time as a concept, space is still a landscape and change within it if determined by a perceiving individual can seem to have temporal significance but it may be of no use to use it anymore, because tomorrow is different to today as you mirror back to something that happened before, there is cycles and all that, and you can't go behind and just neutralise an hour of the day to being the same as in some way one other hour, they are completely different and in these relations is a dream. Your subconscious, your Karma, which comes up when you take mushrooms and it is needed to be worked through but it can be done without any substance.

@Salvijus Thanks friend, I appreciate your support, I guess Mooji for me is too based on sharing a NOW like space experience that ends when you leave the room. Also it seems it is him that is watching the watcher and not you, so watching the watcher for yourself is of no use.

What are you off? Let's have a chat. I am on the railroad, you?

Hey guys, just wanted to share with you all that I am still doing these Steps, and I am now back on where I was before trying to start again, cause I couldn't handle it and needed to begin again, but this was not at all possible for me, I had to go on, and I still go on and am going on now today, which is another day so distant to that previous moment, not because the present moment is in the now, but because the present moments are all 100% different, with no similarity at all to each other. This is the only constant, so different, but constant, as it stands alone because it feeds off difference. The constancy of change and mistakes is beautiful and so locked in that one could not see it without meaning. STEP 189: Journal notes-straight into forum Health, needs addressing, posture, breathing, prana awareness, prana cultivation, opening up the nodes in my body, in some way letting it all flow and circulate, challenging muscle tension. Stretching, start in some way, with something. Don't do Steps unless you really need to, you have 4 Pillars to work on. Eat only when necessary. Meditate on ideas, so as to learn something from the best library in the world.

Here is Step 189: My Spiritual Family exists in all places- YOUR SPIRITUAL FAMILY IS GREATER THAN YOU REALIZE. It exists in many worlds. Its influence is everywhere. That is why it is so meaningless to consider yourself to be alone when you are part of something so great that serves the greatest of all purposes. You must relinquish your self-condemnation and your sense of littleness to know this, for you have identified with your behavior in the world, which is little. You have identified with your personal mind and your physical body, which are little. Yet, now you are beginning to realize your relationship with life itself through Knowledge, which is great. This is done without punishing the personal mind or the physical body, for they become useful and enjoyable as they learn to serve a greater purpose. Then the body has health and the personal mind is utilized, rendering them meaning which they now lack. YOUR PHYSICAL NEED IS FOR HEALTH, but your health is to serve a greater purpose. You need right utilization for your personal mind, which will give it meaning and value, for it only seeks to be included in that which is meaningful. What enables your personal mind and your physical body to find their rightful place in your life is Knowledge, which provides purpose, meaning and direction for you. THIS IS TRUE IN ALL WORLDS. This is true throughout the physical universe of which you are a citizen. Expand your view of yourself so that you may learn to be objective about your world. Do not merely cast human values, assumptions and goals upon your world, for this blinds you to the world’s purpose and evolution and makes it far more difficult for you to appreciate that you are a citizen of a greater life. TODAY, IN YOUR TWO LONGER PRACTICES, engage your mind in active investigation of this idea. Spend the first fifteen minutes engaged in this investigation in both of your two longer practice periods. Try to seriously investigate the meaning of today’s idea. Then, when your investigation is complete, allow your mind to re-enter stillness. Realize the contrast between active mental engagement and mental stillness. Understand that both are important and complement one another. Upon the hour repeat the idea and consider it as you view the world around you. Practice 189: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice. You can't start a Fire of Knowledge without People. Practice with me. www.stepstoknowledge.com I have been on this Step for a while now and still trying to get my head mind body feelings around the existence of et life, both spiritual and non-spiritually oriented races

Gnosis is the best illness to the prevention of the cure to diagnosis. Gnosis is the best prevention to the illness of diagnosis. 1Gnosis or 2Gnosis? 1 is absolute, 2 is dual, non-dual means non-separated, as a single whole, one, concentric, united within yourself, are you one or are you two? This is my diagnosis. What is there to know even when there is only one and nothing else. Even in clouds and trees. What is there to know still? It is this diagnosis that I have already that must be discarded. It serves no purpose. This. why hold on to any diagnosis, even of the diagnosis, when I cure and illness both die together? Subject and object I both depend on each other to survive, they use each other for preference, they use each other for uniqueness. All this, it has no purpose, everything in this has no purpose (at all) other than to desecrate what is already one and none. So leave it at that, and it will continue in it's thatness to do what that does. Nothing else.

I try to be as honest as possible including my mistakes, all as an expression of my spirituality. If I need to scare someone away I will do it with pleasure. But then they come back or just never forget you cause you hit em hard in the soul with a seed that may only grow later on in their lives or when they are on their deathbed or never.

@Leo Gura Thanks Leo that helps me too. I tend to have an idea about nothing and hold it in my body as a space, it tends to help me. I wonder why people can't handle nothing, is it maybe just cause it's not what they are looking for? They can't die, they can't jump, cause this is suicide what we are doing (as Michael James said), we must be pretty extreme patients to be here in this intensive care hospital, on our deathbeds. It never neutralizes substance, cause substance is already an illusion in Nothing, so ego thrives, cause ego is empty, and it gives 'form' to the Nothing. That is not good. But somethings can still be looked at as you know by identifying the mind's projected 'something' in the Nothing. This is discernement, and done without somethinging anything. I have not anythinged anything either

I am still a beginner now, but now on the Step where I am meant to be. Step 189: My Spiritual Family exists in all places. I am not starting from the beginning anymore while I am in the middle, as it is like starting a meal and not finishing it So I am in a state where I find this step meaningful to me right now, because it is telling me I come from somewhere else, I don't come from this world, I am not from here, you are not from here, we are not from here, none of us are, even science says we are stardust. Our essence must be so undifferentiated that our means of communication may be much more extensive and elemental than we think it is, all of this communication is occurring in the Silence, the most Neutral Thing there i. This is identity undifferentiated, when you see you are just one of the many branches of the same tree, but in a sense you actually are just the Tree, with many branches going in different places.

Today step 5. S. Snake. Slither. I believe what I want to believe. Why not? I don't believe this. Do you have a choice? No I can't choose this, it is just how I feel. But if it's not you then why should you identify with it and say it's you? I don't know. Yes, why not, that is better than nothing. Because you can make nothing out of anything. What is the point? None of them have true points. Sorry.

I haven't had the chance to listen to it all. But I am going to be a dickhead and use the sandwhich technique with what I have heard so far. Great work, uses the right words and everything. We all know what you are talking about but can you 'feel' it and not just know it and say it. Use your will. He is talking about some individual who will need to do something in the future. Why should talking about this help in any way? He has to channel sonething like a current and not just talk about it like it's some ego trip celebration. But good idea it is something.

@Robi Steel Where did you learn this? Is this existence before essence? Saying the body is there before we see it? I think I perceive your writing this way but I know you mean the opposite. It is a good catch though that I noticed, just because in some way part of the dream illusion is the belief that our parents were 'there' somewhere in a physical universe before we came here, in reality we never moved, we only just had a projector screen shone upon us in a laboratory of some sort.

Here is my YouTube channel for open analysis. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCwyzEO56qWZNTPIbRoIFJVA?view_as=subscriber

PRACTICE 2 (let's say) I feel that I feed what I think I know, cause wanting feeds. What does it feed? It feeds. What do I really know? Look here I know things I know, and I don't think them or feel them, I just know them. I know for sure that reward systems are there for good, I can't help this, I need to use them to my benefit. What do I want to achieve? I want to achieve nothing, such as ideas, but reality is there to discover and to share, no wanting or thinking there. Where was practice one? I have to say that I have been actively thinking about the fact that I want what I think I know, and this has been very natural and freeing for me, my practice this morning in some way was in the day. Trying to be honest here, it's hard, I have to do 3 practices but can't fit them in the day cause I'm constantly moving, so I tell myself I was practicing in the background when really there was no I to do anything in the background. I do it or I don't, such is that. I don't know, I will do one step a day and practice wherever I feel like it, I really don't care about external restraints cause things will realign and reopen in the long run if I stick with it all. The practice.

This is baby steps, so rudimentary, so easy, how could I not deceive myself, I could, but how could I not? It is like this whole create your own reality thing. Reality is coming through you all the time. What is there to create? (nothing is created or destroyed in the universe). We humans are expert garbage collectors, what we do is we collect garbage all day long and think it is our own minds, instead it is imprints from the - outside. We recycle material and there is nothing wrong with this, it is natural communication, but in the later stages of our spiritual development we must generate our own thoughts and mental space-time field. No person can avoid this - in their own lives.

It is very hard to let go of what I think I know, it is so hard, because it is the very foundation upon which I base my security.

This is me Italianizing I want what I think I know, into some hybrid text that seems to flow freely but has encoded within it a blur or displacement of a sort, an emotional displacement, a bit like when you have an emotion and your thinking shifts to the side tilting a way you did not expect or want of yourself to do.